Like a Bowl of... Mixed Nuts!?

Remember how I said I'd marry you if you cycled to my place? Well, that was before I tried paddling out of my comfort zone. We all know Sitiawan isn't that big a town, but whenever people were to travel to my place for some unknown reason, they'd be complaining about Lot 16 of K.D.S.K to be too damn far from their homes! I don't get it, really. The city council should invest in cycling paths in this small little town so everyone can get around with ease. Cars are all we need? Pfft. Fuck you. I can't drive yet!

I don't always go to the post office, but when I do, I make sure I risk my life cycling there like I'm sending an illegal package that's worth a ton over the black market.

THE THINGS I DO FOR LOVE!

Courage the Cowardly Dog has always been my role model, although he may seem like the worst character a kid could learn from, lemme tell you, he's the most loyal one you'll ever come across! Trying your best for someone you love is only natural, don't you think? At least I didn't follow in Spongebob's footsteps and ended up frying patties at some fast food restaurant! I never even liked that yellow sponge with the annoying laugh in the first place.

Stepping out of the post office with a grin that stretched from ear to ear, the five o'clock Sun couldn't have felt better on my skin. My rusty bike was the only one parked outside the building when I stepped out. All the others have already paid their bills, sent whatever they wanted to and rushed home before the lady behind the counter told me everything was taken care of, that I could leave. I saw the mail men load up their trucks. Mine wasn't going to be on its way until tomorrow. But I smiled anyway. My journal, it seems, is going international. Happy Life no.2, along with my Australian journal, are flying to a faraway land called Netherlands.

I was tempted to get a cup of Okinawa milktea at Poppers after dropping my package off at the office, but since today's a Monday, I wasn't sure if they were open for business today. Maybe some other time? But it's not always I cycle out of my safety zone. To be honest, I was worried that I might get run over at any time and become roadkill; no telling what will happen when you put impatient imbeciles behind wheels. The wind was nice, and I enjoyed my little trip, but the vehicles zooming past poor little me wasn't the least bit pleasant, especially when they were speeding lorries. Got honked at-- TWICE.

I want to cut my hair.

I always feel like that on Mondays. It's like the stars are in all the wrong positions on this wretched day, forever making me hate my magnificently grown head of annoying black hair. If I was a lion, it'd be great. But no, I'm human, and my friends can't stand it when I let my hair down and whip it back and forth... Wait, no, I don't whip it back and forth at all!

Milktea! No pearls, please; disgusting little things.

If you sit me down and ask me to think long and hard about how I came to love the one I love now, I can't give you an answer. To me, love comes naturally, and I don't NEED a reason to be in love. I just love because I can and because I want to. I think if it's meant to be, then it's meant to be, and if it's not, there's no point fighting for it. I allow myself to fall knowing that the pain will haunt me after the days of sweetness have gone. But hey, live for the moment and don't stress the future. I'm done with planning ahead; see what happened to us? All the empty promises we made. It's not the most important aspect of my life--I daresay--but it completes me and makes life more interesting. Don't you think so? You should know by now, when it comes to a person I don't dislike, I'm kind enough to let them walk all over me.

I don't have a boyfriend.

I'll come clean here, the reason why I wrote so much today is because I have no where else to do so. I finished my journal and while I contemplate about getting a new one, bloggie is going to be the one who gobbles up most of my words.

I LOVE MUM. It's not mother's day, I know. But... I find it hard to face her these days and she's down. I don't even try, I think. It's not making it any easier for her because she's trying to approach me. There's this gap between us, and I don't know what to do... I can't clear my thoughts and let things go back to how they used to be, because she doesn't see what I see and I definitely can't grasp her point of view.

Sigh... Just getting it off my chest.

Goodbye.

We've come to the last piece of nut in our bowl.

The 26th of October

I just love October, and my favorite day in October is the 26th, my birthday! Come to think of it, I like the 26th of every month. Again, it's a personal thing.

Every year, I don't like celebrating the day I came out through a hole. I don't feel the need to celebrate such a day, it isn't very special, is it? Each year, I have a mini gathering with close friends, without receiving much gifts. I wonder what's so special about this year though, my beloved Zinc made an album for me and I actually celebrated my birthday with my usual--fucked-up and crazy--bunch of buds.

Since it's close to Halloween, I had the urge to dress up like a serial killer and go out in public. So today, le me, and le two close friends went out in costumes. I dressed up as a pedophile/serial killer--yes, suits me, I know--with Jesvin as my Lolita victim while Zinc dressed up as Dr.Shu in a bloody school uniform with holes here and there.

Sorry, this picture doesn't bring out the best of Zinc and I~

Before we headed out, my stalker-mum wanted to take some photos of us in our costumes. Stalker-mum doesn't usually take bad pictures, but somehow, today's picture is really blur and it doesn't bring out the essence of my perverseness and Dr.Shu's scariness. Miss Jesvin however, looks especially good in this picture. Ah, I wonder if I should give Jesvin the dress she wore in that photo since it suits her well. Yep, it may not look like it, but, IT'S MINE, along with the doll and bag she's carrying...

Although there were twelve people who celebrated my birthday, only the three of us went full fledged with the costumes... Those bastards! They should be thankful that I didn't suffocate them with my cake... Oh wait, there was no cake... Except for the ice-cream log cake that LiYi bought... Hmm... Quite an abnormal way of celebrating a birthday: no birthday cake. 

