So... I found my previous test papers in my file... I'm not such a bad person after all, I didn't stuff them for trashcan to eat =D
Band practice resumes, spacing-out, looking at the ants moving from this end to the other. Wow, the aura between the two is really dark. In the hall filled with tables and chairs, only one light shining above them... It was like ELIMINATE EACH OTHER O_O
Okay... Maybe not everyone is getting what I'm trying to say. Well... Sorry, but I'm a bit jumpy. I hacked my boyfriend's Facebook, and Hotmail acc. I feel so bad, I think he is mad at me.
''Hello, it's your cellphone! Ring ring! Is anybody ever gonna pick me up?! RING RING!!" sadly my dear cellphone, the answer is "NO! NOBODY IS GOING TO PICK YOU UP EVEN IF YOU ARE JUST BESIDE ME!".
I feel so bad... But it was fun while it lasted. I liked and commented on my own status, using someone else's account. I was daydreaming about hacking Najib's Facebook acc this morning, but... I'm not sure if he has one, so I experimented on hacking my deary's Facebook acc. It worked. Well, I guess... I am too smart.
The reason I even chose his acc to hack is because... Well, I know him? And I was just testing my knowledge about him. The security questions and all... I passed. I passed. It let me reset his password O_O
Ah, I'm glad I didn't go through all the trouble reading about Facebook cookie stealing, or phishing... Or whatever... Damn it. I missed the Pwnie Awards!
I'm sorry. I feel so bad. I'm not even picking up.
Showing posts with label Crazy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Crazy. Show all posts
Tuesday, 9 August 2011
WHAT A WASTE OF PAPER!
Hi hi! The week long torture simulator has ended! Now, all I've gotta do is sit back, relax, and wait for the real thing.
THEY WASTE SO MUCH PAPER!
I just cleared out my bag, and I took out so many sets of questions. After taking out a stack, I looked inside my bag- Another one. When I thought that I had taken out everything, another set of questions pop out. Ah. that pile of paper lying on the floor, there is this itch to burn it and send them all to hell, but... That will just be polluting the environment.
SO... I am going to recycle my test papers =D
But then... Won't the teachers want us to paste them in our books? Do corrections and whatever? Oh well... These people are so... So... So... What do you call that... So... So... So... UGH. I give up, I can't think of a word.
I'm such a bad person, the last test, I stuffed all the question papers into the trash D=
So sad.
Hmm... Let's see... I'll be rummaging around this bloody messy room of mine for recyclable items. I keep my soap bottles in a drawer, waiting... For the day my lazy ass finally decides to take them to the recycling bins. Ah, I wonder if used condoms are recyclable O_O NOT THAT I HAVE ANY USED CONDOM ANYWHERE!!!!!! I swear. I don't have any used condoms anywhere. For the time being.
=)
DON'T GET THE WRONG IDEA!
=_=
Ah, I feel so sleepy. Sleeping too much in the exam hall kills you, damn it. Hmm... I wonder if people really do die in exam halls. Hmm... Something I will never know...
Tsk. Tsk. Tsk. I feel so heart broken looking at the pile of hateful papers. I hope when I recycle them, they don't come back as my toilet paper!
Uhuhu, every time something like this is over... I'll be movie marathon-ing, otaku-ing, and not sleeping. Oh yeah... That reminds me, I still have to go to school, and... Band practice. UGH. I'm so lazy. Oh... Why do we practice six days a week again? HELLO, I HAVE A LIFE! Please don't ruin it by kicking me out when I go on holidays. o zero o.
Ooh... I see a red plastic bag *v*
When will I go to Pos Laju? I have something to post... I'm too lazy, maybe I wont go post it... I think I'll wait for him to come back before I hand my torn journal to him. Ah, I don't feel like giving it. It is messy, and depressing, I feel like burning... Uh, I mean RECYCLING... It.
What a waste of paper, I think I should just save my diary in my laptop instead of... Writing 4 books a year =_= ouch.
THEY WASTE SO MUCH PAPER!
I just cleared out my bag, and I took out so many sets of questions. After taking out a stack, I looked inside my bag- Another one. When I thought that I had taken out everything, another set of questions pop out. Ah. that pile of paper lying on the floor, there is this itch to burn it and send them all to hell, but... That will just be polluting the environment.
SO... I am going to recycle my test papers =D
But then... Won't the teachers want us to paste them in our books? Do corrections and whatever? Oh well... These people are so... So... So... What do you call that... So... So... So... UGH. I give up, I can't think of a word.
I'm such a bad person, the last test, I stuffed all the question papers into the trash D=
So sad.
Hmm... Let's see... I'll be rummaging around this bloody messy room of mine for recyclable items. I keep my soap bottles in a drawer, waiting... For the day my lazy ass finally decides to take them to the recycling bins. Ah, I wonder if used condoms are recyclable O_O NOT THAT I HAVE ANY USED CONDOM ANYWHERE!!!!!! I swear. I don't have any used condoms anywhere. For the time being.
=)
DON'T GET THE WRONG IDEA!
=_=
Ah, I feel so sleepy. Sleeping too much in the exam hall kills you, damn it. Hmm... I wonder if people really do die in exam halls. Hmm... Something I will never know...
Tsk. Tsk. Tsk. I feel so heart broken looking at the pile of hateful papers. I hope when I recycle them, they don't come back as my toilet paper!
Uhuhu, every time something like this is over... I'll be movie marathon-ing, otaku-ing, and not sleeping. Oh yeah... That reminds me, I still have to go to school, and... Band practice. UGH. I'm so lazy. Oh... Why do we practice six days a week again? HELLO, I HAVE A LIFE! Please don't ruin it by kicking me out when I go on holidays. o zero o.
Ooh... I see a red plastic bag *v*
When will I go to Pos Laju? I have something to post... I'm too lazy, maybe I wont go post it... I think I'll wait for him to come back before I hand my torn journal to him. Ah, I don't feel like giving it. It is messy, and depressing, I feel like burning... Uh, I mean RECYCLING... It.
What a waste of paper, I think I should just save my diary in my laptop instead of... Writing 4 books a year =_= ouch.
Monday, 8 August 2011
Blabber Post #arandomnumberhere
Ah. Monday nights- TEEN WOLF.
I love watching it, I even woke up from my sleep to watch it. Yeah, I feel asleep at around Buka Puasa time, at 9pm, I automatically woke up, peed, and ran downstairs to the TV room. To watch Teen Wolf.
I have only one thing to say...
And that is...
I love watching it, I even woke up from my sleep to watch it. Yeah, I feel asleep at around Buka Puasa time, at 9pm, I automatically woke up, peed, and ran downstairs to the TV room. To watch Teen Wolf.
I have only one thing to say...
And that is...
Tyler Hoechlin is hot.
Isn't he hot? Wow... Yeah... Mm... Hmmm... I'm gonna upload a shirtless picture of him next, his muscles will make you faint~
shirtless pics from
*v*
I noticed it after reading him on Wiki, and yep, he does look like our famous glittery vampire from Twilight. Mm hmm...
They are both... Hot... But... Let's face it, Tyler is hotter than Rob =D
I think I know why they chose Rob for the part of Edward Cullen- Because he is fair, like a vampire.
Is it me or are darker people all werewolves? Sheesh, like Taylor Lautner, Tyler Hoechlin and Tyler Posey~ Heeeyy, their names all start with the letter T~
I know that most of you don't know what or who I'm talking about because you guys are all geeks, put down the books and watch TV damn it!
That reminds me... I'll go read more history to make me sleep =D
That was what happened during Buka Puasa time, I was studying history. I fell asleep. LONG LIVE THE POWER OF HISTORY BOOKS!
My boyfriend is my bestfriend,
My bestfriend is my boyfriend.
My enemy is my boyfriend,
My boyfriend is my enemy.
I hate my boyfriend,
I love my boyfriend.
What the hell, I'm so lonely that only one person is in my life.
"I'm looking at you."
PERVERT
Friday, 5 August 2011
Forget About Bras
I always hate it when I have to wear a bra, so I was desperate to prove ALL of you wrong, and now, I have succeeded. Instead of studying Sejarah for my Percubaan, I went and Googled for "IS IT BETTER TO WEAR A BRA?".
And the answer is...
NO!
For years, those lace-decorated cotton cups have cheated women's money! They are so expensive! One stupid piece of cotton that looks like two linked coconut shells cost cost RM69.90! I can't believe I even bought them! IN EVERY COLOUR! DAAAAMMMIIT!
So... The bras giving your boobies support thing, is only for OLD WOMEN. And besides, once your old, you don't have to care about your boobs anymore anyway, not like a 90-year-old pervert will look at your 90-year-old boobs.
Throw away your bras, don't wear them anymore. Wearing bras too often causes your ligaments to weaken, and causes more sagging! True, bras support your breasts, that's why your muscles get lazy and just let your boobs drop. Train your boobies to be firm even without a bra please~
Hehehe, being naked all the time really saves me A LOT.
The world today is having those fight breast cancer programs and stuff right? Why don't they just tell people to not wear any bras???
See, wearing bras really DO hurt you!
Wearing bras to sleep prevent normal lymphatic flow and increases the chance of breast cancer, especially when you wear those wired bras. Exercise is very important cause lymphatic circulation in many tissues are highly dependent on MOVEMENT. So, let your breasts bounce freely like TOOOOING~ it actually helps, SERIOUSLY. Don't believe me? Go read on your own. I'm not trying to get everyone naked la.
http://www.all-natural.com/bras.html
I don't feel like wearing a bra to school on Monday. LOL.
And the answer is...
NO!
For years, those lace-decorated cotton cups have cheated women's money! They are so expensive! One stupid piece of cotton that looks like two linked coconut shells cost cost RM69.90! I can't believe I even bought them! IN EVERY COLOUR! DAAAAMMMIIT!
So... The bras giving your boobies support thing, is only for OLD WOMEN. And besides, once your old, you don't have to care about your boobs anymore anyway, not like a 90-year-old pervert will look at your 90-year-old boobs.
Throw away your bras, don't wear them anymore. Wearing bras too often causes your ligaments to weaken, and causes more sagging! True, bras support your breasts, that's why your muscles get lazy and just let your boobs drop. Train your boobies to be firm even without a bra please~
Hehehe, being naked all the time really saves me A LOT.
The world today is having those fight breast cancer programs and stuff right? Why don't they just tell people to not wear any bras???
- Women who wore their bras 24 hours a day had a 3 out of 4 chance of developing breast cancer.
- Women who wore their bras more than 12 hours a day had a 1 out of 7 risk.
- Women who wore their bras less than 12 hours a day had a 1 out of 152 risk.
- Women who wore bras rarely or never had a 1 out of 168 chance of getting breast cancer.
Based on the book by Singer and Grismaijer- Dressed to Kill
Wearing bras to sleep prevent normal lymphatic flow and increases the chance of breast cancer, especially when you wear those wired bras. Exercise is very important cause lymphatic circulation in many tissues are highly dependent on MOVEMENT. So, let your breasts bounce freely like TOOOOING~ it actually helps, SERIOUSLY. Don't believe me? Go read on your own. I'm not trying to get everyone naked la.
http://www.all-natural.com/bras.html
I don't feel like wearing a bra to school on Monday. LOL.
Friday, 22 July 2011
I... WANT TO BECOME A FARMER
Thanks to Chinese class, I am inspired yet again. I think I LOVE my Chinese textbook, LOL, so many interesting stories. Too bad... I can't understand them on my own =_=
第二十二课，向神农致敬。By 何乃健。
I really wanna become a farmer. Hmm, without those skinny people who plants paddy and harvests them... We'd all starve to death.
