The 26th of October

I just love October, and my favorite day in October is the 26th, my birthday! Come to think of it, I like the 26th of every month. Again, it's a personal thing.

Every year, I don't like celebrating the day I came out through a hole. I don't feel the need to celebrate such a day, it isn't very special, is it? Each year, I have a mini gathering with close friends, without receiving much gifts. I wonder what's so special about this year though, my beloved Zinc made an album for me and I actually celebrated my birthday with my usual--fucked-up and crazy--bunch of buds.

Since it's close to Halloween, I had the urge to dress up like a serial killer and go out in public. So today, le me, and le two close friends went out in costumes. I dressed up as a pedophile/serial killer--yes, suits me, I know--with Jesvin as my Lolita victim while Zinc dressed up as Dr.Shu in a bloody school uniform with holes here and there.

Sorry, this picture doesn't bring out the best of Zinc and I~

Before we headed out, my stalker-mum wanted to take some photos of us in our costumes. Stalker-mum doesn't usually take bad pictures, but somehow, today's picture is really blur and it doesn't bring out the essence of my perverseness and Dr.Shu's scariness. Miss Jesvin however, looks especially good in this picture. Ah, I wonder if I should give Jesvin the dress she wore in that photo since it suits her well. Yep, it may not look like it, but, IT'S MINE, along with the doll and bag she's carrying...

Although there were twelve people who celebrated my birthday, only the three of us went full fledged with the costumes... Those bastards! They should be thankful that I didn't suffocate them with my cake... Oh wait, there was no cake... Except for the ice-cream log cake that LiYi bought... Hmm... Quite an abnormal way of celebrating a birthday: no birthday cake. 

Originally, I wanted to go with the unzipped-mouth Halloween costume, but I don't have anything sticky enough to stick the zipper on my face! I tried UHU glue, but the freaking thing didn't even stick! I did the unzipped-mouth makeup for a while, and boy did I look scary! But it was too incomplete and clumsy to actually BE worth going out in. If I had more time to prepare and the right materials, my costume would be like this:

Anyway, Silent Hill: Revelation was a disappointment. I didn't get the oopmh I was supposed to feel when watching a horror movie. I guess they should just leave it to us Asians to direct horror movies, because honestly, Westerners fucking suck at it. The effects and monsters were real enough, I'll give em' credit for that. For me, the movie was too damn fast moving; probably because I play Silent Hill and it takes me FOREVER to get something done. Maybe I just had my expectations a bit too high? Well, not being able to see it in 3D already ruined half my mood for the movie anyway... Guys, do tell me if the 3D one is good =)

I removed my birthday on my Facebook profile so I'd know who to delete. Those who didn't wish me happy birthday would get deleted, because friends remember each other's birthdays =| I'm quite happy that a number of people wished me, the most shocking birthday wish though was from my lovely Mariane; I didn't think that she'd remember it cause she's a year older and we only see each other every so often.

I'm happy. YES, I'M HAPPY. I couldn't hold back my smile when they sang me Happy Birthday in four languages: English, Chinese, Cantonese and Malay... TWICE!! As for why they sang to me twice, it's because Qi Shun blew out my candle the first time :/

I made two wishes before I blew out my candle. Wait... Was Jessica already there when... Ah, she wasn't there yet... So I guess that it's God's decision  that my wish doesn't apply to her. If I tell you guys my wish, then it won't come true anymore, will it? Haha, so then I guess I'll keep what I wished for a secret. I'll give you a hint though, both wishes have something to do with being together forever *wink* take a wild guess and you just might get them right.

The presents I received will not be taken photos of and will not be uploaded. I'm way too lazy to do that, loves. The least I can do is tell you guys what I got, so here's the list: Writing books, from WeiWei; Scrapbook/album, from Zinc; 4 sleeping masks, one purse and a green hair clip, from the guys; beautiful gold bracelet with pearls, from Jessica; a cake, from LiYi; Magic Shawl, from grandma. My grandpa gave me RM50 while aunt Flower gave me RM20. At first, grandpa gave the Ang Pau to Lisa cause he thought that it was HER birthday. HAHAHA. The guys' gift made me laugh, 4 sleeping masks! With some sort of cooling/heating pad too! They said that it's for me to sleep in class xD

SUCH A LONG POST TODAY! My, my, I AM HAPPY! I haven't been like this in a long time! I guess even the news of having band practice tomorrow can't bring me down to Earth! I won't be going for practice tomorrow though... I'm not up for it yet... I might go at 10A.M though... It's funny, albeit Mr.Tan said not to have practice... Ah whatever... It's not up to me... Sigh... I'm going to bed...

