Blogging at the Airport

I'm at Coolangatta airport, waiting for my plane to arrive. It got delayed an hour late...

I'm so unlucky when it comes to flying to Sydney! Three weeks ago when I flew there, my plane was also delayed!

I'm so desperate that I've resolved to blogging as a source of entertainemt. I finished writing my part for the continue-the-story game I'm playing with Zongxu and this man I call boyfriend is terrible at it. We have completely different thinking so it's kinda like a two-way story... I'm steering it in a completely different direction from him.

Well... I'll be back to the gold coast in four years. You can count on that. Maybe I'll even drag Xu along to join Lisa's boot camp!!! Hahaha.

Sigh...

I'm gonna have my first ever photo album when I go home...

Home, huh?

I don't know where I belong anymore. To me, it feels like I am home... And my real home is a place that I have to be in, not a place I want to be in...

Anyway, I can't wait to graduate highschool. This year's additional math class will be like hell and I'll be crying my way through the days... Oh... Oh... Oh... Terrible.

I need to adapt to a shitload of changes when I go back and I'm not very happy about it.

Life goes on...

Sushi & Tattoo, with an Emo End

With a roll of sushi in my hand, I'm blogging the afternoon away. I don't know what happened, but ever since that Saturday night after Sushi King in Sitiawan, I've been craving for sushi. It isn't easy for me since the sushi here kind of suck and they're expensive! But what to do? If I don't satisfy my need for Japanese food, I can't sleep at night.

I almost got a tattoo today! I was walking down the street, heading back to uncle Kelvin's apartment when these tattoo artists called out to me. One of them was Thai, while the other was a white guy covered in tattoos. We chatted a bit, where I'm from and stuff before they invited me inside.

Honestly, how old do I look? Because when I told them I was only 16, both of them buried their heads in their hands and went "shit... only 16" since legal age for almost every fucking thing is 18. The Thai guy said that when he was my age, he followed his mum everywhere and she was always saying no to this, that and everything! Is traveling alone really such a bold thing? I don't see how it's special and how you need to be brave to do so. I'm not brave, I just like being alone.

Thai guy invited me inside to have a look at the designs anyway, and really, I WANTED ONE! Flipping through the designs, I realized that I hadn't ask for the price. One hundred Aussie; minimum charge. Fuck it, I thought. A drawing no bigger than my thumb would cost so much? No thank you, I'll get a tattoo when I'm back in Sitiawan.The other dude suggested that I tattoo a flower somewhere, but nah, a flower is the last thing I'll get! I prefer symbolic drawings; planning to get the Celtic trinity knot in the future.

While I looked at the designs, Thai guy chatted more with me. Apparently, he doesn't know what marching band was. He Googled it and I told him about the competition in Thailand. The guy was surprised when I told him that the Thais are actually pretty good at it, which made me wonder, did he leave the country and make little of his own people? Ah, can't blame him, if it were me and people were talking about Malays being good at something other than being pigs, I'd be in a state of disbelief as well.

Oh... I'm down to my last piece of sushi, spicy grilled chicken! Okay, time for green tea.

How much is a bottle of Lipton back home? It's $3.95 a bottle here! And it tastes like dishwasher!

All in all, I have but one thing to say: Zongxu, I think you're the only one who thinks I look young. Either that or westerners have the mindset that Asians are older than they actually look.

I want to call out your name,

But it feels so wrong.

     I long for you,

When I know it's wrong.

I think about you;

Still thinking about you...

    How long would it take

                        For me to stop dreaming of us?

I don't want you to turn away

But there's nothing I can say to make you stay

I don't want to let you go...

      I'm still holding on

           Though I should just let go

Goodbyes have been said,

You left without a word or a wave...

Bundle of Thoughts

It's been more than a week since I came to Sydney. The first few days here, I didn't let him occupy my mind so much, but as the day passes, I found it harder and harder to leave him out of my mind although it should be the other way round. The photos from the 33rd Passing Out only made matters worse, reminding me of how cute he looks. Of course, the photos also burnt me, since I couldn't be with Zinc, Zongxu and a few of the bandies I consider as friends. I wished I was home, having fun with all of them. Somehow though, it's destined that I miss this year's Passing Out. Even if I was back in Sitiawan, I wouldn't be able to make it since my grandpa was lying in Ipoh Hospital, unconscious and weak.

Don't, don't let me go,

Don't let me hold on when you're not...

Don't, don't turn away,

What can I say so you won't?

Don't Let Me Go,

The Click Five

I miss Zinc. She's the only one I can talk to about my current problem. Although Johnson(Quah =-=) is my  brother/sister, I don't want to trouble him again with this pathetic topic. He's done enough, and I don't think he's quite happy helping me out though, since I know how annoying I can be. I don't usually share my problems with people because I'm afraid that they'd think me a burden. Yes, I'm self-conscious. The only person I really go to is xu, and he doesn't make me feel unwanted even though he sometimes hate me too~ Anyway, I can assure you guys that this will be the FIRST and LAST time I discuss my love affairs with my friends. I'm ashamed of myself for causing so much trouble *BOW*

At night, 

The town is quiet like the bottom of the ocean.

I continue down this road by myself,

Guided by a distant voice.

Ningyo Hime,

Rie Tanaka

Zongxu is away at church camp. I hate to break it to him now, but there exist something as 0.facebook.com. I guess that idiot has been drumming too damn much that he forgets the existence of some things that are sometimes useful. I'm slowly starting to miss my boyfriend, but to tell the truth, I'M MISSING MY PET EVEN MORE! 

Did I tell you guys that my Macadamia has acquired bed-climbing skills? Oh, nowhere is safe! My mum should be afraid, even more afraid! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! 

Sigh... I miss my Macadamia a lot. I wonder how she's doing without me. Is she stressing out? Is she losing fur and quills due to depression? Has she forgotten about me? Is she eating right? Is she cold? Oh... It's another three weeks before I can see my fragile little girl! 

In Sydney, I go to parks and lie down, look at the sky and listen to music to help me think.When I'm feeling up for it, I'd just lie on my belly and write my time away. I like it a lot here, and I feel at home.

When this day is through,

 I hope that I will find that tomorrow will be just the same for you and me.

All I need will be mine if you are here. 

Top of The World,

The Carpenters

Ah, Jay Chou, always there when I need to feel emotional. Night Song from his album November's Chopin never fails to make me lie down and think about my lovelife, the tune gives a sort of dark and hopeless mood; makes me feel like a person who has lost every meaning to live. Suga Shikao's Kazanagi is also a beautifully heart-breaking song, tears would always want to flood my eyes whenever it's on.

There's also a band that I listen to ten times a day when I'm feeling really down, and they're The Click Five. These few days, the songs Don't Let Me Go and Good As Gold are helping me to think. The two songs, each to think about specific people: my hard-to-forget wanna-be Korean and xu. 

Thinking that you probably had the intention in the very beginning,

I guess I shouldn't be bothered then; 

I won't even try to find out.

 Whom should I despise? 

What should I suppress away?

You, leaving without even a hand wave... 

 Actually, now, my chest keeps tensing up and up,

and my tear drops keep falling without restraint. 

Sorrow and ocean waves are alike, 

because they both come back and back again.

Will it slowly leave some day,

Just like a deformed nailed being pulled off?