A ball of cabbage is only worth twenty cents. The rest of the money we pay goes to the person selling you cabbage~ How sad. 这是什么世界阿?!
Farmers should get paid more. I pity them, and my future self.
Lawyers and CEOs should earn less money. All they do is sit inside an air-conditioned room and watch porn while pretending to look at the papers which need to be signed. SO WHAT IF THEY GROW GRAY HAIR AND HAVE WRINKLES?! They go for facials, spas and they eat good food. $50,000 a month, maybe more.
BUT FARMERS?!
Working all day, UNDER THE HOT SUN, bending their backs, blood sucked by leeches. More gray hair, more wrinkles, and they are just skin and bones. They don't go for spas, they sometimes eat field mice. Less than $1000 a month.
这是什么世界阿?!
I will marry a 90-year-old billionaire. After a year of NOT sharing a room with him, I'd give him a heart attack. Then when he sleeps in the ground, I'll inherit his fortune. I get the mansion and the maids all to myself. MUAHAHAHAHA. Then, I will use the overly large piece of land to PLANT crops. I will build a nice hut for each of the farmers I hire, and provide them food, drinks, clothes... Condoms...? =_= Everyone would be happy. I'd be a widowed 30-year-old, with a farm mansion =_= I can always remarry to Zongxu xD not that I'd want to.
Anyway...
I hope that ALL the farmers worldwide will go on strike. Refusing to plant and harvest or whatever. Keeping themselves alive instead of feeding the useless society. Make us APPRECIATE FARMERS and DON'T WASTE FOOD. Who says that only useless people become farmers? Huh? If they are so useless, don't let me see you eat rice, or vege.
That's it for now.
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听了日本古代农民说的故事你是不是有一点不想吃了。。。？
第二十二课，向神农致敬。By 何乃健。
I really wanna become a farmer. Hmm, without those skinny people who plants paddy and harvests them... We'd all starve to death.
A ball of cabbage is only worth twenty cents. The rest of the money we pay goes to the person selling you cabbage~ How sad. 这是什么世界阿?!
Farmers should get paid more. I pity them, and my future self.
Lawyers and CEOs should earn less money. All they do is sit inside an air-conditioned room and watch porn while pretending to look at the papers which need to be signed. SO WHAT IF THEY GROW GRAY HAIR AND HAVE WRINKLES?! They go for facials, spas and they eat good food. $50,000 a month, maybe more.
BUT FARMERS?!
Working all day, UNDER THE HOT SUN, bending their backs, blood sucked by leeches. More gray hair, more wrinkles, and they are just skin and bones. They don't go for spas, they sometimes eat field mice. Less than $1000 a month.
这是什么世界阿?!
I will marry a 90-year-old billionaire. After a year of NOT sharing a room with him, I'd give him a heart attack. Then when he sleeps in the ground, I'll inherit his fortune. I get the mansion and the maids all to myself. MUAHAHAHAHA. Then, I will use the overly large piece of land to PLANT crops. I will build a nice hut for each of the farmers I hire, and provide them food, drinks, clothes... Condoms...? =_= Everyone would be happy. I'd be a widowed 30-year-old, with a farm mansion =_= I can always remarry to Zongxu xD not that I'd want to.
Anyway...
I hope that ALL the farmers worldwide will go on strike. Refusing to plant and harvest or whatever. Keeping themselves alive instead of feeding the useless society. Make us APPRECIATE FARMERS and DON'T WASTE FOOD. Who says that only useless people become farmers? Huh? If they are so useless, don't let me see you eat rice, or vege.
That's it for now.
I WANT TO BECOME A FARMER
掌管食物之神被刺杀了之后，从他的头部长出蚕虫，从他的眼瞳长出了稻谷，从耳长出高粱，鼻子长出红豆，生殖器官长出小麦，臀部长出大豆来。。。。
。。。
。。。
听了日本古代农民说的故事你是不是有一点不想吃了。。。？
沾满鲜血的馒头，
人的自私与丑陋，
人和社会的失败。
这是什么世界啊？！
Wednesday, 13 July 2011
Post #349
Second day of the monthly test, I have a good feeling that Pn.Choo won't be happy with our history test scores. Whee~ I studied, but only ten question came out, ten to twenty, but... I forgot everything when it came to the SUBJECTIVE part. I think... I think... I even wrote... Datu Patinggi Abang Haji bin Datu Patinggi Mohammad Kassim... One heck of a long name, which I think... IS THE WRONG ANSWER... =_=
I forgot the rest of the names, I got HALF of Sir something somthing Clarke's name right =_= HEY, at least I got the Rukun Tiga Belas thing right, +1 mark T^T
Science was easy... I think...
Ah... Skipped tuition again today. AGAIN.
I feel kinda dizzy... Ahhhhh~
Currently downloading... X-Men: Origins. The Witches of Oz... And... Dragon Age Ultimate Collector's Pack...
So... I was bored and I desperately need new RPGs to play... So I Googled for games as usual... Then the results were all like... Dragon Age II... Dragon Age: Origin- Awakening... And more Dragon Age... So.. Wikipedia time~
Mm hmm... It had good comments and stuff, positive ratings, nice story and fantasy world and stuff... So.. I got the mood to DOWNLOAD DOWNLOAD DOWNLOAD @_@
Ahhh, I think... I'll play after my PMR. I'll just download it, and extract, and mount and stuff... Another important thing before I start playing is... I NEED TO UPGRADE MY LAPTOP.
So yesh, I have decided, I will follow Mr.Ngoo Big Head's recommendation and change from this stupid Vista, to Windows 7~ And also add more RAM to this thing... Huhuhu... I wanna play the games so badly +_+
I wonder if I should try American McGee's ALICE, and the sequel: Alice:Madness RETURNS. Well... That's what happens when I stalk people... I stalked my cousin for a bit, he has a Xbox 360, and he is playing Alice: Madness... So... Ah, WIKIPEDIA again... Now, I wonder why didn't me and my cousin become good friends, he watches anime too~
Eh... I'm not sure about these shooting and killing stuff RPGs... They... Scare me =_= especially those like Left 4 Dead and Resident Evil. I mean I don't mind if it's Justin Bieber I have to shoot, at least he doesn't look all bloody and scary as hell! AHHH! The Witch from Left 4 Dead. NOT COOL. I tried playing a vampire hunting one... But... I ended up screaming and covering my face. I swore never to play these undead-hunting games. As for The World of Warcraft, I have no idea what items to buy, so I gave up.
I think something is wrong with me... Why... Do I like playing RPGs... Shouldn't I be playing with... Barbies...?
Ah, tomorrow... I'm going to watch The Borrower Arrietty tomorrow. I wonder if I should download Transformers: Dark of the Moon... Oooh, 6.7 on IMDb... Not bad I guess... Okay... DOWNLOAD~
Hehehehe... Movies, movies, movies, movies~
BUT OF COURSE!!!!!!
I haven't forgotten about REICHERU'S DIETING PROJECT. I'mma buy a book, and write down everything I eat, starting... Sunday. But that doesn't mean I'm still eating McDonald's okay? I had half a cup of bird's nest and a bown of Corn Flakes before I went to school. My bento today was... Grapes, oatmeal biscuits, and a wholemeal bun, I drank barley for recess. Lunch was porridge, with fish and egg, I had half a glass of soy milk during lunch. Dinner will be porridge again, but I'll drink 0% fat strawberry yogurt.
...
...
...
Did I seriously eat only just those stuff...? Okay, I gotta admit... I... I... I... I... CURI-CURI MAKAN two pieces of Lap Cheong(臘腸) >_< NOTHING ELSE! I SWEAR... Maybe... Soy sauce, pepper, and black pepper... And... Uh... The fish I had was... FRIED >_<
I never exercised today... Maybe I'd do... A few crunches... I... I... I... I CAN'T DO SIT UPS >_<
Poor abdomen muscles...
Will my mum PLEASE shut up about me studying. The hell like I care, what if I study? Not like I will ACTUALLY ABSORB THE CRAP I READ! Heck, if I want to study, I WILL... OKAY?! NOW WILL YOU JUST STOP BUGGING ME?!
ARGH! I hate this!
NEVER MIND! At least my mum saved you guys, she made me lost the mood to blabber.
GOOD DAY!
~!@#$%^&*()_+
That reminds me, I need a new webcam, and a mic.
MemeMeRachel@1740
I forgot the rest of the names, I got HALF of Sir something somthing Clarke's name right =_= HEY, at least I got the Rukun Tiga Belas thing right, +1 mark T^T
Science was easy... I think...
Ah... Skipped tuition again today. AGAIN.
I feel kinda dizzy... Ahhhhh~
Currently downloading... X-Men: Origins. The Witches of Oz... And... Dragon Age Ultimate Collector's Pack...
So... I was bored and I desperately need new RPGs to play... So I Googled for games as usual... Then the results were all like... Dragon Age II... Dragon Age: Origin- Awakening... And more Dragon Age... So.. Wikipedia time~
Mm hmm... It had good comments and stuff, positive ratings, nice story and fantasy world and stuff... So.. I got the mood to DOWNLOAD DOWNLOAD DOWNLOAD @_@
Ahhh, I think... I'll play after my PMR. I'll just download it, and extract, and mount and stuff... Another important thing before I start playing is... I NEED TO UPGRADE MY LAPTOP.
So yesh, I have decided, I will follow Mr.Ngoo Big Head's recommendation and change from this stupid Vista, to Windows 7~ And also add more RAM to this thing... Huhuhu... I wanna play the games so badly +_+
I wonder if I should try American McGee's ALICE, and the sequel: Alice:Madness RETURNS. Well... That's what happens when I stalk people... I stalked my cousin for a bit, he has a Xbox 360, and he is playing Alice: Madness... So... Ah, WIKIPEDIA again... Now, I wonder why didn't me and my cousin become good friends, he watches anime too~
Eh... I'm not sure about these shooting and killing stuff RPGs... They... Scare me =_= especially those like Left 4 Dead and Resident Evil. I mean I don't mind if it's Justin Bieber I have to shoot, at least he doesn't look all bloody and scary as hell! AHHH! The Witch from Left 4 Dead. NOT COOL. I tried playing a vampire hunting one... But... I ended up screaming and covering my face. I swore never to play these undead-hunting games. As for The World of Warcraft, I have no idea what items to buy, so I gave up.
I think something is wrong with me... Why... Do I like playing RPGs... Shouldn't I be playing with... Barbies...?
Ah, tomorrow... I'm going to watch The Borrower Arrietty tomorrow. I wonder if I should download Transformers: Dark of the Moon... Oooh, 6.7 on IMDb... Not bad I guess... Okay... DOWNLOAD~
Hehehehe... Movies, movies, movies, movies~
BUT OF COURSE!!!!!!
I haven't forgotten about REICHERU'S DIETING PROJECT. I'mma buy a book, and write down everything I eat, starting... Sunday. But that doesn't mean I'm still eating McDonald's okay? I had half a cup of bird's nest and a bown of Corn Flakes before I went to school. My bento today was... Grapes, oatmeal biscuits, and a wholemeal bun, I drank barley for recess. Lunch was porridge, with fish and egg, I had half a glass of soy milk during lunch. Dinner will be porridge again, but I'll drink 0% fat strawberry yogurt.
...
...
...