Originally, I wanted to go with the unzipped-mouth Halloween costume, but I don't have anything sticky enough to stick the zipper on my face! I tried UHU glue, but the freaking thing didn't even stick! I did the unzipped-mouth makeup for a while, and boy did I look scary! But it was too incomplete and clumsy to actually BE worth going out in. If I had more time to prepare and the right materials, my costume would be like this:

Anyway, Silent Hill: Revelation was a disappointment. I didn't get the oopmh I was supposed to feel when watching a horror movie. I guess they should just leave it to us Asians to direct horror movies, because honestly, Westerners fucking suck at it. The effects and monsters were real enough, I'll give em' credit for that. For me, the movie was too damn fast moving; probably because I play Silent Hill and it takes me FOREVER to get something done. Maybe I just had my expectations a bit too high? Well, not being able to see it in 3D already ruined half my mood for the movie anyway... Guys, do tell me if the 3D one is good =)

I removed my birthday on my Facebook profile so I'd know who to delete. Those who didn't wish me happy birthday would get deleted, because friends remember each other's birthdays =| I'm quite happy that a number of people wished me, the most shocking birthday wish though was from my lovely Mariane; I didn't think that she'd remember it cause she's a year older and we only see each other every so often.

I'm happy. YES, I'M HAPPY. I couldn't hold back my smile when they sang me Happy Birthday in four languages: English, Chinese, Cantonese and Malay... TWICE!! As for why they sang to me twice, it's because Qi Shun blew out my candle the first time :/

I made two wishes before I blew out my candle. Wait... Was Jessica already there when... Ah, she wasn't there yet... So I guess that it's God's decision  that my wish doesn't apply to her. If I tell you guys my wish, then it won't come true anymore, will it? Haha, so then I guess I'll keep what I wished for a secret. I'll give you a hint though, both wishes have something to do with being together forever *wink* take a wild guess and you just might get them right.

The presents I received will not be taken photos of and will not be uploaded. I'm way too lazy to do that, loves. The least I can do is tell you guys what I got, so here's the list: Writing books, from WeiWei; Scrapbook/album, from Zinc; 4 sleeping masks, one purse and a green hair clip, from the guys; beautiful gold bracelet with pearls, from Jessica; a cake, from LiYi; Magic Shawl, from grandma. My grandpa gave me RM50 while aunt Flower gave me RM20. At first, grandpa gave the Ang Pau to Lisa cause he thought that it was HER birthday. HAHAHA. The guys' gift made me laugh, 4 sleeping masks! With some sort of cooling/heating pad too! They said that it's for me to sleep in class xD

SUCH A LONG POST TODAY! My, my, I AM HAPPY! I haven't been like this in a long time! I guess even the news of having band practice tomorrow can't bring me down to Earth! I won't be going for practice tomorrow though... I'm not up for it yet... I might go at 10A.M though... It's funny, albeit Mr.Tan said not to have practice... Ah whatever... It's not up to me... Sigh... I'm going to bed...

Went to PizzaHut and the cinema in our Halloween costumes.

Why?

Because fuck you, that's why. 

Happy Halloween~!

New Haircut!

By new, I mean REALLY new...

I've always played safe. Recently though, I got tired of my boring hairstyle that I wore for almost three years and decided to get rid of it. My old hairstyle wasn't all that bad, I looked quite good with it, but what the heck? I'm 16, I'm supposed to have a bold, daring hairstyle instead of one that says "I'm tired, go away".

After getting this new cut, I don't look like a writer anymore, and that really kills. The reason why I even stuck to my messy hair of three years was because the bushiness and face-covering fringe made me look artistic... Now, I just look like someone who came out from a manga; totally not what I expected.

As you all know, Rachel Cheong isn't photogenic AT ALL, so that is why there will be no pictures of my face with my new haircut. Yes, I only took pictures of the way my hair looks.

This, my friend,

this the RIGHT side of my head 

=)

Obviously, this is my fringe.

FLAT.

I didn't take a picture of how the left side is like because it's more or less the same length as my OLD hairstyle. Yeeaaah, one side is longer than the other... WAAAAY LONGER~!

I won't keep my current style for very long though; I HATE FLAT FRINGES! I prefer very long fringes that I can sweep to the side because they make my face look less round. Well, no matter what type of fringe, they are all equally irritating. 

My friends had a good laugh when I showed up at band practice and I had a nice time laughing at how they laughed as well. MY FACE IS SO ROOOOOOOOUNNNNDDDDD!

It's time I removed the nail polish on my toes. The colours make my toenails look like Skittles, but I'm tired of them already. Right now, they look like the colours of faded spring, reminding me of the days that will never come again. 

Light blue,

Light green,

What do they remind you of?

I know that looking at my feet isn't helping you think.

XD

Mm? My sister is having her UPSR this week, and she's preparing for her singing competition. I guess not giving a damn about exams runs in the family. But wait, my mum cares. In this whole family, my mum is the person who frets for us all.

I want to dye my hair blue,

get a tattoo,

and regret later.  

Stories. Future Choices. Surprises.

Recently, I'm becoming everything I hate more and more.

Never in my life have I ever thought of writing romance, but I've been getting a lot of inspiration. A romantic plot would unravel in my head every five minutes. I don't know what I want to write more, the actual love story or the 'after the big kiss' scene. The story I'm working on right now is going from bad to worse. As if that isn't bad enough, I am stuck in the scene of somebody's fiancee raping the fiancee's ex... Of course, the raping hadn't actually begun... Only... Molesting...

I want to write horror again, but with each passing year, I tend to forget bits of the style I write horror with. For those of you who read my Violin Girl series before, should I continue with a final book? It was fun writing the series, better when I had a partner-- I still remember you, idiot-- I am embarrassed to read the stories that twelve-year-old me wrote though, they probably need a lot of correcting. Now that I think of it, I was much more popular back when I was twelve.

It has been a while since I killed people I hate in my stories... It happened so often back then that I sometimes wonder how those people can still be alive. I've killed every single one of my friends at least five times already =x

Finishing the Violin Girl series crossed my mind a few years ago, but I abandoned the project halfway because I was losing confidence. The notebook is now lying in my drawer of stories, waiting for me to either finish it or tear it apart.

Did I become less violent over the years? I don't have such strong urges to kill people in stories anymore. Hmm... The more I don't care, the more I can't write... OH MY GOD! Does this mean I have to actually care to get good reasons for me to want people dead? Ah... That will be a problem indeed... Indeed...

