Showing posts with label Family. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Family. Show all posts

Monday, 30 December 2013

Updates

I sent my last text, maybe I should blog a little, and now, I'm here. I would always be spamming my regular morning, or goodnight messages and suddenly, I'd be in the mood to write like how I always do because of a sentence, maybe, that sparked up a distant memory from long ago, or sometimes, memories that were made not so long ago. Just now, it was something from my days as a kid, during the times I'd spend with my favourite aunts, Karen and Mun.

I say, if I had to name two of my most favourite people in the world, I'd name them. Why? I'm not really sure why, honestly. They are the closest ones I'm with, among my 999 aunts and uncles. From when I was young, I'd be with them every holiday, naturally-- except for when I went on board ships with my dad. Even when my mum was a little girl, they'd take her in during the holidays and just like how she enjoyed her time with them then, I'm enjoying myself now. I don't know how it came to be, but I've always liked them, and for as long as I can remember, they're the ones I always look forward to meeting, even until now.

We don't talk much. Aunt Karen is a woman of little words, and unless needed, she will not voice out. Despite always being silent, seemingly distant and out of reach, she observes me really well. It surprised me. Well, who doesn't know that I love eating, anyway? Or that I love to read and write. Aunt Mun is the friendlier one, warmer to new people, greeting them with a smile and chatting them up. I remember the first time I brought my ex to meet them. Aunt Karen just watched tv while aunt Mun talked to him, kept him company while I was ignoring him and taking a shower? I forgot what I did. I only remember the fact that I was a horrible girlfriend, because he never fails to remind me of that.

I've come to realize that I like people of little words. Maybe it's inherited, for my dad always complains about my mum and her incessant, utterly unnecessary spoken words in quiet times, or when matters are being discussed. My brother dislikes it, and my sisters, too. We make fun of her often, and shut her up in the funniest ways, and she'd claim to never want to speak ever again, but you know what? Barely a minute later, mum would be saying something nobody really ever cares about again. All our eyes would be fixed on her, glaring. An innocent "what?!" is blurted out.

This is the story of a certain afternoon.

On the way back to my dear aunties' house, we passed by the Malacca zoo. This time of year, when everyone is having work-free, study-free days, surely, the zoo, as a tourist attraction, would be packed. Our eyes could see it too, very clearly, how the cars lined up by the road side, tour buses as well as the classic, orange Bas Sekolah parked by the street. As the atmosphere in the car was still, nothing could be heard except for the engine and the sound of the road being conquered. That woman, had to break the silence, with an unnecessary comment: wow, so many people al the zoo!

"mm hm, let's all stop the car and go down for a visit shall we?" as McDonald's came into sight, I added "well, McDonald's is right here, you could even go down, get a burger and feed it to the elephants." I was calm, soft and irritated.

The rest of them were holding back their giggles. Dad, behind the wheel, said she deserved it, for speaking unnecessarily.

"when you have nothing to say, then don't say anything at all"

That's something I grew up with, and that's something my mum will never understand.

This. This. This!!!

This is two separate blog posts in one. A new year's special, maybe? Since Christmas is over long ago. Shall I make it a three in one post? Hahaha.

Ask me how my Christmas went.

Horrible. Maybe?

I only received one gift, a gift that was wrapped with so many layers of newspaper that I thank the guy for it, making it feel as if, Ah, I received so many presents! I was tearing apart a hundred gifts! Dennis bought me my present last night at IKEA. A snake. A stuffed animal snake. He's changed a lot, my brother. I like him more now, and would definitely shower him with gifts like how I often buy tokens of love and thought for my grandma, two sisters and mother.

Aunt Karen and Mun never want gifts. Sometimes, the best presents can't be bought. Maybe one day though, I'll be able to give them a gift that would really, really make them happy. An all expense paid trip to somewhere, maybe? As they love to travel. Of course, I'd have to earn a lot! My parents already told me that I had to buy them fancy cars when I grow up T^T

I had best go rob a bank.

This is enough for today. I'm going to need to do a lot of saving for the big dreams of mine. My heart broke a little when my over excited brother said that we were to save a small portion of our allowance each month when I start college, so that every now and then, we'd have enough money to buy new furniture for our condo. But... But... But... I'm saving for plane tickets to the Netherlands!

I'm doing a lousy job with managing my money. I must... Get... A job!

ANYONE WILLING TO HIRE ME? I WILL DO ANYTHING BUT MATHEMATICS, I WILL EVEN BABYSIT DEVILISH CHILDREN!

Yes. I should definitely rob a bank.

