A Damn Long Reply

To the desperate and confused boyfriend of a friend,

Things are just fine. Been some time sinced you asked for me. Heh, as I thought, you only need me when you hit a dead end. We've been friends for 15 years, of course I know MOST of the things about her.

Thanks to you, this is my second rewrite, you big screw-up of a guy! Making me waste my precious 20 minutes to reply you but ended up deleting everything because you had to IM me when I was in the mood to write! So this will be LESS effective than the first one, YOU have only yourself to blame you idiot!

Before you moved back and after you've moved back, especially during the week before you moved, she got really, really, REALLY messed up. You know,  I know whose fault it is. BUT. Like the idiot that she is, she likes to blame herself. Sigh... No helping that...

Every single time she gets mad at you, she's even madder at herself for getting mad at you. She knows you can't help being busy and that you have a lot of things to do, but she feels ignored anyway. That's just how she is.

She trys NOT to get angry, but the harder she tries, the angrier she gets.

Like I said, you're not ready yet. You can try, I'm not stopping you. It's not my problem if you want to research her as your life's experiment. I'm pretty sure that she'd want that too. Boy, be careful, this experiment that you're taking up, is extreamly fragile, and although it looks like a diamond, IT'S NOT! Once it hits the ground, you can never put it back together, unless you catch the falling experiment with your hands before it touches the ground. That might save it.

But firstly, do you know why she's like that?

I guess not many people know...

You're right for one thing, you have thread deeper into her than most people, in fact, you're the only one who was able to go so deep into her heart. Nobody has reached the place that you touched. Even though you might doubt, I THINK that you understand her the most, besides me. I THINK, I could be wrong, but, yeah, you understand her, that's for sure. It's just a matter of... Words that she uses. You know, she uses them on purpose to make you confused and restless, in a way, to her, it's like revenge for leaving her alone. And now, she's making you feel the same way she felt when you were away. I hope you feel good. Hah!

I can see that you're texting her right now, we'll see what happens later. Seems like she's in a good mood tonight. Don't screw up.

Let me ask you something my dear boy, what can you do for her?

It's tough isn't it?

Yes. You understand her, you do. You know her problems, you know why she cries and is depressed. It's her PMR isn't it? So you should know. The pressure isn't from the test iself, it's from the teachers, parents, HOMEWORK... And the one thing you love most- Band.

Unlike you, your parents never minded about your results as long as you tried your best. Her parents, is somewhere between carefree and result-caring. She often wonders you know? What do they want from her, she's average at everything except for Math. So, why can't they let it slip? That one little subject? It's important, she knows, but she just can't do it. So why do they force her? I don't know either, I guess I can never understand parents.

Like the type of person she is, we both know that forcing her is useless. They say that forcing is sometimes a way to achieve what you want, but, WRONG. It doesn't apply to ALL human beings in ALL fields. In her case, the more you force, the more she stresses over it, and the more she hates it.

So what can you do boy? Tell me. What else can you do besides comfort her when she's depressed, spend every little extra time on your hands with her, and just bandage her wounds that wont stop bleeding? You make her feel better for a while, then she goes all berserk again. You can't change anything can you? You're just making things worse, she HAS to HAVE you. Without you, she'd die. Is that what you want? I know it's not what I want. She loves you, but if she relies on you too much, both of you are the ones who will get hurt, and be forced to part ways. Unless you can prove me wrong, I'll disappear forever and never disturb the both of you. Cause if you prove me wrong, it's obvious that I lost to you.

10 out of 7 times, she's depressed. Where else can she go? But to you. Her parents are good parents, but they just don't understand. They never did care about what she was going through emotionally, they never even knew.

Most of the times when she's long-faced and moody because the stress is too much she can't bear it, her mum would ask her what's wrong but she'd reply irritatedly. Making her mother furious, and then her mother would start shouting at her.

I wonder what would happen if she actually tried to tell. You know her. She could never get things out so easily. Isn't her most used word 'nothing'? The word that makes you worry.

She told me of course, I asked her why wouldn't she tell her mum about her problems. The response I got was head shaking and salty tears falling down.

"She would tell me that I'm crazy and that I should stop the nonsense," she said to me one day. She did exactly what she was told to do- SHUT UP. And so, she never answered anybody when she's moody, she couldn't get her problems out because she thought that nobody would care anyway. Until I came along, then you.

" 'Why wont you answer me! Why have you becomed like this! What the hell is wrong with you! You weirdo! YOU WEIRD CHILD!' she'd tell me when I'm upset. As a mother, how coud she, when I was already so depressed... I just... Don't understand!" She burst out into tears and soaked my shirt. Speaking was a problem, and so was keeping quiet, what do you expect her to do? What else CAN she do?  What else can YOU do?

" 'Then why wont you tell me! If you'd tell! Things would be different!' my mother would say to me again. I'm really confused. What does she expect? I try to tell her and she says I'm nuts. I do exactly what she says, clamp my mouth shut and she tells me I'm weird. I don't know anything anymore..." She wrote to me. I don't know what to say, how can I help her... I also don't know. But if her mother was better at controlling her temper, I guess your girlfriend wouldn't be so depressed. Now, we both know where she inherited her short temper. If only her parents were like yours, how do you think she'd be? If only her own mother cared more... Emotionally.

Have I anwered your question now? Or was I just blabbering away? Either way, I hope you understand her better now.

All you have to do is just tell her that you're there when she has lost her mind. She wants nothing more than that, nothing more than you. So don't stress yourself, you'd make things worse.

You are an idiot for not understanding her. What use is your vocabulary when you can't understand her SIMPLE english, which consists of words like 'nothing' , 'whatever', 'fine' and so on. The way she puts them, it's like they can mean multiple things, and yes, whatever that you think they mean, no matter how many interpretions, THEY'RE ALL TRUE. When she says that "You did nothing" means that you didn't do anything, anything to make her mad, anything to make her happy.

Bingo. She gets a little bitchy when the decisions you make isn't to her liking, she'd replace the words SCREW YOU and EFF YOU with WHATEVER. When she's really irritated she'd say FINE, you better think twice about being happy. She isn't agreeing, she's thinking long and hard when will you FINALLY realize your mistake and apologize to her, she knows that SHE'S right and YOU'RE wrong.

