-No One Cares To Understand-

-No One Cares To Understand-

Life of me, life of you, life of us all,
Life's a cycle, a never ending cycle, but will always end.
Living differently, thinking differently, acting differently,
To live is to act, the world is our stage, to act is to please.
No one cares to understand,
The way I think, the way I feel.

Love is all, love is lie, love is forgiving,
We lie to protect, we learn to forgive, but we don't forgive.
The show ends, the mask falls, showing true colours,
The show ends, the mask lies, never true colours.
No one cares to understand,
This is not what I want, and I don't want what I have.

Emotions are true, emotions are masks, emotions are many,
We smile to please, smiles are masks, smiles are many.
The show starts, the mask rises, always a fake,
The show starts, the mask lies, eyes are all.
No one cares to understand,
I never speak, I am shy.

Everyday is a show, my never ending show, a show that I hate,
No one knows, no one asks, no one realizes,
This was never what I wanted, this was never my decision, I am forced.
Like a slave now, a slave of my own, a slave of the world.
No one cares to understand,
I am poor, I am slave.

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Nobody cares, they don't. Everything is what they think is best, where does my opinion stand then?

See how this is your fault? You son of a bitch? I really HATE insulting mothers, but now, I'm just upset. You put me in that shit, you made me waste my fucking time doing NOTHING there, NOTHING, and now, they're pulling me back out, and I'm just good for nothing now. I forgot everything there is to fucking know. Next time when you're gonna make plans that are best for people, go fucking think it through! You know how fucking hard it is for me now? Oh ya, YOU DON'T. So fuck you.

I'm not blaming anybody. Don't go think who it is, cause it's already so damn obvious. Seriously, now, I don't mind you guys reporting me, to him. Show him this if you guys want, I don't give a damn about what happens next, I just wanna get some space for myself to think.

Every time, there's the mother problem too you know? When you're doing what she wants, and suddenly... you're out, she gets upset, starts blaming you for being irresponsible and stuff. So, it's never that easy to just do things... I still remember the big I'm not a librarian anymore thing, she was angry at me for weeks! If I do this now, I'll have to move out of the house. She never understands... She's a great mother, but you know... All mothers are... Mothers... They care too much...

I just can't get off the strings...

I'd never thought it'd be like this... I never thought that things would get so damn bad...

I was fooled, we all were, by the kind man who is now lost. Like a stranger kidnapping children with candy... We were fooled... How could we be so fucking stupid back then?! UGH! I just feel like... I need a break... A break from all this! A break from freaking reality! I'd rather be in a nightmare, no nightmare could be worse than this... I want out, but guess what? Mommy problems... I gotta find daddy...

Just... Gimme a break...