Did I seriously eat only just those stuff...? Okay, I gotta admit... I... I... I... I... CURI-CURI MAKAN two pieces of Lap Cheong(臘腸) >_< NOTHING ELSE! I SWEAR... Maybe... Soy sauce, pepper, and black pepper... And... Uh... The fish I had was... FRIED >_<
I never exercised today... Maybe I'd do... A few crunches... I... I... I... I CAN'T DO SIT UPS >_<
Poor abdomen muscles...
Will my mum PLEASE shut up about me studying. The hell like I care, what if I study? Not like I will ACTUALLY ABSORB THE CRAP I READ! Heck, if I want to study, I WILL... OKAY?! NOW WILL YOU JUST STOP BUGGING ME?!
ARGH! I hate this!
NEVER MIND! At least my mum saved you guys, she made me lost the mood to blabber.
GOOD DAY!
~!@#$%^&*()_+
That reminds me, I need a new webcam, and a mic.
MemeMeRachel@1740
Monday, 11 July 2011
The 7 Minute Post
I accepted the challenge from Mr.Too. I have to write more than him in 7 minutes.
I HOPE I DON'T FAIL!
I'm in the middle of playing Aveyond, I got stuck for long, I couldn't take it anymore and went for help online. Turns out, I have to talk to the squirrels.
ANYWAY... Today...
I ACTUALLY STUDIED.
I would love to upload a few pictures, but... 7 minutes is a damn short time. HAHAHA. I'm sorry I made fun of you T^T
OH NOES! TWO MINUTES PASSED!
AHHH!
Well, mum, bro and Sarah went to Ipoh today, and they say that they'd be back by 4. but you know what? I just heard the gate creaked... Like... NOW.
My... My... My...
Exam starts tomorrow, I think I forgot everything I read this morning... I only studied for like... half an hour, before I said "ah, alright, this is enough studying for one day!" and turned on my laptop.
BUT WAIT. I didn't play my lappy from morning till now... I... Uh... HAD BRUNCH... Played the piano, and made lime juice.
OH!
NOOOOO!
TIME'S UP!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Oh... Err... I have two minutes left, according to my time.
Oh well... I guess... I'll end it now.
Hey, Zongxu, how's Joe? Is he okay? Have you guys done anything yet? Mm mm? Hmm? Are you two sleeping together already? I hope the Princess doesn't feel too sad that she lost her lover. Ohohohoho~
RACHEL_2027
I HOPE I DON'T FAIL!
I'm in the middle of playing Aveyond, I got stuck for long, I couldn't take it anymore and went for help online. Turns out, I have to talk to the squirrels.
ANYWAY... Today...
I ACTUALLY STUDIED.
I would love to upload a few pictures, but... 7 minutes is a damn short time. HAHAHA. I'm sorry I made fun of you T^T
OH NOES! TWO MINUTES PASSED!
AHHH!
Well, mum, bro and Sarah went to Ipoh today, and they say that they'd be back by 4. but you know what? I just heard the gate creaked... Like... NOW.
My... My... My...
Exam starts tomorrow, I think I forgot everything I read this morning... I only studied for like... half an hour, before I said "ah, alright, this is enough studying for one day!" and turned on my laptop.
BUT WAIT. I didn't play my lappy from morning till now... I... Uh... HAD BRUNCH... Played the piano, and made lime juice.
OH!
NOOOOO!
TIME'S UP!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Oh... Err... I have two minutes left, according to my time.
Oh well... I guess... I'll end it now.
Hey, Zongxu, how's Joe? Is he okay? Have you guys done anything yet? Mm mm? Hmm? Are you two sleeping together already? I hope the Princess doesn't feel too sad that she lost her lover. Ohohohoho~
RACHEL_2027
Monday, 4 July 2011
The Imaginative Mind
All sorts of people, colours, and stuff... That mysterious, calm guy, is his name Joe? Maybe you'd both end up together.
Yes, I'm thinking about all sorts of things. It's like... I never get tired of matching you with someone else, be it a girl or a guy. Things may seem out of place cause you're not gay, but... Oh well, at least things work out in my head. Stop saying that nobody will fall for you, Jia Xun already caught so many fishies O_O are girls these days attracted to big heads...? Maybe there are some who LOVE small heads too. Ikan bilis~
Lalalala~
Not thinking...
Not thinking...
Not thinking...
Not matchmaking...
Not matchmaking...
Not matchmaking...
I AM THINKING AND MATCHMAKING.
Muahahahahahaha O_O
Things don't look too good. Ouch. It hurts so much, can you imagine? Luckily, I WILL ALWAYS HAVE HER T^T even if she's just a friend, I STILL HAVE HER!
Joe... Joe... Joe... Joe...
Yuuna... Yuuna... Yuuna...
Stephanie... Stephanie... Stephanie...
Suu... Suu... Suu... Suu... Suu... Suu...
Koi... Koi... Koi... Koi... Koi...
Hie... Hie... Hie... Hie... Hie... Hie...
Yes. I am bored.
Huhuhu.
Going for LEOmazing Race on the 16th, so will be missing the final for the Astro star thing, wasted ticket. Probably not going for NATCOMP finals either, since I'll be tired on the 17th anyway... Oh yeah, mum, I forgot to tell you, I have a test next Tuesday, I HOPE YOU DON'T FIND OUT! >_<
709, aww, I wanna attend, and starting tomorrow, I'll try to wear as much yellow as possible xD But... Too bad, I... Only... Have... ONE yellow T... I don't have a yellow bag, or cloth, or gloves. I have a yellow lunchbox and bottle. I don't have yellow bras or underwear. No yellow pants either. I guess... I'll wear... Idk... Those dull colours to show how disappointed I am.
Even if we hate her as our maths teacher, at least show her some respect? Her family member just passed away for crying out loud! And she's dressed like she just came back from Hell! Everything BLACK, even her bag and shoes and SOCKS are black! DON'T ASK ME HOW I KNOW WHAT'S UNDERNEATH! AND NO! I AM NOT INTERESTED IN OLD WOMEN!
I forgot what else I wanted to say all of a sudden. DAMMIT.
So frustrating, I cannot be with a guy like you. You piss me off every single time... WITH something that interests me... ARGH! I just wanna bite you, so you'd know how frustrated I am. I don't know why she doesn't like you, but I guess she's right, I don't even like you! ARGH!
Take seven deep breaths...
IN... OUT... INHALE... EXHALE... REPEAT...
NOT WORKING!
!@#$%^&*()_+
I have no patience at all, and you know what? Mum will look at me tomorrow saying "why didn't you tell me you have a test next Tuesday? Now... GO STUDY AND SHUT THE STUPID LAPTOP! @#$%^&*()__+"...
MemeMeRachel@2130
Yes, I'm thinking about all sorts of things. It's like... I never get tired of matching you with someone else, be it a girl or a guy. Things may seem out of place cause you're not gay, but... Oh well, at least things work out in my head. Stop saying that nobody will fall for you, Jia Xun already caught so many fishies O_O are girls these days attracted to big heads...? Maybe there are some who LOVE small heads too. Ikan bilis~
Lalalala~
Not thinking...
Not thinking...
Not thinking...
Not matchmaking...
Not matchmaking...
Not matchmaking...
I AM THINKING AND MATCHMAKING.
Muahahahahahaha O_O
Things don't look too good. Ouch. It hurts so much, can you imagine? Luckily, I WILL ALWAYS HAVE HER T^T even if she's just a friend, I STILL HAVE HER!
Joe... Joe... Joe... Joe...
Yuuna... Yuuna... Yuuna...
Stephanie... Stephanie... Stephanie...
Suu... Suu... Suu... Suu... Suu... Suu...
Koi... Koi... Koi... Koi... Koi...
Hie... Hie... Hie... Hie... Hie... Hie...
Yes. I am bored.
Huhuhu.
Going for LEOmazing Race on the 16th, so will be missing the final for the Astro star thing, wasted ticket. Probably not going for NATCOMP finals either, since I'll be tired on the 17th anyway... Oh yeah, mum, I forgot to tell you, I have a test next Tuesday, I HOPE YOU DON'T FIND OUT! >_<
709, aww, I wanna attend, and starting tomorrow, I'll try to wear as much yellow as possible xD But... Too bad, I... Only... Have... ONE yellow T... I don't have a yellow bag, or cloth, or gloves. I have a yellow lunchbox and bottle. I don't have yellow bras or underwear. No yellow pants either. I guess... I'll wear... Idk... Those dull colours to show how disappointed I am.
Even if we hate her as our maths teacher, at least show her some respect? Her family member just passed away for crying out loud! And she's dressed like she just came back from Hell! Everything BLACK, even her bag and shoes and SOCKS are black! DON'T ASK ME HOW I KNOW WHAT'S UNDERNEATH! AND NO! I AM NOT INTERESTED IN OLD WOMEN!
I forgot what else I wanted to say all of a sudden. DAMMIT.
So frustrating, I cannot be with a guy like you. You piss me off every single time... WITH something that interests me... ARGH! I just wanna bite you, so you'd know how frustrated I am. I don't know why she doesn't like you, but I guess she's right, I don't even like you! ARGH!
Take seven deep breaths...
IN... OUT... INHALE... EXHALE... REPEAT...
NOT WORKING!
!@#$%^&*()_+
I have no patience at all, and you know what? Mum will look at me tomorrow saying "why didn't you tell me you have a test next Tuesday? Now... GO STUDY AND SHUT THE STUPID LAPTOP! @#$%^&*()__+"...
Me: Hey mum, I wanna go to 709 =DMum: ... ... ... 3 8!Me:... ... ... D=
MemeMeRachel@2130
Friday, 17 June 2011
A Damn Long Reply
To the desperate and confused boyfriend of a friend,
Things are just fine. Been some time sinced you asked for me. Heh, as I thought, you only need me when you hit a dead end. We've been friends for 15 years, of course I know MOST of the things about her.
Thanks to you, this is my second rewrite, you big screw-up of a guy! Making me waste my precious 20 minutes to reply you but ended up deleting everything because you had to IM me when I was in the mood to write! So this will be LESS effective than the first one, YOU have only yourself to blame you idiot!
Before you moved back and after you've moved back, especially during the week before you moved, she got really, really, REALLY messed up. You know, I know whose fault it is. BUT. Like the idiot that she is, she likes to blame herself. Sigh... No helping that...
Every single time she gets mad at you, she's even madder at herself for getting mad at you. She knows you can't help being busy and that you have a lot of things to do, but she feels ignored anyway. That's just how she is.
She trys NOT to get angry, but the harder she tries, the angrier she gets.
Like I said, you're not ready yet. You can try, I'm not stopping you. It's not my problem if you want to research her as your life's experiment. I'm pretty sure that she'd want that too. Boy, be careful, this experiment that you're taking up, is extreamly fragile, and although it looks like a diamond, IT'S NOT! Once it hits the ground, you can never put it back together, unless you catch the falling experiment with your hands before it touches the ground. That might save it.
But firstly, do you know why she's like that?
I guess not many people know...
You're right for one thing, you have thread deeper into her than most people, in fact, you're the only one who was able to go so deep into her heart. Nobody has reached the place that you touched. Even though you might doubt, I THINK that you understand her the most, besides me. I THINK, I could be wrong, but, yeah, you understand her, that's for sure. It's just a matter of... Words that she uses. You know, she uses them on purpose to make you confused and restless, in a way, to her, it's like revenge for leaving her alone. And now, she's making you feel the same way she felt when you were away. I hope you feel good. Hah!