I pity you sometimes, you know that? How the heck are you even attracted to SUCH a person? UGH. I can never understand that simple mind of yours. Dumbass.

NO! NO! NO!

Don't leave her! I'd be miserable if you did! I'd be the only one she could count on, so , DON'T LEAVE T^T

She doesn't want you to leave, she's just letting you choose, after all, she can't make you stay, can she? That would be selfish of her. You have freedom. Though it REALLY pisses her off, the things you do... It's still your freedom of choice. Six months is some time bro, but yeah, she feels the same, maybe something's changed, but definitely, she wont leave you just yet.

The days of uncertainty eh? Silly boy. Enjoy the time you two still have. Like you said, go with the flow. But if you think too much, it's really... Really... Really... Going to affect your relationship with crazy bitch you're dating =X

Don't tell her what I called her!

Oh my my my. You answer that question, and you die. To her, everything she asks, has a point. She made a 'score meter' for you. Though she doesn't keep track, she'd deduct a mark when you disppoint her. Ah. Who knows how many marks you've lost and gained. It doesn't matter anyway. She doesn't care about the 'score meter', that thing is just for fun.

Hehe. Do you believe me that she's cuckoo now? Or you've always known but love her anyways? Ah, how sweet. I WISH I HAD SOMEONE LIKE YOU >_<

Oops =x

Well. My pleasure. Beeeeeen a long time since anyone called for my help. If you never called, I would have rot in my cage already.

I will now go back to bed and sleep. Thank you for wasting my time you good for nothing dimwit!

Men. I just hate men.

Why wont she tell me that she loves me!

>_<


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Yours sincerely,
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Rac's 11th Mail

Oh well... I knew that. Aino? 1000+ lol... You get a discount right? How much cheaper? My phone's screwed... Again. It has an automatic switch off mode which EVERY phone doesn't have, a function that nobody in the right mind would want! And oh yea... My speakers don't work anymore... Oh... I can't listen to Lady GaGa anymore! GRRRRR! The hero even took my laptop to Ipoh. WITHOUT ASKING ME FIRST! Can you believe that? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Nah, I'm lazy to check on Facebook. It's kinda boring. I don't have a life there. I didn't really want one acc, my friends wanted me to create one so... What the hell, it couldn't be THAT bad having a Facebook acc. Well... I was wrong, AGAIN.

I wont be getting a bed. I wont be getting anything new. Can still have my room painted? Still... What color? Darker colors... Makes sleeping better, makes horror movies scarier too! WAHAHAHAHAHA!

I would donate em jackets... Or... Sell them.

Exam time, well, tomorrow's the last day. Nothing much, it's just the monthly exam.

Oh yea, Bugsy died yesterday. No, no, don't feel bad, I don't feel THAT bad. So, don't feel bad. It wasn't your fault. You know Bugsy right?

Oh yea... Pn.Chee died too. Mum's ex-teach. She's only 51, cancer.

Everyone's dying these days. Oh well... JUDGMENT DAY.

Everyone will go to Hell. Everyone's evil, everyone's a sinner.

Nothing much to write about these days.

Lets see. I cheated on my Math test. No others, just Math. The ABC part anyway. I can't cheat on subjective, it requires drawing.

Oh well.

Night, bye.

Love you.

RACHEL

Rac's 10th Mail

Oh, HELLO!

I'm at home, when I'm suppose to be in school. Oh well... Tomorrow's the monthly exam, so, I'll just skip today, and, go tomorrow. I'm suppose to be studying too.

Well... I did study just now, my Chinese and my Malay novel thing.

I'm not really the studying type, I was so EAGER to study last night, I even had coffee! And you know what? I flipped through a few pages... Screw that, I went and read a black magic based novel instead. The coffee worked. I slept at 4, BUT, I told mum I slept at 12, SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I only have about one or two chapters left... Hehehe... Shhh!

Today was better than last night, I ACTUALLY get what I studied in my mind!

Oh wow... Me, studying and actually knowing what I'm revising? That's a rare thing! OMG! It's a time in 14 years!

Downloading some anti-virus now, suppose to be reading history, but, I'm slacking off, besides, I think mum's asleep :D

I think I'm getting obsessed with downloading movies! UUHHHH! I'm downloading like 16 movies! Well... Look on the bright side, I don't have to spend $20 at the cinema every Sunday, that saves... A LOT! Oh... The hero's back... Wee-hee... Good thing about downloading movies, you get them before they're released in this country, they get released so much faster in the US too. I don't have to wait AND I don't have to waste $20 at the cinema every week... Ohhhh... I love myself!

I guess I'm stuck with HOW my room is for a while. I was going to get a bed, and the hero said that he want one too, but, of course, EVERYTHING is built-in at our house! I guess we all have your wife to thank, don't we? So... If he wants a new bed, he have to take out the built-in one right? But, it's a bit troublesome. So, mum said NO. And oh, you know... The usual... AT A FURNITURE SHOP!

You should have SEEN his face! It has JEALOUSY written ALL OVER IT! Well... Not jealousy, just... Um... He's pissed.

At that moment, I realized something...

So what if he's the ONLY son in the family? So what if Pati favors him the most, or he gets his way every time. So what if he got the charm and the looks and a fat-less body? I'm the better person. I'm the lucky one, maybe it's because I realize that. Maybe it's because I see how lucky I am, rather than think that my parents are unfair and favors my other siblings over me.

THAT has always been his problem... Well... I was the same at first, I was actually jealous of the hero... But after yesterday... We're just the same, but, I realize it, he didn't.

He always get what he wants, he always gets it his way... He just doesn't see it, does he? Not that mum didn't want to... If he'd be a better person, he would deserve it. Yes, mum told me that he doesn't deserve it. I'll have to wait a year, cause, after that, he'll go to college. And then, I can start the room make-over! I'll just... Plan for now... I guess... I don't even know what color goes nice with what color... I'm such a failure.

How about a new phone? I thought you said that you'd check the many promos... Hehehe... I wont forget...

