Leaving

I find it weird, leaving.

A person can be with you for days, weeks, months and even years, but it only takes them one minute to disappear down the bend at the end of the street. You watch the car go. You know they are coming back, but somehow, it feels as if they've gone away for good.

Goodbyes are never enough, it seems. A kiss on the lips and a hasty take care, I love you, and they rush out the front door, their bags weighing them down instead of the parting. Usually, the person walking away doesn't feel as sad as the one standing by the door, looking at the distancing silhouette of a person they love slowly go out of sight. You lean against the frame of your front door, your heart is slowly starting to miss the person and you wonder if the light peck on their lips was enough to show that you love them, that you care about them. It annoys a part of you somehow, that your parting wasn't good enough. But then again, parting was never supposed to be pleasant in the first place-- unless it's with someone you'd rather not see ever again.

The person is some time away now. Leaving, it makes relationships look so fragile. It only takes one minute to take away a person's existence yet it takes what feels like a lifetime to let them be a part of your life. The house feels empty now, and it is-- I'm the only one here. The halls are empty, the rooms are vacant, and everything is still, not a sound is made for there is no one there to make it.

The dogs are barking, there is someone outside. I choose to not acknowledge the fact that someone is outside, and I choose to ignore the ringing telephone. There isn't an emergency at all; there rarely is. The people who would drop by the house? They are for mum, but she's not in, so why bother going through the trouble of putting on clothes just to entertain them? I'm not exactly a very sociable individual, and unless I'm forced to be nice and act like the social butterfly I'm not, I'd rather stay in my dad's old navy blue t-shirt all day with unkempt wake-up hair, appearing as slovenly as I possibly can.

The birds are chirping, newborns are calling out to their mothers, "FEED ME!" I seem to hear those words among the incessant chirps of the nestlings in a nest somewhere in the garden. The palm trees are swaying, the sun is shining and you are still asleep. I know how much you love the sun and the palm trees; tall, just like you are.

I miss you, and the talks we had.

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I'll be home with my sisters for the next few days, absolutely no parental guidance or anything like that! I'd love to watch movies, but I just can't figure out what genre I feel like watching! I wanna watch a comedy, but romantic comedies kinda hurt at the moment and I don't feel like watching horror because I've been overdosing myself with horror flicks ever since months ago! I need to study... I DON'T WANNA! T^T















P.s. KEVIN, if you are reading this, I apologize if I made you worry cause I haven't been replying you! My phone is down; hardware problem. I'll text you once it's fixed. Have a nice life and how's Linda? =)

Head in the Clouds

Finals start tomorrow; the opening subject is biology and what am I doing? Planning what to do and where to go when I arrive Sydney this coming December, eating McDonald's, typing with oily fingers and thinking about my pet who is just upstairs.

I simply have NO mood at all to study. I find that even staring at the fan turn is more interesting than reading a line in my biology book. I feel absolutely HOPELESS and I really, really, really regret choosing the science stream. Sometimes, I wonder how my life would turn out to be like if I transferred to convent back in March... Why didn't I though, it's not like the things I'm staying in Nan Hwa for matters a lot -or at least that is what I tell myself- to me. 

SUMMER! SUMMER IN AUSTRALIA!

Sorry, I was having boobies and bikinis in my head. 

Ah... Sigh... 

I find that my relationship is going downhill as well. As I have more and more freedom, I realize that I don't want to be tied to a single person. In other words, I realize that I'm not ready to commit myself just yet. The reason why I even stay in this current relationship is because I don't want to friendzone him. Honestly, he's like a best-friend that I've never had but since he's a guy, I made him my boyfriend. The fact that I want him only as a best-friend scares me... Could it be that we're too close? So close that I think of him as a brother instead of a partner... I talk about the girl I like with him, I mention how I love soft boobs with pink nipples to him, we share the most embarrassing secrets with each other and we say the darnest things too! I love him... I don't know...

The above paragraph just made my sound like a guy, didn't it? Do not doubt my gender, for I have boobies!

Before November and TIMBC could come, I'm already thinking about the events that are going to happen afterwards. 

I find that this year's final exam is really depressing for me. I just don't want to hit the books! Not to mention that I have to skip a day of the exams because I have to go to Singapore to make my I.C. I'm happy that the subject that I'm going to miss is moral, yet sad at the same time because additional mathematics isn't on the same day but the next, which makes things worse tenfold. 

I'm really lazy, and if you want me to tell you the truth, I DON'T WANT TO GO FOR TIMBC 2012. 

As I thought, not transferring to convent was a BIG mistake. 

I'd lost interest in what I do. I don't see the point in what I do and MUST do anymore. A wise man once said: "If you lose your passion, then it's better to leave than to pressure yourself, myself and everybody here."

It's time to bond with Macadamia again... 

Ah, that's right, I haven't updated this blog in a while... I've got a pet hedgehog, Macadamia. She's an African Pygmy and I'll upload a picture or two when I finally take them. Anyway, I don't keep her in a cage because I see no reason to since I know where to find her during the day. She's nocturnal so putting her in a cage at night is useless and it gives me more work because she gets shit all over her cage... ONE time... ONE time was enough to make me stop putting her in a cage. I'm not sure if letting her run free like this is okay or not though... Are there any other hedgehog owners that don't keep their hedgies in a cage?  