I can see that you're texting her right now, we'll see what happens later. Seems like she's in a good mood tonight. Don't screw up.
Let me ask you something my dear boy, what can you do for her?
It's tough isn't it?
Yes. You understand her, you do. You know her problems, you know why she cries and is depressed. It's her PMR isn't it? So you should know. The pressure isn't from the test iself, it's from the teachers, parents, HOMEWORK... And the one thing you love most- Band.
Unlike you, your parents never minded about your results as long as you tried your best. Her parents, is somewhere between carefree and result-caring. She often wonders you know? What do they want from her, she's average at everything except for Math. So, why can't they let it slip? That one little subject? It's important, she knows, but she just can't do it. So why do they force her? I don't know either, I guess I can never understand parents.
Like the type of person she is, we both know that forcing her is useless. They say that forcing is sometimes a way to achieve what you want, but, WRONG. It doesn't apply to ALL human beings in ALL fields. In her case, the more you force, the more she stresses over it, and the more she hates it.
So what can you do boy? Tell me. What else can you do besides comfort her when she's depressed, spend every little extra time on your hands with her, and just bandage her wounds that wont stop bleeding? You make her feel better for a while, then she goes all berserk again. You can't change anything can you? You're just making things worse, she HAS to HAVE you. Without you, she'd die. Is that what you want? I know it's not what I want. She loves you, but if she relies on you too much, both of you are the ones who will get hurt, and be forced to part ways. Unless you can prove me wrong, I'll disappear forever and never disturb the both of you. Cause if you prove me wrong, it's obvious that I lost to you.
10 out of 7 times, she's depressed. Where else can she go? But to you. Her parents are good parents, but they just don't understand. They never did care about what she was going through emotionally, they never even knew.
Most of the times when she's long-faced and moody because the stress is too much she can't bear it, her mum would ask her what's wrong but she'd reply irritatedly. Making her mother furious, and then her mother would start shouting at her.
I wonder what would happen if she actually tried to tell. You know her. She could never get things out so easily. Isn't her most used word 'nothing'? The word that makes you worry.
She told me of course, I asked her why wouldn't she tell her mum about her problems. The response I got was head shaking and salty tears falling down.
"She would tell me that I'm crazy and that I should stop the nonsense," she said to me one day. She did exactly what she was told to do- SHUT UP. And so, she never answered anybody when she's moody, she couldn't get her problems out because she thought that nobody would care anyway. Until I came along, then you.
" 'Why wont you answer me! Why have you becomed like this! What the hell is wrong with you! You weirdo! YOU WEIRD CHILD!' she'd tell me when I'm upset. As a mother, how coud she, when I was already so depressed... I just... Don't understand!" She burst out into tears and soaked my shirt. Speaking was a problem, and so was keeping quiet, what do you expect her to do? What else CAN she do? What else can YOU do?
" 'Then why wont you tell me! If you'd tell! Things would be different!' my mother would say to me again. I'm really confused. What does she expect? I try to tell her and she says I'm nuts. I do exactly what she says, clamp my mouth shut and she tells me I'm weird. I don't know anything anymore..." She wrote to me. I don't know what to say, how can I help her... I also don't know. But if her mother was better at controlling her temper, I guess your girlfriend wouldn't be so depressed. Now, we both know where she inherited her short temper. If only her parents were like yours, how do you think she'd be? If only her own mother cared more... Emotionally.
Have I anwered your question now? Or was I just blabbering away? Either way, I hope you understand her better now.
All you have to do is just tell her that you're there when she has lost her mind. She wants nothing more than that, nothing more than you. So don't stress yourself, you'd make things worse.
You are an idiot for not understanding her. What use is your vocabulary when you can't understand her SIMPLE english, which consists of words like 'nothing' , 'whatever', 'fine' and so on. The way she puts them, it's like they can mean multiple things, and yes, whatever that you think they mean, no matter how many interpretions, THEY'RE ALL TRUE. When she says that "You did nothing" means that you didn't do anything, anything to make her mad, anything to make her happy.
Bingo. She gets a little bitchy when the decisions you make isn't to her liking, she'd replace the words SCREW YOU and EFF YOU with WHATEVER. When she's really irritated she'd say FINE, you better think twice about being happy. She isn't agreeing, she's thinking long and hard when will you FINALLY realize your mistake and apologize to her, she knows that SHE'S right and YOU'RE wrong.
I pity you sometimes, you know that? How the heck are you even attracted to SUCH a person? UGH. I can never understand that simple mind of yours. Dumbass.
NO! NO! NO!
Don't leave her! I'd be miserable if you did! I'd be the only one she could count on, so , DON'T LEAVE T^T
She doesn't want you to leave, she's just letting you choose, after all, she can't make you stay, can she? That would be selfish of her. You have freedom. Though it REALLY pisses her off, the things you do... It's still your freedom of choice. Six months is some time bro, but yeah, she feels the same, maybe something's changed, but definitely, she wont leave you just yet.
The days of uncertainty eh? Silly boy. Enjoy the time you two still have. Like you said, go with the flow. But if you think too much, it's really... Really... Really... Going to affect your relationship with crazy bitch you're dating =X
Don't tell her what I called her!
Oh my my my. You answer that question, and you die. To her, everything she asks, has a point. She made a 'score meter' for you. Though she doesn't keep track, she'd deduct a mark when you disppoint her. Ah. Who knows how many marks you've lost and gained. It doesn't matter anyway. She doesn't care about the 'score meter', that thing is just for fun.
Hehe. Do you believe me that she's cuckoo now? Or you've always known but love her anyways? Ah, how sweet. I WISH I HAD SOMEONE LIKE YOU >_<
Oops =x
Well. My pleasure. Beeeeeen a long time since anyone called for my help. If you never called, I would have rot in my cage already.
I will now go back to bed and sleep. Thank you for wasting my time you good for nothing dimwit!
Men. I just hate men.
Why wont she tell me that she loves me!
>_<
♥
♥
♥
♥
Yours sincerely,
チェル
Things are just fine. Been some time sinced you asked for me. Heh, as I thought, you only need me when you hit a dead end. We've been friends for 15 years, of course I know MOST of the things about her.
Thanks to you, this is my second rewrite, you big screw-up of a guy! Making me waste my precious 20 minutes to reply you but ended up deleting everything because you had to IM me when I was in the mood to write! So this will be LESS effective than the first one, YOU have only yourself to blame you idiot!
Before you moved back and after you've moved back, especially during the week before you moved, she got really, really, REALLY messed up. You know, I know whose fault it is. BUT. Like the idiot that she is, she likes to blame herself. Sigh... No helping that...
Every single time she gets mad at you, she's even madder at herself for getting mad at you. She knows you can't help being busy and that you have a lot of things to do, but she feels ignored anyway. That's just how she is.
She trys NOT to get angry, but the harder she tries, the angrier she gets.
Like I said, you're not ready yet. You can try, I'm not stopping you. It's not my problem if you want to research her as your life's experiment. I'm pretty sure that she'd want that too. Boy, be careful, this experiment that you're taking up, is extreamly fragile, and although it looks like a diamond, IT'S NOT! Once it hits the ground, you can never put it back together, unless you catch the falling experiment with your hands before it touches the ground. That might save it.
But firstly, do you know why she's like that?
I guess not many people know...
You're right for one thing, you have thread deeper into her than most people, in fact, you're the only one who was able to go so deep into her heart. Nobody has reached the place that you touched. Even though you might doubt, I THINK that you understand her the most, besides me. I THINK, I could be wrong, but, yeah, you understand her, that's for sure. It's just a matter of... Words that she uses. You know, she uses them on purpose to make you confused and restless, in a way, to her, it's like revenge for leaving her alone. And now, she's making you feel the same way she felt when you were away. I hope you feel good. Hah!
I can see that you're texting her right now, we'll see what happens later. Seems like she's in a good mood tonight. Don't screw up.
Let me ask you something my dear boy, what can you do for her?
It's tough isn't it?
Yes. You understand her, you do. You know her problems, you know why she cries and is depressed. It's her PMR isn't it? So you should know. The pressure isn't from the test iself, it's from the teachers, parents, HOMEWORK... And the one thing you love most- Band.
Unlike you, your parents never minded about your results as long as you tried your best. Her parents, is somewhere between carefree and result-caring. She often wonders you know? What do they want from her, she's average at everything except for Math. So, why can't they let it slip? That one little subject? It's important, she knows, but she just can't do it. So why do they force her? I don't know either, I guess I can never understand parents.
Like the type of person she is, we both know that forcing her is useless. They say that forcing is sometimes a way to achieve what you want, but, WRONG. It doesn't apply to ALL human beings in ALL fields. In her case, the more you force, the more she stresses over it, and the more she hates it.
So what can you do boy? Tell me. What else can you do besides comfort her when she's depressed, spend every little extra time on your hands with her, and just bandage her wounds that wont stop bleeding? You make her feel better for a while, then she goes all berserk again. You can't change anything can you? You're just making things worse, she HAS to HAVE you. Without you, she'd die. Is that what you want? I know it's not what I want. She loves you, but if she relies on you too much, both of you are the ones who will get hurt, and be forced to part ways. Unless you can prove me wrong, I'll disappear forever and never disturb the both of you. Cause if you prove me wrong, it's obvious that I lost to you.
10 out of 7 times, she's depressed. Where else can she go? But to you. Her parents are good parents, but they just don't understand. They never did care about what she was going through emotionally, they never even knew.
Most of the times when she's long-faced and moody because the stress is too much she can't bear it, her mum would ask her what's wrong but she'd reply irritatedly. Making her mother furious, and then her mother would start shouting at her.
I wonder what would happen if she actually tried to tell. You know her. She could never get things out so easily. Isn't her most used word 'nothing'? The word that makes you worry.
She told me of course, I asked her why wouldn't she tell her mum about her problems. The response I got was head shaking and salty tears falling down.
"She would tell me that I'm crazy and that I should stop the nonsense," she said to me one day. She did exactly what she was told to do- SHUT UP. And so, she never answered anybody when she's moody, she couldn't get her problems out because she thought that nobody would care anyway. Until I came along, then you.
" 'Why wont you answer me! Why have you becomed like this! What the hell is wrong with you! You weirdo! YOU WEIRD CHILD!' she'd tell me when I'm upset. As a mother, how coud she, when I was already so depressed... I just... Don't understand!" She burst out into tears and soaked my shirt. Speaking was a problem, and so was keeping quiet, what do you expect her to do? What else CAN she do? What else can YOU do?
" 'Then why wont you tell me! If you'd tell! Things would be different!' my mother would say to me again. I'm really confused. What does she expect? I try to tell her and she says I'm nuts. I do exactly what she says, clamp my mouth shut and she tells me I'm weird. I don't know anything anymore..." She wrote to me. I don't know what to say, how can I help her... I also don't know. But if her mother was better at controlling her temper, I guess your girlfriend wouldn't be so depressed. Now, we both know where she inherited her short temper. If only her parents were like yours, how do you think she'd be? If only her own mother cared more... Emotionally.
Have I anwered your question now? Or was I just blabbering away? Either way, I hope you understand her better now.
All you have to do is just tell her that you're there when she has lost her mind. She wants nothing more than that, nothing more than you. So don't stress yourself, you'd make things worse.
You are an idiot for not understanding her. What use is your vocabulary when you can't understand her SIMPLE english, which consists of words like 'nothing' , 'whatever', 'fine' and so on. The way she puts them, it's like they can mean multiple things, and yes, whatever that you think they mean, no matter how many interpretions, THEY'RE ALL TRUE. When she says that "You did nothing" means that you didn't do anything, anything to make her mad, anything to make her happy.