Monday, 19 August 2013

Like a Bowl of... Mixed Nuts!?

Remember how I said I'd marry you if you cycled to my place? Well, that was before I tried paddling out of my comfort zone. We all know Sitiawan isn't that big a town, but whenever people were to travel to my place for some unknown reason, they'd be complaining about Lot 16 of K.D.S.K to be too damn far from their homes! I don't get it, really. The city council should invest in cycling paths in this small little town so everyone can get around with ease. Cars are all we need? Pfft. Fuck you. I can't drive yet!

I don't always go to the post office, but when I do, I make sure I risk my life cycling there like I'm sending an illegal package that's worth a ton over the black market.

THE THINGS I DO FOR LOVE!

Courage the Cowardly Dog has always been my role model, although he may seem like the worst character a kid could learn from, lemme tell you, he's the most loyal one you'll ever come across! Trying your best for someone you love is only natural, don't you think? At least I didn't follow in Spongebob's footsteps and ended up frying patties at some fast food restaurant! I never even liked that yellow sponge with the annoying laugh in the first place.

Stepping out of the post office with a grin that stretched from ear to ear, the five o'clock Sun couldn't have felt better on my skin. My rusty bike was the only one parked outside the building when I stepped out. All the others have already paid their bills, sent whatever they wanted to and rushed home before the lady behind the counter told me everything was taken care of, that I could leave. I saw the mail men load up their trucks. Mine wasn't going to be on its way until tomorrow. But I smiled anyway. My journal, it seems, is going international. Happy Life no.2, along with my Australian journal, are flying to a faraway land called Netherlands.

I was tempted to get a cup of Okinawa milktea at Poppers after dropping my package off at the office, but since today's a Monday, I wasn't sure if they were open for business today. Maybe some other time? But it's not always I cycle out of my safety zone. To be honest, I was worried that I might get run over at any time and become roadkill; no telling what will happen when you put impatient imbeciles behind wheels. The wind was nice, and I enjoyed my little trip, but the vehicles zooming past poor little me wasn't the least bit pleasant, especially when they were speeding lorries. Got honked at-- TWICE.

I want to cut my hair.

I always feel like that on Mondays. It's like the stars are in all the wrong positions on this wretched day, forever making me hate my magnificently grown head of annoying black hair. If I was a lion, it'd be great. But no, I'm human, and my friends can't stand it when I let my hair down and whip it back and forth... Wait, no, I don't whip it back and forth at all!

Milktea! No pearls, please; disgusting little things.

If you sit me down and ask me to think long and hard about how I came to love the one I love now, I can't give you an answer. To me, love comes naturally, and I don't NEED a reason to be in love. I just love because I can and because I want to. I think if it's meant to be, then it's meant to be, and if it's not, there's no point fighting for it. I allow myself to fall knowing that the pain will haunt me after the days of sweetness have gone. But hey, live for the moment and don't stress the future. I'm done with planning ahead; see what happened to us? All the empty promises we made. It's not the most important aspect of my life--I daresay--but it completes me and makes life more interesting. Don't you think so? You should know by now, when it comes to a person I don't dislike, I'm kind enough to let them walk all over me.

I don't have a boyfriend.

I'll come clean here, the reason why I wrote so much today is because I have no where else to do so. I finished my journal and while I contemplate about getting a new one, bloggie is going to be the one who gobbles up most of my words.

I LOVE MUM. It's not mother's day, I know. But... I find it hard to face her these days and she's down. I don't even try, I think. It's not making it any easier for her because she's trying to approach me. There's this gap between us, and I don't know what to do... I can't clear my thoughts and let things go back to how they used to be, because she doesn't see what I see and I definitely can't grasp her point of view.

Sigh... Just getting it off my chest.

Goodbye.

We've come to the last piece of nut in our bowl.

Sunday, 19 May 2013

Rachel

How does it feel to be someone's favourite? I've never been anyone's angel. Not then, certainly not now and never will be. Even when I had a boyfriend, I wasn't his favourite.

Sometimes, it makes me wonder why my parents have four children. It's so clear to me that all they ever wanted was one-- my brother. Everyone loves
Dennis the menace; the irony! Dennis is always right. Rachel is always wrong. You know, I gave up trying to explain my actions a long time ago to everyone because they don't care, and wouldn't understand.

You won't see my family get excited about Rachel; nope, not even once. You'll never see them organise a birthday dinner for Rachel. No. When Dennis comes home with a girlfriend? Yes, let's have dinner at a seafood restaurant.

It may seem like I'm jealous of my brother, but trust me, I'm not.