Oh the reason why I'm even here today is because I cannot decide what to do after I graduate from high-school! There are THREE options: Mass communication, English literature, ADP(American-transfer program). The ADP is my backup plan for when I really really REALLY cannot decide. I'll leave it at that then. WELL... What do you guys think? I hate people, but I'm a people person when I need to be.

Lalalalalalala~

That aside, I CAN'T WAIT FOR LADY GAGA'S FAME TO BE IN MY POSSESSION! I don't know if  dad will get a bottle for me or not since he's not going to the US this round... What is there to get in Spain?

I have absolutely no mood for horror stories. Even though it's party time for the hungry ghosts, this year seems to be quiet... Too quiet... Ah, I don't want anything bad to happen to anyone.

I think I will blog regularly again. BAH, that is what I always say. I hope I can though, I do want to share my thoughts... WELL, not like anyone cares anyway. Personal blogs almost never get any attention... Mm... I guess it's better this way. =)


I think I won't consider English literature anymore since I gave up on Hamlet after reading the first act =-=

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Daisy White of your Dreams

Daisy White is an excellent writer. Make your way through her most famous post, 三天两夜之黄金海岸, indulge yourself in her words, imagine yourself as miss Daisy White looking at the sea and sky from the bedroom window... and get ready for the biggest surprise of your life(for those who know her)! We have to give credit to miss Daisy White for being full of surprises, now don't we? She will make millions if she directs a horror movie. Ah, don't worry, the blog has got nothing to do with ghosts... Just... 

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Blabber Post #arandomnumberhere

Ah. Monday nights- TEEN WOLF.


I love watching it, I even woke up from my sleep to watch it. Yeah, I feel asleep at around Buka Puasa time, at 9pm, I automatically woke up, peed, and ran downstairs to the TV room. To watch Teen Wolf.

I have only one thing to say...

And that is...

Tyler Hoechlin is hot.

Isn't he hot? Wow... Yeah... Mm... Hmmm... I'm gonna upload a shirtless picture of him next, his muscles will make you faint~

shirtless pics from 

http://itsfashionandthecity.blogspot.com/2011/06/shirtless-colton-hayes-tyler-hoechlin.html 

*v*

I noticed it after reading him on Wiki, and yep, he does look like our famous glittery vampire from Twilight. Mm hmm... 

They are both... Hot... But... Let's face it, Tyler is hotter than Rob =D

I think I know why they chose Rob for the part of Edward Cullen- Because he is fair, like a vampire.

Is it me or are darker people all werewolves? Sheesh, like Taylor Lautner, Tyler Hoechlin and Tyler Posey~ Heeeyy, their names all start with the letter T~

I know that most of you don't know what or who I'm talking about because you guys are all geeks, put down the books and watch TV damn it!

That reminds me... I'll go read more history to make me sleep =D 

That was what happened during Buka Puasa time, I was studying history. I fell asleep. LONG LIVE THE POWER OF HISTORY BOOKS!

My boyfriend is my bestfriend,
My bestfriend is my boyfriend.
My enemy is my boyfriend,
My boyfriend is my enemy.
I hate my boyfriend,
I love my boyfriend.
What the hell, I'm so lonely that only one person is in my life.

"I'm looking at you."

PERVERT

Ahhhhh~

Ahhh~ I've finally started on Sekai-ichi Hatsuiko. AHHHH~ My goodness. I wonder why homosexual love relationship excites me. Heck, they excite me more than my own STRAIGHT relationship. Though I think that my boyfriend is gay. 

Tee-hee~ After watching 5 episodes and the OVA, I'll stop watching and READ the manga now. Continue to watch episode 6 and 7 while I wait for the release of episode 8!!! Yes! It will be out by tomorrow NIGHT! So will episode 19 of Gosick! Ahhhhhh, another reason why I love Fridays. But... Some things just ruin the love-Friday mood. The top reason is of course Rebecca Black's awful song Friday. Don't remind me.

Wow. After watching Sekai-ichi Hatsuiko, lives of manga authors and editors are THAT scary O_O

BEHOLD! The editors.

Aha~ Editor-in-Chief. Takano. 

He reminds me of Usagi from Junjou Romantica.

The perfect seme. AHHHH~

Ritsu. Brown hair, green eyes... 

The same as Misaki from Junjou Romantica.

Only...

Misaki is cuter~

Nakamura Shungiku sure is good at writing BL. Ahhhh~ I love her~

I don't know why, but in BL, the seme tend to have a square face, and the uke have... Sharp chin and big eyes... More girly... But... DAMN, they just look so good together, making me feel jealous.

Always wondering how it feels like to date a girl, I know I can experience it someday... But... The thing I'm more interested in knowing is, how does it feel like to be a guy, that dates another guy =x

I always have these fantasies of my life turning out like those in manga and anime. AHAHAHA. Suddenly, I feel like being a guy. The main purpose of course, is so that I could date another guy, and be gay. Hehehe. I just make you want to slap me, don't I?

Stories... They are too good to be true. Why wont she just tell me that she likes me too?! That will make everything more dramatic, and I'll have to choose between her and him which I really can't but truthfully can!!! Oooh, that would make me in the middle, acting as a rope for tug of war. Fair skin, pretty legs, shiny eyes and soft hair... Ahhh~

GEEZUS!

I have to STOP thinking about her, or else, this is going to be BAD for ME. I'll be stuck at home writing about my own yuri fantasies if she still wont leave my mind. I never tried writing yaoi... WAIT... I have... 

Never mind... I will now go to Mangafox and excite myself to sleep.

I blush, I jump, I close my eyes, wrap myself in my blanket and roll in my rocking chair while watching BL. 

The Bookaholics 300 Followers Giveaway

Wheee~

The Bookaholics 300 Followers Giveaway

This is my first time joining a giveaway, can I bribe random.org to pick me? xp

While Aik is away preparing for the mid-year exams, I'm still here.... Joining her giveaway, blogging bout it, stalking my boyfriend on Facebook, watching movies and thinking bout yaoi anime. Everything... EXCEPT... Studying.