Bingo. She gets a little bitchy when the decisions you make isn't to her liking, she'd replace the words SCREW YOU and EFF YOU with WHATEVER. When she's really irritated she'd say FINE, you better think twice about being happy. She isn't agreeing, she's thinking long and hard when will you FINALLY realize your mistake and apologize to her, she knows that SHE'S right and YOU'RE wrong.
I pity you sometimes, you know that? How the heck are you even attracted to SUCH a person? UGH. I can never understand that simple mind of yours. Dumbass.
NO! NO! NO!
Don't leave her! I'd be miserable if you did! I'd be the only one she could count on, so , DON'T LEAVE T^T
She doesn't want you to leave, she's just letting you choose, after all, she can't make you stay, can she? That would be selfish of her. You have freedom. Though it REALLY pisses her off, the things you do... It's still your freedom of choice. Six months is some time bro, but yeah, she feels the same, maybe something's changed, but definitely, she wont leave you just yet.
The days of uncertainty eh? Silly boy. Enjoy the time you two still have. Like you said, go with the flow. But if you think too much, it's really... Really... Really... Going to affect your relationship with crazy bitch you're dating =X
Don't tell her what I called her!
Oh my my my. You answer that question, and you die. To her, everything she asks, has a point. She made a 'score meter' for you. Though she doesn't keep track, she'd deduct a mark when you disppoint her. Ah. Who knows how many marks you've lost and gained. It doesn't matter anyway. She doesn't care about the 'score meter', that thing is just for fun.
Hehe. Do you believe me that she's cuckoo now? Or you've always known but love her anyways? Ah, how sweet. I WISH I HAD SOMEONE LIKE YOU >_<
Oops =x
Well. My pleasure. Beeeeeen a long time since anyone called for my help. If you never called, I would have rot in my cage already.
I will now go back to bed and sleep. Thank you for wasting my time you good for nothing dimwit!
Men. I just hate men.
Why wont she tell me that she loves me!
>_<
♥
♥
♥
♥
Yours sincerely,
チェル
Saturday, 11 June 2011
Mashed Post
I'm lazy to blog about my trip to Hatyai. The government ruined everything for me.
THEY BANNED FILE SHARING SITES O_O
That's just... UNACCEPTABLE!
These few days have been nothing but hell.
A tour guide who talks and laughs to herself, with a name that doesn't suit her- Ah Toi Toi.
Coming home, my room's a mess thanks to my LOVELY siblings and cousins. They spilled Coke all over my candles and incense, making my room an ants nest. Burnt Mr.Contented that my dear gave me. And after so long of NOT touching the news paper, the news I saw... Killed me.
ACCESS DENIED!
Sounds interesting... Look... Look... Read... SHOUT.
My maid thought my friend got killed cause I was looking at the papers and shouting like someone died.
Ah. Suddenly, I know what to do for my N.I.E mini mag. Screw the government.
They 3 days in Hatyai was nice. Temples... Temples... And more... Temples. Some shopping. Nice chicken wings... In the hotel room, watching TV with SZN... Korean shows are not bad. BUT... I STILL WONT GET INFECTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now, my life is meaningless. Where the hell am I suppose to download my anime and movies?! DUDE! Ahhh!
And you know what? They banned file sharing sites and not porn sites because our PM watches porn everyday. Sheesh.
I have 4 Malay essays to write, 2 English articles to write, 1 Chinese essay to write, a geography folio to complete... And... I have to hand them all in on MONDAY.
GREAT.
Ahhhh! Screw this!
Why can't I just stay in a small cottage by the river, grow some veges and live happily without having to CARE about anything? Ahhhh... If only they never ate the God damned apple.
I have a feeling... I will do my homework... Right now.
THEY BANNED FILE SHARING SITES O_O
That's just... UNACCEPTABLE!
These few days have been nothing but hell.
A tour guide who talks and laughs to herself, with a name that doesn't suit her- Ah Toi Toi.
Coming home, my room's a mess thanks to my LOVELY siblings and cousins. They spilled Coke all over my candles and incense, making my room an ants nest. Burnt Mr.Contented that my dear gave me. And after so long of NOT touching the news paper, the news I saw... Killed me.
ACCESS DENIED!
Sounds interesting... Look... Look... Read... SHOUT.
My maid thought my friend got killed cause I was looking at the papers and shouting like someone died.
Ah. Suddenly, I know what to do for my N.I.E mini mag. Screw the government.
They 3 days in Hatyai was nice. Temples... Temples... And more... Temples. Some shopping. Nice chicken wings... In the hotel room, watching TV with SZN... Korean shows are not bad. BUT... I STILL WONT GET INFECTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now, my life is meaningless. Where the hell am I suppose to download my anime and movies?! DUDE! Ahhh!
And you know what? They banned file sharing sites and not porn sites because our PM watches porn everyday. Sheesh.
I have 4 Malay essays to write, 2 English articles to write, 1 Chinese essay to write, a geography folio to complete... And... I have to hand them all in on MONDAY.
GREAT.
Ahhhh! Screw this!
Why can't I just stay in a small cottage by the river, grow some veges and live happily without having to CARE about anything? Ahhhh... If only they never ate the God damned apple.
I have a feeling... I will do my homework... Right now.
THIS SUCKS
Friday, 27 May 2011
Ahhhhh~
Ahhh~ I've finally started on Sekai-ichi Hatsuiko. AHHHH~ My goodness. I wonder why homosexual love relationship excites me. Heck, they excite me more than my own STRAIGHT relationship. Though I think that my boyfriend is gay.
Tee-hee~ After watching 5 episodes and the OVA, I'll stop watching and READ the manga now. Continue to watch episode 6 and 7 while I wait for the release of episode 8!!! Yes! It will be out by tomorrow NIGHT! So will episode 19 of Gosick! Ahhhhhh, another reason why I love Fridays. But... Some things just ruin the love-Friday mood. The top reason is of course Rebecca Black's awful song Friday. Don't remind me.
Wow. After watching Sekai-ichi Hatsuiko, lives of manga authors and editors are THAT scary O_O
BEHOLD! The editors.
Aha~ Editor-in-Chief. Takano.
He reminds me of Usagi from Junjou Romantica.
The perfect seme. AHHHH~
Ritsu. Brown hair, green eyes...
The same as Misaki from Junjou Romantica.
Only...
Misaki is cuter~
Nakamura Shungiku sure is good at writing BL. Ahhhh~ I love her~
I don't know why, but in BL, the seme tend to have a square face, and the uke have... Sharp chin and big eyes... More girly... But... DAMN, they just look so good together, making me feel jealous.
Always wondering how it feels like to date a girl, I know I can experience it someday... But... The thing I'm more interested in knowing is, how does it feel like to be a guy, that dates another guy =x
I always have these fantasies of my life turning out like those in manga and anime. AHAHAHA. Suddenly, I feel like being a guy. The main purpose of course, is so that I could date another guy, and be gay. Hehehe. I just make you want to slap me, don't I?
Stories... They are too good to be true. Why wont she just tell me that she likes me too?! That will make everything more dramatic, and I'll have to choose between her and him which I really can't but truthfully can!!! Oooh, that would make me in the middle, acting as a rope for tug of war. Fair skin, pretty legs, shiny eyes and soft hair... Ahhh~
GEEZUS!
I have to STOP thinking about her, or else, this is going to be BAD for ME. I'll be stuck at home writing about my own yuri fantasies if she still wont leave my mind. I never tried writing yaoi... WAIT... I have...
Never mind... I will now go to Mangafox and excite myself to sleep.
I blush, I jump, I close my eyes, wrap myself in my blanket and roll in my rocking chair while watching BL.
Tuesday, 15 February 2011
Lines and Lines Again
I have had enough of it!
Every since you came, everything became more miserable than it already is! If you don't want to be here, you can LEAVE, you don't have to stay if it wasn't YOUR choice! Why don't you just go away?! If you don't like it!
You can write a letter saying I QUIT.
That way, you and I, and everyone else will be happy.
I still wonder... Are you really an old virgin?
If you are, I think I know why.
Even if you do look like a China doll, you suck.
Yes... I'm helping SZN with the Skirt 2 book. DAMN. So many lines to draw... Only... Oh... Only a hundred pages to go! HOW FUN! I CAN'T WAIT TO CONTINUE DRAWING THOSE LINES!
Damn you... Why a book... We could have used a computer to do it, then go photocopy it or whatever. And why do we have to eat salt for the next coming generations? Hello? I know you're a virgin and you don't have kids to pamper, but, if the next coming generations are gonna have it easier than we already are... Then... I guess the principle can blow up the band building.
Actually, he can blow it up now.
Hmm... Lemme blabber bout my thoughts for a while, since I'm already here...
Now that I'm done...
I'm gonna continue my work, and really, I DON'T GET PAID!
Every since you came, everything became more miserable than it already is! If you don't want to be here, you can LEAVE, you don't have to stay if it wasn't YOUR choice! Why don't you just go away?! If you don't like it!
You can write a letter saying I QUIT.
That way, you and I, and everyone else will be happy.
I still wonder... Are you really an old virgin?
If you are, I think I know why.
Even if you do look like a China doll, you suck.
Yes... I'm helping SZN with the Skirt 2 book. DAMN. So many lines to draw... Only... Oh... Only a hundred pages to go! HOW FUN! I CAN'T WAIT TO CONTINUE DRAWING THOSE LINES!
Damn you... Why a book... We could have used a computer to do it, then go photocopy it or whatever. And why do we have to eat salt for the next coming generations? Hello? I know you're a virgin and you don't have kids to pamper, but, if the next coming generations are gonna have it easier than we already are... Then... I guess the principle can blow up the band building.
Actually, he can blow it up now.
Hmm... Lemme blabber bout my thoughts for a while, since I'm already here...
***
What does it have to do with the shoes you wear and how many pairs you have?
Not a runner so why can't I jog? Must I run and faint later on? Because you forced me to?
Not a problem, but there is a problem.
Serious or not, smiling is illegal?
Then I wonder, how can you tell what I'm thinking? Because, you cannot, all you thought, was all wrong.
My face, my head, my mind, my thoughts.
It wasn't him.
It was 1,2,3,4... TURN AROUND...
If you were serious you wouldn't have done that.
If you were serious, we would have been more serious.
Then I wonder... Whose fault is it?
It is either you don't get it, or I blame it on you for not understanding.
***
When there's a friend, not really a friend, just a person you care about, I would rather know if she hates me or not. Because the feeling of not knowing... Liked or hated by that person you care about, is unbearable. What am I to her? And what is she to me? She doesn't know. I don't know. But it would be nice... If she showed that she cared. But then... Why... Would... She...?
We're not even close...
***
Okay...
Now that I'm done...
I'm gonna continue my work, and really, I DON'T GET PAID!
I would like to know, if I am hated by you...
Ever since the first time I saw you...
I wanted you to like me...
Friday, 31 December 2010
Band Trip~2010~
Band trip... One day... To Genting, then to Times Square, stop for dinner on the way back... Then... Finally... Back home...
Thursday...
DAMMIT...
School's on Monday. I feel like killing myself already.
PMR...
PMP =_=
ARGH!
SCHOOL'S ON MONDAY T^T
Let's not talk about that. I hate it. Just thinking about that makes me wanna jump down from a high place.
Right.
The trip.
It was... Fine... Okay... Cold... Nice... Not nice...