This lack of attention is what shaped me to become who I am today. The days of being in the shadows, the emptiness, they were my guidelines to the base of my principles. Why else would you think that I'm independent, cold and often appear uncaring? It's also how I developed this passion for writing. Who else was going to listen to my problems besides myself?

I'm thankful for being ignored. I molded my own personality, developed my own perspectives and my own ideals. They call me weird, but why should I care? It's not up to them what I want to become and how I want to live.

You'd hear them say Rachel is a good girl, independent and capable; most promising one out of four children. I'd smile at that, but it doesn't bring me to cloud nine because I already know that fact. The sad part is that I don't feel the attachment of being someone's daughter, someone's granddaughter or someone's niece. Dennis is the golden boy after all.

I don't feel love. Only responsibility.

Mum and dad, when I'm done studying and settle down with a career, you can look for me when in need, but I will never ever beg for your help, even if I'm on the brink of dying. I will try to repay you every single cent you've spent on me since the day I was born. Nothing more needs to be said.

Cold. Blunt. Shy. Quiet. Easily annoyed. Soft. Honest. That's all I am.

Monday, 15 April 2013

Thoughts in an Empty Shell

Thoughts in an Empty Shell 

Few days have gone,
much have changed,
yet once you have gone,
the house is empty again.

Now, 
you make me wonder who I am.
More heartbroken than I should have felt, 
more lonely than I thought I would be.

Cruel are the Gods.
I had lost everything I knew, 
then They sent you,
only to take you away so I'd fall yet again. 

Now,
I ask myself who I am.
Loner that feels no love?
One too broken and afraid to yearn for companionship.

Alone again,
not much have changed,
you are gone,
I am empty again. 

Now,
the night is quiet and still,
you are not here to call my name or lean or me...
Farewell, cousins! 












Wednesday, 2 February 2011

Weather... Is... KILLING ME

What happened? I thought that it was pouring a few days ago? It's now five in the evening and the Sun shines like it's freaking two in the afternoon!

The reunion lunch was over a few hours ago, few uncles, aunties, a five-year-old chatty, and a baby.

Now, I'm just waiting for the reunion DINNER.

My aunt will be back with her boyfriend tonight, so, it's another round... Hmm...

I'm not feeling it. The weather is killing me. YOU are killing me.

It's Chinese New Year... Nobody's free for the next few days. I feel like going swimming... UGH... Maybe tomorrow... Don't call me. Don't text me.

Suddenly, I feel like being stranded on an island. If I do, I will not panic... First, I will enjoy the beach, maybe go skinny dipping, since I'm alone... After that... I WILL PANIC...

Enjoy first, panic later.

They don't plant enough trees. I think I better buy a land now and plant trees so that when I move in 20 years later, I'll have giant trees everywhere =D Maybe dig a pond...

I know... It's impossible.

I have dreams too you know. Of course, it might not be like those which includes being CEO of some company, live in a giant house with a butler called Sebastian and a long-haired dog named Alexander...  I have something... Stupid-er in mind...

It's not stupid... Really... It's just... Me being a loner.

Ever read The Lake Isle of Innisfree? If no, then you are an idiot. What were you doing when the teacher was teaching?!

My dream is something like that. But of course, mine includes the Internet, and my laptop. And oh... Hot water shower... With a bathtub...

I'll be dreaming now... So, good night~ I'mma nap.



I will arise and go now, and go to Innisfree,
And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made:
Nine bean-rows will I have there, a hive for the honey-bee;
And live alone in the bee-loud glade.

And I shall have some peace there, for peace comes dropping slow,
Dropping from the veils of the morning to where the cricket sings;
There midnight's all a glimmer, and noon a purple glow,
And evening full of the linnet's wings.

I will arise and go now, for always night and day
I hear lake water lapping with low sounds by the shore;
While I stand on the roadway, or on the pavements grey,
I hear it in the deep heart's core.

William Butler Yeats

Sunday, 19 December 2010

uuuuuiiii... Bored?

Impatient.

Impatiently bored.

Bored and impatient.

Sleepily boredly impatient.

Yeah... I don't know what to do... Nobody's on Facebook... I'm lazy... Maybe I should continue playing Mizuki's route for Edelweiss... Or maybe... Just watch some BL. No... That wont work... What if my grandma sees me? Or my sisters... I don't have to worry about Dennis. He runs aways every time yelling that there's something seriously wrong with me... Besides, he's not home~

Lalala~

Love me yet?

No?

Okay...

I'll wait.

I can wait.

I'm a girl. I don't have balls. Use a better sentence =_=

I'm sorry if he can't face her... I don't have balls... So, I can't give him half.