Oh wow... All my relatives eh? Kinda confusing... So many people. Oh well... I guess we're all the same.

Well, I'm used to my room, so, I don't really care about the cupboards I don't really use that are FILLED with YOUR coats and luggages. And a small portion of our coats as well.

She didn't think that I would grow up to be a book lover and teddy collector, did she? Everything's so cramped. Why the built-in things... WHY OH WHY!!!!!!!!!

I think I'm gonna donate those scary Barbies to the orphanage. I kept them for so long, I LOVED them, and those who gave them to me... But... I'm big now, I'm scared of them! When

I was 7, and you let me watch Child's Play... YOU FELL ASLEEP AND LEFT ME ALONE!! That was when I got scared of dolls and clowns... I never did like clowns anyway. As I grow older, I learn the many joys of watching horror movies, and the many reasons why I'm scared to use the toilet on my own, and why I'm scared of dolls... They attract spirits. They make faceless and handless and legless dolls LONG LONG LONG ago because they believed that spirits will take over the body of a doll cause it's beautiful. And look what Barbara Walters did... She made nice dolls, that attract spirits...

I HAVE GOT TO STOP READING THOSE! AND I HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO NOT GO OUTTA TOPIC!

I do that EVERY TIME! Even in my exam! UUUGH!

Oh well, I guess I'm lazy now, I don't even know if I can continue studying... I'm so lazy... Maybe after some rest... Hehe...

Korean series? Oh, IRIS is showing on KBS world. Haha. But, I don't care much, I don't like Korean entertainment. Nope. I don't even listen to their songs! Call me old fashioned! But, I REALLY HATE KOREAN ENTERTAINMENT... And... I HAVE NO IDEA WHY... Wait... I JUST LIKE KOREAN HORROR MOVIES...

You like those action types eh... I don't know... Inception looks good, for you anyway, it doesn't fascinate me. Daybreakers look okay too, it's the year 2019 I think... When almost everyone is turned into VAMPIRES and that the human race is almost extinct. Well, they kinda want to save humanity... I haven't watch it yet, but, I have it. yes, downloaded it. I also have soon to be released movies... SAVES ME MONEY! $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAH!

Alright...

Bye bye now...

Love you,

RACHEL.

Rac's 9th Mail

OH WOW! BBQ? The ship has almost everything doesn't it? And everything's free... And you get paid, but, it's also difficult... Hmm... I wonder... Nah, I'll just go visit next time, and take some food back, oh, before I go, NEXT TIME, You should probably, um... Order... Lemme see... Chips, ICE CREAM, German sausages... I wonder if they let you order an iPod for free... I'm just saying...

Yep, I though of having her to paint. BUT. Mummy wont let, FOR SURE. Well, she's kinda like... Hmm... I don't even know if we're related. Well, I guess everyone here is related to everyone. Weird. I call ALMOST everyone GU PO! Or SUK SUK! Yes... The Khoo family is an awfully large one... And everyone is also very sam pat. And,good cooks too :D

LoL? Ong Bak? You watched all three? I haven't seen that movie... Haha. You should try watching stupid movies, helps you laugh, and you know what they say, laughter is the best medicine... FOR MALAYSIANS! Well, I wanna know... DO YOU HATE VAMPIRES?!

WELL...

It's all about the vamps...

Vamps

Vamps

Vamps

Everyone's like : '' OOOOH! I would love him to BITE ME! AH! HEY IT'S EDWARD! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! EDWARD! BITE ME!!!!''

That's the Twilight fever anyway. Edward is the lead actor of the movie, he's a vampire. Vampires are all classy, from Dracula to this... I really just prefer Lady GaGa. They said that Lady GaGa was a man before she was a woman, right? That was wrong. She's actually an occult person, a puppet of the Illuminati, a crazy bitch who would DO ANYTHING... AND I MEAN ANYTHING... To get FAME.

You know the Illuminati right? You watched Angels and Demons with me? Remember? The ones who hates all Catholics and starts a war, a revolution against Catholics... NO? Fine...

Anyway, I'm not really sure. I heard it from Wei Wei, and I came home to check... Ah. Shocking... Well, not much, cause, I already knew that she's crazy. The way she dresses, people may refer her outfits to be weird, well, it is, but, they all symbolize something from the occult. And you know...

Why am I even saying all this? DO YOU EVEN KNOW LADY GAGA????? ==

HAHA! I would just be wasting my time if I went on and on and on about Lady GaGa.

Oh right, if you hate vampires, watch this movie :

VAMPIRE SUCKS

LOL!

It's not released yet, don't know when actually. But, release date for the US is 18th August. I can't wait to see that movie. You know something? I use to be one of those vampire Twilight loving junkie, but now, I just hate them all... I don't know... I get bored pretty fast.

I know I should be sleeping, but, I just showered. Yes, at midnight. SHHHH! Don't tell her! She doesn't know, she thought that I'd taken my shower and that I was doing my homework, but actually, I was on Facebook and I blogged and I checked out some bedroom designs... Which was useless, cause, unless those built in stuff get blown up by ME, my room's gonna be the same... FOREVER. Nah, I just need to move the dressing table there, that way, I can have my bed there, and I guess a place for a new shelf, this one is CRAMPED! I guess if I do that... Where will the table go???! And, how do I remove the damn mirror???!!!

UGH!

I GIVE UP!

MY ROOM IS GONNA BE THE SAME NO MATTER HOW MUCH I MOVE THINGS, CAUSE, THERE'S NO SPACE!!!

Hmm...

Let's say I do move the table and smash the mirror...

HEY I GOT IT ALL FIGURED OUT!

I LOVE YOU!

I'm no good at bribing, I'm no good at blackmailing... I can't even kill a cat if I wanted to! I just speak scarily so people will stop bugging me.

I'm no good at sweet talking either.

And I suck at socializing, mainly because I don't like people. We are the root of all evils, not money. Without humans, there wont be money. So, you get the idea.

Since we're already doomed in 2012... What the hell. They said that they'd bury me with McDonald's GCB in my mouth. And all the other stuff I asked for. Of course, I was just joking. They were too.