My legs still hurt.
There HAD to be clowns. I was in such a bad mood that they made me so scared that I forgot about my bad mood and became scared. At least they didn't wear THAT much make up... I have no idea why children like clowns. They are freaking scary. Killer clowns. Killer dolls.
Next time, I think I'm gonna bring cup noodles to Genting. Dammit. I spent about 90 on food. 30+ on tea, 17 on a freaking Happy Meal which made me UNHAPPY, 2.10 on an ice cream, 20 on rice, 10 on a sausage and Milo, about another 18 on breakfast this morning...
Oh well...
At least I got what I needed.
Yes, I bought a t because I feel bad about not changing when going out with you.
What?
At least I got a shirt as an excuse to my mum... You do not wanna know how much I used...
WELL
Uhhh...
Nothing.
RIGHT.
THE TRIP.
On the bus... Leaving school.
Before that, we went exploring the school. Saw a kitten. Damn cute. Damn small. It liked me so much, I had to carry it for Jessica when we explored the school a SECOND time. It was so hungry that it thought I had milk, either that or I just smell damn good. Good thing it didn't tear my shirt. Or else...
Lalala~
So... On the bus... While everyone's sleeping so nicely, I WAS WAITING FOR A REST STOP. I held it in for 2 freaking hours. We passed two stops that I was so worried that we weren't gonna stop at all... I was looking at the road, for rest stops... Jessica just... opens her eyes and does nothing. She couldn't sleep. And I thought I was the only one awake. The person behind me slept so nicely that I heard him snore. Not like a pig la, very soft.
Morning came.
When we finally stopped for breakfast, I went to sleep.
Nobody went down. After 30 minutes, I woke up and went down. So... Yeah... I just slept for 30 minutes. From about 5.30am to 6am =_=
Called Zongxu TO TELL HIM THAT WE WERE HAVING BREAKFAST. Because everyone was wondering who's gonna be responsible for calling him and then suddenly turned to me. I wonder why...
Was conversationless as usual with him.
Tuu...Tuu...Tuu...
The bus went up the hill...
Tuu... Sounds more like a train, but, whatever. That's the best thing that I can think of.
Nice scenery, I felt jumping into the clouds. They looked so soft, so fluffy... If you wanna suicide, do it there, you'll never know when you might hit a rock and die.
Genting...
Left the bags in the lobby, then off we go, to the outdoor park.
I found feeding the fishes more interesting than going on rides that makes you throw up.
Right. I spent 12 on fish food...
=_=
I was having a headache, and the queues are long... So... Feed the fishes, it's relaxing, easy, and the fishes get some food, people take photos of them, I get less bored, less stressed, less moody... I'm just not a morning person... I felt like dying in the outdoor park. I never rode anything extreme. Got myself and the others soaked because I wanted to ride the water log thing.
You have to hold on real tight, if not, you might fall off half way... And... The heaviest three that day HAD to share the same boat =_=
After drying ourselves with the other ride, we went to the restroom and dried ourselves properly... Uhh... Not properly... With the HAND dryer... Not HAIR dryer...
I'm killing myself. I smell like a giant rose T^T
I can't continue this post like this...
I can't...
Or wait...
You can't continue this post cause your eyes are hurting?
Well, have a break, have a Kit-Kat. There's a long, long way to go.
After drying. Lunch time.
Thanks to Si Kai, we climbed down the stairs, and up again, then down the other one, then go back up again... Then... We finally went back indoors, and went to McDonald's to have my UNHappy Meal.
That's when my headache got worse. Worse headache, even moodier.
They had to DRAG me... Literally DRAG me to the outdoor park again. I was saying that I was gonna be fine on my own and that I was gonna wait at the lobby till three, BUT NO... They HAD to drag me out... They said that he was waiting for me? Yeah right, I just followed them, met more clowns, and waited for them to finish while I took pictures of flowers.
Pictures.
Everyone owns a freaking DSLR these days. They feel uncomfy when using a TINY cellphone to take pictures, and sorry my tiny cell has its own stupid light settings that the guy couldn't take a pic using it because he's too smart and doesn't know how to use a cell to take pictures anymore. And sorry I don't like self portraits and don't know how to self pose and self take at the same time.
Recycled Christmas.
After checking in at 3.30pm or some where near that time, we went to our room. Me, Mariane, Shirley, and Jessica. Jessica left her clothes all over the bed to dry, I threw all my junk food out on the bed too. A big mess. So... I just used Shirley's and Mariane's bed to lie down.
Few minutes later...
Got a text.
Right.
Damn. Had nothing to wear. Just brought ONE change.
Took the extra key, went out and bought something to wear. Not bad, at least I found something.
Went back to my room after half an hour of rushy clothes shopping. They are still asleep... Had a shower, came out, STILL ASLEEP...
When they went out at about 5, I was still in the room, sitting down, slowly eating seaweed and drinking tea. Felt so sleepy. As I was dozing off, I heard a knock on the door. NO. Don't guess. Room service. Actually scared the hell outta me when nobody answered me when I asked who the heck is knocking.
Walked a bit.
Had coffee...
No wait...
I had tea and a lolli.
Went back.
You're fast. You disappeared when they unlatched the door =_=
Dinner. Walked around. Finally. Food court.
Had Taiwanese food.
While I was eating...
Matthew nicely came, nicely took his chair, nicely sat down, nicely drank coke, nicely had fish and chips, nicely left...
SPEECHLESS...
He's so clueless that it's a good thing.
Damn you Justin... I think you're right, I think I'm sick. But wait, I'mma prove you wrong when we go out tomorrow.
I think I should really sleep now...
Yes. Yes.
Mostly, I spent time with him.
Yesterday and today.
TOLD YOU I WAS BETTER AT NIGHT.
Hmm...
Cold air.
An angry mouse.
=_=
Cold air feels good... Well... Different from an air conditioned room. It's cold, but it's natural, so, you wont feel that cold... Alright... That's just me, you were freezing in your very short hoodie. You could have left anytime you wanted, I'm already used to having nothing and being alone. But thank you, you cared.
Somehow, I knew you'd come back.
If it didn't start raining, I would be there all night. I'm serious, I can do that, there's always something when there's nothing. So, when there's nothing... A lot goes through my mind, but, I try to shut my mind up by listening to music. Yeah. I'm weird. But... It's a good thing, waiting isn't a problem for me.
You were so happy to finally leave =_=
You don't like being with me that much? Either that or you just hate the cold and aloneness.
Well...
It felt weird, but, at the same time, it didn't. Because it was you maybe? I could hold anybody's hand and swing it lalala without feeling anything. Not even the warmth. But... You... Yeah... Even when it's cold, it was warm. Again... I miss your hand...
Was my head heavy?
I have to admit. I was trying REAL hard NOT to use your shoulder AT FIRST. But then... I gave up resisting. Boop. I sleep. Until my mum messaged me...
It's always my mum...
It felt... Wow... I always wanted to do that!
I felt happy I guess, I finally have a shoulder to lean on, instead of sleeping straight, or using the window. In both ways, I have somebody... I'll try not to be pushy and rely on you too much though, you're not gonna be near.
Indescribable.
I have a habit of hugging everything I lean on.
It was so hard for me to NOT turn around and hug you T^T
That's why I kept pinching myself, I guess... And it was too bright to hug you =_=
I should shut up now.
This post of TRIP is a failure.
The toilets at Times Square another failure.
I can't think straight when I'm sleepy and with my head spinning, and I think I'm hungry...
Gonna have ramen. And tea.
Yes, the best part about all this, why I'm happy and the trip didn't suck. It's obvious isn't it? Even if I had nothing to buy while shopping... Even if I had nothing I wanted to do... The reason I'm even happy...
You...
Monday, 27 December 2010
COME SKYPE~
Let's all Skype again tomorrow~
Let's see if we can break today's record of 4 hours 40++ minutes ^^
Everyone is welcomed to join, but... Well... Yeah... Anyone can join, but, if you wanna leave, leave anytime... If the person that joined have nothing in common... Or... Well... I DON'T LIKE... Then I'll leave first, THEN come back =D
Nah... I just don't care. The more the merrier. But sometimes, let's just dim the lights. If there's too many lights, we can barely see anything, and... It'll get so hot, one or two will blow, and I think I'll blow cause of the heat AND light.
What am I talking about?
I think I Skyped too much just now @_@
Dammit...
There's just no privacy around here. My mum HAD to come in and chat. Why don't she make an acc for her self? That way, she doesn't have to shout over my mike, and block my screen. Uffff... She has nothing else better to do... Haih...
Damn... Why did it stop downloading?
Anyone got a pendrive? If the plan is to WATCH a horror movie BEFORE going, then... Let's watch Suicide Club... I don't know if it's good or not... But, the starting looks interesting and they SAY that it's damn sick. Shall we?
Fuk... I have 2.6% left... SO WHY WONT IT START?!
I hate it when they stop downloading when you have so little left. Damn torrents. But... It's clear~
This is the sample video from the torrent that I downloaded, just watch it, there's no sound. Sorry. But the complete movie got sound la...
Ahhh...
People go to bed so early.
I try NOT to think about SCHOOL'S GONNA START AGAIN NEXT WEEK.
So, what do you guys think about the movie? Good enough?
It's a Japanese horror film, so, expect it to be a bit... Complicated... I never get the story... NEVER... I've watched so many Japanese/Korean horror movies, but... I always fail to understand them... I just know how they die... And mostly, it's about revenge, either that, or it's just jealousy. Yeah... Mostly those two... Mostly because of love too... Love and beauty. Yeah...
Sometimes, it serves them right.
What?
If I knew, I wouldn't have deleted every movie I watched. I had this Thai horror movie, which was so pathetic... You'd laugh until you die... At the ending =_=
Phobia 2.
It's made outta 3 or 5 stories... A few scary ones, a few complicating ones, ONE stupid story =_=
Meat Grinder wasn't bad. Human meat noodle soup. Okay... FINE... Meat Grinder wasn't very good either... There was just a few killing scenes. Yeah... Also because of love...
Let's see...
What else is there?
I never had the patience to watch Paranormal Activity. It got such good reviews... I gave up watching after 5 minutes =_=
But my grandma said that it was nice...
It's actually real, that's why I didn't watch it.
English horror movies are... There's NO ghost. Only some dude in a mask killing for his mama. A pervert raping and eating women. A dude who kills you in your dreams...
Damn... I don't feel like sleeping now...
Why did my COME SKYPE post became a HORROR MOVIES post???
I Skyped too much.
Good Night.
Sweet Dreams.
I don't care if you're Sri Tan.
Why the heck do you need me to wish you so many times? LOL. I know I have a nice voice =P
Don't throw up ya~
I think... I need a bag stand...
My shelves are tight. You can't squeeze anymore books. Well... If there's more, I could use a new column, but then... What will happen to my babies? I have so many... They can't all sleep with me... Now that I look at them, they don't look like they're near 20, but when it's time for a group photo... They can't fit in the screen =_=
Never mind... I'll sleep with the bigger ones... Suzuki-san... The puppy my mum gave me, and uhh... Toffee? The Gingerbread Man I got from my aunt few years ago~
I sleep with a few bean-filled??? Ones too... Like my penguin, star, and demon :x
I feel like sleeping with the others... But... I'm lazy to clean up.
AHHHHHHHHH
This is getting further and further away from the title.