Haaaaaaa

Let's go out again.

Walk with me.

Talk with me.

I'm bored. I miss you.

Lalala

It's okay right...? To miss you?

Don't know if I'm going to KL for Christmas. That woman...

First, she says "LET'S GO TO KAREN'S PLACE FOR CHRISTMAS!"

And we were like "NO WAAAAY! YEAH! YEAH! YEAH! But... How we gonna go?" =_=

" I'll drive."

"You drive? No kidding?"

"But... I'm scared."

"THE HELL MOM! GET THE FUCKING GPS!"

"But... I don't know how to use it..."

"WHAT THE HECK... ARGH! Then why the hell do you own a car anyway?!"

"Get a taxi. You three go. Rachel, come back on 28th. You two can stay longer."

"WTF... DRIVE... Cause... I'm scared to sit the taxi..."

"But...But... But..."

"Just drive. Just... Drive... I give up... Let's just NOT go to Karen's house..."

Mom- ^_^

Me, Lisa, Sarah- =_= + >=(

Dad on chat- ...

I wanna go to Toys R Us. I don't care if I'm 14. I love toys. Lucky kids... Toys are getting so expensive these days... I have to buy my own stuffed animals T^T

Animal Alley~

I'll drop by the XL-Shop and look at figurines~ I want Sebastian 0x0 And Ciel ^_^

Went shopping???? With Zn today. Although... I didn't buy anything... I just went with her... I didn't look at much, wasn't interested. Was more interested in my messaging, waiting for someone that ISN'T my mom to show up on my screen~

Sadly... It's expensive...

But...

Well...

I'll manage. Somehow. I always do. I just need to behave... And be patient...

AHA

People complain that my blog posts are too long.

Well...

Alright.

Alright.

Good Night.

I'm not sleeping.

I'll roll around the floor until somebody finds me.

Or I'll roll around until I get tired and sleep.

Tired.

Need blood.

Monthly stab in the tummy.

Dammit.

Mememe@6.39pm

Friday, 17 December 2010

Hyperactive?

Fat people can last three days without food. We use our fats. Cool.

Don't feel like eating lately? But then again... I'm hungry... I'll go have some tea...

I'm back~

Sowwwiiieeee >_<

If I was hyperactive... Uhh... About 4 or 5 hours ago.

What? I was happy. I thought happy people are always hyperactive? But... I can't compare to my sisters though, they scream and shout and then throw pillows at each other until one gets pissed, gets serious and... You'll know... If you meet those crazy little girls... One looks stupid, one looks like a dangerous hiao po...

What?

Oh... I don't think my bro is ever hyperactive though... Maybe...

I think when he's hyperactive, he puts on a gay show. And then... Tickles you until you eventually can't take it anymore and punch him.

Me? Well... I tend to talk a lot... More like... TYPE a lot...

That it sometimes scare people O_O

Been a long time since I typed so happily.

Other times... I would just join my sisters and throw pillows at each other until my mum gets mad and kills us~

Peace fullness... Doesn't last... The next minute... We'd be playing again =D

I wonder... Is a few years that big an age gap?

LOL

Some people don't even CARE about their brothers and sisters. Cause one is 15 and one is 10??? How can that be... Nothing in common? Well, I admit, I am childish, but... I treat my sisters like they're the same as everyone else, even if my mom is old, I treat her the same. Sei 3 8.

I don't get people who says that they have nothing in common with their younger brother/sister.

Weird.

Or is it normal??? People don't talk to each other anymore???

GOSH

I should be asleeeeeeeeeep~

Wehehehehe~

Ants.

Neko. Neko. Neko.

My dogs, they don't love cats. They don't dislike them. They just... Kill them...

They kill birds too. And the best part? The tiniest of them all... IS THE KILLER... =_=

Dammit... Angel... She looks like an angel, but she certainly doesn't act like one!

What am I doing now??

What...

Th-theeeee...

UHHHHHFFHFHFHFHFHFFHHF...

UIUIUIUUUUUUUUIIIIUIUIUI...

MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...

Sorry.

Sorry.

Sorry.

Don't know what to do.

Don't feel like sleeping either.

Set my alarm to 9 I think.

Ufff... Tuition... If that girl doesn't show up again tomorrow... God... I will sleep on the floor in font of your giant portrait and wake up when it's time to go.

Go where?

No where.

Note to self: Put Nike on the shelf where puppies can't reach.

I named my slippers...

MY POOR POOR SLIPPERS...

Well... Only one side got chosen as a chew toy.

I wonder if I could only buy ONE side...

