Bewwweweweweweeewww~

Sore demo ii... Orewa daijobun... Demo... Komenasai... Tanjoubi anata... Komenasai!!! Hontoni komen! >_<

I don't know what else to say. No, I seriously DON'T KNOW WHAT to say...

I'm so cold... I'm really cold... I'm shivering... And the AC isn't even on... BRRRR... What happened? Certainly not because of Coke... I haven't had Coke in a long time ^_^

Uwaaaaaaaa~

Once you think about something, you get worried and decide NOT to do it... But you know what? Just go for it... Like me... I said that I would be giving manga reading a rest... Well... When I actually read page one... I can't stop until I finish it. And about NOT watching BL anymore... Screw that too... Without it, I'd be tearless already. Ish. Love is a cruel thing, so... Watching homos feels good. Cause... Duuuuhhh... They're homos, you can't get jealous... Although... I do most of the time...

May I ask? How do you think I feel now?

Happy right!!!

Can you see through my words though... Am I happy?

Who knows...

WELL THEN...

The anime that I've download/watched... 97% of them are BL. On my computer, only 3 are those action/horror/boy-girl-romance... The rest... Yaoi~

WHAT?

At least it's better than taking drugs right?

I wonder when will the 3rd OVA for Koisuru Boukun be released~ Ah... Thank you Shin Yi for all the wonderful BL~ I was almost outta BL to watch. You saved me??? =D

What is it that I'm doing? I know damn well why I'm shivering. I always shiver when I'm holding something back. Just gotta get used to it I guess...

I turn my head to the East, I don't see nobody by my side.

I turn my head to the West, nobody in sight.

So I turn my head to the North, swallow that pill that they call pride...

The old me's dead and gone... But the new me's gonna be alright...

Ohh... I've been traveling on this road too long,

Just tryna find my way back home...

The old me's dead and gone...

Dead...

And...

Gone...

Guess everyone knows that song... I just kinda miss it... Reminds me of something...

Where will all the heartbrokenness go now.

Why do my eyes open so big and allow me to smile when I feel so much like doing the opposite.

Why is it that I wont allow myself to write what I really feel...

Why am I still smiling when I'm dying inside...

My head feels so heavy...

I just keep smiling... But... I'm sad...

Why wont I admit that I'm sad... Why do I continue to smile even when I'm alone with myself...

Why...

Why...

I don't know which is it...

I did say... Don't blame me for being selfish... That's why... I... But in the end... It was... It was actually worse than I had expected... If it was another person... I would have just told you straight... I didn't want you to know cause... Isn't it the best...?

Tell me...

Wouldn't you like to live like a kid... Being happy and all that...

They can be happy, because they don't know anything yet... And so... By not knowing anything... It would be just another boring day for me... Another year for you... We'd all be happy. I'd rather keep that to myself and  kill it slowly... But then... I just couldn't do it... I should have never said anything... I am sorry... For being so selfish... Then I guess you wont be needing the so-called present anymore...

Still...

Even if it wasn't you...

Urushi...

Although that pretty much did the worst.

I will kill him...

Sah...

He died when he was 30.
I never met him.
He was killed.
They were jealous.
They accused him of being a spy.
They dug a hole,
Threw him down,
Smashed him with rocks...
Until he died and nothing was left.
It took the others three days to find his remains...

Jealousy...

Luckily, I'm not worth it.

Being a nobody does have some advantages...

I will return to the shadows where I was first born...

Disaster... Not... Miracle... 

Escaping Blurry-Blurry Facebook Time

What the heck?!

This person becomes this person, and that person becomes this person, and there's a few hundred clones of this person and another few thousand clones of that person???? !!!

The hell with it...

It gave me a headache.

I can't believe that I got so conscious suddenly... It used to be... Nothing... And... Well... I'd rather feel NOTHING than this SOMETHING... I'm beginning to doubt more and more... Uffff...

The Fortune Cookie

Rachel opened a Fortune Cookie which read…:

If that person does not come to you, go ahead and take the first step. Cheer up!

Who's on your mind?

1:the one who makes me sad but makes me happy also

Well, maybe these apps are lucky sometimes... But... These are very accurate. Can Facebook apps read minds??? 0_0

Before simply guessing... In this world, there's only TWO person who knows who it is, the first person is... ME... Second person is... Somebody else... Who won a free question =_=

And for the last time, the person isn't the one with freakishly huge head. NO.

IT'S NOT THAT BIG HEADED IDIOT

I still don't get the whole love thing. Like that Alvis guy... He an idiot or something? It's just 4 months, what's the big deal? OK... OK... I never loved someone that much before so I don't know! I'm just curious... 4 months??? Is short... Not like it's the end of the world if she dumps you or anything... She's not the world... Or maybe... She IS his world. Boy, I would never want a boyfriend who kills himself after we break up.

