Speaking My Mind

I just wanna say somethings, don't bother reading.

NO ONE CARES

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1. Are you okay? Well, if you wanna like... what... At least say good bye, don't be like the fucking son of a bitch.

2. Hey, is everything fine? Are you too busy fucking somebody? No, no, it's totally fine, well, at least write back. write back when you can.

3. So, next time, am I moving in with you or do I have to pay the rent?

4. Sorry if you felt what I wrote yesterday was... too... weird or whatever.

5. Seriously dude, I didn't think I would be THIS worried. Argh! God dammit!

6. So, tell me, the truth, how many times have you fucked?

7. Seriously, do you believe? In what you said... I don't really think so... Sorry if I'm being a bitch by saying this.

8. Well, I guess it's the other way round. I'm the random dummy, not you.

9. I don't know why I'm saying this, but... Fuck you.

10. You have to excuse me, I could be a total bitch sometimes.

11. Well, I guess everything is well? Good enough to forget? Damn you.

12. If you have a good excuse, I'm gonna so totally curse myself.

13. If you don't, you probably won't reply, and will do what the fucking son of a bitch did.

14. I love you dammit.

Rainy First Day

Something wrong when I tried to publish it... Damn... Now I have to write it all over again! God dammit!

Rainy day... I'm covered in mud^^ Whee!

Here's what I did, after I woke at 12pm:

1. Shower

2. Threw the clothes in my bag and left everything else outside cause I was lazy and I'm going back tomorrow.

3. Came downstairs, made tea, had chocolate for breakfast.

4. Check my mail

5. Watch a movie. I actually wanted to watch Surrogates but something wrong with the disc. So I watched Dead Snow instead. Some kind of Swedish or German movie. Kinda funny cause of the music they put while killing the zombies^^

6. Went outside to 'play' in the rain.

7. Came inside and wrote this.

8. Rain stopped.

9. Rain started... Again...

10. Grandma told me to switch off this damn thing in case I screw it again. Apparently, when I do something wrong, nobody trusts me. But with the other idiot, my brother, it's like whatever.

And next time, I don't wanna spend my holiday like this year. Being forced to buy God damned dresses, people don't wanna trust me anymore, get lectures, being said cause of one little fucking screw up. And stuff...

I'm gonna have a shower now, since nobody will feel safe when I'm using something, I'm just gonna make more tea, sit down and read a God damn book. And eat chocolate...

Bye Bye

My First Few Hours Of 2010

Hey guys! I'm still in Klang, gonna come back on Saturday. And hell starts on Monday, do I need to bring books and stuff? Please, I dunno.

So, I screwed the laptop earlier and because of that I couldn't write at 12am. But I guess I could tell you my first few hours, enjoy!

1. Worried cause I don't know shit about techs.

2. When I went into the kitchen to get a drink, Rufus and Sylvia(the dogs)ran into the living room cause I didn't shut the door thingy well.

3. They refused going back into the kitchen. Rufus just sat down, Sylvia jumped on the couch and bit the stuffed toy doggy. I had to go into the kitchen and get their doggy treats to lure them in. It worked.

4. I played with em'. They licked me all over, so, I was covered in dog slobber, mostly Rufus'. After Sylvia drank her water, she wiped her face on my shirt. I smelled like dog^^

5. After I came back to the living room,guess what I found out.Sylvia peed on the floor ==, and she stepped on it, so, it got on the couch too... Of course I had to clean it! Everyone's asleep!

6. After cleaning Sylvia's pee, I sat down on the kitchen floor and talked to them for about 30 minutes. Eventually, they got bored of my talking and closed their eyes.

7. Still cursing myself for screwing the laptop.

8. Sat down on the couch and tried fixing it. I fixed it! Woo-Hoo! And so, I went to bathe cause I smelled like dog.

9. I emailed... err... someone...

10. Writing this, man, I'm hungry... Chocolate! Whee! Okay...

That's about my 2 hours in year 2010^^

I bought sweets for you guys, I'm sorry Stephanie, the candy canes I saw looked so damn cheap, so I didn't buy em'. Sorry if the sweets aren't enough... cause:

I ONLY GOT 200++, I LEFT THE REST AT HOME. AND I FUCKING SPENT 180++ ON BOOKS. NOW I KNOW WHY PEOPLE CRY WHEN THEY HAVE TO PAY FOR ME AT THE BOOKSTORE.

LESSON LEARNED, NEVER PAY FOR MY OWN BOOKS!!!

Happy New Year people! Get Ready for hell!

To My Love, xx somebody~

Don't bother reading, not for you anyway. Seriously, don't. Even he don't read.

Dear xx somebody,

Well, I know you're fine, but, how are you? what? It's called being polite. Work still tiring? At least you like it.


You know this right? You don't have to wait 10 years if you don't want to, 10 years is really, really long. Like you said, you have the option to choose. But if you really wanna wait THAT long, I don't mind, of course I don't. To tell you the truth, I actually WANT you to wait, but I just.. well... you know didn't wanna tell you. But of course, I'm not stopping you if you wanna date someone else, 10 years is very very long. And plus, I don't really know how long this can last. I mean, come on, this? for 10 years? what is the percentage of THIS gonna succeed? 1%? You know this isn't dumb fairy tales! In real life, there are NO HAPPY ENDINGS!

Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that I don't...umm...love you, or I have no faith. Well, I do hope that THIS will have a happy ending, at least tell me when you have someone else and tell me you just wanna be friends. I'd totally understand.

Well, I'm sorry that I'm... umm... un...ro...ma...n...ti...c... or unsweet. It's well... Sweet and romantic is not really my thing. I don't feel really what yet... Well... you get it...

Okay, people complain that I talk too much. Well, okay, bye for now.

Rachel

On the way back to Klang

On the way back to Klang... God... Dammit...

Stopped at some resting place, eat eat eat. Then my aunt Iris told my grandma she saw a Malay drama actor bla bla bla... Grandma was so... so... uff... She said not interested, and you know what happened? This:

We stopped at the petrol station. My grandma said 'Girl, go take his picture. You must learn to be brave you know...' and bla bla bla, I forgot the rest. My aunt laughed so hard, she handed me the damn camera. So when I was walking, I shouted 'WTF?!WHY THE HECK AM I DOING THIS?' it's not like when I grow up I'm gonna help people take pictures of dumb asses actors for people. And lucky me, he went into his Mercs. I was relieved.

Can you believe her? man...

Next...

Almost to Klang...

My grandma started lecturing me... I was sitting in the back 'ah,oh,er,ya,mm hmm.oh, ya.k. understand.yes.oh.' and she kept going on and on and on... I didn't have much interest in answering anymore, so I just kept quiet.

She said I, WE ALL(CHINESE SCHOOL STUDENTS), are impolite. For example, 1 group, 3 can speak Chinese, other 2 can't, and we just don't bother, we just chat happily ignoring the other 2 non Chinese understander...

She also said that Malays are the most polite, and you know what I was thinking? "Malay? Polite? sure, of course. ya, whatever, fuck that. Dumb pig brained assholes.They act polite, but, are they? ARGH! FUCK THEM! they're only G.I.B.fuckers"

And another, she said I should watch malay drama, she said I should watch, learn about their culture... bla bla bla... And I so damn beh song... I answered back ' What culture? fight fight and divorce and get married again?' that was the first time I ever answered her... rudely... She said something else, I didn't really pay attention. My face turned from smiley to unsmiley.

Malays... not all of them are THAT bad.

So, offended any piggies here? no? If yes, I have to say "Why the fuck are you even reading"