 Kazanagi,

Suga Shikao

Head in the Clouds

Finals start tomorrow; the opening subject is biology and what am I doing? Planning what to do and where to go when I arrive Sydney this coming December, eating McDonald's, typing with oily fingers and thinking about my pet who is just upstairs.

I simply have NO mood at all to study. I find that even staring at the fan turn is more interesting than reading a line in my biology book. I feel absolutely HOPELESS and I really, really, really regret choosing the science stream. Sometimes, I wonder how my life would turn out to be like if I transferred to convent back in March... Why didn't I though, it's not like the things I'm staying in Nan Hwa for matters a lot -or at least that is what I tell myself- to me. 

SUMMER! SUMMER IN AUSTRALIA!

Sorry, I was having boobies and bikinis in my head. 

Ah... Sigh... 

I find that my relationship is going downhill as well. As I have more and more freedom, I realize that I don't want to be tied to a single person. In other words, I realize that I'm not ready to commit myself just yet. The reason why I even stay in this current relationship is because I don't want to friendzone him. Honestly, he's like a best-friend that I've never had but since he's a guy, I made him my boyfriend. The fact that I want him only as a best-friend scares me... Could it be that we're too close? So close that I think of him as a brother instead of a partner... I talk about the girl I like with him, I mention how I love soft boobs with pink nipples to him, we share the most embarrassing secrets with each other and we say the darnest things too! I love him... I don't know...

The above paragraph just made my sound like a guy, didn't it? Do not doubt my gender, for I have boobies!

Before November and TIMBC could come, I'm already thinking about the events that are going to happen afterwards. 

I find that this year's final exam is really depressing for me. I just don't want to hit the books! Not to mention that I have to skip a day of the exams because I have to go to Singapore to make my I.C. I'm happy that the subject that I'm going to miss is moral, yet sad at the same time because additional mathematics isn't on the same day but the next, which makes things worse tenfold. 

I'm really lazy, and if you want me to tell you the truth, I DON'T WANT TO GO FOR TIMBC 2012. 

As I thought, not transferring to convent was a BIG mistake. 

I'd lost interest in what I do. I don't see the point in what I do and MUST do anymore. A wise man once said: "If you lose your passion, then it's better to leave than to pressure yourself, myself and everybody here."

It's time to bond with Macadamia again... 

Ah, that's right, I haven't updated this blog in a while... I've got a pet hedgehog, Macadamia. She's an African Pygmy and I'll upload a picture or two when I finally take them. Anyway, I don't keep her in a cage because I see no reason to since I know where to find her during the day. She's nocturnal so putting her in a cage at night is useless and it gives me more work because she gets shit all over her cage... ONE time... ONE time was enough to make me stop putting her in a cage. I'm not sure if letting her run free like this is okay or not though... Are there any other hedgehog owners that don't keep their hedgies in a cage?  

Going to McDonald's

in my underwear. 

Mashed Post

I'm lazy to blog about my trip to Hatyai. The government ruined everything for me.

THEY BANNED FILE SHARING SITES O_O

That's just... UNACCEPTABLE!

These few days have been nothing but hell.

A tour guide who talks and laughs to herself, with a name that doesn't suit her- Ah Toi Toi.

Coming home, my room's a mess thanks to my LOVELY siblings and cousins. They spilled Coke all over my candles and incense, making my room an ants nest. Burnt Mr.Contented that my dear gave me. And after so long of NOT touching the news paper, the news I saw... Killed me.

ACCESS DENIED!

Sounds interesting... Look... Look... Read... SHOUT.

My maid thought my friend got killed cause I was looking at the papers and shouting like someone died.

Ah. Suddenly, I know what to do for my N.I.E mini mag. Screw the government.

They 3 days in Hatyai was nice. Temples... Temples... And more... Temples. Some shopping. Nice chicken wings... In the hotel room, watching TV with SZN... Korean shows are not bad. BUT... I STILL WONT GET INFECTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now, my life is meaningless. Where the hell am I suppose to download my anime and movies?! DUDE! Ahhh!

And you know what? They banned file sharing sites and not porn sites because our PM watches porn everyday. Sheesh.

I have 4 Malay essays to write, 2 English articles to write, 1 Chinese essay to write, a geography folio to complete... And... I have to hand them all in on MONDAY.

GREAT.

Ahhhh! Screw this!

Why can't I just stay in a small cottage by the river, grow some veges and live happily without having to CARE about anything? Ahhhh... If only they never ate the God damned apple.

I have a feeling... I will do my homework... Right now.

THIS SUCKS

It's... OVER?

I barely had time to enjoy... The time? It felt so dreadfully long, like it's been a year already, but... No... It has only been a... Week... And now, when I know that I have to go back to school tomorrow morning, I FEEL THAT THE WEEK WAS SO SHORT... I WANT ANOTHER WEEEEEEEEK!!!

=_=

I'm so tired... For some reason.

Maybe cause school is starting tomorrow, and I haven't done my math homework... I looked at the diagrams, GLUED my eyes to the diagrams, and I STILL DON'T KNOW which is which T_T

Since I'm such an useless, unromantically unromantic girlfriend, I will do ONE thing I THINK I can do... Well... I think I'll stop using swear words. Yes. I WILL STOP USING THEM. Okay... Uhh... DAMN is not included... Right? Cuz I really don't know. Hmm. So yeah... This is the LEAST I can do. About being in between anti-social and socially social, I can't do anything about that =D

WHOO

I finished copying the synopsis for each of the TWELVE chapters in Merdeka! Merdeka!

It was a pretty useless story if you ask me. All bout MELAYU MELAYU... And more MELAYU... God. I get SOOO bored seeing that word. UGH.

Chinese New Year holidays are over. Back to school.

AWWW MAN

At least I got something to do- practice for the scary trumpet exam this Saturday, and STOP my habit of swearing when I write. It's just ungirly. Not that I want to be girly or anything... It's... Well... I'm a girl? And girls... Should be... Girly? Or something...?

I'm just joking. I'll just quit swearing. I can't even be girly if I wanted to. I'm me. And I don't work that way. I can't fit into girly things =_= except for bras... Hmm...

RIGHT

ehhh... So...

It was nice when you all came to visit. But I'm sorry that I was just a lousy host. That's cause there was just SO many people, and I'm not close with HALF of my guest... And... Well... I don't talk much, don't know how to... NOT LIKE MY MUM T_T

Hmm...

People either quit drinking or smoking, but me... I quit swearing... ?

Guess quitting is good sometimes...

And they say be careful about what you say... Hmm... If you have really bad nightmares, remember what you said... That it is fine if I did it...

I just hate it when it's all over. People leave... And that makes me really sad... Cause...People are leaving... Every festive season... It becomes so crowded in my empty house, and when it's over... It quiets down, leaving that boring, wanna die atmosphere.

I don't hate people coming, I just hate people leaving. And because you can't leave if you don't come, I'll feel better by people not coming... It makes me sad... Cause... MY HOUSE IS SO GOD DAMN FAR THAT NOBODY EVER COMES!

Ahh...

Well...

Everyone's leaving soon...

Some sooner than others. Some just a bit later than the ones that go first.

Have a safe, and lucky, and whatever word that means good luck wherever you guys go～

Cause Imma miss all of you =D

BYE-BYE

Weather... Is... KILLING ME

What happened? I thought that it was pouring a few days ago? It's now five in the evening and the Sun shines like it's freaking two in the afternoon!

