Another Day, Another Mistake

Today... I made two guys angry with one joke... Killed two birds with one stone. God, what material did you use for making guys? Easy flaming cotton? I just hate myself so much that now, I hate everyone else. I feel like jumping off a cliff and be crushed by giant stones. Can I hate myself more?

Dumb people...

So what? Everybody knows anyway. What's the big deal? I can tell you people, in our class, for the pass years, if any guy would like any girl, it would either be her or her. Yea, I have no idea why, but... I guess people like them. Of course, nobody likes a walking nightmare(ME).

I'm just so stupid. And from the look of things... I'll probably sit at the back tomorrow and just ignore everyone. Please, DON'T talk to me, talking to me makes me feel better. Maybe just like last time when I ignore you guys and join the others. Have fun while I'm dead. I know you guys will, pretend that I NEVER existed. Yes, I do hate myself this much. And no, I'm not taking depression pills.

I don't know.

Should I apologize?

GOD NO!

Well, MAYBE...

If I really made you two idiots THAT mad at me... Would it help if I write in BIG letters

'I Like Hong Leong'

?

Sure...

I'm not going to.

I guess you both like her, but then again, I thought YOU liked HER and now YOU like her? Or is this just saying that YOU are liking both persons at the same time which makes you a two timer. And if he likes her and then you like her but she doesn't like you both, which you both already know, and that means...

YOU GUYS ARE TOTAL IDIOTS... SUCK IT UP... IDIOTS...

Oh well, the last part was... Confusing? But I understand myself. So, please...

DO NOT DISTURB while I'm ignoring you guys.

I hate the world... Why?

WHY

?

WHY DOES THE WORLD HATE ME SO MUCH?

Fine... FINE... If I'm ME.... I'll never be okay. I'll quit...

I'LL QUIT IF IT MAKES YOU PEOPLE FEEL ANY BETTER. BESIDES, NOBODY CARES IF I'M AROUND! I'D DO EVERYONE A FAVOR BY NOT BEING AROUND.

I tried being happy here, I tried thinking positive thoughts. I tried enjoying myself. But let's face it, I don't belong. I should have chose the other direction...

I don't know...

I just didn't wanna upset my mother...

She said the choice was mine...

But...

It wasn't...

I'm

sorry

... I just want to make choices of my own. I don't want this anymore. If I'm being a burden... I'll just...

Disappear