Went to PizzaHut and the cinema in our Halloween costumes.

Why?

Because fuck you, that's why. 

Happy Halloween~!

Bewwweweweweweeewww~

Sore demo ii... Orewa daijobun... Demo... Komenasai... Tanjoubi anata... Komenasai!!! Hontoni komen! >_<

I don't know what else to say. No, I seriously DON'T KNOW WHAT to say...

I'm so cold... I'm really cold... I'm shivering... And the AC isn't even on... BRRRR... What happened? Certainly not because of Coke... I haven't had Coke in a long time ^_^

Uwaaaaaaaa~

Once you think about something, you get worried and decide NOT to do it... But you know what? Just go for it... Like me... I said that I would be giving manga reading a rest... Well... When I actually read page one... I can't stop until I finish it. And about NOT watching BL anymore... Screw that too... Without it, I'd be tearless already. Ish. Love is a cruel thing, so... Watching homos feels good. Cause... Duuuuhhh... They're homos, you can't get jealous... Although... I do most of the time...

May I ask? How do you think I feel now?

Happy right!!!

Can you see through my words though... Am I happy?

Who knows...

WELL THEN...

The anime that I've download/watched... 97% of them are BL. On my computer, only 3 are those action/horror/boy-girl-romance... The rest... Yaoi~

WHAT?

At least it's better than taking drugs right?

I wonder when will the 3rd OVA for Koisuru Boukun be released~ Ah... Thank you Shin Yi for all the wonderful BL~ I was almost outta BL to watch. You saved me??? =D

What is it that I'm doing? I know damn well why I'm shivering. I always shiver when I'm holding something back. Just gotta get used to it I guess...

I turn my head to the East, I don't see nobody by my side.

I turn my head to the West, nobody in sight.

So I turn my head to the North, swallow that pill that they call pride...

The old me's dead and gone... But the new me's gonna be alright...

Ohh... I've been traveling on this road too long,

Just tryna find my way back home...

The old me's dead and gone...

Dead...

And...

Gone...

Guess everyone knows that song... I just kinda miss it... Reminds me of something...

Where will all the heartbrokenness go now.

Why do my eyes open so big and allow me to smile when I feel so much like doing the opposite.

Why is it that I wont allow myself to write what I really feel...

Why am I still smiling when I'm dying inside...

My head feels so heavy...

I just keep smiling... But... I'm sad...

Why wont I admit that I'm sad... Why do I continue to smile even when I'm alone with myself...

Why...

Why...

I don't know which is it...

I did say... Don't blame me for being selfish... That's why... I... But in the end... It was... It was actually worse than I had expected... If it was another person... I would have just told you straight... I didn't want you to know cause... Isn't it the best...?

Tell me...

Wouldn't you like to live like a kid... Being happy and all that...

They can be happy, because they don't know anything yet... And so... By not knowing anything... It would be just another boring day for me... Another year for you... We'd all be happy. I'd rather keep that to myself and  kill it slowly... But then... I just couldn't do it... I should have never said anything... I am sorry... For being so selfish... Then I guess you wont be needing the so-called present anymore...

Still...

Even if it wasn't you...

Urushi...

Although that pretty much did the worst.

I will kill him...

Sah...

He died when he was 30.
I never met him.
He was killed.
They were jealous.
They accused him of being a spy.
They dug a hole,
Threw him down,
Smashed him with rocks...
Until he died and nothing was left.
It took the others three days to find his remains...

Jealousy...

Luckily, I'm not worth it.

Being a nobody does have some advantages...

I will return to the shadows where I was first born...

Disaster... Not... Miracle... 

Someone's Birthday

I have no idea why I'm even writing this. Yesterday was better. Today's just another boring Sunday. But, today's his birthday. Nah, why should I care bout his birthday again??? It's funny. It's none of my business, but... Whatever, today's a very boring, very hot Sunday.