I guess I'm the number glutton in class. I eat their food. And, I don't care much who they are. I don't even like some of the people I eat from. They eat from me too, well, I only don't like LIKE one. The new girl. WHAT? It takes time to make me like you. You think my friends are my friends... Okay... Fine, I just don't like her. I made friends with Charizza in 2 hours, I still don't like the new girl, and it's two months already! I guess I do look at faces and interests. New girl somehow makes me don't like her. I don't know... I've never really NOT liked anyone THIS much, I already don't like people, I just specifically DON'T LIKE her. All the others are okay with her... Hmmm... I guess that it's just me.

I even lied when she asked me whether I knew to play the piano or not. Well, I don't like people to know... I'm not good... I'm not bad... I'm stuck in the middle with crowd issues, I can't go solo, that's why, I joined band, the more the merrier! At least in a group, there's people other than you, so, I don't really feel THAT nervous...

Haha...

I still don't like the hero. Yes. He's my brother. I always feel like hitting him, I guess it's the face problem again... I have no idea what girls see in him... That gross little dude! Even pati said it! You DON'T wanna know what he did... I'll tell you anyway ^^

He...

***PERSONAL***

One hell of a son you got there!

Yes, I got $10 for that funeral, and you know what else I got? BLISTERS. Damn shoes, can't we wear those soft ones? Instead of these hard-plastic-leather-shiny-old-man's-shoes??? THEY ARE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO UNCOMFORTABLE!

Yup, I'm $10 closer to my iPod... yay... woo-hoo... I'm so GLAD it's $10 closer! AH! MY gosh! I'm so happy that I think I'm gonna cry tears of JOY! OH MY!

Yes, I was being sarcastic.

6th huh? LoL... My friend's going to Hong Kong on the 6th, that reminds me, I gotta wake up at 5 AM on the 6th, sms her good bye and go back to sleep :D

I'm such a good friend. Of course, I asked her for food.

Why would teachers wanna visit the ship? I think they're gonna bring cameras... They take pics and show it during class and all that, and, TEACH the students about things they don't really know themselves. Well, they're just gonna tell the students :

'' You all know ar? I went to a ship last week ar. SO BIG! The ship is used for carrying cargo, and all that lah! Got engine room, got bridge and all the workers' cabin lah! EH, very big you know! RACHEL! Stop talking! Got the galley also. Do you know what is called a galley? It's a place to cook food. And the food there ar, very nice lo! Chinese cook from China you know? WAH! The ship really big lar! And they also got the gym, and the recreation room. Got pool table, got bar, got TV and all that! Sounds fun right? So, do you guys like the job? But you think very easy ar? I asked the captain ar, he say very hard job, can't sleep one! Very little rest, cause very busy. And if you want the job, you have to be smart also ar, nobody will hire a stupid person ah! You know or not? Rachel, stop talking, later you come out and sing! Nah, OK, we continue our lesson."

Maybe there will be another 'Rachel' in one of the classes xD

Unless... They're MELAYU!

Haha, but, I don't think MELAYU will go, cause, there's full of PORK on board xDD

I LOVE MYSELF!

Besides, all Chinese on board, so, I don't think MELAYU will visit. Haha. Too soon to say? LoL. Tell me about the visit from THE VISITORS!!! When they finish their VISIT!

Maybe next time I bring my history teacher Punesh go. Haha. She likes visiting all kinds of things...

I'm just joking... Maybe I will... Hmmm... Haha... Can I go this holiday? xD I WANT FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!

I'll grab as much as I can.

I'll watch as much movies as I can too!

Haha.

It's almost 2, I have tuition in 6 hours, I have 5 and a half hours left of SLEEP! HHHHHUUUUU!

Good night!

LOVE YOU!

BYE!

<3rachel>

Rac's 8th Mail

Repaint? Lazy, I'm not gonna do that, it involves hard work which I'm allergic to :D

Watched another Thai ghost movie, downloaded it. It was dumb. It's made outta 5 different stories, the last story was... Pathetic! Ahahaha! There wasn't any ghost, AT ALL. I think it can qualify for comedy, a bit shocking, but, pathetic. We screamed at first, cause, it was a bit scary, then, we learned the truth, laughed our heads off! OOOHOOO!

Watched Sorcerer's Apprentice, this evening, went with ZN. Her boyfriend at CC so didn't go, haha.

The movie, SUCKED.

Wasted $10 on the stupid ticket.

They can at least get a better guy to act! Dammit, when I saw the actor, OMG, I don't feel like watching anymore, ish, even our family hero looks better. Nicholas Cage was OK, he's old. But, better than the other guy. The other lead actor was... UGH... He looked like a retard, he looks even MORE retarded than ME! Imagine THAT!!!

Nothing much, went to Briyani for dinner. Man... Mummy is starting to be like Green Green, dammit... Her pattern and all... ooooooh! She can't wait for one second! We can order the food ourselves right? She just has to... UUUGH!

Oh well...

Yea, went to the... What was that name again? Ugh... When to the beach. Yes, the monkey, stole our food. The waves were BIIG!

NICE!

Maybe going to Teluk Batik after the stupid exam, oh yea... Another week to go, well, I guess I'll watch SALT before that. Hmm... I don't know...

Yesterday, I went with my friend's family, I'm a ke po who followed them during a family outing :)

She never said that I can't go, so, I guess it's OK.

Tomorrow will be the FIRST funeral I'll go to this year... Well, went to 0 funerals last year... Except suk po's... Well, 1st time going to um... Play? At someone's funeral in 2 years... Nah, it's actually a year and 8 months. LoL. Same.

Oh well...

Good Night.

You arriving tomorrow at P.K right? Call then.

Haha.

Bye!

Love you.

RACHEL

Rac's SEVENTH Mail

LOL

Just finish watching this ghost movie, about black magic and all that, the usual geli-geli Thai ghost story. Well... It was a waste of time, my friend's cousin from Thailand bought it, cause I told my friend I wanted to watch ghost movie, so, her cousin bought. WELL... There was no subs, and, we watched the damn thing for one and a half hour without knowing the REAL story...