I'm the worst T^T

SOOOOOOOOOO

Like the title la, 300 Followers Giveaway.

One winner... THERE'S JUST ONE?!

That winner will receive... Um...

The Demon Trappers by Jana Oliver Sticker

The Demon Trappers by Jana Oliver Iron-On Guild

[Signed] Forsaken by Jana Oliver Extract & Poster

[Signed] The Demon Trapper's Daughter by Jana Oliver Postcard

[Signed] The Body Finder by Kimberly Derting Bookmark

[Signed] Desires of The Dead by Kimberly Derting Bookmark

Desires of The Dead by Kimberly Derting Sticker

[Signed] Radiant Shadows by Melissa Marr Bookmark

[Signed] Bookplate by Melissa Marr

Waaaa~

So many~

Let's see... I'll be... Competing with... 300 more followers. 

I think I'll need to find a four-leaf clover. And a rabbit's foot. 

I'm not gonna chop one off =_=

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

I'm disconnected!

Damn you Streamyx. 

Oh! I forgot! The giveaway is available worldwide~

Join~

Join~

Join~

Maybe I'll win instead of you =D

レイチェル＠１３０３

Hello 2011, Bye-Bye 2010

New year already?

Damn...

It better be good.

PMR doesn't sound good to me though. I hate paying attention. You know... In class... You tend to space out, and when you finally remember that you're in class, the teacher finished talking, and then... You don't know a thing. Yeah... I'm beginning to daydream during maths tuition, and that is not a good sign.

Run baby run...

What? I'm listening to songs...

Lalala~

Bikini Beach Party?

They don't have big boobs.

I'm just saying...

I'm tired, and sleepy, I think I'm not gonna change again... Besides... I didn't roll in the sand, too crowded. Heh. I hate crowds and loud noises. I don't like parties or concerts with people dancing and all that stuff. I'd rather spend my time sitting down, lying on the sand, looking at stars, listening to the waves and crickets or ride a bike, or just walk around and enjoy the breeze...

Yeah, I'm a boring person, I know... I know...

Smoke... Smoking ain't fun, why do people even smoke? I've tried it. It's smoky, and it kinda suffocates you... Even if it's cherry flavored... Drinking isn't good either, it's bitter...

People get addicted to stuff that are NOT fun.

Marina Island... The whole damn island, and we can't even find a quiet spot by the waters.

They should have made a bigger beach, and a smaller office, with LESS shops and MORE trees, and... A SMALLER PARKING LOT... Damn... It's just crowded today... They don't have to make such a big parking lot.

I wonder if the concert will end tomorrow...

Ahhh...

I just feel like riding that lie down bike???

Looks fun and relaxing...

Yeesh. Everyone I know is a pervert, including me. And my boyfriend.

I think Benjamin has issues, guys usually wanna touch and look at girl boobs instead of OTHER male... Privates. Hmm... When you go there, don't make fun of people, somebody might have a bigger one. Either that, or Benjamin just has a baby brother.

Joking, please don't kill me.

=_=

Why do we always end up talking about that?

At least it's better than talking about nothing...

Cement...

Include the T... Don't end with MEN... We yellow-minded people get the wrong message.

Hmm... Let's see...

... It's not cheap, if you trust the person, and you actually love that person. Not everything is called 'cheap'. Don't make people sound like prostitutes please. If it's called 'cheap', then... You consider every girl in a relationship doing it before marriage cheap?

Hmm...

Well...

We're in Malaysia... What can I say...

In Japan, the legal age is 13. Wow... 13... No wonder they make such good ero games. And wow... Yuri, and yaoi... Haaa... Japanese are all perverts~ If I could draw... Just imagine... NEVER MIND... Are you okay with me being a pervert? Try not to get raped in NS... I would be upset... Even if it was a guy who raped you...

RIGHT.

Where did I go???

I actually find the topic interesting, most girls would just... Blush... I guess...? Seriously? Guys talk about that all the time? Wow... When you said imagining a group of guys together in the same room... I actually thought of group masturbation, with a bunch of guys sitting in a circle and... Uhh... You know the rest...

=_=

It sounded more like a gay cult... Sorry...

I will not continue that topic.

RIGHT...

Too crowded. I didn't get a chance to lie on the sand, but... I'm happy, cause, I got a softer and warmer arm around me.

Walking like best friends down the lane.  HAHAHA.

Nice.

It was a bit tickle-ish around the waist.

Damn you Justin... Stop taking pictures!

 Do I have tuition tomorrow?

UHHHH...

Damn...

I forgot...

Well...

You free later on? In the evening?

Transport is also a problem, even in a small town like this... HAIH...

I feel like spending the rest of the remaining hours with you...

I will be awake by... Uhh... After lunch time...

And...

Three months...

Long time.

But...

Well, I can wait, it's the only thing I'm good at.

Three months...

Great, just after the first monthly exam.

2011...

Old faded uniform.

Same pink school bag.

Same pink pencil case.

2010...

Good-bye...

I've become an even more boring person. I don't like loud things, I just like quietness. Soft sand, salt water, green hills, tall trees... Flip-flops...

You...

Nothing more...

The countdown wasn't great, the fireworks made my neck sore, you made me feel warm and cared for, the only person I'm shy with.

If you love me, wont you let me know...

Coldplay, Violet Hill 

Band Trip~2010~

Band trip... One day... To Genting, then to Times Square, stop for dinner on the way back... Then... Finally... Back home...

Thursday...

DAMMIT...

School's on Monday. I feel like killing myself already.

PMR...

PMP =_=

ARGH!

SCHOOL'S ON MONDAY T^T

Let's not talk about that. I hate it. Just thinking about that makes me wanna jump down from a high place.

Right.

The trip.

It was... Fine... Okay... Cold... Nice... Not nice...

My legs still hurt. 

There HAD to be clowns. I was in such a bad mood that they made me so scared that I forgot about my bad mood and became scared. At least they didn't wear THAT much make up... I have no idea why children like clowns. They are freaking scary. Killer clowns. Killer dolls. 