It was so squishy... Puppies sure know how to choose slippers.

They choose expensive, and chewy ones...

DAMMIT.

I COULD JUST BUY YOU PUPPIES A CHEW TOY! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO USE MY SLIPPER?!

I'm so heartbroken.

Awww...

It's like... It's just been save from a shredding machine... Three puppies... One slipper... Ouch. You can smell the rubber T^T

Squishy~

Squishy~

MY SLIPPERS!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO T^T

They were pink... and they were squishy... And soft... And they were cute... SEE?



HYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Slipper-chan... Toshite... T^T

I guess I'll wear the brown flat-flat. If that ends up as a chew toy too... I will not wear any slippers to my grandparents' place anymore. Damn. One side feels fine, the other side feels ticklish cause of the bite marks everywhere and some rubber flying up here and there...

Grrrrr....

Puppies...

You guys are just so cute >_<

If I don't get my revenge now... When you grow up... You'd be bigger than me O_O

FINE.

Since you guys are puppies.

Chew on a stick please.

That's about it.

If hyperactiveness scares you, then, would you prefer me being emotionless?

Sukidayo~ ^^

Sunday, 10 October 2010

Midnight Sleepy Angry-ing

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After seeing the title, I think you guys know what I want to say already...

WTF?! 

Yep.

WHY is everything so lag? Dammit! I was half way through episode 14 of Kuroshitsuji! And Even FACEBOOK is lagging? But... Not Youtube? And I can't find episode 14 on Youtube. Damn Youtube, keep removing for copyright reasons! AnimeCrazy and GoGoAnime are lagging. And FACEBOOK is lagging... WTF is my brother doing up there??? I know one thing's for sure, he ain't asleep.

::MAD::

::SHAKING FIST::

First, he has to make me bring my laptop downstairs. Hmph! I can't even use my laptop in my own room now? Sometimes, I get so angry that I feel like taking a knife and stab him. It is MY laptop, and it is MY room. WTF? He almost knocks down the whole door if I lock it, and, my mom ain't home. What can I do? I can't stab him, now can I? The more I think about it, the more I feel like stabbing him. Oh yeah, I would LOVE to give him a taste of PAIN, for torturing me for such a long time. Gosh, he never says 'Please, I beg you, don't kill me' seriously. Hm. I would love to see the day that he says them seriously. Yes, I'm a nut case.

Having a brother is suppose to be good? Heh, you've never had HIM as a brother. If you had HIM as your older brother, you would regret having a brother, and you would regret being born.

Sure, he may treat an outsider good. Cause, well, he has a reputation too. But to me, he's a self centered worthless piece of crap. Always thinking about himself, and never takes advice or takes back what he says. Always unwilling to accept the fact that he is WRONG. And well, nothing goes through him.

Lying.

 He can actually prove 'once bitten twice shy' wrong. After you get into an accident, cause you're wrong, you wont repeat what you do right? Or you'll have a phobia or something? But well... Congratulations to him, he proved that wrong, and wow, he owns his own motorcycle now, with no license of course. I don't even know how the hell he bought one. Of course, it ain't at home.

Lies.

To think that we actually believed that he could CHANGE. Uh huh. We were dumb, we were fools. just because he is your son, just because you TRUST him. You can never trust him. All of his words are lies. Lies. Everything is a lie. Every 'no' is nothing but a lie, and every 'yes' is also a lie.

Everyone has secrets, secrets that cannot be told. But. It isn't a secret. It's just a sixteen year old boy who does whatever he wants. Yep. Mommy, be smart. You trusted him, because he is your son. Well, you can trust him of course, but, don't expect him to tell you everything... He will never tell you EVERYTHING... Then, let me tell you some of those which I know...

Golden and bright like the Sun.
The first born of the love between lovers.
A child that is bright, but cannot shine.
Shine, he is shining, in a different way.
There is light when there is darkness,
There is darkness when there is light.
All you see and all you hear,
Don't trust your eyes,
Never trust your ears.
Your heart aches because of the Moon.
The Moon is a reflection of the Sun which is bright.
The Moon gives light to the night,
The Moon is what you must see instead of the Sun.
Trust the Sun which never speaks of the Moon,
A mistake is made by a caring one.
Trust is trusted.
Honesty and dishonesty,
Proof and words.
Never judge a smile.

The truth you very well know.
The truth which you seek you have always known.
The Sun gives light,
The Moon reflects it.
Light. Light. Light.
The faint light of a human child,
Shines like the Sun in a mother's eyes.
Needles and thorns in the heart,
Your heart is hurt because you trusted.