I laughed so hard at the WHY I HATE INDIAN MOVIES video. Lol~

Girl meets boy. They fall in love. The girl's parents don't agree cause the boy's a dishwasher!

Girl runs away from home. Into a wide open field. The prettiest God damned field with green grasses.

Sunny day, blue sky, girl running with her boobs jiggling *jig* *jig* jig* And then, it starts to rain. WITH NO CLOUDS! And it's not a drizzle... It rains like it hasn't rain for ages!

The girl doesn't react the way normal people do: 'Owh fuck! It's raining!' Instead, she starts to sing... AIIIIAIIIIAIIIIAHHHH AIIIAIAIAHHAHAHHAHH

Then, the boy appears outta no where, and apparently, he plants a tree????

Then, they start to sing and the girl decides to play hide in seek with a tree==

And then... They boy's boobs start jiggling too xD

LMAO

See the video on Facebook.

That was a good laugh. I needed that.

Everyone's different, but then again, they have similarities.

Haha, I'm not gonna start anything. I'll just write about yesterday... Later... Yesterday was a busy day =D
And yes, it's gonna be a long one 0x0

No. No. I was alone. In the park. Hm, 14 years in this town and now I know... We have park that's dead, but... Beautiful and peaceful....

I was gonna wish him like this... But... Decided not to. Well... I'm an idiot.

Happy Birthday. No present. Sukidadyo.

Well... I wished him at about 3 in the morning! I went to bed, closed my eyes. Then, I remembered his birthday and sit up straight. Roll outta bed, walking sideways out the room and got my phone...

Happy Birthday =D
Today... Is your birthday... If I remembered correctly.
Lalala. Have a nice day, and... No present =p

He wakes up early... at 5++??? What is he....

Oh well....

I'm an idiot.

I'm an idiot.

I'm an idiot.

I'm an idiot and I will be alone forever cause I like it. 

The Midnight Anime Ghost

Wuwuwu... Mum just came in and shouted at me. Well... I am sick? HM... Flu at first, but now, I'm coughing too?! Aww! COME ON! I get sick at the BEST of times. Going to Thailand in a week here! At least I'm able to get outta bed, walk, talk, eat and sleep... But... I think I'm starting to lose my voice... Holy shit dude...

I know! A sick person should be snoring right now! Ish.. I get it... I GET IT! Just finished the second episode of Jigoku Shoujo Mitsuganae, in short, Jigoku Shoujo season 3. Why only two eps, you ask? Well... I was watching this OTHER anime... Ayakashi Japanese Classic Horror... Wow... It's horrible... True legends though. I only finished one legend, and that was it... The characters are drawn in an old-fashioned way, where everyone has eyes like a retard, and everyone's a samurai, and in a kimono! With RED lips and WHITE faces @~@

The story ain't half bad though...





Well, this is the first story for the horror thing... That man in blue, SON OF A BITCH! The woman in white, is his wife. He killed her... Or something like that... Caused her death... So, it's similar to HE KILLED HER. 


Jigoku Shoujo season one... Two... Three...

I have season one and two in my room, probably covered in dust already... I totally forgot to check if season 3 was out... And today, while doing my usual anime hunt, I found it! But... Well... It was released about a year ago...

Jigoku Shoujo is ALWAYS the same... I think I know her line... I just know one...

Do you want to die? 

I just remembered that one... She says it EVERY TIME... In season two, Ai was killed... But somehow, she returned.

Man... In this season, people keep sending innocent people to hell! It's a good example of the worsening society!

~!@#@$~%^#^^^%@#!%$@^

I'd say that I'll swear lesser. Well, I still swear... I just don't write out what I'm thinking... Most of the time... It's 'fuck'... Nah... Who am I kidding? It's always 'fuck' .

That's a popular word.

Vampires SUCK. Releasing on 26th August... Which is... TODAY! And well... I know OUR cinema wont be showing it so soon, in fact, I don't think that it'll be showing at OUR cinema at all...

HOLY CRAP...

IT'S MY MUM'S BIRTHDAY?!

Oh wow... Would you look at that...

Oyusemi <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!

 

May 19th 2010

Happy Birthday to people I know on May 19th!

Jessica Oon

Ngoo Jia xun

Yea, I changed the posting date, been busy in the last two days. This is fine... I guess...