Let's see if we can break today's record of 4 hours 40++ minutes ^^
Everyone is welcomed to join, but... Well... Yeah... Anyone can join, but, if you wanna leave, leave anytime... If the person that joined have nothing in common... Or... Well... I DON'T LIKE... Then I'll leave first, THEN come back =D
Nah... I just don't care. The more the merrier. But sometimes, let's just dim the lights. If there's too many lights, we can barely see anything, and... It'll get so hot, one or two will blow, and I think I'll blow cause of the heat AND light.
What am I talking about?
I think I Skyped too much just now @_@
Dammit...
There's just no privacy around here. My mum HAD to come in and chat. Why don't she make an acc for her self? That way, she doesn't have to shout over my mike, and block my screen. Uffff... She has nothing else better to do... Haih...
Damn... Why did it stop downloading?
Anyone got a pendrive? If the plan is to WATCH a horror movie BEFORE going, then... Let's watch Suicide Club... I don't know if it's good or not... But, the starting looks interesting and they SAY that it's damn sick. Shall we?
Fuk... I have 2.6% left... SO WHY WONT IT START?!
I hate it when they stop downloading when you have so little left. Damn torrents. But... It's clear~
This is the sample video from the torrent that I downloaded, just watch it, there's no sound. Sorry. But the complete movie got sound la...
Ahhh...
People go to bed so early.
I try NOT to think about SCHOOL'S GONNA START AGAIN NEXT WEEK.
So, what do you guys think about the movie? Good enough?
It's a Japanese horror film, so, expect it to be a bit... Complicated... I never get the story... NEVER... I've watched so many Japanese/Korean horror movies, but... I always fail to understand them... I just know how they die... And mostly, it's about revenge, either that, or it's just jealousy. Yeah... Mostly those two... Mostly because of love too... Love and beauty. Yeah...
Sometimes, it serves them right.
What?
If I knew, I wouldn't have deleted every movie I watched. I had this Thai horror movie, which was so pathetic... You'd laugh until you die... At the ending =_=
Phobia 2.
It's made outta 3 or 5 stories... A few scary ones, a few complicating ones, ONE stupid story =_=
Meat Grinder wasn't bad. Human meat noodle soup. Okay... FINE... Meat Grinder wasn't very good either... There was just a few killing scenes. Yeah... Also because of love...
Let's see...
What else is there?
I never had the patience to watch Paranormal Activity. It got such good reviews... I gave up watching after 5 minutes =_=
But my grandma said that it was nice...
It's actually real, that's why I didn't watch it.
English horror movies are... There's NO ghost. Only some dude in a mask killing for his mama. A pervert raping and eating women. A dude who kills you in your dreams...
Damn... I don't feel like sleeping now...
Why did my COME SKYPE post became a HORROR MOVIES post???
I Skyped too much.
Good Night.
Sweet Dreams.
I don't care if you're Sri Tan.
Why the heck do you need me to wish you so many times? LOL. I know I have a nice voice =P
Don't throw up ya~
I think... I need a bag stand...
My shelves are tight. You can't squeeze anymore books. Well... If there's more, I could use a new column, but then... What will happen to my babies? I have so many... They can't all sleep with me... Now that I look at them, they don't look like they're near 20, but when it's time for a group photo... They can't fit in the screen =_=
Never mind... I'll sleep with the bigger ones... Suzuki-san... The puppy my mum gave me, and uhh... Toffee? The Gingerbread Man I got from my aunt few years ago~
I sleep with a few bean-filled??? Ones too... Like my penguin, star, and demon :x
I feel like sleeping with the others... But... I'm lazy to clean up.
AHHHHHHHHH
This is getting further and further away from the title.
COME SKYPE. WE ACCEPT ANYONE.
Friday, 24 December 2010
Teach You...?
O_O
Seriously, I have no idea...
It all started with him being curious of who I like. So... I like playing games, and he's bad at guessing, so, we played a guessing game... Things got... Hmm... Worse? Better? After he guessed himself?
I don't really know.
Seriously, I don't.
You don't have to THINK about anything. You don't have to be smart, and think about what will happen and about the God damn future... Just... You have to tell yourself...
But of course, when you get rejected, you get all EMO and you cry and stuff... But... Be proud, at least you told him/her. Yep, be proud cause you got the guts to do it.
1. BE AN IDIOT AND BE BRAVE
That's what I am. Well... Idiots have no worries right? So, be an idiot, to make yourself feel better. Idiots are somewhat braver than normal people. It's true you know? Cause, they don't worry =_=
2. HAVE NO REGRETS
HAH. This is the worst part. You WILL have regrets. Either way, you will... For a while anyway. So, don't worry about it. If you really like him/her, it's worth it. And well... Maybe he/she will like you back?
3. EMPTY YOUR HEAD
Like SOME people, who keep saying that they'll get rejected without even trying first... JUST EMPTY YOUR FRIGGIN HEAD. And then, you can just say it out with no worries. Mm, take a deep breath first, it's stressful if you're telling it face to face.
4. WAIT... OR RUN...
You have two choices after you tell him/her. You can wait for the answer, or, if you're too chicken, RUN AWAY. Yeah... If you KNOW that you'll REALLY get rejected, run away. But... if you stay, maybe that person will have a change of heart... But... I don't think laptops change that fast(you know who I mean).
5. WHATEVER
Don't care. If you do, it'll hurt more. I know how that 'he's really kind, and if I see that kind smile, that happy face, laughing together with them, with us, it will hurt so bad that I can't take it.' feels. It hurts bad right? But well, it is better than not seeing each other. So, keep a smiley face, even if your heart is cracking so bad you can hear it.
6. THE HELL WITH THIS
If you can't take it anymore, if you're an impatient idiot like me, you can just shout it all out in front of other people. Or, you can just ask him/her to come with you for a sec, then, you say what you want. If you're impatient, it works better, cause, you're firey I guess???? O_O
Hmmm...
I never expected things to turn out like this.
I'm just me.
7. BE YOURSELF
Yeah, that's the most important thing... If he/she can't accept YOU, because you're YOU. The hell man, just walk off without a second thought and forget about that person already. If you guys are friends, then, he/she can accept you, but, maybe they just don't feel the same way... Yet...
But, if you've never talked for 5 friggin years, and he/she kinda hates the fact that you like him/her. Then well... Good luck with things. If she can't accept you because you're you. Waisi, just forget about her. If you're already so God damn negative, what you expect? If you're EMO, you think you can get things done? Ah, fuck. I used to be like that. But you know what? I found it in me to tell how I really feel. AND FOR GOD'S SAKE.... YOU'RE A FUCKING GUY.
Ahhhh...
I know that it's hard, because it's her, because you know, she's way better than you. That's why you're looking down on yourself. You can't fucking do that! JUST FUCKING TELL HER HOW YOU FEEL ALREADY AND STOP BEING EMO.
Ah damn... I don't know why I'm so pissed. Is it because he becomes a sissy when it comes to her? Is he that much of a wuss?
I'm sorry la...
Waiha...
I'm gonna go clean my room now.
I don't think the above post helped =_=
Seriously, I have no idea...
It all started with him being curious of who I like. So... I like playing games, and he's bad at guessing, so, we played a guessing game... Things got... Hmm... Worse? Better? After he guessed himself?
I don't really know.
Seriously, I don't.
You don't have to THINK about anything. You don't have to be smart, and think about what will happen and about the God damn future... Just... You have to tell yourself...
"Yeah! I can do it. If I get rejected. Nah, what the hell, at least I got it out."
But of course, when you get rejected, you get all EMO and you cry and stuff... But... Be proud, at least you told him/her. Yep, be proud cause you got the guts to do it.
1. BE AN IDIOT AND BE BRAVE
That's what I am. Well... Idiots have no worries right? So, be an idiot, to make yourself feel better. Idiots are somewhat braver than normal people. It's true you know? Cause, they don't worry =_=
2. HAVE NO REGRETS
HAH. This is the worst part. You WILL have regrets. Either way, you will... For a while anyway. So, don't worry about it. If you really like him/her, it's worth it. And well... Maybe he/she will like you back?
3. EMPTY YOUR HEAD
Like SOME people, who keep saying that they'll get rejected without even trying first... JUST EMPTY YOUR FRIGGIN HEAD. And then, you can just say it out with no worries. Mm, take a deep breath first, it's stressful if you're telling it face to face.
4. WAIT... OR RUN...
You have two choices after you tell him/her. You can wait for the answer, or, if you're too chicken, RUN AWAY. Yeah... If you KNOW that you'll REALLY get rejected, run away. But... if you stay, maybe that person will have a change of heart... But... I don't think laptops change that fast(you know who I mean).
5. WHATEVER
Don't care. If you do, it'll hurt more. I know how that 'he's really kind, and if I see that kind smile, that happy face, laughing together with them, with us, it will hurt so bad that I can't take it.' feels. It hurts bad right? But well, it is better than not seeing each other. So, keep a smiley face, even if your heart is cracking so bad you can hear it.
6. THE HELL WITH THIS
If you can't take it anymore, if you're an impatient idiot like me, you can just shout it all out in front of other people. Or, you can just ask him/her to come with you for a sec, then, you say what you want. If you're impatient, it works better, cause, you're firey I guess???? O_O
Hmmm...
I never expected things to turn out like this.
I'm just me.
7. BE YOURSELF
Yeah, that's the most important thing... If he/she can't accept YOU, because you're YOU. The hell man, just walk off without a second thought and forget about that person already. If you guys are friends, then, he/she can accept you, but, maybe they just don't feel the same way... Yet...
But, if you've never talked for 5 friggin years, and he/she kinda hates the fact that you like him/her. Then well... Good luck with things. If she can't accept you because you're you. Waisi, just forget about her. If you're already so God damn negative, what you expect? If you're EMO, you think you can get things done? Ah, fuck. I used to be like that. But you know what? I found it in me to tell how I really feel. AND FOR GOD'S SAKE.... YOU'RE A FUCKING GUY.
Ahhhh...
I know that it's hard, because it's her, because you know, she's way better than you. That's why you're looking down on yourself. You can't fucking do that! JUST FUCKING TELL HER HOW YOU FEEL ALREADY AND STOP BEING EMO.
Ah damn... I don't know why I'm so pissed. Is it because he becomes a sissy when it comes to her? Is he that much of a wuss?
I'm sorry la...
Waiha...
I'm gonna go clean my room now.
I don't think the above post helped =_=
Sunday, 19 December 2010
uuuuuiiii... Bored?
Impatient.
Impatiently bored.
Bored and impatient.
Sleepily boredly impatient.
Yeah... I don't know what to do... Nobody's on Facebook... I'm lazy... Maybe I should continue playing Mizuki's route for Edelweiss... Or maybe... Just watch some BL. No... That wont work... What if my grandma sees me? Or my sisters... I don't have to worry about Dennis. He runs aways every time yelling that there's something seriously wrong with me... Besides, he's not home~
Lalala~
Love me yet?
No?
Okay...
I'll wait.
I can wait.
I'm a girl. I don't have balls. Use a better sentence =_=
I'm sorry if he can't face her... I don't have balls... So, I can't give him half.
Haaaaaaa
Let's go out again.
Walk with me.
Talk with me.
I'm bored. I miss you.
Lalala
It's okay right...? To miss you?
Don't know if I'm going to KL for Christmas. That woman...
First, she says "LET'S GO TO KAREN'S PLACE FOR CHRISTMAS!"
And we were like "NO WAAAAY! YEAH! YEAH! YEAH! But... How we gonna go?" =_=
" I'll drive."
"You drive? No kidding?"
"But... I'm scared."