Going to McDonald's

in my underwear. 

Post #349

Second day of the monthly test, I have a good feeling that Pn.Choo won't be happy with our history test scores. Whee~ I studied, but only ten question came out, ten to twenty, but... I forgot everything when it came to the SUBJECTIVE part. I think... I think... I even wrote... Datu Patinggi Abang Haji bin Datu Patinggi Mohammad Kassim... One heck of a long name, which I think... IS THE WRONG ANSWER... =_=

I forgot the rest of the names, I got HALF of Sir something somthing Clarke's name right =_= HEY, at least I got the Rukun Tiga Belas thing right, +1 mark  T^T

Science was easy... I think...

Ah... Skipped tuition again today. AGAIN.

I feel kinda dizzy... Ahhhhh~

Currently downloading... X-Men: Origins. The Witches of Oz... And... Dragon Age Ultimate Collector's Pack...

So... I was bored and I desperately need new RPGs to play... So I Googled for games as usual... Then the results were all like... Dragon Age II... Dragon Age: Origin- Awakening... And more Dragon Age... So.. Wikipedia time~

Mm hmm... It had good comments and stuff, positive ratings, nice story and fantasy world and stuff... So.. I got the mood to DOWNLOAD DOWNLOAD DOWNLOAD @_@

Ahhh, I think... I'll play after my PMR. I'll just download it, and extract, and mount and stuff... Another important thing before I start playing is... I NEED TO UPGRADE MY LAPTOP.

So yesh, I have decided, I will follow Mr.Ngoo Big Head's recommendation and change from this stupid Vista, to Windows 7~ And also add more RAM to this thing... Huhuhu... I wanna play the games so badly +_+

I wonder if I should try American McGee's ALICE, and the sequel: Alice:Madness RETURNS. Well... That's what happens when I stalk people... I stalked my cousin for a bit, he has a Xbox 360, and he is playing Alice: Madness... So... Ah, WIKIPEDIA again... Now, I wonder why didn't me and my cousin become good friends, he watches anime too~

Eh... I'm not sure about these shooting and killing stuff RPGs... They... Scare me =_= especially those like Left 4 Dead and Resident Evil. I mean I don't mind if it's Justin Bieber I have to shoot, at least he doesn't look all bloody and scary as hell! AHHH! The Witch from Left 4 Dead. NOT COOL. I tried playing a vampire hunting one... But... I ended up screaming and covering my face. I swore never to play these undead-hunting games. As for The World of Warcraft, I have no idea what items to buy, so I gave up.

I think something is wrong with me... Why... Do I like playing RPGs... Shouldn't I be playing with... Barbies...?

Ah, tomorrow... I'm going to watch The Borrower Arrietty tomorrow. I wonder if I should download Transformers: Dark of the Moon... Oooh, 6.7 on IMDb... Not bad I guess... Okay... DOWNLOAD~
Hehehehe... Movies, movies, movies, movies~

BUT OF COURSE!!!!!!

I haven't forgotten about REICHERU'S DIETING PROJECT. I'mma buy a book, and write down everything I eat, starting... Sunday. But that doesn't mean I'm still eating McDonald's okay? I had half a cup of bird's nest and a bown of Corn Flakes before I went to school. My bento today was... Grapes, oatmeal biscuits, and a wholemeal bun, I drank barley for recess. Lunch was porridge, with fish and egg, I had half a glass of soy milk during lunch. Dinner will be porridge again, but I'll drink 0% fat strawberry yogurt.

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Did I seriously eat only just those stuff...? Okay, I gotta admit... I... I... I... I... CURI-CURI MAKAN two pieces of Lap Cheong(臘腸) >_< NOTHING ELSE! I SWEAR... Maybe... Soy sauce, pepper, and black pepper... And... Uh... The fish I had was... FRIED >_<

I never exercised today... Maybe I'd do... A few crunches... I... I... I... I CAN'T DO SIT UPS >_<

Poor abdomen muscles...

Will my mum PLEASE shut up about me studying. The hell like I care, what if I study? Not like I will ACTUALLY ABSORB THE CRAP I READ! Heck, if I want to study, I WILL... OKAY?! NOW WILL YOU JUST STOP BUGGING ME?!

ARGH! I hate this!

NEVER MIND! At least my mum saved you guys, she made me lost the mood to blabber.

GOOD DAY!

~!@#$%^&*()_+





That reminds me, I need a new webcam, and a mic.











MemeMeRachel@1740

In Case You All Come Knocking Post

I didn't get to watch the original version of I Spit On Your Grave. It was banned in... Probably the whole world =_=

I hope I downloaded the original uncensored version...  But... I doubt that I did... Hmm... We're all sadistic people. Go read the info on the film on Wikipedia. A 1978 movie... Why ban it? Guess I wont know... SINCE YOU GUYS CUT OUT SO MANY HORRIBLE THINGS FROM THAT MOVIE!

Click on this link to read it, if you're too damn bored.

[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/I_Spit_on_Your_Grave]

Turns out, the movie has a sequel =_=

[http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Savage_Vengeance]

I don't get why they need to ban it.The world today is already so corrupted, and if men are having the fun raping and murdering women, then why can't women learn a few tricks or two? Of course... Nobody EVER agrees with me. Cause I'm cynic.