The reunion lunch was over a few hours ago, few uncles, aunties, a five-year-old chatty, and a baby.

Now, I'm just waiting for the reunion DINNER.

My aunt will be back with her boyfriend tonight, so, it's another round... Hmm...

I'm not feeling it. The weather is killing me. YOU are killing me.

It's Chinese New Year... Nobody's free for the next few days. I feel like going swimming... UGH... Maybe tomorrow... Don't call me. Don't text me.

Suddenly, I feel like being stranded on an island. If I do, I will not panic... First, I will enjoy the beach, maybe go skinny dipping, since I'm alone... After that... I WILL PANIC...

Enjoy first, panic later.

They don't plant enough trees. I think I better buy a land now and plant trees so that when I move in 20 years later, I'll have giant trees everywhere =D Maybe dig a pond...

I know... It's impossible.

I have dreams too you know. Of course, it might not be like those which includes being CEO of some company, live in a giant house with a butler called Sebastian and a long-haired dog named Alexander...  I have something... Stupid-er in mind...

It's not stupid... Really... It's just... Me being a loner.

Ever read The Lake Isle of Innisfree? If no, then you are an idiot. What were you doing when the teacher was teaching?!

My dream is something like that. But of course, mine includes the Internet, and my laptop. And oh... Hot water shower... With a bathtub...

I'll be dreaming now... So, good night~ I'mma nap.

I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made:
Nine bean-rows will I have there, a hive for the honey-bee;
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.

And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;
There midnight's all a glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet's wings.

I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements grey,
I hear it in the deep heart's core.

William Butler Yeats

Back To Normal

I guess that I'm back to normal?

For some reason, while playing Mozart's Sonata in C, the line "I don't think I like girls anymore" popped into my head. Then after a few a seconds "I miss Zongxu a lot" came in. I think I'm in love with Mozart =D

I'm downloading Mozart's pieces from Munckin, Mozart for Babies =P

Chinese New Year... Back to normal means back to being lifeless. Not going to walk under the Sun, knock on doors, and feel awkward sitting on sofas with nothing to say to the parents of your friends. Cause all we ever have in mind during Chinese New Year is ANGPAO COME COME...

Like always, tradition died. Festive season equals to no festive season, just a holiday, take a break from our hectic schedule. Meet friends, family... That's about it. Tell you the truth, I don't even know HOW to celebrate Chinese New Year... I only know that we eat as a family on some day??? Then we take angpaos from everybody. And then... For me... I sleep.

If I'm having children one day... I pity them... They have a mother who knows NOTHING about EVERYTHING. Huuff!

Curses. How the hell do people work? Two weeks ago, I went to Tesco to buy my ice-cream, they said that the product isn't in the system yet. So, I couldn't buy it. Then YESTERDAY, I went again, took the same God damn ice-cream, along with another bar of Hershey's... And you know what? Even worse than the last time I went, both my ice-cream AND chocolate isn't in the system.

WILL YOU PEOPLE JUST WORK SO THAT I CAN EAT MY ICE-CREAM AND CHOCOLATE?!

Grr...

Watched Shaolin... Very nice movie, very touching too. Although, I cried because I was angry that all the good monks had to die, and that the bad guys die later on. Monks are so cool. I feel like being one =D
I'm a girl... But... Being a nun looks like no fun? Now that I think about it... All they ever make... Are movies about MONKS, with all those nice kung fu moves... WHAT ABOUT THE NUNS? Don't nuns do kung fu and stuff? Or do they just live bald and meditate all day?

Hah. It takes a life to change a life. Whatever you do, karma will get you one day.

British are still hypocrites, like in our history books.

"THEY STOLE MY TREASURE... BLOW UP EVERYTHING! KILL EVERYONE IN THERE! FIRE! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"

Says one ugly dude of a British general or something like that.

But in the end, the remaining monks killed all the white people who were using guns and canons, with bamboo sticks =_=

LONG LIVE THE BALD MONKS! And Jackie Chan?!

I'm feeling less like a perv now. I guess that it's good thing, do my mum a favour, she has been complaining about me, and says that I need counselling. Ish. Since when is admiring other girls illegal?

Since when did Jay Chou's English improve? LoL. Sounds better than last time, not good, but not exactly THAT bad either.

It's now Chinese New Year holiday, but Chinese New Year doesn't start until Thursday.

I'm gonna eat, sleep, and watch TV.

Happy Chinese New Year everybody. Ugh. It's raining everyday. Can't say I don't like it though.

Me being weird, is me being normal

Band Trip~2010~

Band trip... One day... To Genting, then to Times Square, stop for dinner on the way back... Then... Finally... Back home...

Thursday...

DAMMIT...

School's on Monday. I feel like killing myself already.

PMR...

PMP =_=

ARGH!

SCHOOL'S ON MONDAY T^T

Let's not talk about that. I hate it. Just thinking about that makes me wanna jump down from a high place.

Right.

The trip.

It was... Fine... Okay... Cold... Nice... Not nice...

My legs still hurt. 

There HAD to be clowns. I was in such a bad mood that they made me so scared that I forgot about my bad mood and became scared. At least they didn't wear THAT much make up... I have no idea why children like clowns. They are freaking scary. Killer clowns. Killer dolls. 

Next time, I think I'm gonna bring cup noodles to Genting. Dammit. I spent about 90 on food. 30+ on tea, 17 on a freaking Happy Meal which made me UNHAPPY, 2.10 on an ice cream, 20 on rice, 10 on a sausage and Milo, about another 18 on breakfast this morning...

Oh well...

At least I got what I needed.

Yes, I bought a t because I feel bad about not changing when going out with you.

What?

At least I got a shirt as an excuse to my mum... You do not wanna know how much I used... 

WELL

Uhhh...

Nothing.

RIGHT.

THE TRIP.

On the bus... Leaving school.

Before that, we went exploring the school. Saw a kitten. Damn cute. Damn small. It liked me so much, I had to carry it for Jessica when we explored the school a SECOND time. It was so hungry that it thought I had milk, either that or I just smell damn good. Good thing it didn't tear my shirt. Or else... 

Lalala~

So... On the bus... While everyone's sleeping so nicely, I WAS WAITING FOR A REST STOP. I held it in for 2 freaking hours. We passed two stops that I was so worried that we weren't gonna stop at all... I was looking at the road, for rest stops...  Jessica just... opens her eyes and does nothing. She couldn't sleep. And I thought I was the only one awake. The person behind me slept so nicely that I heard him snore. Not like a pig la, very soft. 

Morning came.

When we finally stopped for breakfast, I went to sleep.

Nobody went down. After 30 minutes, I woke up and went down. So... Yeah... I just slept for 30 minutes. From about 5.30am to 6am =_=

Called Zongxu TO TELL HIM THAT WE WERE HAVING BREAKFAST. Because everyone was wondering who's gonna be responsible for calling him and then suddenly turned to me. I wonder why...

Was conversationless as usual with him.

Tuu...Tuu...Tuu...

The bus went up the hill... 

Tuu... Sounds more like a train, but, whatever. That's the best thing that I can think of.

Nice scenery, I felt jumping into the clouds. They looked so soft, so fluffy... If you wanna suicide, do it there, you'll never know when you might hit a rock and die.

Genting...

Left the bags in the lobby, then off we go, to the outdoor park.