Trust is a must but not too much.
See with yourself and you will believe.
Through my eyes, please see it,
The Sun which you believe,
The Moon which reflects.

In the night sky the Moon hangs,
Smokes are seen coming from the Moon.
It is not burnt,
It does not know.
It feels nothing,
It feels great.
A thin piece of dried leaf fell from the smoke.
A piece which tells us why there is smoke.

The Moon hanging in the night sky,
The water reflecting the Moon on Earth.
Ripples are made when raindrops fall.
The Moon blurred in the clear water.
The rain stops and the reflection is clear.
A cloud is beside that wonderful Moon.
The cloud drifts away,
Taking the Moon.
And soon, the Moon is seen no more.

The Sun rises after Moon has gone.
A day begins at the rise of our Sun.
Our Sun.
Our big bright Sun.
Lighting the world with its ray which blinds us all.
Blinded, you start your day.
Though you may doubt but you deny it all,
Because of love you see it through,
Because it hurts and then you cry,
Because you are the mother, mother Earth.
Because of failures which are not your fault,
Because of fires which you did not start,
Because of a love that is born.

Unable to hear, that's the Sun.
Shining. Shining. Shining.
Burning. Burning. Burning.
For each one burnt,
There is a grudge.
But for mother Earth,
The Sun is apart of it,
Mother Earth does not hold a grudge,
Against the Sun that is apart of her.

Titanic sails and then it sinks.
The Ice is to blame for many lives lost.
The Ice is nothing but a block of ice,
The Ice is useless and bringing misfortune.
The Ice is here,
The Ice is melting.
It melts,
It freezes,
The Ice stays the same,
The Ice knows it all.
Melted by the Sun, cooled by the Moon and lived by mother Earth.
The Ice has a heart,
Which froze.
Which sank.
A sunken ship and a sunken heart.
The Ice is here,
An emotionless being.
The truth of which you seek,
In the heart of the Ice.
Find the Ice, 
Find its heart.
Something lost can never be restored,
A heart that is lost,
Will never be restored.
A soul that has survived,
Will never be the same.
A person who lived,
Will never want to die.
A demon who serves,
Will never disobey.

Bleed by the circle,
Bleed by the star,
Bleed by the sacrifice you made for life.
Fall into flames of eternity.
Forever suffering,
Never ascending to Heaven.
Regret your life,
Regret your past.
Never regret who you are.
Bleed.
Let the blood flow in the river of pain,
Let the blood flow to the end of the river.
A flower is seen,
A crimson flower.
The flower born of love and suffering.

 
I admit. That was a... Stupid thing and the last para probably freaked most of you out, but, hey, I'm a creepy EMO. UGH. You people can never understand! Using dark words is where the fun begins. Of course, by blood, I meant tears. Idiots. I just happen to watch a lot of movies, and know about rituals. SHUT UP. Uh, figure out that thing if you want to. I admit. It's confusing, but, it's easy. Of course, it's obvious isn't it? That I AM IN IT. UGH. You people are dumb...

Oh well... Which resembles me the most, is... Me. Of course, I might be exaggerating a bit. What's the fun if you don't do that? We EMO people are all the same. But WAIT, I don't cut myself.

So. Hi mom, figure that one out. That's none of my business. Dad, you give it a try too, it''ll be confusing. But, MOM, if you ask HIM, you better watch out I tell ya'. If you ask HIM, I'll probably end up paralyzed in the hospital. Yup. You know who I'm talking about.

GOOD LUCK MOM AND DAD!
Oh yea, I forgot to tell ya'... Some of the text, have no meanings, it's just to make it sound EMO xD

Completely dedicated to Mom and Dad##2.03am

MemeMe@Rae-Chan

Friday, 1 October 2010

The Study Period

Chatting with my mom and dad, they're in Hong Kong now, gonna be in Shekkou... Or something... Tomorrow afternoon.

So, it's the time of the year again, everyone climbs into bed, tired.... Wishing... Hoping... Wanting their dreams to come true. Their one and only dream... Our one and only dream. We share our dreams...

And that is...

EXAMS, DIE, DIE, DIE AND DON'T EVER COME BACK! JUST DIE!

But sadly... Exams aren't gonna die.

So, everyone is like hardcore studying right now, with a band tied around their foreheads with the words 'I WILL SURVIVE, I WILL PASS THIS TEST, OH YEAH BABY!'

Let's all pray together... That I don't fail my math test.