UGH

Never mind.

I wont be knocking on people's doors, but people come knocking at my door? GREAT. Make yourselves at home, cause, I wont be caring much. Sitting in the hall feeling awkward cause it's people you ain't familiar with... I'M SO EXCITED.

NOT!!!

Oh, and in case you all come at a bad time... I don't know, if my uncle feels like watching the original 1978 I Spit On Your Grave... Then I will obviously be watching it with him and my bro. Maybe grandma will be watching too... Unless you all wanna see some brutal gang rape and some sadistic revenge... My mum will be out in the hall chatting with you all instead of me.

In case you all come knocking... And hear those pained women sounds from the TV room... It wont be porn. It will be a woman, brutally gang raped. And if you hear men shouting, it's not vampires, it's a woman torturing them.

I already watched the 2010 remake of I Spit On Your Grave... So, I'm just gonna compare the two.

I can't wait!

Nobody cares about the RATED 18 AND ABOVE warning these days. I'm 15 and I have an adult content warning before you can enter my blog. What can I say... I'm me... And gosh... I'm a girl... While other women are from Venus, I for one, am from Pluto.

I've told countless lies, but the lie that I told the most is...

I HAVE READ THE TERMS AND CONDITIONS

What can I say...  WHO THE HELL WOULD GO READ THE GOD DAMN T&C?

Yeesh.

Here's a good night to all of you~

Always
Be
Careful
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Don't
Ever
Forget
Girl
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Happy
Involve
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Just
Keep
Loving
Me
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No
Other
Person
Quite
Reasonable
Shall
Treat
U
Very
Well
Xcept me,
You'll
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ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTUVWXYZ

Alphabetz~

Back To Normal

I guess that I'm back to normal?

For some reason, while playing Mozart's Sonata in C, the line "I don't think I like girls anymore" popped into my head. Then after a few a seconds "I miss Zongxu a lot" came in. I think I'm in love with Mozart =D

I'm downloading Mozart's pieces from Munckin, Mozart for Babies =P

Chinese New Year... Back to normal means back to being lifeless. Not going to walk under the Sun, knock on doors, and feel awkward sitting on sofas with nothing to say to the parents of your friends. Cause all we ever have in mind during Chinese New Year is ANGPAO COME COME...

Like always, tradition died. Festive season equals to no festive season, just a holiday, take a break from our hectic schedule. Meet friends, family... That's about it. Tell you the truth, I don't even know HOW to celebrate Chinese New Year... I only know that we eat as a family on some day??? Then we take angpaos from everybody. And then... For me... I sleep.

If I'm having children one day... I pity them... They have a mother who knows NOTHING about EVERYTHING. Huuff!

Curses. How the hell do people work? Two weeks ago, I went to Tesco to buy my ice-cream, they said that the product isn't in the system yet. So, I couldn't buy it. Then YESTERDAY, I went again, took the same God damn ice-cream, along with another bar of Hershey's... And you know what? Even worse than the last time I went, both my ice-cream AND chocolate isn't in the system.

WILL YOU PEOPLE JUST WORK SO THAT I CAN EAT MY ICE-CREAM AND CHOCOLATE?!

Grr...

Watched Shaolin... Very nice movie, very touching too. Although, I cried because I was angry that all the good monks had to die, and that the bad guys die later on. Monks are so cool. I feel like being one =D
I'm a girl... But... Being a nun looks like no fun? Now that I think about it... All they ever make... Are movies about MONKS, with all those nice kung fu moves... WHAT ABOUT THE NUNS? Don't nuns do kung fu and stuff? Or do they just live bald and meditate all day?

Hah. It takes a life to change a life. Whatever you do, karma will get you one day.

British are still hypocrites, like in our history books.

"THEY STOLE MY TREASURE... BLOW UP EVERYTHING! KILL EVERYONE IN THERE! FIRE! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"

Says one ugly dude of a British general or something like that.

But in the end, the remaining monks killed all the white people who were using guns and canons, with bamboo sticks =_=

LONG LIVE THE BALD MONKS! And Jackie Chan?!

I'm feeling less like a perv now. I guess that it's good thing, do my mum a favour, she has been complaining about me, and says that I need counselling. Ish. Since when is admiring other girls illegal?

Since when did Jay Chou's English improve? LoL. Sounds better than last time, not good, but not exactly THAT bad either.

It's now Chinese New Year holiday, but Chinese New Year doesn't start until Thursday.

I'm gonna eat, sleep, and watch TV.

Happy Chinese New Year everybody. Ugh. It's raining everyday. Can't say I don't like it though.

Me being weird, is me being normal

I'm Too Lazy Even If They Look Easy

You know those online contests and giveaways with prizes that you REALLY REALLY REALLY want? I felt like entering one, and winning something, but... Wow... A few hundred contestants, and only three winners. Nice. What are the chances that random.org is gonna pick my e-mail?

Maybe next time, when I'm really TOO free, I'll go enter a few dozen of those giveaways, and if I do, you people will be seeing a few dozen useless giveaway posts, so that I can earn extra entries. But of course, you can always enter if you're interested. But I doubt that guys would be interested in the giveaways I enter.