I found feeding the fishes more interesting than going on rides that makes you throw up. 

Right. I spent 12 on fish food...

=_=

I was having a headache, and the queues are long... So... Feed the fishes, it's relaxing, easy, and the fishes get some food, people take photos of them, I get less bored, less stressed, less moody... I'm just not a morning person... I felt like dying in the outdoor park. I never rode anything extreme. Got myself and the others soaked because I wanted to ride the water log thing. 

You have to hold on real tight, if not, you might fall off half way... And... The heaviest three that day HAD to share the same boat =_=

After drying ourselves with the other ride, we went to the restroom and dried ourselves properly... Uhh... Not properly... With the HAND dryer... Not HAIR dryer... 

I'm killing myself. I smell like a giant rose T^T

I can't continue this post like this...

I can't...

Or wait...

You can't continue this post cause your eyes are hurting?

Well, have a break, have a Kit-Kat. There's a long, long way to go.

After drying. Lunch time.

Thanks to Si Kai, we climbed down the stairs, and up again, then down the other one, then go back up again... Then... We finally went back indoors, and went to McDonald's to have my UNHappy Meal.

That's when my headache got worse. Worse headache, even moodier.

They had to DRAG me... Literally DRAG me to the outdoor park again. I was saying that I was gonna be fine on my own and that I was gonna wait at the lobby till three, BUT NO... They HAD to drag me out... They said that he was waiting for me? Yeah right, I just followed them, met more clowns, and waited for them to finish while I took pictures of flowers. 

Pictures.

Everyone owns a freaking DSLR these days. They feel uncomfy when using a TINY cellphone to take pictures, and sorry my tiny cell has its own stupid light settings that the guy couldn't take a pic using it because he's too smart and doesn't know how to use a cell to take pictures anymore. And sorry I don't like self portraits and don't know how to self pose and self take at the same time.

Recycled Christmas. 

After checking in at 3.30pm or some where near that time, we went to our room. Me, Mariane, Shirley, and Jessica. Jessica left her clothes all over the bed to dry, I threw all my junk food out on the bed too. A big mess. So... I just used Shirley's and Mariane's bed to lie down.

Few minutes later...

Got a text. 

Right.

Damn. Had nothing to wear. Just brought ONE change. 

Took the extra key, went out and bought something to wear. Not bad, at least I found something. 

Went back to my room after half an hour of rushy clothes shopping. They are still asleep... Had a shower, came out, STILL ASLEEP... 

When they went out at about 5, I was still in the room, sitting down, slowly eating seaweed and drinking tea. Felt so sleepy. As I was dozing off, I heard a knock on the door. NO. Don't guess. Room service. Actually scared the hell outta me when nobody answered me when I asked who the heck is knocking.

Walked a bit.

Had coffee...

No wait...

I had tea and a lolli.

Went back.

You're fast. You disappeared when they unlatched the door =_=

Dinner. Walked around. Finally. Food court.

Had Taiwanese food.

While I was eating...

Matthew nicely came, nicely took his chair, nicely sat down, nicely drank coke, nicely had fish and chips, nicely left... 

SPEECHLESS...

He's so clueless that it's a good thing.

Damn you Justin... I think you're right, I think I'm sick. But wait, I'mma prove you wrong when we go out tomorrow. 

I think I should really sleep now...

Yes. Yes.

Mostly, I spent time with him.

Yesterday and today. 

TOLD YOU I WAS BETTER AT NIGHT.

Hmm...

Cold air.

An angry mouse.

=_=

Cold air feels good... Well... Different from an air conditioned room. It's cold, but it's natural, so, you wont feel that cold... Alright... That's just me, you were freezing in your very short hoodie. You could have left anytime you wanted, I'm already used to having nothing and being alone. But thank you, you cared.

Somehow, I knew you'd come back.

If it didn't start raining, I would be there all night. I'm serious, I can do that, there's always something when there's nothing. So, when there's nothing... A lot goes through my mind, but, I try to shut my mind up by listening to music. Yeah. I'm weird. But... It's a good thing, waiting isn't a problem for me.

You were so happy to finally leave =_=

You don't like being with me that much? Either that or you just hate the cold and aloneness. 

Well...

It felt weird, but, at the same time, it didn't. Because it was you maybe? I could hold anybody's hand and swing it lalala without feeling anything. Not even the warmth. But... You... Yeah... Even when it's cold, it was warm. Again... I miss your hand...  

Was my head heavy?

I have to admit. I was trying REAL hard NOT to use your shoulder AT FIRST. But then... I gave up resisting. Boop. I sleep. Until my mum messaged me...

It's always my mum...

It felt... Wow... I always wanted to do that!

I felt happy I guess, I finally have a shoulder to lean on, instead of sleeping straight, or using the window. In both ways, I have somebody... I'll try not to be pushy and rely on you too much though, you're not gonna be near. 

Indescribable. 

I have a habit of hugging everything I lean on.

It was so hard for me to NOT turn around and hug you T^T

That's why I kept pinching myself, I guess... And it was too bright to hug you =_=

I should shut up now.

This post of TRIP is a failure.

The toilets at Times Square another failure.

I can't think straight when I'm sleepy and with my head spinning, and I think I'm hungry...

Gonna have ramen. And tea.

Yes, the best part about all this, why I'm happy and the trip didn't suck. It's obvious isn't it? Even if I had nothing to buy while shopping... Even if I had nothing I wanted to do... The reason I'm even happy...

You...

 

 

The Holidays Are... OVER?!

What the... One month already? Are you kidding me? A MONTH? Passed just like that? What did I do again...? Yeah, that's right, I slept. For almost a month. Well... It was boring anyway...

Christmas is over. Damn boring. Way to show the holiday spirit. Are Sitiawan people dead, or something? Empty streets, NO DECORATIONS? Why ain't the waiters wearing an elf outfit at Secret Recipe? Why did we  talk so little O_O

Dammit.

Next time, I'll just order plain water. I ordered RM17 worth of drinks. Yeah. 3. What? I was thirsty... And... That stupid plate of spaghetti, I barely touched it, Jessica and Han Siang finished it for me. There goes my 14 bucks. A tiny slice of Durian Cheese cake... Ahhhhh...

I should have just ordered ONE drink.

There goes my hard work...

I should have just stayed home and slept! T^T

Ufff... The curly fries and nuggets are in the paper bag. Dammit. I feel like killing myself.

Not, not because I'm eating too much.

It's because, I still buy it, when I don't even feel like eating it.

Should have just gave it to the maid again...

I feel like cleaning my room NOW.

But... I'm sleepy...

If I was the me few weeks ago, damn, this is as early as hell. I would sleep at 5am. And waste the next day. Sleeping. But... I don't know... Ever since that time... I've been sleeping a bit early, the most is 3.30am... But, I still wake up at 9.30 in the morning. I have no idea what's wrong with me.

I'll never get this cleaning done. I've been saying it since January. And I still haven't done anything.

ARGH

Tomorrow... Tomorrow... Tomorrow...

There's just no end...

Wednesday, huh?

Not much I wanna do there, I'm just going cause Jess and Shirley need me so much xD

If they throw me there... Ah... There's always Starbucks? And I guess I can always go see if Audrey's working.

