The Devil Inside

Damn it, I was totally fooled!

This is my second post today, sorry! I know you're fed up of seeing me pop out on your reading list, but hey, at least think of this as me making up for the six months of emptiness =p

I just finished watching The Devil Inside, and I must say, I got fooled =/

It was great at first(because I thought it was real), but when I did my usual after-movie research, I found out that it wasn't a true story; it was just based on a FEW events, and that made me go... Fuck it, I'll never trust trailers again. Oh wait, I already don't trust trailers... But still, I fall for the 'BASED ON A TRUE STORY' every fucking time!

I didn't watch it alone though. Grandma, Lisa and I cramped in my small queen bed, looking at my 15.5" laptop screen wide-eyed only to go "HUH!? THAT'S IT!?" after an hour and half of uneasiness. There was no climax!  The feeling was like this: you're masturbating, and you're almost reaching orgasm... When you're nearly there, someone walks in on you, making you stop and lose the sensation... I'm sure that you can imagine how much it sucks now =)

But still, the make-up and the stares of the possessed were enough to creep me out. I actually ran to my mum's room with a toothbrush hanging from my mouth during the toilet break. Grandma had to answer the phone and Lisa didn't wanna pee in my bathroom... I started feeling paranoid after a minute of brushing... SO YEAH... And well, the nightmare I had last night made me even more insecure!

Since we're talking about the movie The Devil Inside, I might as well tell you about The Devil Inside My Dreams.

So... My subconscious is VERY scared of elevators, and hotels. Every time I go to sleep and awaken to the scene of a hotel in nightmare realm, whether I like it or not, I have to use the elevator, and I always... and I mean always, will have a little encounter with the devil...

Last night's was the worst I had so far... And surprisingly, EVEN GOD SHOWED UP! Jesus Christ literally saved me...

I'll tell you what I remember, so here it goes...

It was raining in the city, people in suits had their briefcases above their heads, running everywhere, seeking shelter. With my mum's Gucci in hand, I arrive in front of this giant building; the hotel we're supposed to stay in. My parents, sisters and brother were in our room, and for some reason, I wasn't with them. At that time, it was like I had just finished running an errand.

The hotel lobby was crowded, wet people were almost everywhere! Some of the bell boys seemed unhappy, I don't know why, so I just ignored them and skipped to the place where the elevators were. I pressed the up button, it glowed with a faint orange light, and a young boy came to wait beside me. We made eye contact for a moment, I smiled.

I felt a sense of unease, because I knew that something was bound to go wrong... Elevators... Hotels... They are just too familiar! But I stood there calmly, waiting patiently for the doors to open. I wanted to run, but instead, I swayed and hummed a tune while my feet froze in place.

Ding, the doors slid open. I hesitated. The boy looked up at me, and went inside. I stared at him for a moment, before realizing that it was time I went inside. I leaned my body forward, and my thumb pressed the button marked four, a pale orange glow indicated that the elevator knows my destination. The boy was going to level five.

The shiny doors moved horizontally, shutting us in, my heart thumped, and I prayed that it will be a successful trip...

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My hair stood, I felt nervous and scared... If it doesn't... Stop...
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No! This can't be happening again!

As the elevator skipped past the fourth floor, the boy and I glanced at each other nervously, we both knew that we were in deep shit.
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The elevator rose up with increasing speed, it made me sick, and there were millions of butterflies fluttering in my stomach. A sinister laugh filled the air, and I almost cried... I knew who it was... I knew what was happening... After all the times I've encountered this, I still couldn't escape this fate...

Ding, the doors casually slid open, like nothing was wrong. Clouds were what I saw, and a blue space surrounded us. The elevator was no longer a box, it had turned into a transparent space. For a second there, I thought I was safe...

"MUAHAHAHA! WELCOME! YOU'LL NEVER ESCAPE! AHAHAHA!"

I scream my heart out. I wasn't safe. AT ALL.

The little boy started reciting verses from the bible. I couldn't do anything... I stayed close to the boy... He kept chanting, asking me to help him out. I felt humiliated because I didn't know ANYTHING! I don't know why, but I started beating the transparent walls, talking in gibberish. The boy grew frustrated because of the way I acted, and asked me what was wrong... But I felt too embarrassed to tell him that I don't know anything, and everything that came out of my mouth was... Air... He couldn't understand me... I became desperate and tried using clumsy sign language, but I guess that just made me look like a chimpanzee, because, the boy gave up understanding me.

Out of the blue, a pole and an exit appeared. The boy's face lit up and he made a run of it, holding onto the pole, the grinned at me and said "see ya!". My jaw dropped, the fuck did that come from, I wondered. That was the least of my worries, the beast is just a few steps away from the door! God damn it! How could that Christian boy abandon me like that!?