I just feel like winning something. I never win lucky draws or contests. This sucks. Hmm... Maybe I need to find some luck spell, either that or a spell that makes money fall from the sky.

Entering sounds REAL easy. You comment, you blog, you tweet... Blah blah blah... If you're lucky, you win, if you're not, try another one. Too bad, I don't have Twitter, and I'm not making one anytime soon. If Facebook is getting banned in March, Twitter will be banned by May. Who knows... They might even ban the Internet one day...

Now that I think about it, I'm just lazy, and don't have the positiveness to enter. Ish. But really? THIS easy to win one of those giveaways? It's all luck? Oh well... I'm still lazy, and like I said, not positive enough, I know that I will never win, I never win anything.

Mom doesn't approve of online shopping. Curses. WHY NOT?! If she approves of it... Things would be SO much easier... Grr... I wont complain so much if she actually drives us to places OTHER THAN school, tuition, Sitiawan and Ipoh. If she's so afraid of driving... Grr... Wait till I get my driver's license... ~!@#$%^&*()_

Peeewewewewewe...

I guess I'm going to shut this thing down now.

Take a deep breath... And exhale...

I'm still not cooled.

Damn you.

Suddenly, I feel living in a zombie-infected world. That way, I'll appreciate what I have now. People all need to learn the hard way, because, we always want what we can't have, and we are never satisfied with what we have... So I'm just gonna FORGET about the whole thing... And go to sleep...

I feel like slapping myself, only because you're not here for me to hug. I can't go hug your hoodie, because if I do, that would be really weird if my mum walks in. 

Nothing Ever Happens

Another day...

Interesting things never happen... EVER...

Tesco blah blah blah. Haven't been there. Yeah, yeah, outdated, I know. But... MUM WENT WITHOUT BRINGING ME T^T

She went during school hours... Heh... Smart woman...

Lalala~

SO...

School. More of those freaking student info forms. What the hell man? If my dad's the head of the yakuza, and earns God knows how much a month, what do you expect me to write? But of course, he isn't... If he is, you'd be dead and I wouldn't have to fill in these stupid forms!!!!!

Mum gets pissed every January. 4 kids... Forms x4. You get blur filling in these useless forms. Why do they need to know? If I'm poorer, you won't accept me in a local college/university? Is that it? Pffft... I wouldn't even apply for a Malaysian U, if I'm gonna waste my years learning like Ah Bo's son, only to re-study everything in a Japan U... I'd rather NOT study...

Thursday is a public holiday! Wheeee~

Tesco, I'm finally gonna visit you.

Chinese New Year clothes? I'm broke dear, unless you gimme some money, I will just be buying tea. For myself. Why do I even need new clothes...? FINE. When we go to Ipoh this Saturday, I'll go buy a freaking dress. Happy?

Suddenly... I feel like bringing my mum with me...

Nah... On second thought, wearing a dress while walking around Sitiawan isn't a good idea. Let's just buy a new pair of slippers, 2 Ts? And... Some pants...

I'm just saying. Wonder if mum will buy me the slippers~ Squishy Squishy~

Grr... For some reason, I really feel like buying new clothes =_=

AND I REALLY WANT SLIPPERS T^T

While girls go gaga over heels... I prefer slippers. They're comfy, you don't trip, and they don't snap.

Can't wait to go to the beach again. I'm fine with 2am =D Besides, it's Chinese New Year! Who sleeps?!

Today's motivation course. FINALLY. Something to blog about.

Yeesh. I already wrote that much and I haven't start writing about the thing that I came here for.

Motivation course... Unlike most people, I'm me.

What's the oath you guys took again? While you all were swearing that oath, I was looking at that piece of paper and NOT accepting the oath, so that's why, I didn't put my hand up, and say it.

If I remember correctly...

"We are the FORM 3 students of Nan Hwa, and we here by swear that: -

1. Complete, and do ALL my homework, and projects seriously, and responsibly.
2. Always listen to parents and teachers' advice.
3. Use our own talent wisely.
4. Be a hardworking, respectful student, which will OBEY ALL THE SCHOOL RULES.
5. Try our best to live up to the expectation of our PARENTS AND TEACHERS.
6. GET AT LEAST 8Cs IN PMR."

I know.  Now, there are SOME things that I don't agree on. Even if my translations aren't very accurate... They're more of less the same.

Firstly, I will complete and do my work. NOT ALL. Cause... Well... I've already missed a few... I will do things neatly, and nicely, sometimes seriously. But don't expect me to be serious ALL the time. I copy moswt of my homework.

Second, ALWAYS listen to their advice? ALWAYS? Sometimes, they can be wrong. But most of the time... They're right. If I don't like that advice, I won't take that advice. DONE.

Next... USE OUR TALENT WISELY? WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN? Of course we'd use our talent wisely. If your student can dance, it doesn't mean that she'll be a stripper. Yeesh. Do you mean that if we're smart, we shouldn't rob a bank even though we know that we would get away with it??? Well, if I'm that smart, I'd rob a bank already. Now, THAT'S wise.

Obey all the fucking rules? I will NOT wear my socks 3 inches high. That's about 7.5cm! I DON'T SEE YOU WEARING YOURS THAT HIGH YOU HALF-BALD PRINCIPAL!