Hey... The hell guys... TAKE ME WITH YOU... I don't care if there's six or seven together, I can walk with Mariane if you wanna walk with Shirley, or Si Kai... JUST DON'T LEAVE ME T^T

Friends are so cruel these days.

They tend to leave you alone and go have fun on their own.

What can I say...

• FRIENDS ARE JUST SO RELIABLE.

Don't sneeze.

I'm impatient.

Sometimes... It's like... The other way round...

I keep waiting, but every time I hear that whisper. It's... Another fucking time wasting cold joke. Either that, or it's my mum telling me how good her cake tasted, and asking me what time I'll be back.

Why?

Don't dulan him la. He's not stealing girls or anything. He's just friendly. And helpful. And please remember that he was the one that came all the way back to my place after receiving the "WTF HE'S THERE" message.

I have nothing else to say.

When you're too good of a person, people will hate you and talk bad about you? But when you're a bad person, they talk bad about you too? How is this fair to the good guy?

What about what you want? You know you don't have to spend time with me if you don't want to... I mean... I'm just me... They're your friends... For 5 years... And it's hard for you all meet up once you guys go away right?

I'm okay with being alone.

I'm used to it anyway.

So...

It's up to you...

That's why... It's natural to lie.

 A smile. 

I'm fine.

 I'm okay. 

Merry Christmas

SOME CHRISTMAS THIS IS!

Anyway, Merry Christmas ^_^

Don't know bout the rest of you, but, I can say that this Christmas SUCKS. For me.

I don't know what happened. Every year is just worse than last year, and finally, THIS IS THE WORST. I wonder how sucky next Christmas will be... Cause... You know... But, if it lasts, it'll be better.

Chinese New Year's the same.

Each year, as we grow older, as relatives LEAVE... FOREVER... There'll be LESS people, so... I don't really feel the holiday spirit. I'd rather stay home and sleep all day, watching BL in between. Seriously... I don't feel motivated, and damn... The weather is sooo bad, you'd feel even LESS motivated than you already ARE.

This year... I didn't even go Christmas shopping. I didn't even buy new toys... I didn't even LOOK at Toys R Us and listen to the happy Christmas music that makes you so jolly you just wanna buy MORE toys... I FEEL SO UNJOLLY THIS YEAR T^T

Even buying dresses I rarely wear is better than this year. AT LEAST I BOUGHT SOMETHING LAST YEAR.

I hate girly shoe shopping. My feet don't fit. Too wide for some reason... Ahh... Flip-flops are the best, but... They're not the best for formal events... Gonna wear a long evening gown so that I can wear flip-flops instead. Hehehe. Covers my feet, touches the floor, no one would bother looking beneath it xD

Shhh!

Don't tell anyone.

But first, Imma have to get me one of those long evening gowns.

Lalala~

 I did that for Halloween ya' know... Wearing that long cloak that touches the ground, but wearing my soft flip-flops underneath. Heh, unlike most girls, fuck heels. I know they're pretty la. WTH.

I don't look good in heels, I don't look good in dresses, let's face it, I'm a failure as a woman. I'm just gonna go sit in a corner and draw circles... That's why I prefer lying on the sand, you think what?Some bitch in high heels and a dress would wanna roll in the sand?

Yeah.Yeah. I'm just jealous.

Anyway...

>_<

Did I just admit that I'm jealous of pretty bitches???

O_O

LALALA~

MERRY CHRISTMAS~

You know what?

The best thing about Christmas...

Come back from a Christmas  'countdown' party, with a failure of a countdown and opening ceremony, having somebody say that they miss you FOR THE FIRST TIME, and come back, make some noise, wash up, jump into bed and sleep till morning.

No wait...

That's not the best...

Waking up naked in bed and then remembered you were too lazy to put on your PJs... Yeah...

Merry Christmas everyone.

Let's go out tonight, I have no objections if we're going swimming at night.

Just after watching Piranha, THE HELL MAN... Sometimes, it's better to have dumb ass government than those ploty smart asses. Well... I would prefer SMARTER ministers, just, not too smart that they come up with some fucking biological weapon and turn everyone into zombies, or make killer fishies.

So, either way, it's always fuck the government.

HAIH

Some people, I wonder...

How did the misunderstandings start? Was it because of personal issues that lead to the coldness that you felt? Is it because it was that specific person, that you felt ignore you? But... How do you know? It was hard, wasn't it, for you both. But know this. I can't stand it. With two people still loving each other, both trying to forget, thinking that the same thing that you both don't love each other anymore. I'd rather not know than know.

Fuck relationships.

He loves you.

She loves you.

Ahhhh

Just do whatever you feel like doing. After all, nobody is truly happy, I wonder, what does it mean to truly be happy.

Santa, I want RM1000 in cash for Christmas.

I know you're asleep already, but... DAMN YOU... YOU DIDN'T EVEN LEFT ME A PRESENT.

Merry Christmas everybody, even if you don't feel the spirit, Merry fucking Christmas.

Yes. I'm upset.

Christmas Eve and Musical Night Dinner?

What the hell... Count down for Christmas? You lucky draw half way say

• OH IT'S TWELVE O ONE. MERRY CHRISTMAS.

THAT? Has to be the WORST countdown. The Halloween one was better la...

Wooh~

Jesvin~

Sexy man~

So fair la T^T

So slim~

So nice~

Too bad la... That perverted dude my mum brought along was looking at your butt when you were on stage. Cause... Well... Your back was facing us... So... I guess... Everyone can only look at your butt???!!!

O_O

Okay...

Enough with that...

If that 10 year old was 10 years older, wow... It would be much more enjoyable... I wonder... Few years later, will she still perform??? I hope she has big boobs... Hmm... I wonder... Will they bounce when she dances? That would be a bit funny~ Teehee~

Suddenly, I feel that ballerinas make good girlfriends?

Don't worry, you're still my girlfriend, unless, you wanna be my boyfriend?

Puuuuuu~

They look so fair, and slim, and they dance too!

Most of all, they are soft~

Don't ask why.

I feel that they're soft???

Uhhhhhh...

I'm a bit lazy to change. After I came back, Facebook a while, wishing mah pals and girlfriend Merry Christmas, played the piano... And... Mostly, I was just figuring out how to put back the clear holder thing... Dammit... After so long... And... It only took 3 secs to fix it... ~!@#$%^&*()_+

Ahhh...

It's Christmas,  play Silent Night la.

The neighbors aren't here with knives. Good.

Man... If my aunt gives me her spare Blackberry next year... And what... Postpaid line? HAHAHA. My mum will kill me when the bill comes. You know how I get carried away if there's no limit la =_= which is a bad thing.

I'm so lazy to change, I feel so sleepy! Uffff!

Wear stockings and a dress to sleep. Hope I don't rip the stockings.

I don't care la... Besides... I'll be up at 10am...

So... I'll just bathe then.

HAIH

Christmas...

Where the hell did my spirit go?

FA LA LA LA LA. LA LA LA LA.

=_=

No mood.

Tradition died.

Kiss me under the mistletoe.

LOL

My hair... Ahh... I was in a hurry... I splatted a handful of wax la... =_= Damn sticky now >_<

When it comes to shoes, dresses, and HAIR...

I AM HOPELESS

I prefer jeans, shorts, simple tees, flip-flops, and sneakers.

I CAN'T EVEN WALK PROPERLY JUST NOW

AND I WASN'T EVEN IN HEELS

I was in...

Uhh...