Yes, yes, I know, I know, very geng~

Haha, I think I need new specs. Well, this one is fugly(Fking ugly) when its on ME. I look dumber. I don't wear contacts cause, I have small eyes, which makes it hard for me to push the contacts in. I tried wearing them once, took 8 girls and one hour to get both into my eyes. Now I know, I am NOT suitable to wear contacts. They suck, and yes, I'm just saying this so that I can feel better.

The menu has only three things? What a nice way to save the Earth, each menu needs only... Hmm... Less than half a paper :)

Yes, I think every 'Sizzler' outlet should have HER picture, and a warning that says :

CAUTION!

WARNING!

THIS WOMAN IS HIGHLY DANGEROUS, BEWARE, SHOP WILL BE BANKRUPT IF THIS WOMAN ENTERS

Have a nice day :)

I thought he was born fussy? He looks like the serious type, which he is. Oh well...

No, my friends don't like making me feel good. Cause, I don't like making them feel good either, I don't see the point of making people feel good by lying. Well... I guess I just enjoy the look on people's faces when they hear the truth. The truth can be an awful thing sometimes, you know? I just lie to teachers, when I don't do my homework... I HATE MATH... Sometimes, being straight is NOT a good thing... Why? I guess people like lies to make them feel better. Idiots. Hey... I just did that... Oh well, I'm an idiot anyway~

Yes, haha, mummy doesn't like ANYTHING fun. Weird, I never realized that... Till now :D

Yea, I'm going tomorrow evening at 4, with my friend's family? Is that a weird thing? Guess not~

The beach is full of THEM, they claim to be the 'Prince and Princesses of the Earth' what a buncha crap. WELL, the religious fanatics aren't really religious fanatics at all, they just... Like causing problem for the country, that's all. Seriously, they can't live without causing problems, can they? Hypocrites. They use THEIR God's name for this shit and that shit... They're gonna end up in hell anyway, let them enjoy themselves for now, they can suffer for eternity ^^

Oh? You don't know where it is? But, mum said that you both used to go there, when you two was young? Hehehe, you sure you don't know? Or, did you just remember ? Haha!

Nothing much, the usual, school, band prac, school, band prac. HALF the day... Almost the WHOLE day is spent in school...

We eat in the school,

We play in the school,

We talk in the school,

We sleep in the school...

It's like an old ugly home.

It's not THAT bad... But... You get the idea.

Haha

You know me, I wont re-do my room, cause, I'm lazy.

Nah, the main reason is I don't have the time and... I'm lazy.

Well, if I get a few people to help me out, I guess I can do it. Just in case if you're gonna suggest to have my FRIENDS help me, I'd rather not. Cause, I guess I'll paint them instead of the walls... A one man show eh? I'll think about it... Oh, mum will pay for the things right? like paint and all that? Hehe...

Well, I have no idea how to paint walls. I don't know... Maybe I'll change to darker colors, maybe purple. I like purple. I'll see room designs too, see if the paints match.

Oh wow... Got practice at 8 tomorrow.

Yes, I told him that he will be hanged, if he gets caught buying a gun~

LOL

Yea... I always wanted to just go somewhere with no plan and just... Go... Haha...

Oh well... Guess I'll have to WAIT....

Ehhh!

Love you too, night.

RACHEL

Rac's SIXTH Mail

Oh wow, can't even sms from Iran? How bout calls? Is that the messy country? Where women cover their faces and all that? And bomb bomb bomb and all that? Is it even safe to go there? Hmm... Do you get a raise? :]

Haha, Thai food? Maybe next time, we're going for comp not for fun, so... I don't want to have a tummy ache during that time. Don't know, we can't go by ourselves, cause, it's another country, if we get lost, end of story. So, I guess I wont be visiting 'Sizzler'... All the frees... Buh-bye! Why don't they have it in Sitiawan? Oh right... That'll just be rugi business, they'll go bankrupt within um... 3 to 6 months, the way we eat, and if they get customers like you-know-who... They'll surely go bankrupt!

And yes...

MALAYSIA BOLEH!

MALAYSIA BOLEH CHIN CAI BUANG RUBBISH!

MALAYSIA BOLEH CHIN CAI BUAT CONSTRUCTION SAMPAI ORANG-ORANG MATI!

Well, it's true. People from Singapore come here just to litter, and, well, they're kiamsiap, so, they do their groceries shopping, petrol filling here. They, fuss a lot, well, your brother is a good example, and they make funny faces too, again, your brother is a VERY good example... SHHHHHHH! Don't tell him I said that, cause, if you do, I'll never... Er... Go near him? Haha.

No,no. Well... Chinese ARE number one kiamsiap in the world. Singaporeans are EXCELLENT examples! So, not just Malaysians being kiamsiap. What about China? And Taiwan, and Hong Kong? Are they equally as kiamsiap? Hmmm... Why don't they do a kiamsiap survey? Haha, see which country's people get number one, I'm sure it will be Singapore! Ehehehe.

Oh great, what? So I have a thing against Singaporeans now? Ish...

Yes, it is human nature to grumble, cause, we are NEVER satisfy, and we NEVER will be. Cause, that's just us. Humans. Are... I wouldn't say that word. Or words.

Of course, everyone can afford 100, those too poor for a home is an exception, but, come on, band members? Neh, all the crap about being poor? Yea right... They can afford branded stuff man, so, complaining about 100, to Bangkok?! WTH... It ain't even their own money, it's their parents. I don't know... Well, we're kinda doing it for our school, but, mostly, we're doing it for ourselves. Cause, we want to go, the school... Chin cai us. So, you don't expect the school to pay, or use the band money cause, we're almost bankrupt...

Mutton

Mutton

Mutton

I don't eat mutton.

I don't eat a lot of things...

Yet, I'm fatter than you all!

Fourteen years of my life, no one has ever said that I got slim...

That...

Changed...

TODAY!

Hey! After fourteen years! Fourteen years baby! Someone finally told me :

''Eiiii, you look slimmer. Hey, look, your chin looks sharper! Or maybe... I just didn't see you for a long time...''

LOL

I asked another person, she looked at me, from head to toe, and again... Finally said :

"Um, oh, yes,yes, yes."

After fourteen years! Finally!

