Friday, 27 May 2011


Ahhh~ I've finally started on Sekai-ichi Hatsuiko. AHHHH~ My goodness. I wonder why homosexual love relationship excites me. Heck, they excite me more than my own STRAIGHT relationship. Though I think that my boyfriend is gay. 

Tee-hee~ After watching 5 episodes and the OVA, I'll stop watching and READ the manga now. Continue to watch episode 6 and 7 while I wait for the release of episode 8!!! Yes! It will be out by tomorrow NIGHT! So will episode 19 of Gosick! Ahhhhhh, another reason why I love Fridays. But... Some things just ruin the love-Friday mood. The top reason is of course Rebecca Black's awful song Friday. Don't remind me.

Wow. After watching Sekai-ichi Hatsuiko, lives of manga authors and editors are THAT scary O_O

BEHOLD! The editors.

Aha~ Editor-in-Chief. Takano. 
He reminds me of Usagi from Junjou Romantica.
The perfect seme. AHHHH~

Ritsu. Brown hair, green eyes... 
The same as Misaki from Junjou Romantica.
Misaki is cuter~

Nakamura Shungiku sure is good at writing BL. Ahhhh~ I love her~

I don't know why, but in BL, the seme tend to have a square face, and the uke have... Sharp chin and big eyes... More girly... But... DAMN, they just look so good together, making me feel jealous.

Always wondering how it feels like to date a girl, I know I can experience it someday... But... The thing I'm more interested in knowing is, how does it feel like to be a guy, that dates another guy =x

I always have these fantasies of my life turning out like those in manga and anime. AHAHAHA. Suddenly, I feel like being a guy. The main purpose of course, is so that I could date another guy, and be gay. Hehehe. I just make you want to slap me, don't I?

Stories... They are too good to be true. Why wont she just tell me that she likes me too?! That will make everything more dramatic, and I'll have to choose between her and him which I really can't but truthfully can!!! Oooh, that would make me in the middle, acting as a rope for tug of war. Fair skin, pretty legs, shiny eyes and soft hair... Ahhh~


I have to STOP thinking about her, or else, this is going to be BAD for ME. I'll be stuck at home writing about my own yuri fantasies if she still wont leave my mind. I never tried writing yaoi... WAIT... I have... 

Never mind... I will now go to Mangafox and excite myself to sleep.

I blush, I jump, I close my eyes, wrap myself in my blanket and roll in my rocking chair while watching BL. 

Wednesday, 18 May 2011

I Messed Up AGAIN

You know. This always happens. I always get so upset cause my own stupid self that I hate so damn much. I take that anger out on some idiot who is willing to let me stab. No matter how many times I throw thorny roses on that idiot... That person... That guy... He just pisses me off... He... Never... Understands...

That is why........... He never helps.

In a way. He helps. By making me pissed off and giving up, I feel better.

I feel much better. Compared to just now. That's cause I gave up. Like usual.

The feeling when anger turns into tears. THAT JUST SUCKS. At least I can conclude that I am not a violent person.

What else can I write here. There's nothing NOT personal these days. My life has gotten even MORE messed up. And like always, it has NOTHING to do with YOU. NOTHING AT ALL. Don't go assuming like you did and always do, my problems never had anything to do with you. Maybe they did. Maybe I'm lying. Cause I don't wanna admit that I'm wrong, and that you're right.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I hate you.

I don't know. I just felt like it.

I hate everything about you. You hate everything about me. So why do you... LOVE ME?! A song by Three Days Grace. Nothing personal. Just felt like screaming the song out. I think I'll do that when I bury my face in my pillow later. I'll probably have to dry the pillow afterwards.

Ah. Friends... Really? I just don't feel like I belong anywhere anymore.

Well. I think I'll just go be one of those emo people that hides in a corner everyday... That life... What so different from the one I'm having now...

... And only when I start to think about it... I, hate EVERYTHING about you. You, hate EVERYTHING about me. Why... Do I... LOVE YOU?!... 

Saturday, 14 May 2011

After Exam... MOVIES?

FINALLY. My worst nightmare is over. Maths. Ahh. There's a 99% chance of me failing again. Haa... I gave up after the fourth question for subjective, and cheated my way through the remaining 10 to 20 questions I left blank for objective... =_= The formula they gave was... Useless =_= We had to draw instead of do T^T

I hate construction. Grrr.

FINALLY. I watched Coming Soon T^T it was freaking scary alright... Damn I had to watch Rio to calm myself down, thank God my sister is sleeping beside me... Or else... I don't know who I'd end up sleeping with @_@ I'm scared again... Just thinking bout it. BAH. No... Think about Rio, Brazil, and blue birds... And the happy ending they all got... HAPPPPPYYY ENDING... NOOOOO SCARY ENDING! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!