Next time, I think I'm gonna bring cup noodles to Genting. Dammit. I spent about 90 on food. 30+ on tea, 17 on a freaking Happy Meal which made me UNHAPPY, 2.10 on an ice cream, 20 on rice, 10 on a sausage and Milo, about another 18 on breakfast this morning...

Oh well...

At least I got what I needed.

Yes, I bought a t because I feel bad about not changing when going out with you.

What?

At least I got a shirt as an excuse to my mum... You do not wanna know how much I used... 

WELL

Uhhh...

Nothing.

RIGHT.

THE TRIP.

On the bus... Leaving school.

Before that, we went exploring the school. Saw a kitten. Damn cute. Damn small. It liked me so much, I had to carry it for Jessica when we explored the school a SECOND time. It was so hungry that it thought I had milk, either that or I just smell damn good. Good thing it didn't tear my shirt. Or else... 

Lalala~

So... On the bus... While everyone's sleeping so nicely, I WAS WAITING FOR A REST STOP. I held it in for 2 freaking hours. We passed two stops that I was so worried that we weren't gonna stop at all... I was looking at the road, for rest stops...  Jessica just... opens her eyes and does nothing. She couldn't sleep. And I thought I was the only one awake. The person behind me slept so nicely that I heard him snore. Not like a pig la, very soft. 

Morning came.

When we finally stopped for breakfast, I went to sleep.

Nobody went down. After 30 minutes, I woke up and went down. So... Yeah... I just slept for 30 minutes. From about 5.30am to 6am =_=

Called Zongxu TO TELL HIM THAT WE WERE HAVING BREAKFAST. Because everyone was wondering who's gonna be responsible for calling him and then suddenly turned to me. I wonder why...

Was conversationless as usual with him.

Tuu...Tuu...Tuu...

The bus went up the hill... 

Tuu... Sounds more like a train, but, whatever. That's the best thing that I can think of.

Nice scenery, I felt jumping into the clouds. They looked so soft, so fluffy... If you wanna suicide, do it there, you'll never know when you might hit a rock and die.

Genting...

Left the bags in the lobby, then off we go, to the outdoor park.

I found feeding the fishes more interesting than going on rides that makes you throw up. 

Right. I spent 12 on fish food...

=_=

I was having a headache, and the queues are long... So... Feed the fishes, it's relaxing, easy, and the fishes get some food, people take photos of them, I get less bored, less stressed, less moody... I'm just not a morning person... I felt like dying in the outdoor park. I never rode anything extreme. Got myself and the others soaked because I wanted to ride the water log thing. 

You have to hold on real tight, if not, you might fall off half way... And... The heaviest three that day HAD to share the same boat =_=

After drying ourselves with the other ride, we went to the restroom and dried ourselves properly... Uhh... Not properly... With the HAND dryer... Not HAIR dryer... 

I'm killing myself. I smell like a giant rose T^T

I can't continue this post like this...

I can't...

Or wait...

You can't continue this post cause your eyes are hurting?

Well, have a break, have a Kit-Kat. There's a long, long way to go.

After drying. Lunch time.

Thanks to Si Kai, we climbed down the stairs, and up again, then down the other one, then go back up again... Then... We finally went back indoors, and went to McDonald's to have my UNHappy Meal.

That's when my headache got worse. Worse headache, even moodier.

They had to DRAG me... Literally DRAG me to the outdoor park again. I was saying that I was gonna be fine on my own and that I was gonna wait at the lobby till three, BUT NO... They HAD to drag me out... They said that he was waiting for me? Yeah right, I just followed them, met more clowns, and waited for them to finish while I took pictures of flowers. 

Pictures.

Everyone owns a freaking DSLR these days. They feel uncomfy when using a TINY cellphone to take pictures, and sorry my tiny cell has its own stupid light settings that the guy couldn't take a pic using it because he's too smart and doesn't know how to use a cell to take pictures anymore. And sorry I don't like self portraits and don't know how to self pose and self take at the same time.

Recycled Christmas. 

After checking in at 3.30pm or some where near that time, we went to our room. Me, Mariane, Shirley, and Jessica. Jessica left her clothes all over the bed to dry, I threw all my junk food out on the bed too. A big mess. So... I just used Shirley's and Mariane's bed to lie down.

Few minutes later...

Got a text. 

Right.

Damn. Had nothing to wear. Just brought ONE change. 

Took the extra key, went out and bought something to wear. Not bad, at least I found something. 

Went back to my room after half an hour of rushy clothes shopping. They are still asleep... Had a shower, came out, STILL ASLEEP... 

When they went out at about 5, I was still in the room, sitting down, slowly eating seaweed and drinking tea. Felt so sleepy. As I was dozing off, I heard a knock on the door. NO. Don't guess. Room service. Actually scared the hell outta me when nobody answered me when I asked who the heck is knocking.

Walked a bit.

Had coffee...

No wait...

I had tea and a lolli.

Went back.

You're fast. You disappeared when they unlatched the door =_=

Dinner. Walked around. Finally. Food court.

Had Taiwanese food.

While I was eating...

Matthew nicely came, nicely took his chair, nicely sat down, nicely drank coke, nicely had fish and chips, nicely left... 

SPEECHLESS...

He's so clueless that it's a good thing.

Damn you Justin... I think you're right, I think I'm sick. But wait, I'mma prove you wrong when we go out tomorrow. 

I think I should really sleep now...

Yes. Yes.

Mostly, I spent time with him.

Yesterday and today. 

TOLD YOU I WAS BETTER AT NIGHT.

Hmm...

Cold air.

An angry mouse.

=_=

Cold air feels good... Well... Different from an air conditioned room. It's cold, but it's natural, so, you wont feel that cold... Alright... That's just me, you were freezing in your very short hoodie. You could have left anytime you wanted, I'm already used to having nothing and being alone. But thank you, you cared.

Somehow, I knew you'd come back.