I thought we were suppose to achieve our own goals? AND LIVE UP TO OUR OWN EXPECTATION. Not parents and teachers. I know that they'll be happy if we succeed, but, HELLO, if we're not good enough to THEM, maybe we are good enough to ourselves???

I have nothing to say against the last one though. At least 8Cs... Come on... You guys really think that we're that low. Hah. Can't argue with that. Unless those lower classes wanna show the principal of their capability... It's not gonna happen. Nope.

And that slimming center in his story... Is there one like that? LOL. I wouldn't mind running after some hot girl if she's gonna be mine after I catch her. I'll be 10kg slimmer, and I'll have a hot girl =D

Mm... Well...

I guess I'll be more positive from now on. But not now... A bit moody.

Maybe Chinese New Year...

AHHHH

Fresh start. I hope I don't choke while taking in the air.

I guess this time, I'll really study.

If I get less than 5 As... Jia Wern's gonna kill me.

I will survive...

If I target 6 As now... Will it be a bit TOO high?

Hah. We'll see. But for now... Let me read my books, I gotta improve on everything, let's start with English. Shakespeare will have to wait... If I read it everyday, I'll go blind. Reading that is no different than reading a dictionary. Well... At least, THE DICTIONARY EXPLAINS STUFF T^T

Think positive... Hummm.... I hope I can, cause I always end up thinking negatively.

I want to prove you wrong, yes I do. For some reason, I wanna prove you wrong badly, but you know? Do you want yourself to be wrong? 

• POSITIVE THINKING

Thanks Shirley~

Random? Post? I Guess?

Been a long time since I used my laptop, everyone looks so busy... I'm so lazy... Suddenly, I feel like I died again. Either that or I'm just tired.

YAWN

Been sleeping at 9.30, maybe 10, ever since school started. The most is 11... Morning session is tiring. Wake up early... Come home late... Nightmares about people going crazy and starts killing people, and a weird black hair band that turns into a killer puppy/half spider half woman demon...

I feel hopeless again...

Studies... I really feel like committing suicide, but... Even idiots live till they get old... And besides, if I kill myself now, there'll be nothing to look forward to during Chinese New Year... And... Meh... I can't forgive myself if I die now... Might as well live longer if I'm gonna get tortured in hell anyways...

Unless I become a nun...

Nah...

That will never happen.

Brrrrr~

The past two weeks have been nothing but unhappiness.

Long story. A lot can happen in two weeks.

Teachers are all... I'mma have to face them next year... And maybe the year after that... I can't wait to graduate, and then discover the uglier side of things. Hah. Life. Repetition.

Now that I think of it... Marrying someone isn't such a bad idea... Hmm... I just don't feel like living alone, sharing with a roommate is fine...

That's a bit far... I still have PMR to sit through.

I don't believe it. You doubted me being straight! AND YOU THOUGHT I'M A LESBIAN WHEN YOU'RE MY FREAKING BOYFRIEND!

I don't deny the fact that I like girls. But, I'm dating a guy... So... Uhh... I'm Lady Gaga =_=

Yeah, yeah... Nobody encourages it. But... I'm not picky. Who cares? As long as I'm happy.

Wow... 10% of people are gays, 10% straight... 80% bi??? Great. And I thought it was weird.

I wonder how many people actually wants the world to end in 2012...

I've already got the list of to-do-things planned out if the world's gonna end in 2012... At the top of the list... Mum, you don't wanna know what it is... Don't kill me...

Do it with a girl.

WHAT? I'M STILL CURIOUS... IF I'M GONNA DIE, MIGHT AS WELL KNOW.

Okay... The second one will be a bit more normal...

Do it with a guy.

I'M GONNA DIE ANYWAY!

After that... Yeah... I guess I'm ready to die.

Shhesh. Can't a girl dream? Don't send me to a counselling thing, I know I'm weird. But hey... I've tried everything I wanted to except for the above two. And if I ask you how it feels, what you gonna say to me? =_=

Right now, I feel like having roti canai.

What???

I guess you could say that I'm on a diet... Hmm... I eat less... Nah... I stuff myself with fruits after a small small plate of rice. I feel like eating sweet stuff for some reason... Just sweet things... Not too sweet... Just... Sweet =_=

Like... Cake...

I know... I know...

I'm going crazy... I don't think I'm stressed, but I feel like strangling my teachers, and the new half bald headmaster. I don't care much. Can't even see his face without my glasses on.

Thursday...

Another two weeks...

WELCOME HOME DAD!

I'll be spending valentine's day alone.

My boyfriend thinks that I'm a lesbian. He doesn't encourage bisexuality, I'm not picky. 

Post #281

I ran outta titles. I'm just here cause they're playing bingo. 5 cards. Wow... Long game... I really don't know how many rounds they played. I was watching Suicide Circle. Damn... Sick movie... And you know what? I STILL DON'T GET THE STORY...

=_=

Happens every time...

Ahh... The reason for me to Skype. I'm bored. BUT WAIT. The main reason is to talk to you. But... DAMN my mum has good timing... The first message... And she just opens my room door, lie down and look at who I'm talking to.

HOW DOES SHE KNOW?