I'm doomed. Shittttttt the scary dying face is still in my mind. Oh boy... In my head, I see you all over me... MY GOD NO! That was a sexy song! Now I just made it scary >_<



Thai horror movies. Asian horror movies are still the best! They still make me afraid of using the toilet ALONE and close my eyes when I shower... I have a phobia of closing my eyes. Whenever I'm showering and I close my eyes, I imagine something would pop out when I open em... So... I'm careful not to get SK-II in my eyes xD


But seriously... I'm scared of closing my eyes. SLEEPING IS AN EXCEPTION!

I have a can of BBQ flavoured Mister Potato beside me. Wow I'm hungry. And we all know why I'm starving... No... Not cause of dieting... It's cause... I'M SCARED TO GO DOWN AND COOK MYSELF SUPPER!!!!!!!

Why wont anyone talk to me T^T

Sister's asleep already. Ah. Should I read manga and get myself all excited so I'd forget? =x

OK! I'mma do it now.

Seeeee ya!

I know it's a bit too late, but, yay! I'm finally going to watch Fast 5 tomorrow. Wooohooo~

And maybe I'd watch Priest too... But then... I'm still having problem dealing with Coming Soon... So... I don't think I'll be going near monsters for now...

Yep. It's that bad. And I wonder if it's because the protagonist looked a bit like Zongxu =x

Let me scare you my dear xD

In the end, the protagonist died inside the movie, having his eyeballs dug out by the dead actress's spirit. Uhuhu... Anyone who watched that movie... WILL DIE~

Man...  The ending sure scared me. I thought it was all over... But then... She just had to raise her head up again and STARE AT ME with those bloodshot eyes saying:


That.... Did it. I switched it off, and watched Rio instantly... I enjoyed Rio... Ahhhh... Sweeet~


Love the sweet cartoon afterwards.


Good night people!

Thank you for reading about me blabbbbber~


Wednesday, 11 May 2011

Results Again

Oh. So if you think that my results are so important. All right. I'll fuck!ng copy my test answers. You happy now?  *****

It's always like this isn't it? RESULTS.

Oh. I'll give you an A+. If that's what you want. You don't care how I do it right? You don't even ask. You just want to see the A+ on my paper. That's right... Just SEE the freaking A+.

WHY do you care? Cause you have friends with children who get straight As all the time? But don't know how to whack a cockroach? Oh. Is that it? You want me to turn into one of those book worm test machines? That don't go outside and play or join any clubs? Ah. If only I could do that, I'D BE PERFECT TO YOU ISN'T IT?! But NEWS FLASH, I will never... NEVER... Be like that.

Sometimes, I JUST HATE ASIANS! And I'm a freaking Asian girl. No... No... I should say that I hate Chinese people. We're the worse.

 An offensive joke from somewhere:

When a white dude gets a B, he gets an iPad from his parents. When a black dude gets a C, he gets a new toy. When a Mexican boy gets a B-, he gets McDonald's for dinner. And when a Chinese boy gets a B, he wakes up the next day in a dumpster forgetting who his parents were.


But you have to admit. It's quite true. All we ever care about are results. I don't care. You do. And that is why I'm pissed off right now.

I know. Your blah blah blah for my own good speech. Sheesh. It's not like I'll be failing my life. The world will end even before I step into my coffin. How troublesome. I won't even get the chance to sleep inside a coffin or get cremated and have my ashes scattered somewhere.

All I have to say is. I don't care. I won't care. I won't die because of it. And you know what? I'd be better off dead anyway.

And yet... People wonder why teenagers kill themselves. They probably thought it through, like I did. In a way... It's like revenge. A bad way of course... Either that... Or... They just don't want to live anymore.

Suicide Club... I wish I'd die being brainwashed by kids. I'd suicide willingly with a smile on my face. Messed up movie.

Speaking bout movies. I was in the middle of watching Coming Soon. And SOMEBODY just had to ruin it. Ohoho. Never mind. Once this is over, DON'T YOU DARE TELL ME TO STOP WATCHING MOVIES. If I go blind, I'll leave you a suicide note.

Results again...


I will copy his answer. I don't freaking care. You want the results? You got it.



Tuesday, 10 May 2011

Fail-Fail Post

Wheee heeee!


I think I'm going to fail history... Yes... All 60 stupid questions, I think I only know one or two... I got the specific question that the teacher don't want us to get wrong... WRONG =_=

As for Chinese...