Maybe he wanted her to feel his pain... Maybe he thought that if he killed himself for her, she would feel some sorta guilt or whatever that she'd kill herself too... Nah... You know what? I think he's an ex-mental patient.

People are stupid.

Yes, including me, feel better now?

I'll go check on Facebook on last time... Maybe go download some music...

The only thing that can calm me down when I'm doubting myself... When I think about that person... When I think about love... The only thing that will make me happy is some BL.

Yes, it's the only thing...

Cause... I don't have to worry about myself... Or my love issues. I'm watching two guys fall in love, what can I think of then...? Think of it as escaping...

Unless you win a free question, go ask the other person.

I miss Hatsune Miku Project Diva!

I want you now... Please come back as soon as possible...

Miku-chan!!!!!!!!! (>_<) You will be back tomorrow... Can't wait Miku...

Can't wait... Miku...

.It has to be you. 

Yes 

Narnia- The Voyage of The Dawn Treader

Lucy and Edmund Pevensie return to Narnia with their cousin Eustace where they meet up with Prince Caspian for a trip across the sea aboard the royal ship The Dawn Treader. Along the way they encounter dragons, dwarves, merfolk, and a band of lost warriors before reaching the edge of the world.               

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When will I be able to hug a lion?

Narnia. Same story.

Kids are bored, they talk about Narnia, they see something unusual about something...

"AH! LOOK! LOOK! WE'RE IN NARNIA"

"OMG! I MISSED YOU GUYS! IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE WE'VE BEEN IN NARNIA"

Then... Blah blah blah...

Finally, the problem.

EVIL. There's evil in the land of Narnia. Come on, evil is EVERYWHERE, not just Narnia.

AND THE ADVENTURE BEGINS.

Next, we have the CAUSE of most problems- EDMUND.

I don't if you guys realized it... But... It's ALWAYS Edmund... In the movies la, I don't read the books, too lazy(^_^)

The first movie, The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe, Edmund was being skeptical and then he went to the Witch, and TA-DA- problem. I still don't know la... Is Edmund in love with the witch? Or is it the other way round???? The witch made a special appearance in The Voyage of The Dawn Treader to temp him =D

Prince Caspian... Uhhh... I kinda forgot the whole story... Ummm.... Maaa... WAIT... Sorry, I forgot (>_<)

Then finally, The Voyage of The Dawn Treader. When they FINALLY got the God damned seventh sword, Edmund just HAD to imagine a Sea Serpent. And boy, he has good imagination, A Sea Serpent that will open up and look like a giant freaking centipede (=_=)

And next, is Lucy. She's ALWAYS the one who discovers Narnia. I'm lazy to write about it.

This time, Peter and... Susan isn't in it???!!! =( Aww... They had to take out a leng zai and leng lui, leaving a not so hot sister Lucy and a funny looking Edmund(He's quite good looking) and a I-Feel-Like-Smashing-His-Face-After-Looking dude... Which reminds me of ljs. Wow, I guess all guai lan/qun people have the same face~

I don't care if he's famous.

This picture not so bad, go watch Narnia, 

He looks MUCH MUCH MUCH guai-lan-er than this.

I actually prefer Eustace as a dragon. That way, I can't see his face. 

This isn't the last Narnia movie right? Well... There are more books... No, I will not read the book, don't care if it's a children's book, I AM LAZY.

I don't know what to say anymore, my mom was sleeping til the end of the movie, so, she didn't know what happened, but when she woke up, ending scene, she cried (=_=) and in the car, she asked me what happened and why Eustace became a dragon.

Never mind... She's my mother... She's been like this since... Before marriage??? Her whole life??? O_O

Hatsune Miku Project Diva, I miss it so badly, I have the urge to hit the buttons on the psp, but too bad, Dennis took it with him to Malacca T^T 

Dammit.

For once, Hong Leong's not the only one occupying my mind. Besides Hatsune Miku Project Diva and him... There's another person.

LOL

Yeah, regretting is pointless, but... You know... I'm just me, for some reason, I run away from what I want and when it's too late... I just realize how much I want it... Like the red wig... And now... This... 

Doesn't matter... Does it? As long as we're all happy... 

I can't say that I'm happy, but... I'm not unhappy either... 

Selfishness and greed and the darkness inside us... Narnia- The Voyage of The Dawn Treader... Why are we all so selfish? We give into temptation so easily. 

But... Sometimes... Being selfish is a good thing... If everyone gets to be happy... Then, why not? 

So... Yeah... Until everything ends... It's just gonna be like this, and when everything starts again... I don't want anything else...

I don't want anything else... Or should I say I don't want anyone else...?

For once... It's not about him... It's about you...So... Please... 

Love me back... 

Regret

Is this it?

Why did it take me this long to realize it?

Or

I didn't want to know it...

Two years...