"THE HELL MOM! GET THE FUCKING GPS!"
"But... I don't know how to use it..."
"WHAT THE HECK... ARGH! Then why the hell do you own a car anyway?!"
"Get a taxi. You three go. Rachel, come back on 28th. You two can stay longer."
"WTF... DRIVE... Cause... I'm scared to sit the taxi..."
"But...But... But..."
"Just drive. Just... Drive... I give up... Let's just NOT go to Karen's house..."
Mom- ^_^
Me, Lisa, Sarah- =_= + >=(
Dad on chat- ...
I wanna go to Toys R Us. I don't care if I'm 14. I love toys. Lucky kids... Toys are getting so expensive these days... I have to buy my own stuffed animals T^T
Animal Alley~
I'll drop by the XL-Shop and look at figurines~ I want Sebastian 0x0 And Ciel ^_^
Went shopping???? With Zn today. Although... I didn't buy anything... I just went with her... I didn't look at much, wasn't interested. Was more interested in my messaging, waiting for someone that ISN'T my mom to show up on my screen~
Sadly... It's expensive...
But...
Well...
I'll manage. Somehow. I always do. I just need to behave... And be patient...
AHA
People complain that my blog posts are too long.
Well...
Alright.
Alright.
Good Night.
I'm not sleeping.
I'll roll around the floor until somebody finds me.
Or I'll roll around until I get tired and sleep.
Tired.
Need blood.
Monthly stab in the tummy.
Dammit.
Mememe@6.39pm
Impatiently bored.
Bored and impatient.
Sleepily boredly impatient.
Yeah... I don't know what to do... Nobody's on Facebook... I'm lazy... Maybe I should continue playing Mizuki's route for Edelweiss... Or maybe... Just watch some BL. No... That wont work... What if my grandma sees me? Or my sisters... I don't have to worry about Dennis. He runs aways every time yelling that there's something seriously wrong with me... Besides, he's not home~
Lalala~
Love me yet?
No?
Okay...
I'll wait.
I can wait.
I'm a girl. I don't have balls. Use a better sentence =_=
I'm sorry if he can't face her... I don't have balls... So, I can't give him half.
Haaaaaaa
Let's go out again.
Walk with me.
Talk with me.
I'm bored. I miss you.
Lalala
It's okay right...? To miss you?
Don't know if I'm going to KL for Christmas. That woman...
First, she says "LET'S GO TO KAREN'S PLACE FOR CHRISTMAS!"
And we were like "NO WAAAAY! YEAH! YEAH! YEAH! But... How we gonna go?" =_=
" I'll drive."
"You drive? No kidding?"
"But... I'm scared."
"THE HELL MOM! GET THE FUCKING GPS!"
"But... I don't know how to use it..."
"WHAT THE HECK... ARGH! Then why the hell do you own a car anyway?!"
"Get a taxi. You three go. Rachel, come back on 28th. You two can stay longer."
"WTF... DRIVE... Cause... I'm scared to sit the taxi..."
"But...But... But..."
"Just drive. Just... Drive... I give up... Let's just NOT go to Karen's house..."
Mom- ^_^
Me, Lisa, Sarah- =_= + >=(
Dad on chat- ...
I wanna go to Toys R Us. I don't care if I'm 14. I love toys. Lucky kids... Toys are getting so expensive these days... I have to buy my own stuffed animals T^T
Animal Alley~
I'll drop by the XL-Shop and look at figurines~ I want Sebastian 0x0 And Ciel ^_^
Went shopping???? With Zn today. Although... I didn't buy anything... I just went with her... I didn't look at much, wasn't interested. Was more interested in my messaging, waiting for someone that ISN'T my mom to show up on my screen~
Sadly... It's expensive...
But...
Well...
I'll manage. Somehow. I always do. I just need to behave... And be patient...
AHA
People complain that my blog posts are too long.
Well...
Alright.
Alright.
Good Night.
I'm not sleeping.
I'll roll around the floor until somebody finds me.
Or I'll roll around until I get tired and sleep.
Tired.
Need blood.
Monthly stab in the tummy.
Dammit.
Mememe@6.39pm
Saturday, 6 November 2010
Chaos;HEAd「カオス；ヘッド」
Plot Summary:
Takumi is a high school student. He is withdrawn and is not interested in 3D things. In his town, a mysterious serial murder case happens and people get panicked. One day, when he chats on the internet, a man suddenly contacts him and gives him an URL. He goes to the website and finds a blog image that suggests a next murder case.... On the next day, it really happens....
Takumi Nishijō suffers from intense delusions as a result of his apparent schizophrenia and the extremely secluded lifestyle he lives as a hikkikomori. One day he accidentally stumbles upon a gruesome murder scene, a part of a chain of events called "New Generation." After this, his life gets caught up in these events, and he meets a bunch of increasingly insane anime girls with swords.
Sorry for the many updates =D
But, you guys could just skip the anime posts, I have a symptom called 'own write, own syok' so... If you're bored, you can read, if you think that you wanna check out the anime, go on. Oh yeah, form 5, good luck in your SPM, and well... Maybe after SPM, we could watch anime together!!! So not happening, I mean, who in the right mind would wanna watch anime with me... It'd be 24/7 anime+food in front of laptop and in bed :x
About the earlier post, LOL, after finish watching 12 episodes... It's err... Not very confusing. I just don't get the whole 'I switched my illusion with yours, and my illusion became reality' thing. That's just... I have no idea what... What? I'm not smart, so you can't blame me for being stupid!
I wonder... Do Japanese love the number 7???
It's like... Every anime... They've got to have 7 fighters...
Fate/Stay Night is one... Fushigi Yuugi... Chaos;HEAd... And... Uhh... What else??? I think Vampire Knight is... More than 7 fighters @_@ is 7 THAT lucky???
Uwaaaaaaaaaaa!!!
This really makes me wanna play the visual novel! Nande?! NANDE?! WHY WONT YOU WORK?!
I'm trying it again... Better now have my hopes up... Fingers crossed. But after downloading so many visual novels... I think I know what to do now. Wish me luck.
Ah... If you're into some mystery, and some fantasy... Watch it. I really forgot what I wanted to write... Searched for the downloads... Ahaha... Well...
Picture time?
Anime otaku, Nishijou Takumi. The stupid-est main character in history.
That girl behind him, ISN'T REAL.
She's... Seira ==
A girl from a popular anime INSIDE the anime @_@
Her toy figure is available here, in the real world =D
Costs about $380 or something~
Do not underestimate this fool...
He's powers are amazing~
See it?
They're the same person...
Well, actually...
The one in the wheel chair is the REAL Nishijou Takumi
The young one is an illusion by the REAL Takumi...
Well, REAL Takumi has a sickness, so,
he had to create an illusion =D
That's so cool.
And oh,
REAL Takumi is as young as the illusion one...
Ah, Rimi. I don't really like her though...
But... She has nice eyes...
Pink eyes...
Oh wow... I think I'm over red eyes!
Uwaaaa!!!
Sena!!! You're so cool ! I love you! >_<
Wehehe, Sena loves that blue Popsicle ~
A cute, sweet, girl...
WITH A VERY BIG Di-SWORD.
Oh right, I forgot, their swords, are called Di-Swords =D
As you can see, I'm a bit lazy. Haha, playing my RPG. I know... This isn't what a NORMAL GIRL
would do... I'm just hopeless. Well... At least I know that I AM A GIRL.
Oh well....
Takumi, Rimi, Sena, and Kozue is already done...
The white haired girl, with red eyes is uhh... I forgot her name... well,
she's the famous FES, lead singer of Phantasm xD
Girl with specs, Yua. I called her bitch. She turned Takumi in,
and then... She's a Gigalomaniac?! Or something...
Blonde with red hair band is Takumi's sister. Nanami.
Oh right...
Gigaomaniacs are the 7 people in the pic...
They have the power the turn illusions real or something like that.
They have damn cool swords too...
I want one T^T
That's it... I'm distracted.
Good Night#0016#
MemeMe@Rae-Chan
Monday, 2 August 2010
Tada-da-tala-ta-da-tadededuuum!
Okay... The title was just plain crazy.
The first funeral in two years turned out to be the longest one EVER! I can't believe my luck! UGH! I got blisters, dammit, why do we have to wear those shoes? Can't we wear softer ones? Mine's a bit... FINE... REALLY tight. REALLY. I forced my giant foot in cause I was late. Damn myself for being such a greedy person, I went to get GCB... For recess...
WHAT?
I wanted to eat it SOOOOOOOOO bad!
I know how Shirley feels now. But, hey, Benjamin is a better person than LJS! OMG... I can't believe you people are using that thing to bully me with! Ewww! Now, Apple and the guy who flies plane doesn't sound THAT bad... OMG... But, I'd still pick Milk any day...
So?
WASSUP people?!
Yes, obviously, I'm just bored.
Lady GaGa! Ra-Ra-a-a-a
I think I'm gonna go to VBox again, I like GaGa. Even if she's gay, I like her^^
I have a confession to make...
I, like...
Gay people.
Alright.
I was just kidding.
Cause, I can't like gays, cause, um... They're... Gay.
Oh wow, now I know, Mr.Too is such a... Noisy person. I always thought that he was the type that acts like old people. No offense right? I'm just saying! I hope I didn't offend anyone!
Suddenly, I feel like talking about ALL the other sections. Of course, to me, trumpet is the best, and color guard...
AAAHHHHHHHHH!
Dammit! Windy... I'm scared! GOD SAVE ME!
Suddenly, I don't feel like it anymore. This feels like the end of the world!
GOOD NIGHT!
Sunday, 1 August 2010
August Post
HELLO EVERYONE!
Well, I guess this will be the SECOND post for August then, cause, I posted Rac's 8th Mail just now.
Let's see what I did today, a GREAT start for a new month!
OPENED my eyes at noon when my sis came in, I asked her to switch off the AC and continued sleeping, cause, I was lazy to get outta bed :D
THEN
Finally, I woke up at 1.30 when my mum came in. Ah, I guess I have enough sleep.
Took out my laptop that was underneath the bed, I left it there due to laziness of returning to my own room. Yes, I slept in my mum's room. WHAT? I was lazy to return to my own room, even if it's just one door away. Apparently, I Facebook-ed till 2+ yesterday, I don't like Facebook, but, I Facebook anyway.
Ta, ta, ta, ta!
After a few minutes, went to brush my teeth and wash my face. No. I didn't bathe. YET.
LaLaLa~
How time past, 3.30 already?!
Bathing time!
Played the piano while waiting for my very slow brother, hmm... 4+, my movie you idiot!
Went and picked up ZN, it was a last minute decision, I was gonna watch the movie myself... But... Since she asked... Fine... Actually, she messaged me at 11+, but, I was still dead... So, I asked her if she wanted to go with me... I don't really know what I'm saying either.
I picked a GREAT movie. It was so freaking boring and the actor was fugly, should have picked SALT instead.
Went to have dinner at Briyani!
That sucked too.
I was in no mood to eat.
Yea, so, today kinda sucked.
And, when I came back, I watched another pathetic horror movie that was made outta five stories...
I'll let you guys watch the 5th one, it's so freaking funny!
Nice, funny and scary, just the way I like it.
And after that, I e-mailed...
And after that...
THIS.
Oh wow.
I don't know, I think I'll write about Sorcerer's Apprentice now. I guess you could say that I'm bored. Three posts in one night, I love myself.
Oh well.
I'm gonna start the next one.
And yes, I'm nuts.
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