A Rant in 3 Languages, Mostly English

ここで何をしたいですか。私も知りません。書く練習ですか、何か話したいですか。さあ... 今生活はちょっと寂しいですね、でも私は大丈夫です。寂しいですから、毎日ここに来て、書きます。

ああ、そうです。ドイツ語も勉強したい。じゃあ、始めます。

Huete ich hatte ins Kino mit meine Tante gehen. Wir einen Film gesehen. Der Film heißt "A Dog's Purpose" und es war sehr schön! Ich weitete und lachte viel. Die Hunden sind nett...

Ach! Sorry for the bad German. Guess I need to put more effort in learning my core language. Sigh. I can't feel German in my soul and I somehow don't want to. Suppose my heart isn't big enough to wholeheartedly accept two different languages and cultures simultaneously. In the first place, I really wanted to learn Korean so I can get myself an Oppa and continue my sentences after I utter "Aigoo", "Aiish" or "Jinjaa". Cheonsu-Oppa, wait for me, I'm single now! Next time when you're at the World Championships, Rachel will cheer for you "Kim Cheonsu! Kim Cheonsu! Kim Cheonsu!"

I took German in preparation for my future in Europe, which now, has been shredded, burnt and shoved up my own ass. If my Zukünftiger Ehemann is a Dutch national whose job and language capabilities would not allow him international mobility, then I thought I'd settle down with him there instead, learning all these languages I can't pronounce properly in hopes I'd get a great job and live happily drinking Albert Heijn's Basic Red Fruitjuice and eating Basic Pindakaas every damn morning. Of course, plans never work out, which is why I never bother planning.

Anyway, I do not regret taking German, or preparing for a future there. Why? Because Ich liebe Würste und Kartoffeln. Omnomnomnom. Besides...  Ehe. They say German poetry is beautiful.

Now that I'm probably going to stay single until I'm 30 and sagging, my focus is more self-centred, career wise. Japan, here I come! Do you think I'll end up like Wong-sensei? 50+, single, travelling and happier than a committed woman? Maybe.

Love is a feeling, it's all it is. I'm not going to disagree with my uncle on that one now that I'm back to being a cold-hearted bitch. I still cry when I watch movies, but that's about it. We come out of every relationship stronger than before. POWER OVERWHELMING! It's going to destroy me at the end of my run, but at least I'll have made an impact. Sigh, my next man to needs to understand all these useless Hearthstone references. Bro, you've set the bar too high :')

I still miss him, obviously, but I feel the warmth back in my soul. The smell of dogs, funny enough, cures emptiness.

I hope he's happy as well.