The hell... 10 times outta 10... She's always here when the first IM comes. There's just no privacy around here! ARGH!!! T^T

And when she FINALLY leaves... YOU HAVE TO SLEEP?

Tuesday...

Going to school at 10pm. We're gonna explore the damn place. Let's just hope we all don't SEE anything, or TOUCH anything, or FEEL anything... Uhh... And most importantly... Hope there wont be a hand reaching outta the ground. Zombie invasion. Either you go out to sea, or stay on a plane forever. Those b****** can't swim, they can't fly either ^_^

Today's Skype session is still going on, it's pass 3 hours~

Wake me up, when September ends~

Not disturbing Jessica and her Sri Tan.

Listen to some songs.

Waiiii~

Hope Han Siang gets better soon. Leg injury. Haih. Some luck.

You guys think of where to go. I'll be...

Walking.

With...

Somebody.

^^

Personally, I prefer night better. I'm not a morning person, I feel so much better at night too. Day time at the amusement park... Oh God... Seriously? I'm such a lazy person. Let's go for coffee after those rides that makes you wanna throw up.

Day time...

What else to do...

What else to do...

If there's a beach, I'd roll in the sand... But... So high up... UGH... There's nothing T^T

If there's the Sun, the beach is the best. If there's the moon, the beach is also the best. But..

What am I saying?

It's Genting. Not beach trip.

Grrrrr...

Whatever.

I'll be cold.

Christmas Eve and Musical Night Dinner?

What the hell... Count down for Christmas? You lucky draw half way say

• OH IT'S TWELVE O ONE. MERRY CHRISTMAS.

THAT? Has to be the WORST countdown. The Halloween one was better la...

Wooh~

Jesvin~

Sexy man~

So fair la T^T

So slim~

So nice~

Too bad la... That perverted dude my mum brought along was looking at your butt when you were on stage. Cause... Well... Your back was facing us... So... I guess... Everyone can only look at your butt???!!!

O_O

Okay...

Enough with that...

If that 10 year old was 10 years older, wow... It would be much more enjoyable... I wonder... Few years later, will she still perform??? I hope she has big boobs... Hmm... I wonder... Will they bounce when she dances? That would be a bit funny~ Teehee~

Suddenly, I feel that ballerinas make good girlfriends?

Don't worry, you're still my girlfriend, unless, you wanna be my boyfriend?

Puuuuuu~

They look so fair, and slim, and they dance too!

Most of all, they are soft~

Don't ask why.

I feel that they're soft???

Uhhhhhh...

I'm a bit lazy to change. After I came back, Facebook a while, wishing mah pals and girlfriend Merry Christmas, played the piano... And... Mostly, I was just figuring out how to put back the clear holder thing... Dammit... After so long... And... It only took 3 secs to fix it... ~!@#$%^&*()_+

Ahhh...

It's Christmas,  play Silent Night la.

The neighbors aren't here with knives. Good.

Man... If my aunt gives me her spare Blackberry next year... And what... Postpaid line? HAHAHA. My mum will kill me when the bill comes. You know how I get carried away if there's no limit la =_= which is a bad thing.

I'm so lazy to change, I feel so sleepy! Uffff!

Wear stockings and a dress to sleep. Hope I don't rip the stockings.

I don't care la... Besides... I'll be up at 10am...

So... I'll just bathe then.

HAIH

Christmas...

Where the hell did my spirit go?

FA LA LA LA LA. LA LA LA LA.

=_=

No mood.

Tradition died.

Kiss me under the mistletoe.

LOL

My hair... Ahh... I was in a hurry... I splatted a handful of wax la... =_= Damn sticky now >_<

When it comes to shoes, dresses, and HAIR...

I AM HOPELESS

I prefer jeans, shorts, simple tees, flip-flops, and sneakers.

I CAN'T EVEN WALK PROPERLY JUST NOW

AND I WASN'T EVEN IN HEELS

I was in...

Uhh...

What do you call that...

This type of girly shoe, with holes in front? NO. THE ABOVE PIC ISN'T MINE.

If I wore a long gown that covered my feet, I would have wore slippers instead =_=

Slippers damn comfy~

No pictures of our sexy Jesvin.

Sorry~

Wasn't in the mood to take pictures.

Shit... Credit balance RM17.50. Damn... RM4.50?

Damn expensive.

But... What to do?

 I beh tahan wor... Can't control myself T^T

Want gimme Blackberry pulak... Go bankrupt...

Ahhhh...

Never thought that you'd say it to me. Miss.

Doesn't feel like Christmas... Probably because this year, I didn't went toy shopping at Toys R Us.

Dammit.

Every year, I buy myself toys during Christmas shopping... But this year... Hell... There isn't even Christmas shopping. I'm so embarrassed, don't gimme presents. I have no more space, and besides, nobody can get me the things I want.

Other than meeting Santa...

I want a giant teddy bear.

I want a Me To You Tatty Teddy~

I want a futon set~

I want a free anime dvd grabbing coupon, which allows you to grab 5 anime dvds you want ^_^

I want Sebastian and Ciel nendroid by Good Smile Company~

And mostly...

I want Zongxu.

Anyone can get me my presents?

No right?

Then, good night.

Don't bother asking me if I'm changing.