I asked the answer for the first question, because I, do not even know how to pronounce the words, I HAVE NEVER SEEN THOSE WORDS BEFORE IN MY LIFE! O_O

I will now try to GUESS the 拼音 for those words...



I cheated. I only guessed the first and last word. The middle two... I asked for help... After twenty minutes... Stubborn me finally asked instead of guess the words... So... Xiang Yu Xing Yun...

Thank you for helping me @_@

There are many more words I didn't know. After reading the short text for 5 times, I finally know that 纳粹 means Nazi =_=

Can I post the EPIC FAIL picture here again???

Nah... I wont.

Science went well today. I wont fail. But I'm not sure about an A either. Suddenly, that 6As target seem to be VERY far away. Uhuhu.

I studied. For a bit. I gave up reading chapter 2 of history. Malay, Malay, Malay... I felt like stabbing my textbook =_=

Studying. It helps when you actually study the whole thing, and not just flip through it like I do. Cause, you're just wasting your time, what you read may or may not come out. So. Read the whole thing. That's the best. But naaaaaa, I wont do that... If I do... Then wow, I'd have to button my white shirt until the highest button and choke myself.

I'm not sure if there is anything left to study.

Geo... KH, and Science2... Ooooh, and Maths. Moral, Civic, PJK?!





Mm hmm...

What a waste of time! AHHH! Dammit!

I envy smart people, though I hate it when they always stick to studying. 

Study. Study. Study. That's all we ever do.

Oh well. That's... Unappliable to me I guess? I choose to NOT study, instead of study, and I still pass. With... Dull colours =_=

Alright, oh well...

Wow... That sheep plushie is soft. Ahhhh! Zellvyy~ My soft, soft, mountain sheep?!


Monday, 9 May 2011

Monday Post

So yeah... In the end... I failed to get mum a present. And you know what's the worst part? I wished her and kissed her before she went to bed... SHE HAD TO REMIND ME TO DO IT. Man, I'm such a failure T^T

Yesterday was such a hot day. I almost evaporated.

Boobless people. Ah. So my boyfriend likes boobless people. And he already did ahem ahem with those boobless people. Ah. What a disappointment. And I thought he was gay.

The exam today, everything went smoothly, EXCEPT for my BC2 =_=

The last part of my essay, I don't know what a hamster is called in Chinese, so, I wrote the words HAMSTER in my Chinese essay... Yes. I'm that bad. What is it called anyway...? 老鼠? O_O


My studying history ended up being me, reading three manga. Watashi ni xx Shinasai!, My Sister Can't be This Cute!, and Are You Alice?. Oh let's not forget H.O.T.D . Is this some sort of mental disorder? Reading something OTHER than textbooks during the exam period. Well, I'm not the only one... I THINK O_O

The reason I'm even reading My Sister Can't be This Cute! is because that sister is one hell of a sister. She plays little sisters ero. My... My... My... If she were real, I'd be her best friend. Oops =x

Exam, exam, exam.

Now that the worst the over... OH WAIT... I STILL I HAVE MATHS T^T

Shitt. I forgot about maths completely! AH! I thought that after my Chinese paper, the rest would be easy. But... NO... I still have maths... AHHHHHHHHHHHH >_<

I'm gonna die.

I give all my things to... Um... Ehhh... Charity? Since I don't have children. If I do die in this week, then yup, that's my will. Donate my stuff to charity. WAIT. Not everything. Give the monk back his letters. Yeah. Now, I'm done.

And yes. I am making you hate me so you'd love me xD

Ehehehehehe. I have a diabolical plan in mind. Uhuhu... If it gets TOO diabolical, I'll have to beg you to stay =_=


I have to force another four chapters of history into my head, and thirty Chinese proverbs into my head. Ah. Poor brain. Sorry I can't oil you to work faster. If I could, I'd oil your screws and make em loose just by a bit so I can go to Tanjung Rambutan and get your screws tightened again. And then... When I come out... I'll be miserable... Aww... No... I don't wanna screw myself anymore.

Bloody Monday. Sheeeesh.

Oh but wait... I'd have a relaxing Wednesday. No exam, parents not home till evening, no tuition, and no practice =D

Ah, Wednesday, I can't wait! >o<

But Friday... The hell with you. I hate you. I have to sit for maths, then go for tuition, then band, THEN piano... I'll have to face my boring grade 6 theory workbook which is plain and cartoonless, and not to mention colourless! And that reminds me, I haven't done the work my piano teacher gave me! AHHHHHHH!