LOL

I bet it was your fault, you forced me to eat! When I was little! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Briyani

Briyani

Briyani

I don't really eat that, but, I can eat it. I just don't eat it. I don't know. Food seems to be getting boring for me. I'm in a crisis! I don't know what I want to eat, I don't know what to cook... All I want... Is...

Is...

Is...

H...

Ho...

Hon...

Honey. Sweet. Chocolate. Vege. Fruits. Juice. Tea. More fruits. More tea. Biscuit. Milo.

Yes... I suddenly hate food. No, not hate... I just, feel like eating sweet stuff... That's why, after dinner everyday, I take caramel and chocolate... Caramel... Nice, sweet, and sticky too! Lucky I saved those chocolates, cause, I didn't feel like eating them before! LOL!

Suddenly... I feel like eating honey chicken wings... Satay... Ice Kacang... Cendol... Tandori Chicken and nun... Dammit...

LOL

I think I'm going picnic and... prawn catching? This Sunday, I don't know, my friend's father is bringing. But, will have to confirm with the others. Our house is near both Teluk Batik and Teluk Rubia, so, why don't we go again? Funny. Been two years since I went to the beach that is 10 minutes away from our house! Your wife doesn't like going out to sandy places, does she? I think we're going to Some beach where turtle lay eggs, like, um, half way to Segari. Where is that? Did you take the GPS? I'm gonna look for more... Er... Food shops... xD

What? It's for future use, besides... Hey... I still haven't ate the dessert! Dammit... All because of BB... Damn damn damn... Right... It was a month ago...

One day... I will finish tasting the many foods, in the many food shops in Sitiawan. Although... Most shops are boring and the same... I'm lazy...

That reminds me... UHGH... My room! Cleaning it will be like cleaning a junkyard! Oh good... Stacks of books... Boxes... On my study table! Dust is piling up on my books... Never take me to the book store... AGAIN... Unless I finish my books... That will be... Er... If I have time, 2 years. What? You don't expect me to read 2 books a day, do you? I have like er... 30 books... Unread.... If you add the gifts... I guess... 50 unread... NOVELS...

OMG

OMFG

Make that 3 years.

Always remember, when the food in the pic looks good, it sucks.

Oh hey! You bought a Better Homes and Gardens towel in Walmart? LOL! I subscribe to their newsletter! Apparently, re-decorating means new paint, new furniture, new wall stickers and all that... Man... Too bad everything here is built-in. Can I paint the cupboards? And doors? And... Walls? Probably not. Looks like a bad idea, I'm in my room, so, as lazy as I am, I'm afraid of the work if I actually do it.

Well, the hero? As usual. You know him... Sometimes, I wonder, what does his girlfriend see in him. Oh well, guess that's a good thing, besides, he's the only male son... That looks gay. And acts gay... Sometimes... Fag... And I think a guy like him?! LOL! On Facebook anyway! Freaking fag!

ANYWAY...

No, we don't have an Apple store in Malaysia...

BUT

There are re-sellers.

My other friend bought his in Ipoh, Jusco! I can't believe that I didn't even know that there was a re-seller there! I CAN BE SO BLUR.

Inherited the blurriness, the no-math gene, and the musical gene from your wife. I guess I got your looks^^

WOW

I forgot what I wanted to say...

Well, I don't have time, it's just... It's midnight now, and, I guess I'm free at this hour, so, I guess I write?

I wonder if they allow us to bring our laptops... Cause, 16 hours on a train? I'd die during the 12 hours of day if I do nothing... Well, at least I can watch movies if I bring this thing, cause, I download movies. Saves me money from buying.

Will money drop from the sky? When a rich guy's jet blow up in the sky?

Better stop dreaming, cause, that'll never happen. unless... I blow the jet up myself... Can you get guns? And bombs pass custom?

Just asking.

The hero wants to buy a gun in Thailand.

He'd never do that, or get pass custom. So, no worries!

I feel sleepy...

Good night!

Bye!

Love you!

Miss you!

Be safe!

RACHEL

Rac's FIFTH Mail

Yes, going to Bangkok is better, know why? Cause, my friend say got a food place called 'Sizzler', mum said that they have it in New Zealand too, anyway, I heard that there's a FREE salad bar, and, FREE drinks refill! Oh, look at all the FREES! And one time, when she and her family go to Thailand, they went there to eat, in he end, the manager had to chase them out. Can't blame the manager either, WTH, 6 people eat, call 1 drink... Kiamsiap ka Si! You know who? LOL. Mummy's GOOD friend ***** xD

Kiamsiap LOOO!

Ahahaha? Plane? NAH. WTH, people tell me :

" Wah, rich people say rich things, RM100 not enough? RICH LOOO!''

Really, RM100 is NOT enough. A plane ticket is about 300++, if sit plane? I think everyone wont go. Now, I see why every shop in Sitiawan can go bankrupt. WTH, RM100 to Bangkok is considered cheap OK? The grad trip I had in 08 was RM300++ and we only went to Genting and some stupid museum. How can these people complain about Rm100 being EXPENSIVE? And hello! WE'RE GOING TO BANGKOK! Not inside Malaysia! ISH!

Yep. I guess you learned something, NEVER eat Briyani in... Um... Where again? Haha... I thought that Biryani came from their country? LOL! How can they NOT make something that came from their country NICE? Ahahaha! Maybe they think that it is? LOL LOL LOL xD

yaya, I think she'll pay for lunch, but, what if she forgot to bring her purse? Or, she leaves through the bathroom window? Haha... I'm just joking, apparently, Singaporeans do that kinda stuff! AHAHAHA!

Yep. When she said that she's gonna follow me in the train, I was like telling her not to, cause, you know her, and her Ke-po-ness and everything. She said that it's troublesome for her to sit a plane, cause, she don't know this, don't know that, the usual blurriness. She taking Lisa and the hero. Lisa says she wants to see a ghost. Heh. Say so nicely, later when she actually sees one, I think I'll have to perform exorcism on her, and, she wont eat for a month, or sleep for a month ,cause, she'll have nightmares, and every time she closes her eyes, she'll see IT again! MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Search the internet? SEARCH THE INTERNET?

I'll have to do it FOR her. And... I'm lazy to do that.