What do you call that...

This type of girly shoe, with holes in front? NO. THE ABOVE PIC ISN'T MINE.

If I wore a long gown that covered my feet, I would have wore slippers instead =_=

Slippers damn comfy~

No pictures of our sexy Jesvin.

Sorry~

Wasn't in the mood to take pictures.

Shit... Credit balance RM17.50. Damn... RM4.50?

Damn expensive.

But... What to do?

 I beh tahan wor... Can't control myself T^T

Want gimme Blackberry pulak... Go bankrupt...

Ahhhh...

Never thought that you'd say it to me. Miss.

Doesn't feel like Christmas... Probably because this year, I didn't went toy shopping at Toys R Us.

Dammit.

Every year, I buy myself toys during Christmas shopping... But this year... Hell... There isn't even Christmas shopping. I'm so embarrassed, don't gimme presents. I have no more space, and besides, nobody can get me the things I want.

Other than meeting Santa...

I want a giant teddy bear.

I want a Me To You Tatty Teddy~

I want a futon set~

I want a free anime dvd grabbing coupon, which allows you to grab 5 anime dvds you want ^_^

I want Sebastian and Ciel nendroid by Good Smile Company~

And mostly...

I want Zongxu.

Anyone can get me my presents?

No right?

Then, good night.

Don't bother asking me if I'm changing.

Damn lazy. Tired. Even if I didn't dance.

Dancers went to Steak House. Yeah... After the dinner. I'm guessing the owner's treat... Or maybe Mr.Lau's treat?

Don't know.

Jesvin, you look damn hot today.

Teach me how to dance.

On second thought... DON'T...

I don't think I like dancing.

I'm sad...

The hip-hoppers didn't do Lady Gaga.

HOW COULD THEY NOT DO GAGA?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

THIS LIL MONSTER IS UPSET!

Overprotective Much?!

How many times? 'I wanna go for a picnic' or 'Yea, lets go to the beach'... Planned so much but it's always zero percent of going.

After SO many failures, I have decided... Feeling sorry, and feeling guilty if you DON'T invite other friends for that bright, sunny picnic, is pathetic. I used to be pretty soft, I still am... But... Not SO soft. Ish. Can't believe that I liked everyone back then... And then... After some time, wow, those people are really ugly. Ugh.

Don't even think about picnics right? Your parents don't even allow you people to watch a movie at the cinema. What the hell is up with that? Movies... In a place where you watch movies... Right... And... It's dangerous cause??? You might knock yourself cause it's too dark inside? Or what? Someone would rape you in there, with people watching?! I have no idea why parents are being so... Protective? Man... Isn't this going overboard?!

Yeah, yeah, sure, sure... Unlike your parents, my parents are actually normal. 

Sure, this is just being selfish cause I'm too bored and I wanna go to some place with friends, BUT CAN'T because of their parents... Man this sucks. I'm not saying that you people are bad parents... Well... You people are... Umm... Old fashioned.

This is Sitiawan. Sitiawan comes from the name Setia Kawan, the name of some elephant. WHAT CAN POSSIBLY GO WRONG AT A CAFE?! OR THE CINEMA?! OR THE POOL IF MY MOM'S THERE WATCHING?!

I DON'T GET YOU PEOPLE!

Yes. Call me a stupid, spoiled brat who just wants to play, play and play, and that I'm a FUN influence on your children. Damn... No wonder all those western people get the wrong ideas about us Asians. You know, when I'm on OMGPOP or Farragomate... Or some stupid Facebook quiz... Or some movie... We Asians, ESPECIALLY CHINESE, are...

1. Results, all A++++, cause, if we happen to FAIL, our parents would beat the crap outta us.

2. We're stingy.

3. We TA PAO the leftovers from wedding dinners, or just simple dinner outside.

4. We keep goats as pets ==(Some girl from US asked me this on Farragomate... WTF?!)

5. We ROVE rice.(ROVE, saying that we suck at pronouncing, which I don't disagree)  

Ugh. Western people are starting to piss me off. ONE, we don't eat only rice, and TWO, ramen is healthy, and it's not food for low lives or college studenｔｓ! And most of all... WE DON'T KEEP GOATS AS PETS! 

Right...

As much as I hate western people... The eastern culture... Well, it's not OPEN, but... Come on... Keeping your children INDOORS or just your BACKYARD, and can't spend time with friends EVEN ON THEIR BIRTHDAY... Isn't that kinda like how you treat women during the... Uhh... China's very very VERY early dynasties? Where women are said to be useless, and that they're only job is to produce, produce, and produce? Or work at home like slaves? Come on people, THAT is over. Heh. Most successful people are women these days... And there's a saying BEHIND EVERY SUCCESSFUL MAN, THERE IS A WOMAN =D

Uhh...

That was outta topic, wasn't it?

Chinese... Even if I am Chinese, my Chinese isn't very good. I know that we are suppose to be stingy and all that... But sorry, I can't follow tradition, cause, my math ain't good.

To all my friends'parents who are overprotective of their children... Loosen up. I know, during your days, you enjoy yourselves a lot, everything is wonderful and you people run around the whole village, climbing coconut trees and stealing mangoes... Catching fish, and swimming... It was fun right? 

I do agree on this, society isn't like before when you can sleep with your doors wide open, or leave your gold on your doorstep. But... Nothing unnecessary is gonna happen. So, stop jumping to conclusions first. 

You know... You all tell us NOT to find excuses, but... You parents... Are always finding excuses. You tell us to go to our meetings and all that stuff right? But... When the other committee members call... You all find some excuse like 'Oh, I'm sorry, I'm busy on that day, I'm truly sorry.' or just 'Ah, I'm sorry, I'm outta town.' and that is being responsible?

I know, I know... Chinese are very hard to convince... 

For the love of God... Children these days don't get to taste what it's like to be children anymore! All we do... TUITION! SCHOOL! PIANO! VIOLIN! BALLET! WALTZ! LATIN! BADMINTON! TENNIS! KARATE!

OWH STOP WITH THE CRAP!

If we like it, we like it, DON'T FORCE!

Sure, sure... I know ALL parents want what's best for their children, but, ALL parents are also the same. They decide on their own. WITHOUT asking us if it's good for us. 

Yes, I know... Back then, you people didn't have the chance, so, you thought that it'd be nice for your child to HAVE the chance to experience something that you haven't right? That your child is lucky and all that crap?  Well... Think again mommy!

Sure, sure, have time for all those USEFUL crap, but, no time for fun right? Oh. I get it. I absolutely get it. When you're a child, study, and when you're eighty and can barely move and have ALL the grandkids, enjoy. What is that crap? Seriously... You people want us to believe that? Who in the right mind would believe that?! Hah, enjoy when you're eighty. lmfao. 

Call me spoiled, other parents, but, I'm not. I go out a lot, so, I know what to do when I get cut. I don't run to the doctor and cry 'Waaaa! I have a bu-bu!' or just let myself bleed to death. I know that if you're going out, ALWAYS, no matter where, or when, ALWAYS bring cash, you always need it. And if you get lost, don't panic, it's a crowded place, you're not gonna die. If you don't go out much, you'd probably get kidnapped, and then, raped. Is that what you want for your child? That they can't be independent?

Hah! I can do my own laundry! BETCHA DIDN'T KNOW THAT! I am capable of washing my own underwear!!!