Suddenly... I know why I'm depressed. I don't have to screw myself anymore, cause, I'm already screwed.


Sunday, 8 May 2011

Otaku Sitting for Mid-Terms

Oh boy... This is bad... BAD BAD BAD BAD... B.A.D!


What happened to studying history and geography?! Ahhh! I'm on Mangafox reading Watahshi ni xx Shinasai! instead!

I don't believe it!

I'm hooked @_@ and this isn't even BL, it's STRAIGHT! Yes... Me, Rachel Cheong, reading STRAIGHT ROMANCE MANGA... 


Uyuyu... This feeling is totally different from reading BL. I like cursing the girls I don't like in straight stories, but when it comes to homosexual relationships, I NEVER COMPLAIN ABOUT ANYTHING @_@ well... Just maybe that their ways of doing IT is quite... Boring... 


This is bad.

I still need to sit through time wasting, energy wasting, tree wasting, paper wasting, money wasting MID-TERMS next week. Ah. If only they'd test our anime knowledge, I'D BE HAPPY TO STUDY! 

Well. Mum's upset that I'm not studying. And shit... It is Mother's Day and I don't have a card or anything to give my mum! AWWWW DAMMIT! Posting it on her wall seems a bit uncommitted... But... I wanna continue reading the love issue between four people in Watashi ni xx Kudasai! >_<

It's so hard to choose sometimes. 


Maybe I'll just continue reading... 


Okay... Fine... FINNNNEEEEE!


I'll... uh... Get my mum something when I wake up tomorrow morning!

Otaku-y Rachel is ready to face her exams... I THINK... 


Friday, 6 May 2011

What I'm Thinking About... Right Now...

I had dinner, but I still have this sudden craving for kari mee, konlo mee, laksa?! and wow... I think I want satay too... =_=


I'm waiting for my download to finish so I can continue downloading the other episodes. Yes. Sekai-ichi Hatsuiko. Another one by Nakamuru Shungiku. That woman's work is genius! I fell in love with BL more after watching, and reading her project- Junjou Romantica~


Thank you again, to Tan Shinyi. For recommending me such nice BL =x



I wanna watch it soooooo badly. I just want to see guys make out again after such a LONG period of time! GAH! You know what? I think they should write more yuri stories too!

Uyuyu, mid-terms just started and I'm here excited over gays...

Suddenly, I feel like crying.

Something... Is... Telling me... That... I did something very wrong. AGAIN.

Aww man.

How many times do I have to say SORRY. Man. It's all I ever do. It's all YOU ever do. DAMMIT. This is going nowhere. Ah. Forget it. Just let me enjoy my gay anime and make you stay OUT of my mind. Play... What a nice word to use. You know how often my mood changes, one minute it's upset, the next, I'm excited over BL. So don't you ever say PLAY, or else, I'd really PLAY YOU. And you don't want that? Or maybe you do. I don't know. I'll leave you so miserable... You'd die. Well... That is, of course... Only if you love me.

Right. A 14-year-old being pregnant. Congratulations! You earned my respect. Wow. Next time, tell your boyfriend to use a condom, if not, just pull it out before he cums. Shheeesh. That way, you won't get AIDS, or get pregnant. And if you go for an abortion, it'd be sad, if you don't, you'll go crazy... Good luck handling life. And hey... USE A CONDOM NEXT TIME. If you still DARE to do it.

That's all for now... I'mma go watch a movie...


I have a good excuse for this one!

Monday, we gonna have our English test, SO, watching ENGLISH movies help improve us =D

Okay mother, that's my excuse, please accept, cause there are no other EDUCATIONAL PURPOSES =D



Thursday, 5 May 2011

Before Exam Crap


Mid-terms start TOMORROW =_=

I am now reading the stupid, 140 page, MALAY novel- MERDEKA! MERDEKA!

Don't ask why.

I have no damn idea why.

I can look through the synopsis, the moral values, characters, places, plot etc. but NO. I want to READ the whole book =_=

See. I told you I was mental.

Oh. Thanks a lot mum. You just HAD to go to Popular today, and I just HAD to see the book I wanted... Thank you for ruining my mood for studying... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Noruwei No Mori...  ノルウェイの森... Norwegian Wood.

A novel of loss and sexuality... Ooooh~

Yes. It is now a motion picture, and yes, I'm downloading it now.

I read the first chapter of the book... My my... It reminds me of... Meandyou.

Naoko and Toru...