Actually, there's no Apple store here. Dammit. How low can this country get?

My friend got one iPod Classic, I asked him, said bought it in Singapore. How much? Don't know.

Damn, it's not like Malaysians CAN'T afford to buy Apple products or anything. So why don't they OPEN UP A STORE? Well, they DO have an online one, and they have a re-seller, which only sells iPods and MacBooks.... Hmmm... No iPhones...

Dammit.... I have to save for Christmas shopping, a new phone, and an iPod?????!!!!!!

That's like... UHHHH...

RM1500?! I'm not even half way there! I just got like what? 200? Man... That's gonna take some time... First thing's first... I guess Christmas shopping is more important. I can save if I get a lot of Ang Paos for new year, man, this year sucked... No one gave... Not many people anyway... I feel like getting Ang Paos from every resident in Sitiawan next year! Helps me when I'm saving money. I should make a donation for myself, I can't sell my bears... They look... Cute... I think I can sell the Barbie dolls... BUT... They're gifts! And one I bought from um... Hamburg? LOL. You paid for it.

Money... Money... Money...

OH! I KNOW! I KNOW!

I'll go work at McDonald's!

I'll get free lunch and dinner too! And, after working there, I don't think that I'll go near McDonald's again! Or KFC, or Burger King... Or... Fast food restaurants, of course, you would like that.

LOL

Printing sheet music from the net. Can't get 'When you believe' outta my head. Kinda printed this other song... Damn... I didn't see that it was for duets! UGH!

Oh yea, after talking about band for so long, I realized, you don't even know this year's theme yet!

It's

THE PRINCE OF EGYPT

LoL, from a Dremworks movie, kinda old movie, but, nice songs. When you believe is nice! You should watch the cartoon, I know you probably wont. Anyway, we're not really sure about Thailand, so, fingers crossed.

Haiz

Lynnette still can't teach yet... Wow... I think mum will have to teach me. I don't know how her students think of her as a nice teacher, it's SO different from how she teaches us, damn, she gets angry pretty fast when it comes to teaching her own children, is this natural or something? LOL. She CAN teach... She just... Well, complains A LOT when you play something wrong. That, never happens when it comes to teaching her own students, does it?

Oh well...

Money

Money

Money

LOL

11 already, I have tuition tomorrow....

Rac's FOURTH Mail

Ahahaha!!

Not going to JB, we're going to Thailand! Woo-Hoo! But of course, don't know about those exam-lovers. We're going to Thailand in September, nearer to the REAL PMR. But, if those exam-lovers don't wanna go, we're still going, just have to find replacement. But, this time, it's easy, cause, anyone can go for the competition, not necessarily students, so, our ex-members can replace those exam-lovers! And you know what? Green Green is supporting again! AHHH! I'm so happy!

5 boxes of plum? ==

AaAa

This time only in THIS side of the globe? LOL.

Going to Singapore, hmmm... I want an iPod Nano :)

SG and () MY price :

iPod Nano- 8GB, S$228 (RM599). I want red color. If 16GB is S$288(RM719), expensive...

iPod Classic- 160GB, S$388(RM979)--.

iPod Touch- 8GB, s$ 308(RM779). 32GB, S$468(RM1,119). 64GB, s$628(RM1,599)... ==

iPad- s$ 728.

iPhone 3GS- s$748.

iPhone 4- Price unavailable~

Shops are all over SG... Haha... If in Orchard:

EpiCentre@ION Orchard

2 Orchard Turn, #B3-14/15/16 Ion Orchard

238801

+65 6509 5028 EpiCentre@Orchard 501 Orchard Road Wheelock Place, #02-20/22 238880 +65 6238 9378 Best Denki@Takashimaya 391 Orchard Rd, #05-01/04 Ngee Ann City Podium 238872 +65 6732 7605 Don't know where you going in SG, so, I find shops in Orchard. I don't know. The prices, SG or here cheaper? Or same? Anyway, those are the online prices. Rm28 for Nasi Briyani? LOL! Here can get from RM5 you go there eat? Haha... yes, Subway better, only RM18. Haha. Just now eat half way go meeting, the meeting, was shorter than expected, 30 minutes++? WTH... Made me miss the FISH AND CHICKEN! I ate the prawns, what's left anyway. Everything is fine, we're all happy for now. Going or not to Thailand, the PIBG will have to agree, if they don't... I don't know, I guess we'll still go. The PIBG Chairman, is a stupid guy, but, he's rich. UGH. This time every one of the PIBG members are in MCA. Don't know, don't care. They say that going to JB is FAR, what do you think they'll say tomorrow when the band teacher says we're going to Thailand? Faint? I hope so. JB? Far? Nah. I wonder, how will we go to Thailand? How do you think we'll go? Each person only needs to pay about RM100++, so? Haha. I don't know, I think that joining the competition in Thailand, they sponsor us or something, cause I think the guy knows Mr.Tan or something like that. I don't really know. Where do you think we'll stay? OMG... Most importantly, WHAT WILL WE EAT!!!! @@ I guess that your wife is getting more popular, EVERYONE in band kinda know that she's MY MOM! OH She likes shouting, doesn't she? Well, um, during the meeting just now, she was like very fierce(my friend told me^^), say : "OK! If anyone doesn't want to go, say it now! HEY! SAY IT NOW! ANYONE?!" And she was looking at this one girl, LOL, Tian Siang's granddaughter! AHAHAHA! Cause she didn't want to go to JB. But mummy said that she was saying "WANT WANT WANT" when they say that we're going to Thailand. You know your wife. But, I guess she's better than Green Green. LOL Night! Love you. Bye. RACHEL.

Rac's THIRD Mail

Well, I finally know the reason why she is SO against us going. Remember the whole thing about our headmaster last year? When she tried to make him get fired? Yea, so, the reason is our headmaster. I asked her daughter. Damn that woman, can you believe it? Just because of our headmaster, she's willing to let 87 kids down, crushing our hopes... Unless we can get everyone to agree tomorrow, there's no chance of us going. No. Fate is what we make ourselves, it depends on the decisions we make, but, it's not us that's deciding. It's our parents. No matter how much we want to go, even a few can ruin our chance.