Damn lazy. Tired. Even if I didn't dance.

Dancers went to Steak House. Yeah... After the dinner. I'm guessing the owner's treat... Or maybe Mr.Lau's treat?

Don't know.

Jesvin, you look damn hot today.

Teach me how to dance.

On second thought... DON'T...

I don't think I like dancing.

I'm sad...

The hip-hoppers didn't do Lady Gaga.

HOW COULD THEY NOT DO GAGA?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

THIS LIL MONSTER IS UPSET!

Narnia- The Voyage of The Dawn Treader

Lucy and Edmund Pevensie return to Narnia with their cousin Eustace where they meet up with Prince Caspian for a trip across the sea aboard the royal ship The Dawn Treader. Along the way they encounter dragons, dwarves, merfolk, and a band of lost warriors before reaching the edge of the world.               

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When will I be able to hug a lion?

Narnia. Same story.

Kids are bored, they talk about Narnia, they see something unusual about something...

"AH! LOOK! LOOK! WE'RE IN NARNIA"

"OMG! I MISSED YOU GUYS! IT'S BEEN SO LONG SINCE WE'VE BEEN IN NARNIA"

Then... Blah blah blah...

Finally, the problem.

EVIL. There's evil in the land of Narnia. Come on, evil is EVERYWHERE, not just Narnia.

AND THE ADVENTURE BEGINS.

Next, we have the CAUSE of most problems- EDMUND.

I don't if you guys realized it... But... It's ALWAYS Edmund... In the movies la, I don't read the books, too lazy(^_^)

The first movie, The Lion, The Witch and The Wardrobe, Edmund was being skeptical and then he went to the Witch, and TA-DA- problem. I still don't know la... Is Edmund in love with the witch? Or is it the other way round???? The witch made a special appearance in The Voyage of The Dawn Treader to temp him =D

Prince Caspian... Uhhh... I kinda forgot the whole story... Ummm.... Maaa... WAIT... Sorry, I forgot (>_<)

Then finally, The Voyage of The Dawn Treader. When they FINALLY got the God damned seventh sword, Edmund just HAD to imagine a Sea Serpent. And boy, he has good imagination, A Sea Serpent that will open up and look like a giant freaking centipede (=_=)

And next, is Lucy. She's ALWAYS the one who discovers Narnia. I'm lazy to write about it.

This time, Peter and... Susan isn't in it???!!! =( Aww... They had to take out a leng zai and leng lui, leaving a not so hot sister Lucy and a funny looking Edmund(He's quite good looking) and a I-Feel-Like-Smashing-His-Face-After-Looking dude... Which reminds me of ljs. Wow, I guess all guai lan/qun people have the same face~

I don't care if he's famous.

This picture not so bad, go watch Narnia, 

He looks MUCH MUCH MUCH guai-lan-er than this.

I actually prefer Eustace as a dragon. That way, I can't see his face. 

This isn't the last Narnia movie right? Well... There are more books... No, I will not read the book, don't care if it's a children's book, I AM LAZY.

I don't know what to say anymore, my mom was sleeping til the end of the movie, so, she didn't know what happened, but when she woke up, ending scene, she cried (=_=) and in the car, she asked me what happened and why Eustace became a dragon.

Never mind... She's my mother... She's been like this since... Before marriage??? Her whole life??? O_O

Hatsune Miku Project Diva, I miss it so badly, I have the urge to hit the buttons on the psp, but too bad, Dennis took it with him to Malacca T^T 

Dammit.

For once, Hong Leong's not the only one occupying my mind. Besides Hatsune Miku Project Diva and him... There's another person.

LOL

Yeah, regretting is pointless, but... You know... I'm just me, for some reason, I run away from what I want and when it's too late... I just realize how much I want it... Like the red wig... And now... This... 

Doesn't matter... Does it? As long as we're all happy... 

I can't say that I'm happy, but... I'm not unhappy either... 

Selfishness and greed and the darkness inside us... Narnia- The Voyage of The Dawn Treader... Why are we all so selfish? We give into temptation so easily. 

But... Sometimes... Being selfish is a good thing... If everyone gets to be happy... Then, why not? 

So... Yeah... Until everything ends... It's just gonna be like this, and when everything starts again... I don't want anything else...

I don't want anything else... Or should I say I don't want anyone else...?

For once... It's not about him... It's about you...So... Please... 

Love me back... 

Half Way Thru Finals~

Oh yeah! I'm already half way there... Half way there... Half way there...


But, now that I think of it, the real challenge starts tomorrow 0_0 And ends on Friday =D


Geography


History


Science


and wow, Chinese objectives!


Oh great, Kelly is beside me. Wow, I what a good way to make me NOT cheat during finals. But, it's a habit, so, I guess that I can't help myself. My mouth's so itchy that I can't stand NOT talking, even if I don't really like talking to people. I know. I'm just SO weird.


Even weirder, my laptop settings are in Japanese because I thought that Chäos;HEAd needed it that way. Woo, even Wikipedia's in Japanese. *SIGH* I still know nothing about Japanese. And... Chäos;HEAd didn't work! Must be some problem somewhere while I downloaded it. UGH! 


It's like... OMG, finals are almost over! OMG! I need to download, download and DOWNLOAD for the holidays! 