"YOU'RE MINE NOW! I'VE WAITED A LONG TIME FOR THIS DAY!"

I retreated to a corner, my hands shielding my head like it was actually gonna protect me. I prayed... I shouted... I begged... "God! Please... SAVE ME! HELP ME! I beg you! Please... Just... Rescue me! AHHHHH! Lord, please... Save me... Save... Help me!" I was crying.

"AHAHA! DO YOU THINK THAT YOU WILL BE SAVED!? HE WILL NEVER COME! YOU'RE MINE NOW!"

As evil continued to near me, I heard a warm, loving voice...

"What are you thinking? My dear, don't think that you're not worthy of my love... You will always be. Now go, run!"

"F-F-Father...?" I almost couldn't believe it. He came... He... Actually... Came... For me...

"NO! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? ARGH! YOU CAN'T RUN! YOU CAN'T! YOU'RE MINE! YOU'RE MINE! YOU ARE MINE, YOU PIG! COME BACK! YOU CANNOT ESCAPE ME!" The angry voice boomed behind me.

I couldn't see my savior, but he was there. Again, he told me to run.

The surrounding area was no longer a fake sky, it was a stairway. I looked back, and saw a red figure coming at me, I froze, but the voice told me to hurry and save myself... I didn't take the steps one by one, my legs were shaking... Heck! I wanted to get as far away as possible! I didn't use my feet! I climbed over the railings! Jumped my way to safety! Behind me, or above me, I could still hear him say : "YOU WILL NEVER ESCAPE! YOU WILL BE MINE ONE DAY! AHHHHHHHHHHH!"

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I heard the humming sounds of my air conditioner... A few words escaped my dry lips: "Zongxu... I'm sorry... I think I believe now... He... He came... To my aid... Xu... I..." Darkness was what followed.

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Did that seem like a horror story? Haha, I'll share more of my disturbing dreams next time, okay? One dream in one post is enough!

Oh shit, I better come back into reality! I have an exam tomorrow, and I still don't know shit! Ah, well... Sleep is more important after all! I guess I'll just read someone else's reference book tomorrow. What the hell am I sitting for tomorrow anyway!? Gaaaah! I'm screwed!

Goodnight, and do tell me the face you see your classmates make tomorrow, okay? ;]

I'd love to write my thoughts about my nightmare, but alas, time won't allow it. Do comment if you can? I'll feel really lonely when nobody comments. Haha, sweet dreams!


Hade bra~!

Welcome Home~ Dad~

Whee~ When was the last time I saw my own father? =X

Maybe last... August...?

August...

September...

 November...

December...

January...

February...

Six months already?! Huaa? Or is it eight months...? Uww... I forgot how long >_<

Yesterday's post was a total FAILURE. I was half asleep when I wrote it. LOL. Nah... I couldn't possibly treat you guys like... Strangers~ We're friends... RIGHT? RIGHT????

Oh, Hong Gi's birthday is on March 2nd... Which reminds me... As Rachel Minam Tae Min Onew =_= I have to buy THREE gifts for my lovely Hong Gi~ ♥

Anyway... I'M NOT into K-pop. I'm just playing. Hey. It's good enough that I know which group are made outta guys, which group are made outta girls... Well... At least now... I THINK I know who is in SNSD...?

Lalala~

Stephanie got good grades so far, jealous~♥ hng!

Haha. I just realized how much I suck. Never mind.... We'll see about that... I'm sure that after drawing 80 pages of Science diagrams... Multiple uterus, ovaries, vagina, and penis... I will ace my Science =X

I'm just saying. Not sure. UGH. Why do I have to learn things that I don't wanna learn and do things I don't wanna do! UGH!

>_<

International Chinese Writing Competition? LMAO! WHY?! Do you need me to write... Tell me why teacher... I will write. I will write you a lesbian story. Or do you prefer gay?

Grr...

DAMMIT.

I feel like my results are killing me. No, seriously, I seriously feel that way. Pressure... Even if the test papers are really light, it's like they're crushing me. Ahhh! It doesn't matter...? But let's just face it... Everything matters... Hmm... I think I will turn into one of those kia su people soon... But... Man... Just thinking about it is enough to kill me. I feel so tired just thinking about my grades!

Gahhh!

I really... Really... Really.... REALLY... Feel like dying.

Don't know why. Unlike most people, I know that there are people who are having things WAY worse, and that there's a solution to everything, and that we should cherish life, blah blah blah... I know that crap... Gave me life...? Gave me life... Like everyone living on this world, YOU are the same. YOU make the decisions, because what? YOU chose to die because of us? Yeah, damn YOU, YOU should have just let YOUR FATHER destroy the world. Second chance? What the heck, aren't YOU destroying it now anyway?! And I use to wonder why they follow HIM instead of YOU.  I guess I got my answer now.