I can cook too. Yes, I can cook other things besides instant noodles. If I run outta food, there's always 7-Eleven, or... A cafe.

Yes, yes, I'm still young. Whatever. Just you wait... I am going to Pangkor soon. I don't care if I'm going alone. If my bro can go to Ipoh alone, then I can go to Pangkor alone. It's just a five minute boat ride, if I don't make it, I'll swim back. UGH.

I am sick and tired of planning things because you people NEVER let your children out. So what's the point? And don't you criticize my parents! THEY ARE GREAT PARENTS, I have a balance of FUN and... Uhh... Study? Well, whatever, I have good grades... I just... Failed math... WHAT? THE OTHERS WERE ALL As and Bs... a D for KHB and E for math... You gotta admit, I'm good. I don't have a C =D

See, you people always say...

'wah, Rachel again ar? Going alone ar? Dangerous lo.'

Hello, I asked your children, but, what do you know? They can't go because they told me...

'MY PARENTS SAID NO'

Ah well...

It's always me.

I don't really get bored in my room cause I have my number one companion, the internet, and my laptop. But, it ain't healthy, so, I wanna go out more...

I don't know how you people can stay at home calmly... Huh...

Whatever. Next Sunday. I'm leaving. If you wanna come text me, IM me... Whatever. I could care less.

It's an open invitation.

MemeMeRachel@0140

Before Finals, Holiday Planned~

I don't know the case for you people, but, wow, in my class, everyone's already planning their vacation! Forget about books even when the exam hasn't even started. We are great people~

I don't plan to do much. Well... October 30th is the Halloween party. I'm going to Ipoh in the morning to shop for wigs 0x0 and the books^^ And well... I think I'll stop by Anime Tech too xD

Hehehe... On Sunday... I'll be doing what I said I'm gonna do for the past year... I will finally clean my room! yes... It's been a year already... And... Wow... The books are dusty... Why are all my wires tangled with my bra strip???!!! Is that a shoelace? And... Where's the tissue box???!!! Is that a form 4 text book? What?! Is that my Chinese revision book... What's it doing there?! HUH... DEAD ROSES??? @~@ A Whiskey box? Jacob's Cream Crackers box? And... What the... My money's everywhere... On the bed... In the candle holder... In my box... On the dresser... On the 'work' table... Wait... I didn't leave some in the bathroom did I??? 

 

OMG... I have some serious cleaning up to do after finals. Dammit. Anime and manga will have to wait. That reminds me... I'll have to buy cucumbers and seaweed... And... Green tea... Maybe ramen. Cucumbers are healthy, and they make WONDERFUL snacks when you're watching anime, or reading manga! Seaweed too. Gonna make more onigiris! Hehe, as long as I like them, I don't need you people to like them xp

And band practice... I'm free anyway. So, I'll show up for practice whenever! Except... When I'm busy =D

Funerals are fun. I'll go. Just text me 0x0

Oh... My birthday's on the 26th. I'm not celebrating. What? It's on the second day of our exam! I know... It sucks. After the exam? I'll go celebrate... Alone... Unless... You're paying. But... I would rather celebrate it alone. It's peaceful that way. Maybe go for lunch, and a movie... And walk a bit... And... Go home. 

Oh right. I'll celebrate with Shirley and Han Siang right??? I don't know... It's a maybe? Anyway, I'm always free~ 

Birthdays...

Oh...

October 24...

I'm not getting him a present. I don't give anyone presents. I'm poor. It's the thought that counts. I will always wish, but never give. 

Call me useless, call me stingy. That's just me. Whatever. Nobody has to give me presents either, if I don't give, I don't receive, so, it's find with me.

What to do... What to do... It's not like I've prepared for finals. But... I've always been like this. I remember things, I just need to see words. I can answer  questions... That I don't know I know. But... I'll... Study... I'll study... I'll study. I will not lose. I hate losing. Although I don't really give a damn if I lose. Win or lose it's still the same. At least I trust and believe in myself. In order for spells to work, you need to have faith in your words and believe in them. That's what I'm doing, I'm training myself to believe. For myself. Who knows... I might actually be able to cast spells one day... ::Evil Thoughts::

:: Shrugs::

Anyway. I'll definitely do great! I may be daydreaming and clueless all the time, but... Don't you underestimate me!   I just hate math! I can score in everything but that! Chinese is fine! I'll get a B! 

Why... Why is there math... Let the nerds to that... I'm not good with numbers!! T^T

The more I think about it, the more I hate it. It's a hopeless place. There's a world out there, not just one 'tanah'. If you want improvement, improve. You know that you can do it, you just don't want to. You're not gonna live forever. If this goes on, you can kiss your precious 'tanah' good-bye. The next generation will be the last. We either get nuclear bombed, or, go bankrupt. We're already on the edge of bankruptcy. So. Do things that are useful for once. Plant more trees. I'd rather live like Tarzan than have myself fried by the UV rays. I'm already burnt.

I'm sleepy and if I go on... I think I'll write about the other world rather than what the title says.

Sorry if I have a long blog and give you guys headaches. Thank you for supporting. That is all. Good Night.

MemeMe@Rae-Chan_11.40pm 

K~ Singing Night? Where Did THAT come from?

Haha! Just finished singing K with my bro. Lolz~ my sisters and mum sang too. My mum took off her contacts so she had to stand right in front of the damn TV.

Where did the singing mood come from anyway? My bro don't usually sing. And just between you guys and me... I sing in the shower! Shh! It's a secret! Don't tell anyone!

I'm not saying I'm pro. My sister Sarah is, and my mum too. There mother! you happy? I finally wrote something good about you once!

We even sang '两只老虎' for fun! Haha! So stupid, and we sang it outta tone~ WEE! WE ARE THE DUMB FAMILY~

The only thing missing was friends, and some booze! Although I can't drink and it taste bad, it just suits the place. Haha! Well, we did have pizzas and chicken wings.

I still remember the Christmas we had in 2008. It was fun, wasn't it? Me, Jesvin, Jessica and Zhi Ngor sang like no body's business. Too bad Stephanie was in Thailand that time... We didn't get to celebrate last Christmas together, maybe celebrate the next one together? Haha, Chinese New Year ain't over yet and I'm talking about Christmas...

I had fun, and I actually feel good. I FEEL HAPPY... But too bad, it's time to go to bed. Night guys!

Wanna get together on Chinese New Year? My place, and we sing? Haha. Night.

Rainy First Day

Something wrong when I tried to publish it... Damn... Now I have to write it all over again! God dammit!

Rainy day... I'm covered in mud^^ Whee!

Here's what I did, after I woke at 12pm:

1. Shower

2. Threw the clothes in my bag and left everything else outside cause I was lazy and I'm going back tomorrow.

3. Came downstairs, made tea, had chocolate for breakfast.

4. Check my mail

5. Watch a movie. I actually wanted to watch Surrogates but something wrong with the disc. So I watched Dead Snow instead. Some kind of Swedish or German movie. Kinda funny cause of the music they put while killing the zombies^^

6. Went outside to 'play' in the rain.

7. Came inside and wrote this.

8. Rain stopped.

9. Rain started... Again...

10. Grandma told me to switch off this damn thing in case I screw it again. Apparently, when I do something wrong, nobody trusts me. But with the other idiot, my brother, it's like whatever.