So, I always have this problem... I can never get myself to SIT nicely on my chair and take out my textbooks so that I can study for exams. Every time, I would sit down, take out a book, open it... And... Just drink my tea and eat my snacks... And after a while... I'll use my laptop. And after that... Oh look at the time, it's time for bed, and studying can wait ==

It's either that or... I lie in bed, textbook in my hands, chocolate in my mouth, chips on the floor, and of course, my tea ♥


I just love tea... Tea, tea, tea! I'm a tea person. LOL♥


Tchaikovsky~


Nice name. I think I'm gonna name my next pet Tchaikovsky, or maybe... MY SON! 


So, yes... I get distracted easily. I can go from studying to tea, and to naming my son Tchaikovsky == 





Have a nice long look at Capt. Ivy Khoo xD 
She'd delete it Facebook, but, she's not gonna delete it here! Oh yeah! 
Nenenibubu, you can't delete it in my blog. 
Wahahahahahaha~


So, yes, I am the only one that is free. Everyone is studying till they have to dye their hair to cover up the white hairs. People get old fast when they study. I don't know why... I'm just saying...


I don't have the mood to write about studying since I don't study, and I'm sleepy.


Concentrating... 


Failed...


Mom is Angry@1.50am


MemeMe@Rae-Chan





Wednesday, 15 September 2010

School Starts... AGAIN... On Monday

After like A MONTH of school-free days, I feel like there's no such thing as SCHOOL or STUDYING anymore, just ANIME... ANIME... And more ANIME!!! Waving good-bye to Prince of Egypt 2010, and the marching season of 2010. Still... Even if I complain a lot, I feel like doing it again. It's not fun, but, it's not bad either... I don't know. I guess... I just like it.


With everything finished, I just don't have the heart to study anymore, and, I need new specs... Yea, yea, blame it all on me for staring at my laptop my non-stop.

I left 60% of myself in Bangkok, which, I have no idea why. Even if the hostel SUCKS and has only cold water for you to bathe, not to mention perverts running around taking  pics of people showering, I like it there... It's convenient... xD But of course, if I were to  live there for the next ten years, it would be boring. Everything gets boring, if you do it for too long. My dad once told me:



 '' Any job would be boring after 10 years, just get use to it. What you expected from life?''

Damn this computer!

If you're wondering why I'm using the family comp instead of my laptop, easy, THAT SELFISH JERK KNOWN AS MY BROTHER IS HOGGING IT, HE TOOK MY FUCKING LAPTOP DOWN TO HIS ROOM LAST NIGHT, WHEN I WAS ASLEEP, WITHOUT EVEN ASKING ME FIRST!

I didn't notice this morning, because, I had my piano lesson, and, I need to go for breakfast before it. Why didn't I notice it in the afternoon? I was at the funeral. And what about after I came back? I practiced the new piece 'Butterfly' and played 'When You Believe' and some other songs, cause, I was waiting for the water supply, so that I can bathe, and you know what? I got tired of waiting and went to sleep, when my mum woke me up, it was time for dinner. We ate out, cause it was my 65-year-old aunt's birthday, she came back from KL and wanted to eat hok jiu food. And then, we came back. When I found my laptop, it was too late, he was there, and, I needed to use to the bathroom badly.

Wa-la, a very short, and simple OQ&A of my day. As well as why I didn't know my laptop was in my so-called BROTHER'S room.

So, everybody... Hi.

The internet is such a dangerous place, people, don't get caught on Facebook. It's bad. Well... The government is gonna catch ONLY non-BABI for crapping about politics... So... Hmm... Why do I care? I don't know shit about politics anyway...

Hmm... Oh well...

I wonder... Everyone in this family has the ability to see, hear, smell, and feel ghosts... My grandma feels em, my aunt sees em, and my other aunt can too... My dad, bro and sisters have all seen ghosts... So... All that's left is just me, and my mum. I don't know if it's luck or what... But... I would like to know the feeling of actually seeing one.

It may sound crazy... But, that's just the way I am.

I'm trying to make Onigiri(rice balls)... Hope I succeed though. Wish me luck guys!!!

Gonna buy nori tomorrow. At an organic store??? Hmm... Oh well, it's food shopping again, I guess. Mum's gonna see dad, she's leaving on Friday T^T, on coming back in... OCTOBER????? WTF?!

Bye-Bye mummy, I'm gonna miss ya' red face, and how you always shout at us, for no reason :D

I was just joking...

Anyway... I still can't get this outta my head. I watched Orphan 3 times already...

So...

Quote Stuck in Rac's Head:

''If you tell, I'm gonna cut you hairless little prick off, before you even know what it's for... Oh look, you pissed yourself...''

Esther/Leena

Orphan



Nighty-Night

Saturday, 11 July 2009

2 Bad News In 3 Days?

2 bad news in 3 days? Seriously, what can be worse?