If it didn't start raining, I would be there all night. I'm serious, I can do that, there's always something when there's nothing. So, when there's nothing... A lot goes through my mind, but, I try to shut my mind up by listening to music. Yeah. I'm weird. But... It's a good thing, waiting isn't a problem for me.

You were so happy to finally leave =_=

You don't like being with me that much? Either that or you just hate the cold and aloneness. 

Well...

It felt weird, but, at the same time, it didn't. Because it was you maybe? I could hold anybody's hand and swing it lalala without feeling anything. Not even the warmth. But... You... Yeah... Even when it's cold, it was warm. Again... I miss your hand...  

Was my head heavy?

I have to admit. I was trying REAL hard NOT to use your shoulder AT FIRST. But then... I gave up resisting. Boop. I sleep. Until my mum messaged me...

It's always my mum...

It felt... Wow... I always wanted to do that!

I felt happy I guess, I finally have a shoulder to lean on, instead of sleeping straight, or using the window. In both ways, I have somebody... I'll try not to be pushy and rely on you too much though, you're not gonna be near. 

Indescribable. 

I have a habit of hugging everything I lean on.

It was so hard for me to NOT turn around and hug you T^T

That's why I kept pinching myself, I guess... And it was too bright to hug you =_=

I should shut up now.

This post of TRIP is a failure.

The toilets at Times Square another failure.

I can't think straight when I'm sleepy and with my head spinning, and I think I'm hungry...

Gonna have ramen. And tea.

Yes, the best part about all this, why I'm happy and the trip didn't suck. It's obvious isn't it? Even if I had nothing to buy while shopping... Even if I had nothing I wanted to do... The reason I'm even happy...

You...

 

 

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I ran outta titles. I'm just here cause they're playing bingo. 5 cards. Wow... Long game... I really don't know how many rounds they played. I was watching Suicide Circle. Damn... Sick movie... And you know what? I STILL DON'T GET THE STORY...

=_=

Happens every time...

Ahh... The reason for me to Skype. I'm bored. BUT WAIT. The main reason is to talk to you. But... DAMN my mum has good timing... The first message... And she just opens my room door, lie down and look at who I'm talking to.

HOW DOES SHE KNOW?

The hell... 10 times outta 10... She's always here when the first IM comes. There's just no privacy around here! ARGH!!! T^T

And when she FINALLY leaves... YOU HAVE TO SLEEP?

Tuesday...

Going to school at 10pm. We're gonna explore the damn place. Let's just hope we all don't SEE anything, or TOUCH anything, or FEEL anything... Uhh... And most importantly... Hope there wont be a hand reaching outta the ground. Zombie invasion. Either you go out to sea, or stay on a plane forever. Those b****** can't swim, they can't fly either ^_^

Today's Skype session is still going on, it's pass 3 hours~

Wake me up, when September ends~

Not disturbing Jessica and her Sri Tan.

Listen to some songs.

Waiiii~

Hope Han Siang gets better soon. Leg injury. Haih. Some luck.

You guys think of where to go. I'll be...

Walking.

With...

Somebody.

^^

Personally, I prefer night better. I'm not a morning person, I feel so much better at night too. Day time at the amusement park... Oh God... Seriously? I'm such a lazy person. Let's go for coffee after those rides that makes you wanna throw up.

Day time...

What else to do...

What else to do...

If there's a beach, I'd roll in the sand... But... So high up... UGH... There's nothing T^T

If there's the Sun, the beach is the best. If there's the moon, the beach is also the best. But..

What am I saying?

It's Genting. Not beach trip.

Grrrrr...

Whatever.

I'll be cold.

Passing Out?

Passing out... No pictures, sorry.

Phew, so, it was THAT tuba player who got it wrong, and I thought WE were the ones who messed up.

Um... Other than THAT... The music stand I was using kept turning. Ahhh... And the fan wasn't even blowing that hard T^T Had to keep turning it... Puuuuuffffff~

I don't have anything much to say... Well... After the performance, at the back of the stage... We were complaining about the cake that bought, and you know what? The one who complained the most, ate the most. WHAT LA?! It wasn't me OK!!!!

Presents...

Umm...

Shin Yun got Barbie~

Jia Xun got boxers~

Hai Teng got a pretty flowery pink shirt~

Ah Tai... A toy bike?

No idea what Hong Leong's gift was...

Justin got a cube.

Qin Wei... Expired hair wax???

^_^

Blablabla~

Take pictures...

Who knew, I had a rival. Pfft. She didn't stand a chance anyway~ xD

If you don't mind me saying...

I would have hit her if I heard her confess to you. But... Well... She didn't right? HAH. Knew it...

Not like I'm any bolder. hmph.

After taking pictures...

WHOA

MAJOR CHANGE

I wonder whose fault is it...

I almost broke Han Siang's car door la. Sorry a~

Went to McDonald's after that.

Hmmm...

I didn't even finish my ice-cream! And Mr.Tan told me I ate a lot? T^T

I can guarantee you, yesterday... HE DEFIANTLY ATE MORE...

I didn't even finish my ice-cream...

I didn't even touch that Happy Meal burger...

A lot ah?

LOL

Never mind.

Was EMO-ing the whole night. After the performance.

I didn't even finish my ice-cream...

Don't know what happened.

Guess I was just too worried.

OVER NOTHING.

Hell...

Next stop... Marina Island.

I WENT BACK AT ONE AND YOU FREAKING WENT THERE AT ONE!

Still...

Fuck... Maxis?

O_O

If Xin Hui didn't follow us... I would still be sleeping there when you guys came.

Damn. Next time, don't be so generous, asking people who usually CAN'T come out AT ALL go out that late... Well... At least she was happy... FOR A MINUTE. The moment we stepped outta the car, her mum called.

WHAT THE HELL

Her mum wasn't picking up so she thought it was alright to come along.

I hate it when people do that. Not picking up, and then causes trouble for everyone...

That's just...

Troublesome.

Fine.

Fine.

Fine.

Talked a bit on the way back...