While people shop till they drop, I for one, DOWNLOAD TILL I DROP.


Thanks for all da buffday wishes ya'll! Thank you to mommy, Lisa, and Sarah for that BIG, SOFT AND CUTE stuffed puppy. Huggin it now^^


Thank you Jeremy! And... Er... What's your name again???? Sorry, I can't remember your name, I can only remember Jeremy's and Ong Tae Ngyong's???? @_@ Anyway, thanks for the cards! Love you two! Jeremy and... Someone I forgot what's your name!!!! T^T


Oh! Six minutes left! And I'm done! With... Part one ==


Edelweiss Eiden Fantasia. Hope it works. Maybe I'll download Edelweiss directly too... Hmmm...


Oh, it's done, but... I need part Two to finish the download... Dammit!


Okay... SO... Finals... I'm okay with it. Feeling relaxed tho. Well, maybe cause I already know everything??? xD Well, maybe not EVERYTHING, but, you know... A bit here and there. There might be holes in what I know. Like, a missing date, a missing name, and a missing place... And, a missing contract agreement! As for maps... Screw them... I'll read one when I'm on a road trip, or just... Lost.


Science is okay... I know MORE about the human digestive system... I think... At least I know what's a Duodenum. Yeah, yeah smart guy, I know you know what's that. You don't have to think and show off to yourself how clever you are! 


Rats eating ya' alive. Gross. 


So, any progress anyone? 


Haha.


Results... People get the wrong idea of the point of exams. I mean, COME ON! It isn't about the result! It's about what you're dumb child learned during the year. Dammit. Why do parents always care for the results? What if that day my boyfriend died and I was in shock and couldn't do anything? HUH?! 


I don't have a boyfriend mom...


That was just an IF.


All you people EVER care about is the God damned result! That's why, in order to live on freely like a child is suppose to, we cheat. Unless of course, we're those brainy people like Jessica Tee and Ling Shu Jing. Nope, not missing anyone in that brainy people list in case you're wondering. IN MY CLASS. Not your form 4 or 5 or whatever. 


You don't care how we do it, as long as you can see the result, you're satisfied, and we're relieved. I don't know about MOST people, but, I'm like that. I believe most people are too? Cause, well, when you get a 10/100, you're gonna get kicked outta the house, and called a useless child and they would curse you so that you'd die faster. Family members these days... Joking == A bit...


It's true. No?


Another two days and it's freedom baby! Oh yeah! The Halloween party@Steak House! Woohoo! LOL, if I can get a scythe in time, I'd definitely go reap some souls! ::Evil Laugh:: I am the Grim Reaper after all... Although... What I'm going to wear is a robe, for... ::Chuckles::... Rituals... ::Evil Grin::


Enough with the evil-ing!


Gonna check my mail later, it's been SO long since I checked my mails... Mostly from Facebook and OMGPOP... Ah, social gaming sites, how I love them. You don't have to see each other, or know each other, you just play, and make friends. 


Oh damn, I've got Tsuki no Ame in my head... Probably because Sebastian's voice is so... Sexy??? LOL! I can understand why Grell loves him so much! SEBAS-CHAN! Chuu~ 


Lalalalalala~


Riko, you can download Ero, you don't have to buy them. But... I would like to own something original for once! I don't think Anime.Tech sells Ero. Maybe they do... But... I guess I'll have to wait years before finding out! xD


Good luck to you and me! 


Lets die together! Lets eat together! Lets celebrate together! Again!

Finals, I will beat you and only two more days, I can kiss you good-bye and we will meet again during form 4 cuz I'll be sitting for PMR next year instead! Don't miss me! Cuz I definitely wont miss ya'! 

It's time to say good-bye! Yeah! My milk expired.


Hey... I have a question, will it be okay if I don't perform in the Passing Out Ceremony this year? Well... There's... Nothing else to say. Can I go to Japan for Comiketto... No? Guessed it... Damn you.

MY NEXT TARGET! COMIKETTO! 

I will definately go to Comiketto! When I grow up, I don't care! I will go! AND I WILL COSPLAY! Damn you Malaysia for not having Otakuthons and Cosplay Conventions and all that stuff! 

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Before Bathing Post

I just had dinner, finished my homework, looked at the marches and almost fainted(Cause I need to memorize them ALL), and, toyed with violin, it's fun!

So, yes, I'm in my room... A bit lazy to bathe... Took a few dumb quizzes on Facebook, read JX's bolg... Hmm, that 'someone' was in a bad mood, cause

1. Afternoon session assholes busted the window of the house behind.

2. Pulled down the electrical wire.

3. Hmm... Girls are so rude insulting someone's mother that the guy had to chase them with a broom???

Right...

Yea, his method of teaching is GREAT! It's like resting during Science period! Of course, I attend Science tuition class, so, I don't fail.

We eat.

We play.

We plan.

We sleep.

We gossip.

We massage each other...

All during science period.

Cause, it's dark, and, he doesn't care, he just uses a laser to point at you.

Man, I hope he doesn't read this.

For Rac's Mail, well, I just copy my e-mail, cause, it's just like my everyday life, so, it's the same. I save time too!

Oh well, time for my bath!

BYE!