1st bad news, got from London a few days ago. My grandma in London called and said she has cancer, blood cancer. But luckily, it's still an early stage. So now, she's waiting for her test results to come out.

2nd bad news, got from Kelantan today. My grandpa has cancer... My mum told me he's now in one of KL's Hospital, I don't know where. My dad's gonna go see him, don't tell my grandma here or any other old people that know them! Later my mum kill me! So now, he's waiting for his scan on Monday.

2 bad news in 3 days... Both cancer... Hope they can survive... Moody... Bye Bye...

Sunday, 7 June 2009

The Story of Tatty Teddy

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The oldest, smallest house you can imagine was about to be knocked down. All the things that once made the house nice and cosy had been thrown outside and piled up in the front garden, from the soft springy bed the owners slept in, to the old wooden floorboards they used to walk on…

The story of Tatty Teddy (Me to You Bear) (1/6)

…and even, surely by some mistake, a little brown teddy bear.

The story of Tatty Teddy (Me to You Bear) (2/6)

He was trapped amongst all the other unwanted things, and couldn’t move. Then, one day, a very cold day, something fell from the sky… a little snowflake.

It landed on the teddy bear’s little nose and then was followed by many more. He began to get cold, very cold indeed. More and more snow fell, heavier and heavier. The little bear was now so cold that his nose started turning blue… so cold that his brown fur started turning grey.

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He was cold, unloved and all alone in the world, and felt very, very sad.

Winter finally passed and the weather got warmer. One beautiful spring day, a little girl was playing near the old house, when she spotted the grey bear in the pile of unwanted things. He was like no other bear she had ever seen and she pulled him out from where he was trapped.

She dusted him down and lifted him high in the sky to look at him.

“A grey teddy bear… with a blue nose?” she thought. “How strange!”

The teddy bear wanted to cry. He thought she didn’t like him and would throw him back with the other unwanted things.

“But he’s lovely!” she continued and she fell completely in love with him.

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She ran home as fast as her little legs would carry her, to see if her Grandma could patch him up as a lot of his stuffing had fallen out, and he was very much in need of repair.

She looked on as her Grandma replaced his stuffing and patched up his holes. His stitches had started showing where the fur had worn away, but the little girl thought he looked perfect.

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It was all cosy and warm in the little girl’s house and the bear felt all cosy and warm in his heart. However, his nose was still blue and his fur was still grey, and they would never return to brown.

He was unique among teddy bears.

The little girl gave him a great big hug. She loved him more than anything else in the world, her little grey, blue-nosed…

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…Tatty Teddy.


awww! tell me, wasn’t that sweet? it made my heart feel all warm and fuzzy.

there! please hug the person next to you now, and do pass this story on to someone whom you cherish!

Wednesday, 3 June 2009

Finally... Im Free From the Boredness in Hospital and my cousins...

Back home... Free from hospital and my cousins...

The 1 and a half days i spent in Ipoh was... Hmmm... Bored, Sleepy, Torturing =.=

I went to Ipoh abt 9 am on Tuesday... When I reached the hospital it was abt 10.30 am... And juz because I go to hospital... Im not sick =.=... My great aunt juz finish OP so we go see her...

It was so dam boring... I stayed in the hospital ward until 4pm... Can u imagine tat??? Frm 10.30 am to 4pm... Of coz i gt go for lunch break... If not i die inside...

U noe old ppl la... My great aunt keep asking the nurse this that this that... I think the nurse oso scared le... U noe la... My great aunt de malay 'A1' de =.=...

My uncle they all oso come bak see her... Ppl love their mum so much...

My cousins leh... U noe wad they do a? Thy am... Ah Hem... Let's juz say tat they're worse than Lau Xin Yi =.= ( U noe wad i mean... SHE always Do de=.=) Even at the hospital oso... Now when come bak home feel so safe XD...



The Hospital... Took frm car

The oldest cousin... 9 yrs old... She started to torture me 1st

2nd cousin... Hmmm... I think 8 yrs old... She din really torture me

smallest... 5 yrs old... oso the 1 who torture me most... lyk monkey... keep jumping on me and... u noe la...

My mum... Park car so 'pro'... every1 park in a straight line... she park until so out... see...

My great aunt who is sick

My aunty... frm KL...

My uncle... came back frm China...

My uncle... came bak frm Australia... Melbourne... Not Sydney... sry say wrong a Stef...

My mum the 'pro' car Parker XD... She see edi sure kill me

The hospital's cafeteria... From my view at least =.=