Obviously, I have no time to read it. Sheesh. Have to wait for another two weeks before I can spoil my eyes with this novel. Ahhhhh >_<

Japanese writers are awesome~

Ehehe... Perverts. It's like... Every novel sure has some ecchi stuff in it =x Now... I'm wait for my aunt to finish Hotel Iris, so I can read it. Hehe. Murder, mystery, and ahem ahem~

Man, I'm starving, and I don't even know if baldy is free or not.

I'll be sitting for BM 1, and 2 tomorrow. Ah. I guess reading the whole MERDEKA! MERDEKA! novel could be of use... In writing. Huhu. But I don't think I'll be reading any CHINESE NOVELS for my BC paper. AHAHAHA. Maybe just read Jia Xun's blog... What?! At least I could say that I STUDIED for Chinese =x

Uhuhu. I thought that I'm suppose to be reading MERDEKA! MERDEKA!... ? If not my history textbook? Or maybe some geography...

Ahhhhhhhhh >_<

Exams. Ah. Understanding is always better than memorizing stuff JUST FOR EXAMS.

People get the wrong idea. I'm sick of hearing those words-

The hell? How should I know?

So? Like you're so sure.

Nope. And it is none of your business.

You know what I hate more than studying? Hearing those stupid words before exams. I always hear them, and it makes me feel like slapping those people who say those words.

I'll tell you all this right now... So you wont have to hear it from me IN PERSON.


The worst thing that happens during the exam period is when we all get out from the hall, they will go surround the smart-people, and ask for answers. What the heck is wrong with that? Not like they can change the answers or anything. If it's to make themselves feel good, then go ahead, but sometimes, it just makes them feel worse, and oh... I just hate that.

Maybe it's just me. Maybe I just find EVERYTHING normal people do annoying.

Told you I have problems.


Wednesday, 4 May 2011

Mad World- Gary Jules

There are two things I learnt from watching Donnie Darko with that idiot of mine-

ONE. I am mental.

TWO. I need a psychiatrist.

THREE. Mad World is a very nice song.

HEYYYY... That's three things~

All around me are familiar faces,
Worn out places, worn out faces.
Bright and early for the daily races,
Going nowhere, going nowhere.

Their tears are filling up their glasses,
No expression, no expression.
Hide my head I wanna drown my sorrow,
No tomorrow, no tomorrow.

And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad.
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had.
I find it hard to tell you,
I find it hard to take.
When people run in circles,
it's a very, very,
Mad World,
Mad World.

Children waiting for the day they feel good,
Happy Birthday, Happy birthday...
And I feel the way that every child should,
Sit and listen, sit and listen.

Went to school when I was very nervous,
no one knew me, no one knew me.
Hello teacher, tell me what's my lesson?
Look right through me, look right through me.

And I find it kind of funny,
I find it kind of sad.
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had.
I find it hard to tell you,
I find it hard to take.
When people run in circles it's a very, very,
Mad World,
Mad World,
enlarging your world,
Mad World.

Ever had dreams when you die...?

They are truly... Peaceful.

Sunday, 1 May 2011

Hungry 2am Blog Post

I have absolutely NOTHING to blog about, I just felt bad for leaving my dear Bloggie in the cold for so long. Ah. Blog stalking is always good. DAMN. I'm hungry... Uhhh... It's two in the morning...

Another funeral tomorrow. Ah. After so long... I finally get to roast myself and earn money T^T

Was that religious warning for me anyway? Sheesh. I'm not that bad. Go be a monk, solves everything, virgin for life. If you can do that, then I'll throw a grenade at myself.


The hunger >_<

Read a few blogs before writing this...



Things are getting from bad to worse... My God... Things are already SO bad... I didn't think that it could get BAD-ER.



A five-split-personality psychopath, AND a ball of meat that thinks she's all that? Boy... Percussionists these days... I've gotta be careful.

I wonder how I am... In the eyes of those graduated people of course. Am I the same or something? GOD! I HOPE NOT! >_<

Does doing NOTHING make things better? So I don't get criticized and all that... Cause I do nothing... You know...


I actually don't know how I am!!!

I can be more useless...

Well, I can't look at a mirror ALL DAY long right? So you guys will just have to tell me I guess... Nyyyee, I don't mind, since I'm always doing that to other people =X I wanna know how it feels getting confronted. AH, the realization, nothing feels better than that. Aha. HOW WOULD I KNOW?! =_=

I think the hunger... AND my heavy eyelids are making things really complicating.

Yeah. I hate maths,

I hate it a lot.

I just want to kill it.

But I can't...

Oh well.

I love you my lovely blog.

Thank God for you, or else, I don't know where I'd blabber. Well, if you don't have much readers, I guess I can be as stupid, and swear as much as I want.

Good night, I love you blog.