Why...

Until it's too late.

I always do this, don't I?

It had always crossed my mind, but, there wasn't anything...

So why...?

Why now...

It wasn't exaggerating, I get it now...

It's true...

Never, is never.

Never again, is never again.

I feel so stupid.

I'm such an idiot!

Is this regret?

Why am I crying...

Regret...

Until it's too late...

People never realize until it's too late...

Never again...

I will never see you again

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Story... Gossip?... Love...

If you don't gossip, you're not human. Even if you don't, you LISTEN right? Even my grandma gossips O_O

Yeah... Oh yeah... I think her birthday's on the 18th. My mistake X_X

Haha...

Nobody tells the world they masturbate. OMG. Don't even go there... ARGH... Take my advice, never play the trombone, or go near the cupboard, and pray that you will never be in the Uniform Committee. Apparently, some people can't help but to feel excited in public places.

Bah. Nobody reads right... And... If ANYBODY happens to read, I didn't say who, and... You guys probably know... I know that he's weird, but... THIS... Is... Umm... I can't imagine... And I don't want to.

The WARNING: ADULT CONTENT page will be up again soon @_@

I may like watching BL, but... WHO WOULD FALL IN LOVE WITH A FREAKING FAG?!

Well... Gays like guys, so, unless I become a guy, I can't love a gay dude.

I like guys. WHICH ARE STRAIGHT. I actually don't mind if they go both ways though...

So...

I will never speak about that... Again... But... Still... I'm curious... One hour...? Isn't that abnormal... Or something... Ahaha... I don't anything... SORRY.

Wow, Vocaloids not bad... But... I like Miku better. Kaito's voice a bit geli... Ukkk... But... He's cute ^^

I guess every dude watches... And... Then...

Thanks a lot for sharing, and I thought that only happens in America~ Like in American Pie =D

WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING...

WHY THE HELL AM I WRITING ABOUT THAT...


WTF?!

Please...

It's a bit embarrassing... I think... For me to know what you people do in your spare time. Uff. It's normal for boys, but not for girls? I wonder... Is it...?

What the... I should stop thinking about THAT...

I should think about the cute puppies at grandpa's...

Cute little puppies...

They smell so much like their mother's milk...

That sweet...

Warm...

Milky scent...

Of...

Milk...

It always ends up going back to MILK.

ARGHHHH!

Why is everything connected to MILK?

MILK Chocolate.

See?!

Honestly...

Why am I thinking about him so much.

Eh.

I hate this.

You guys made me realize something...

About a certain somebody and another clarinetist.

He just likes her, but... He doesn't do anything... He's afraid... He likes her... In the first place, he didn't even try... He didn't try to get closer to her, know more about her...

I wonder... Why do all trumpeters suck at love?

Big Head broke up.

Milk never got her.

Dolphin didn't get her either.

Perverted 22/23 didn't get her too...

I never got Milk =(

Si Kai never got Jessica.

If you count Taylor in... He didn't get Stephanie either...?

Ah Tai  didn't get Kelly.

Sri Tan didn't get Jessica either.

Prawn couldn't get Benjamin.

As for the rest...

Section Leader... Never mind... Happy~

Shirley and Benjamin...

And apparently...

Xin Yuan is stuck with Matthew...? =_=

Still...

I'm not wrong. Trumpeters fail to get love. I wonder why. What did the trumpet ever do to upset the Love God? Ufff.

You say that he waits to be tackled. What do you want me to do? Rape him? I can't even kiss right, how can I rape a person if I can't even kiss?! UGH!

He's skeptical... He didn't believe it the first time he saw it. Nah, he just didn't want to believe. And so... The rest... Why do you think I'll be here for Passing Out... If it wasn't you guys... If it wasn't him... I would never go on stage this year. It's good-bye. At least there's a good-bye.

This happened to be the best year ever. Yeah. Even if it sucked a little. It's still better than last year.

Seniors are waaaaaaaaay better. I love my seniors. Some of them. Not ALL of them. I love the seniors I feel comfy with. Others... Nahhhh...

You know...

People always tend to fall in love with the wrong people. And then... Once you decide to get married, just do it, don't postpone and fall in love again... If she wasn't the right one... Why did you propose. You shouldn't have met the other one... You waited too long.

Whatever.

None of my business.

I never want to be more than friends, by becoming close friends, you get the love of that person that you truly love. And you will always be cared for, and you will be happy. If you confess and the other person doesn't feel the same way... Wont it mean that you two will separate... And you will never get the warmth you once got...

I got all that I need right now... So... Why do I still want that person so badly.

 Let the fire from the candle burn the inks of the promise between two lovers. Papers into ashes, a broken promise. Love never lasts. This is what you have chosen, do not regret, you shall forget all the memories you had with her when you wake up tomorrow. It will be like you two never met...

Rejoice.