Sorry if I disappoint you too much dear, if you don't like the way I think then don't like me at all. Because we both know, we are not the same. I am born this way.

Lady Gaga

レイシェル＠１５５９

Faith... 80%

Seriously... Because of THAT... Everyone's looking at my blog?

Oh wow, HE KNOWS? Ah... What the hell, he's gonna find out anyway... So what?

You guys like Favorited that post or something? How many... Yesterday was ten... So? Today? I cannot imagine... The... UGH. Never mind.

Robinson is a brave man, braver than me, because, I'm not a man.

I actually wrote that for literature... Hey... She didn't look at it, did she? Oh well... At least I'm happy. She's disappointed? Why? Me getting 31/40 is a shock? My mum doesn't know about my results yet, hope she forgets... Man, I really suck this time... 50 for Chinese... No surprise there.

I have nothing to hide... How nice... I hate this. Why does things always have to be this way?! Sometimes, people die! If things are REALLY BAD...

80% faith... Faith, faith, faith...

Faith... Tell me, TRUTHFULLY... What do you think the chances are? You know him better than I do. Obviously. Who even viewed my God damned blog in the band room? Who wanted to see? Damn... Everyone? Seriously... Everyone? Can't blame anyone... No, I'm not stupid, I just don't want to. I answered the question... In your minds... Whatever they are, I'm sure it's the same answer.

Faith...

Faith...

Faith...

You keep reminding me about 80% faith... Okay, well... Fine, I have faith... I HAVE FAITH! I just... Don't know...

I'm curious about one thing, everyone just read those BIG WORDS right? Nothing else? Cause... I hate people knowing who I am. It makes me... NOT ME... I like keeping myself, to myself. Hey, who knew... People would ACTUALLY read this...

Great, so what? Another ten tomorrow? I seriously hope not... Good thing everyone's quiet about it. So, um... I'll act like I don't know anything, but I actually know something... I can be a great actress, but... At times, I suck. I don't know about this... So, I'll just... Avoid... Things... People I don't really know who knows...

Not... One... Word...

Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill...

Sounds familiar?

Oh... Right, I was suppose to talk about dinner first...

Damn, it was good. GERMAN SAUSAGES, from US. TAIWAN WINNIES, from Taiwan... MANGO from my backyard... Oh and... Pork. All... Grilled and ate on the spot. Thank you George Foreman grill! I guess tomorrow will be roasted chicken... Hmm... I wonder...

Glee goes GaGa... Nice episode. Anyone watches Glee? Besides Pn.Kamelawati?

Can't read my

Can't read my

No

He can't read my

Poker Face

Um... IDK... Another Post I guess...

HAI! Today's Tuesday, also, the second day since the school break ended, also, our band pre-show, AND... Kiko's 1st death anniversary is in 3 days! And oh, thanks but no thanks NJX... You... Read the post with REALLY REALLY REALLY BIG WORDS in the band room? Nice job. Everyone saw huh? Including Ah Boon and Hui Bao? Nicely done. And thank you Toozgx... For telling NJX about THAT. I guess...

Well, everything's okay, SO FAR. Apparently, Mr.Milk is a skeptic, so, I don't have to worry. I don't really know what skeptic means, SOMEBODY told me. Oh well, 10% luck, 10% fate and 80% faith... I'm not a very lucky person, fate? I guess it's okay... Faith? Well... How about a 50%? Even if I tell him myself, like you said, he's one tough nut to crack. Sorry for pulling you into such a boring conversation, when clearly, you were interested in talking about band.

OOOOOOH!

Yea, tried out the George Foreman grill my dad got from US, oil free! The grilled meat is oil free and tastes damn good, different from using the stove, best of all, you don't need oil... This is electrical, so, no need for charcoal. I guess it'd be BBQ dinner for some time, welcome to join us!

The pre-show... Everything went well, I didn't screw up! Wee-hee! Or maybe I just did what I can and didn't even know if I screwed up... UGH... Well, at least my tunic fits. I love the feather on the hat, is it made out of chicken feathers? Fluffy! Why do they have to make such tight fitting uniforms? The collar was... UGH... I can barely breathe! But, I managed. Surprisingly, I wasn't worried at all, even with people looking. Maybe because I know that I'm not alone...

Didn't anybody notice? I got a hair cut! This morning! Damn... Nobody noticed? Fine... I'll go shave my head next...

Kiko, I love you, hope you're happy.