So... I see the pictures aren't on Facebook. Thank God for that. If not... You guys will be seeing me in my dress... Ahahaha. Ate damn lot at Steakhouse.

Nothing much, I forgot I was even writing this, well... Jia Xun's chocolates were 'stolen' and they melted. Still edible though.

no intention to continue anymore. Thanks for the news Jia Xun... Although... I would rather NOT know.

Well...

GOOD LUCK DURING THE DUMB EXAM EVERYONE

Happy Birthday Lisa

Happy birthday to you~

Poor girl... No cake, no presents... And a tooth falling out... She's the only kid in the family who celebrated a dull birthday, I mean, the rest of us, we either throw a party or just go out and have fun with a few besties. I usually celebrate my birthday with a few besties, I hate parties.

Why?

Well... At first, EVERYBODY ask me to throw a party, and they say they'll come for SURE. And when it's my birthday... Everybody happens to be busy, so, in the end... Only a few kitties show up.

Everybody can drive to McDonald's, but not my house? Yea, I'll admit, my house is deeper inside and it's in a place where nobody ever knows and well, I don't have a big logo sticking out into the sky that says 'Rachel's House'.

Far... Far... Far...

Maybe I'm use to it.

People can search for my house in circles... Without knowing that they already passed my house. That, always pisses people off. No wonder people hate coming to my place...

Oh well...

I guess...

Wait... If I don't throw a party... I wont get to do it next year... TA-DA... PMR...

October 26.

Why can't I be born on a more holiday-ish day?

Happy Birthday To You Lisa

Today, SoZai Dennis's Birthday

Today, 7/7 is SoZai Dennis's birthday.

We celebrate at Secret Recipe. Only me, Dennis and my mum. My two sisters and dad went Ipoh. My mum said don't tell my dad we clebrated at Secret Recipe. So, Shhh!

Went to Secret Recipe straigh after band practice. There are some reasons why I don't join you all for practice, reasons that few people know. Went there saw Dennis's teacher. We sat outside~ windy.

Today, regreted what I ordered. I ordered ' Carrabien Style Fish Fillet' I think. The picture looked so yummy. Came out, first thing that popped into my mind was 'OMG! Wadde... What did I order. That looks really different fron the picture. OMG, I think I'm gonna hurel. But, still, have to eat it. Don't tell me I got grandma's Bad-food-ordering-skills now! Damn!' Yea, it has a garlic-ky taste and onion-ny taste. With salad oil and green vege, I think... It was Ok, the fish was so soft~ But, the topping was, uneatable! Yucks! I think that is for old people! My drink twas good though ' Iced Blended Choclete with Whipped-Cream' I love cream!

Later at home, practice piano~ Today think about you and him, but still play right^^

Later at night~ SoZai Dennis reply birthday comments. Stephanie and P...P...Ping Yen( I'm not happy about writting her name! ><) also wished him. Thanks Stef! I didn't even wish him until my mum ask me to wish him... Hehe... NO, no thanks to you P...P...Ping...Yen... Saw your picture on friendster, got shocked, looks worse than ghost ==... Some more eye like got a bit Cacat, yer~ Some more, your friends' photo (not including me, of course) like what also don't know. Me and my bro laughed so hard!

SoZai, Happy Birthday, even though you don't read, never mind...

Today Stupid And Sui

Today really stupid…… more stupid than Sui….

Today really la… before I go school I check le… I got bring the presents…. For Jessica and Jia Xun… then dunno wad happen… when I wan give Jessica her present, I couldn’t find it… so I gave her Jia Xun’s gift=.=… then Jia Xun no present cuz Stephanie buy 4 Jia Xun de present oso lost…. All present lost… so Sui….

Stephanie and I today din medicine^^… O ya hor… We no problem de no need eat…. Today maybe screw loose~

PE tat time we keep dancing…. We dance vry funny… Some more we oso do ‘Apple Walk” really stupid….

After PE, whole class line up and do ‘Apple Walk’ back to class…. But sadly, din work cuz many ppl dunno ‘Apple Walk’ and I oso can’t keep up wif Stephanie cuz she too pro le^^ Do until lyk real Apple….

After school suppose to do the stupid dance but no space to dance so din dance… And oso suppose to tell Jia Xun sry we lost our present, happy birthday, and bla bla bla…..But din see him… When finally see him my mum come… So din tell him….