People can't help but smile sometimes, because, when you're too upset, there's nothing else you can do but smile...

Hmm...

That's enough for now.

I'll leave the EMO post for next.

Happiness never lasts 

uuuuuiiii... Bored?

Impatient.

Impatiently bored.

Bored and impatient.

Sleepily boredly impatient.

Yeah... I don't know what to do... Nobody's on Facebook... I'm lazy... Maybe I should continue playing Mizuki's route for Edelweiss... Or maybe... Just watch some BL. No... That wont work... What if my grandma sees me? Or my sisters... I don't have to worry about Dennis. He runs aways every time yelling that there's something seriously wrong with me... Besides, he's not home~

Lalala~

Love me yet?

No?

Okay...

I'll wait.

I can wait.

I'm a girl. I don't have balls. Use a better sentence =_=

I'm sorry if he can't face her... I don't have balls... So, I can't give him half.

Haaaaaaa

Let's go out again.

Walk with me.

Talk with me.

I'm bored. I miss you.

Lalala

It's okay right...? To miss you?

Don't know if I'm going to KL for Christmas. That woman...

First, she says "LET'S GO TO KAREN'S PLACE FOR CHRISTMAS!"

And we were like "NO WAAAAY! YEAH! YEAH! YEAH! But... How we gonna go?" =_=

" I'll drive."

"You drive? No kidding?"

"But... I'm scared."

"THE HELL MOM! GET THE FUCKING GPS!"

"But... I don't know how to use it..."

"WHAT THE HECK... ARGH! Then why the hell do you own a car anyway?!"

"Get a taxi. You three go. Rachel, come back on 28th. You two can stay longer."

"WTF... DRIVE... Cause... I'm scared to sit the taxi..."

"But...But... But..."

"Just drive. Just... Drive... I give up... Let's just NOT go to Karen's house..."

Mom- ^_^

Me, Lisa, Sarah- =_= + >=(

Dad on chat- ...

I wanna go to Toys R Us. I don't care if I'm 14. I love toys. Lucky kids... Toys are getting so expensive these days... I have to buy my own stuffed animals T^T

Animal Alley~

I'll drop by the XL-Shop and look at figurines~ I want Sebastian 0x0 And Ciel ^_^

Went shopping???? With Zn today. Although... I didn't buy anything... I just went with her... I didn't look at much, wasn't interested. Was more interested in my messaging, waiting for someone that ISN'T my mom to show up on my screen~

Sadly... It's expensive...

But...

Well...

I'll manage. Somehow. I always do. I just need to behave... And be patient...

AHA

People complain that my blog posts are too long.

Well...

Alright.

Alright.

Good Night.

I'm not sleeping.

I'll roll around the floor until somebody finds me.

Or I'll roll around until I get tired and sleep.

Tired.

Need blood.

Monthly stab in the tummy.

Dammit.

Mememe@6.39pm

Hyperactive?

Fat people can last three days without food. We use our fats. Cool.

Don't feel like eating lately? But then again... I'm hungry... I'll go have some tea...

I'm back~

Sowwwiiieeee >_<

If I was hyperactive... Uhh... About 4 or 5 hours ago.

What? I was happy. I thought happy people are always hyperactive? But... I can't compare to my sisters though, they scream and shout and then throw pillows at each other until one gets pissed, gets serious and... You'll know... If you meet those crazy little girls... One looks stupid, one looks like a dangerous hiao po...

What?

Oh... I don't think my bro is ever hyperactive though... Maybe...

I think when he's hyperactive, he puts on a gay show. And then... Tickles you until you eventually can't take it anymore and punch him.

Me? Well... I tend to talk a lot... More like... TYPE a lot...

That it sometimes scare people O_O

Been a long time since I typed so happily.

Other times... I would just join my sisters and throw pillows at each other until my mum gets mad and kills us~

Peace fullness... Doesn't last... The next minute... We'd be playing again =D

I wonder... Is a few years that big an age gap?

LOL

Some people don't even CARE about their brothers and sisters. Cause one is 15 and one is 10??? How can that be... Nothing in common? Well, I admit, I am childish, but... I treat my sisters like they're the same as everyone else, even if my mom is old, I treat her the same. Sei 3 8.

I don't get people who says that they have nothing in common with their younger brother/sister.

Weird.

Or is it normal??? People don't talk to each other anymore???

GOSH

I should be asleeeeeeeeeep~

Wehehehehe~

Ants.

Neko. Neko. Neko.

My dogs, they don't love cats. They don't dislike them. They just... Kill them...

They kill birds too. And the best part? The tiniest of them all... IS THE KILLER... =_=

Dammit... Angel... She looks like an angel, but she certainly doesn't act like one!

What am I doing now??

What...

Th-theeeee...

UHHHHHFFHFHFHFHFHFFHHF...

UIUIUIUUUUUUUUIIIIUIUIUI...

MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...

Sorry.

Sorry.

Sorry.

Don't know what to do.

Don't feel like sleeping either.

Set my alarm to 9 I think.

Ufff... Tuition... If that girl doesn't show up again tomorrow... God... I will sleep on the floor in font of your giant portrait and wake up when it's time to go.

Go where?

No where.

Note to self: Put Nike on the shelf where puppies can't reach.

I named my slippers...

MY POOR POOR SLIPPERS...

Well... Only one side got chosen as a chew toy.

I wonder if I could only buy ONE side...

It was so squishy... Puppies sure know how to choose slippers.

They choose expensive, and chewy ones...

DAMMIT.

I COULD JUST BUY YOU PUPPIES A CHEW TOY! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO USE MY SLIPPER?!

I'm so heartbroken.

Awww...

It's like... It's just been save from a shredding machine... Three puppies... One slipper... Ouch. You can smell the rubber T^T

Squishy~

Squishy~

MY SLIPPERS!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO T^T

They were pink... and they were squishy... And soft... And they were cute... SEE?

HYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Slipper-chan... Toshite... T^T

I guess I'll wear the brown flat-flat. If that ends up as a chew toy too... I will not wear any slippers to my grandparents' place anymore. Damn. One side feels fine, the other side feels ticklish cause of the bite marks everywhere and some rubber flying up here and there...

Grrrrr....

Puppies...

You guys are just so cute >_<

If I don't get my revenge now... When you grow up... You'd be bigger than me O_O

FINE.

Since you guys are puppies.

Chew on a stick please.

That's about it.

If hyperactiveness scares you, then, would you prefer me being emotionless?

Sukidayo~ ^^

Narnia- The Voyage of The Dawn Treader

Lucy and Edmund Pevensie return to Narnia with their cousin Eustace where they meet up with Prince Caspian for a trip across the sea aboard the royal ship The Dawn Treader. Along the way they encounter dragons, dwarves, merfolk, and a band of lost warriors before reaching the edge of the world.               

                                                                                            IMDb      

When will I be able to hug a lion?

Narnia. Same story.

Kids are bored, they talk about Narnia, they see something unusual about something...

"AH! LOOK! LOOK! WE'RE IN NARNIA"

"OMG! I MISSED YOU GUYS! IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE WE'VE BEEN IN NARNIA"

Then... Blah blah blah...

Finally, the problem.

EVIL. There's evil in the land of Narnia. Come on, evil is EVERYWHERE, not just Narnia.

AND THE ADVENTURE BEGINS.

Next, we have the CAUSE of most problems- EDMUND.

I don't if you guys realized it... But... It's ALWAYS Edmund... In the movies la, I don't read the books, too lazy(^_^)

The first movie, The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe, Edmund was being skeptical and then he went to the Witch, and TA-DA- problem. I still don't know la... Is Edmund in love with the witch? Or is it the other way round???? The witch made a special appearance in The Voyage of The Dawn Treader to temp him =D

Prince Caspian... Uhhh... I kinda forgot the whole story... Ummm.... Maaa... WAIT... Sorry, I forgot (>_<)

Then finally, The Voyage of The Dawn Treader. When they FINALLY got the God damned seventh sword, Edmund just HAD to imagine a Sea Serpent. And boy, he has good imagination, A Sea Serpent that will open up and look like a giant freaking centipede (=_=)

And next, is Lucy. She's ALWAYS the one who discovers Narnia. I'm lazy to write about it.

This time, Peter and... Susan isn't in it???!!! =( Aww... They had to take out a leng zai and leng lui, leaving a not so hot sister Lucy and a funny looking Edmund(He's quite good looking) and a I-Feel-Like-Smashing-His-Face-After-Looking dude... Which reminds me of ljs. Wow, I guess all guai lan/qun people have the same face~

I don't care if he's famous.

This picture not so bad, go watch Narnia, 

He looks MUCH MUCH MUCH guai-lan-er than this.

I actually prefer Eustace as a dragon. That way, I can't see his face. 

This isn't the last Narnia movie right? Well... There are more books... No, I will not read the book, don't care if it's a children's book, I AM LAZY.

I don't know what to say anymore, my mom was sleeping til the end of the movie, so, she didn't know what happened, but when she woke up, ending scene, she cried (=_=) and in the car, she asked me what happened and why Eustace became a dragon.

Never mind... She's my mother... She's been like this since... Before marriage??? Her whole life??? O_O

Hatsune Miku Project Diva, I miss it so badly, I have the urge to hit the buttons on the psp, but too bad, Dennis took it with him to Malacca T^T 

Dammit.

For once, Hong Leong's not the only one occupying my mind. Besides Hatsune Miku Project Diva and him... There's another person.

LOL

Yeah, regretting is pointless, but... You know... I'm just me, for some reason, I run away from what I want and when it's too late... I just realize how much I want it... Like the red wig... And now... This... 

Doesn't matter... Does it? As long as we're all happy... 

I can't say that I'm happy, but... I'm not unhappy either... 

Selfishness and greed and the darkness inside us... Narnia- The Voyage of The Dawn Treader... Why are we all so selfish? We give into temptation so easily. 

But... Sometimes... Being selfish is a good thing... If everyone gets to be happy... Then, why not? 

So... Yeah... Until everything ends... It's just gonna be like this, and when everything starts again... I don't want anything else...

I don't want anything else... Or should I say I don't want anyone else...?

For once... It's not about him... It's about you...So... Please... 

Love me back... 

Happy Day_ Onigiri O_O'''

Nice to know, Little LuLu is a popular show xD

I miss Thailand so much that 7-Eleven is now my favorite shop. I even walked to 7-Eleven after the band meeting, in wet clothes... I thought "Neh, it's just a 15 to 20 minute walk so... What the heck. And I can dry myself too."

And so, I start walking~

And You know? I bought a few bottles of tea. Too bad they don't have Oishi brand :(

And today, I made my onigiri. I made a neat, and cute onigiri, but... When I took a bite, it fell apart :(
More practice... In shaping and making it stick ==
My onigiri... It looked so... Unfallingapartable T_T

So, as I was saying... The walking alone thing. I hate to be emo now ya know. Thinking about my onigiri... I feel so happy... That I made such a cute onigiri... Even if it fell apart!!!!

Nori~

Nori~

Nori~

Japanese rice sticks man!

Of course, the pic is from Google. But, mine's close to that!! The shape anyway... I forgot the filling >_< Cause round one, my onigiri was too big and it fell apart when I tried wrapping the nori ==

I'm not gonna bring anymore onigiri to school. I'll just try making more at home, THEN, bring them to school when I finally get them to NOT fall apart, when you bite~

It seems like everyone's happy today. Yi Nin smiled, A LOT. And, I'm happy now. Just... Sleepy, dreaming during classes and practice. I even went to the wrong line while marching half way... I didn't even realize until Hai Teng shouted. Oh my... I'm such a pro at daydreaming. 

I feel like eating chocolate.

I'll go get one now.

Bye.

Hong Leong, you make my day. WELL, my onigiri made me MORE happy :P

Shhhh! Nobody ke-po again ):<