That's the problem...

You see, being a non-carer of education, I don't give a damn about my grades. Not now anyway. It's not the REAL test is it? It's not gonna determine my life or anything, besides, the world's gonna end in 2012. At least, the ice will finish melting then... That's not the point! It's just a trail exam, and, there's a week before that, I think, so... They're not dumb, in fact, most of them are smart asses, even if they don't look like much. I don't get smart people. All they like is studying... Studying... Studying... And all they do is study... Study... Study... And study again! WTF is wrong with them? Most smart people don't have lives!

Respecting people's choice is another thing... I'm just saying what I want right now... It doesn't matter.

Mum did her best... What else can she do? Help them to sign the agreement paper? Wouldn't that be fraud, and, other parents can sue her for that right? There's nothing else she can say... Maybe we can do something, but... Who would be as crazy as to agreeing to my plan? Well... You know my plans, it either includes having people blackmailed or kidnapped. I have another one... But, we'll have to ALL work together... So, it's kinda like, those people who tie themselves to trees to prove how much they love Earth. Of course, I'm not tying myself to a tree... But, that could work... Hmmm....

Oh well, can't blame people if they don't understand. I thought that ALL parents should support the decisions their children make, what's all the crap about ''we will always support you, my child'' then if they don't support? Of course they want the BEST for their children, but what about what WE want? It's not always up to you parents you know. We have our wishes too. Yea, most parents might get fucking mad if their child says the truth to them, but, I thought we were raised to tell the truth? True, you parents raise us up, but, what's a week gonna do to us? It's not like they're gonna miss PMR or anything...

So, Wow, your son enjoys watching cars blow up, it somehow excites him. xD

LOL. I just ate SO much. Haha, who's the cook on board? Chinese food again? Everyday? Ahahaha... Can't be that bad right? Yes. You can lose some weight, do you use the gym? Hahahahahaha! Only sailing to these country? OH... Must be hot... Oh well... Hmmm... You sailing to anywhere else? Like maybe... Japan? Haha... Hmm... More chips! MORE CHIPS!

Anyway, I still haven't touched my homework, I don't believe in homework when I don't think I'll learn from it. I still owe Ah Toh... Like say... Maybe... 35 strokes? I left everything blank today... Except for 1 know... She's gonna kill me. And tomorrow... Is another 4 'famous old lines'... I'll probably write them on the table... AGAIN. I didn't today cause... Oh... Right... I was eating, and when I was about to write them on my table, the bell rang. Ta-da!

Oh, LOL. Just graduate? The company only accepts white people... Err... Chinese right? Or people with Chinese names... Haha... I'm beginning to think that... I er... Am a racists. Well... Haha... Eee... No, no. I don't hate black people, I just don't like black people with attitude problems. Well... Ahehehe... So... I guess... Well... I, don't like Malays. Especially after I learn that they're... Never mind. There was this one time when I was riding my, WHEN I WAS 10, my paddle broke, so, I had to push it all the way home. I passed this one house, that idiot threw stones at me! And it was like he was enjoying it! HE THREW THEM HARDER! That was when I, Rachel Cheong, started to know the many fuckers of the world. And, that was just one, and, that was when I was 10, so, you can imagine how ugly people in this world are to me now.

There are exceptions, of course.

Even if I hate it, I still have to do it. Saves time, and I have tution tomorrow so, I guess doing my homework now would help...

That's about it...

Everyday is the same, cause, I kinda lost it.

No spirit

No mood

No nothing...

I'm fucked.

Well... I guess mum's killing me when my results for the test comes out, the monthly test is in... Um... 3 weeks. I'll pass, just don't expect to see an A.

Night, love you.

RACHEL

Rac's Mail

HELLO!

Yes, I was lazy to write these few days. The competition ended on Thursday, and I skipped school on Friday, and... Today's Saturday, well... It's passed 12am so, I guess technically, it's Sunday already! I have tons of unfinished homework, and my SJ folio is due on Wednesday... I'm not done with it! UUUUUGHHHHHH! The results of skipping school for 2 weeks I guess... Oh well... And yes... Ah Toh, my Chinese teacher, have a lot of things to test on Monday... Hallelujah! I'll die then. I don't even know what homework there is... And, knowing what Ah Toh will be testing on Monday, I'd rather run around our school 50 times...

The competition result? We came in at 5th. Well... At least fifth place is better than nothing, we're qualified to go to Johor... BUT... We ain't going. PMR trail and stuff. Oh well... Guess people prefer studying more. Speaking of which, I have a BAD feeling about my studies too, you know I'm not the brightest and I can't survive without cheating on my Math test. So... I guess... I'll have to cheat for another... Until I graduate???? ==''

I'm getting SOOOO lazy these days. I know I'm a pig, but, I'm more of a slob than before. Heh. I don't care about homework, the only homework I really do are my Chinese and history homework, they're both scary women. EEEEEEEEEEKKKKKK!

As usual, this is my first e-mail since you went to work, so, the first one is ALWAYS... I mean... ALWAYS long. So, just enjoy the long e-mails when I have the time to write em'. I'll probably be much much MUCH more free since the marching season is over, but... School is school, no matter how much I wish my dream of 'Blowing up everything that has to do with education' will come true, I for one know that, it will NEVER come true. Cause, um... It's just another impossible thing, and unless I become ruler of the universe... No,no. I'm thinking way over my head.

This would be really funny if mum gave me the wrong address. Cause, um, it just will be. Oh, in case your not my dad and you got this e-mail... HI, I'M RACHEL.

This lazy slob will be going to sleep now. A bit depressed with the homework she have though, BUT, Rachel the slob will still be having fun and NOT caring about the homework and punishment she will receive on Monday, because, if her hands break because of too much beating, she can always sue that woman for being such a person.

I'm just pissed that I lost my cookies... BUT... I have new cookies, I'm happy now. ALMOST. The new cookies are... TOO SWEET... Curses... I lost my cookies!

Hope you're doing well, where will you be going next? Do I get more food? cause emm, I love food.

Anyway, it's almost 2am. Nighty-night!

Muaks, miss you, love you, be safe, come back soon!

Love, Rachel