And next time, I don't wanna spend my holiday like this year. Being forced to buy God damned dresses, people don't wanna trust me anymore, get lectures, being said cause of one little fucking screw up. And stuff...

I'm gonna have a shower now, since nobody will feel safe when I'm using something, I'm just gonna make more tea, sit down and read a God damn book. And eat chocolate...

Bye Bye

My First Few Hours Of 2010

Hey guys! I'm still in Klang, gonna come back on Saturday. And hell starts on Monday, do I need to bring books and stuff? Please, I dunno.

So, I screwed the laptop earlier and because of that I couldn't write at 12am. But I guess I could tell you my first few hours, enjoy!

1. Worried cause I don't know shit about techs.

2. When I went into the kitchen to get a drink, Rufus and Sylvia(the dogs)ran into the living room cause I didn't shut the door thingy well.

3. They refused going back into the kitchen. Rufus just sat down, Sylvia jumped on the couch and bit the stuffed toy doggy. I had to go into the kitchen and get their doggy treats to lure them in. It worked.

4. I played with em'. They licked me all over, so, I was covered in dog slobber, mostly Rufus'. After Sylvia drank her water, she wiped her face on my shirt. I smelled like dog^^

5. After I came back to the living room,guess what I found out.Sylvia peed on the floor ==, and she stepped on it, so, it got on the couch too... Of course I had to clean it! Everyone's asleep!

6. After cleaning Sylvia's pee, I sat down on the kitchen floor and talked to them for about 30 minutes. Eventually, they got bored of my talking and closed their eyes.

7. Still cursing myself for screwing the laptop.

8. Sat down on the couch and tried fixing it. I fixed it! Woo-Hoo! And so, I went to bathe cause I smelled like dog.

9. I emailed... err... someone...

10. Writing this, man, I'm hungry... Chocolate! Whee! Okay...

That's about my 2 hours in year 2010^^

I bought sweets for you guys, I'm sorry Stephanie, the candy canes I saw looked so damn cheap, so I didn't buy em'. Sorry if the sweets aren't enough... cause:

I ONLY GOT 200++, I LEFT THE REST AT HOME. AND I FUCKING SPENT 180++ ON BOOKS. NOW I KNOW WHY PEOPLE CRY WHEN THEY HAVE TO PAY FOR ME AT THE BOOKSTORE.

LESSON LEARNED, NEVER PAY FOR MY OWN BOOKS!!!

Happy New Year people! Get Ready for hell!

On the way back to Klang

On the way back to Klang... God... Dammit...

Stopped at some resting place, eat eat eat. Then my aunt Iris told my grandma she saw a Malay drama actor bla bla bla... Grandma was so... so... uff... She said not interested, and you know what happened? This:

We stopped at the petrol station. My grandma said 'Girl, go take his picture. You must learn to be brave you know...' and bla bla bla, I forgot the rest. My aunt laughed so hard, she handed me the damn camera. So when I was walking, I shouted 'WTF?!WHY THE HECK AM I DOING THIS?' it's not like when I grow up I'm gonna help people take pictures of dumb asses actors for people. And lucky me, he went into his Mercs. I was relieved.

Can you believe her? man...

Next...

Almost to Klang...

My grandma started lecturing me... I was sitting in the back 'ah,oh,er,ya,mm hmm.oh, ya.k. understand.yes.oh.' and she kept going on and on and on... I didn't have much interest in answering anymore, so I just kept quiet.

She said I, WE ALL(CHINESE SCHOOL STUDENTS), are impolite. For example, 1 group, 3 can speak Chinese, other 2 can't, and we just don't bother, we just chat happily ignoring the other 2 non Chinese understander...

She also said that Malays are the most polite, and you know what I was thinking? "Malay? Polite? sure, of course. ya, whatever, fuck that. Dumb pig brained assholes.They act polite, but, are they? ARGH! FUCK THEM! they're only G.I.B.fuckers"

And another, she said I should watch malay drama, she said I should watch, learn about their culture... bla bla bla... And I so damn beh song... I answered back ' What culture? fight fight and divorce and get married again?' that was the first time I ever answered her... rudely... She said something else, I didn't really pay attention. My face turned from smiley to unsmiley.

Malays... not all of them are THAT bad.

So, offended any piggies here? no? If yes, I have to say "Why the fuck are you even reading"

Me... Dress...

Hi all! I'm in my uncle David's place in Singapore! Just came back from Bugis. Bought 2 DRESSES... Ya, me. DRESSES!

Actually, I wanted to buy tees, but my uncle said that every time tees tees tees, so, he put em' back and took me to look at dresses. He said tees made me look frumpy... And he and grandma said that I'm 13 and growing up... And bla bla bla... I don't really remember the rest.

OMG... Dresses... Gosh, dress,dress...DRESS...

Got two. Wanted to buy some tees, but, OK, enough. So, went to get some things for my sisters and some flip flops. Then went to Starbucks. oh ya, I got Winnie The Pooh blankets! Yay Yay Yay! I love Pooh.

Gonna have seafood for dinner later.

OK, so...

YES, ME, RACHEL CHEONG YUN XUAN GONNA WEAR DRESSES NEXT YEAR. BUT, UMM... NOT TOO OFTEN I GUESS... WHAT? I WAS FORCED... DON'T STARE AT ME AND EAT THE SPOON INSTEAD OF YOUR FOOD...

AND YOU GUYS, I'M GONNA KILL YOU IF YOU TAKE PICTURES! AND YES, I WILL!

Merry Christmas and happy holidays... Wait... Happy practising^^

Bye Bye

Umm?

Holiday almost over. Going to Singapore, celebrating Christmas with aunt Iris,Uncle David and grandma. Later at 1 something go lo... Bye Bye...

Now, I've got nothing to do, don't bother reading, I'm gonna write stupid lines now.

1)Oh? What you want me to say then? 'Hey everyone! Guess what? I'm gonna marry a 41 year old guy when I'm 24?' you want me to say that?

2)Everything is everything, everyone is everyone. 33 seals have been broken, and if all of them are, Lucifer walks free.

3)10 years? We can't be possibly doing this for 10 years right? I mean, come on, your picky!

4)What?You want me to break into my own house?

5)Holy crap, I just remembered, I have to do something, then again, I already told him. Well, I told him!

6)No,why would you think that? I would never do such a thing. Ask her, 'Hey, I don't steal food right?' . She said 'Well, my cupcake is in your mouth.'.

7)Oh, you're 30? But you said you were 19. I'm thinking> holy crap, I've done it this time, well, It can't be that bad? But, OMFG, IT IS BAD!

8)Hmm, I guess it couldn't be THAT bad. But then again, it's okay. WTF am I saying? This could be the bad case of relationships, although I've seen older... Way older... But I guess... Ah,dammit...

9)No,I ain't saying that your bad or anything. Well, people would look at me wide eyed and knock the lamppost while walking.

10)I know you don't mind, but I don't know if I do. Well, I don't even know if I'll be in Australia next time, if I am, I think I'll more likely be in Sydney. Perth maybe... Well, maybe I'll go visit you at the nature reserve.

11)Whoa! You're old enough to be my dad! And too old to be my brother!

12)10 years... G dammit. Well, I guess it's gonna be 9 soon.

13) Gonna be end of 2009. I've finish my 13 sentences, don't take em' seriously. I love making up dumb sentences! Bye Bye all!