My Week

I would love to describe my past week with the ONE word I love most- SAME. But, my brother had to throw a birthday party on Friday, so... I can't use SAME T^T

Friday... 1st of July, Sarah's birthday, but Dennis decided to celebrate their birthday together since his birthday is not far away, 7/7.

It was...

@_@

I DARE NOT EVEN STEP INSIDE MY OWN HOUSE WHEN I GOT BACK...

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It was like... AHHHHHH! SO MANY PEOPLE... I scared myself.

While waiting for SZN, me and Jesvin took some food and ate INSIDE cause... There was too many people, and she didn't want to see those ACS people.

So... My bro's iPhone got stolen. YAY. Maybe he learnt his lesson... BUT I DOUBT IT. He never learns. Hehe. Something stolen at your own party. HAHAHA WTH MAN! I know, I'm not helping.

The worst part is... THEY DIDN'T CALL ME WHEN THEY CUT THE CAKE T^T

I was busy in my room playing Draw My Thing and Letterblox on OMGPOP. LOL. I missed the site, been such a long time since I logged in T^T

But... I'M BACK! PANDA! I'M BACK!

Yes... It's the start of July, closer and closer and closer to my PMR trial... Closer to PMR... But, oh well... I'm watching more anime and reading more manga. Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi and Gosick ended... I hated their endings, so I can't accept the fact that they ended, and that is why I'm reading the manga...

Blood-C is another new anime that only started airing recently, thanks again to SZN for recommending Blood-C. Hehe, she also introduced me to watch Togainu no Chi and Gosick.  But... I STILL WONT GO KOREAN!!!!!!!!!!

Blood-C... Sucked. I know I can't tell much from the first episode, but... The first episode was... BORING. So predictable, and so SLOW moving. The main character is so neardy-looking, it made me lost the mood. Blood + was better. They just had to ruin things by making up an anime called Blood-C...


ANYWAY... Ahhh, I shouldn't be doing things like this when I'm suppose to be studying...

UGH.

Why do I need to sit for ANOTHER monthly test if my trial exam is just... Another month away? Isn't it just stupid? I'm gonna get shouted at for getting bad grades again. WHY DON'T YOU GUYS SAVE ME THE TROUBLE AND JUST SKIP THE MONTHLY TEST?! @#$%^&*

ARGH!

My birthday is gonna be relaxing this year, it's after PMR =D So I can skip the next day, or the rest of the week =D I'll just go get another MC from the doctor =D

AHEM.

I'm thinking about... Not celebrating. Well... Maybe... Cook something for myself and a few friends... And that's it. No fancy big party like my bother and sister, no getting $200 presents or a dozen Domo-kun =_=

Ehehe, inviting four and a half months in advance, hope you'll make it back. Which I doubt you will. There's always things more important to do. Mm hmm. Let's all hope you get a Deepavali holiday =D

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If there was a knowledge tube thing that allows me to download knowledge into my head, and lets me delete it whenever I want... I WILL SO GET IT... But, nah... They wont ever invent something like that. Unless... We all become robots. !!! That would be bad... I don't wanna eat oil everyday! Even if it's burger flavored, it'll still be oil! AHHHH!

Why am I not asleep? Bet Aunty Owl is already asleep, and she had Starbucks! Gah! I'm nocturnal. The bbq just now didn't help much... I'm hungry again... Uyuyu...

Funeral tomorrow... AGAIN.

Why do people keep dying around here?

My sisters want to go for funerals... Maybe I should just let Sarah take my place tomorrow. Sheesh. They don't ask "Who WANT to go for funeral" they just ask "who CAN". Of course, everyone can, we just don't want to... Nah... Anyway... I go cause I want the $10.

After that... I'll have ice-cream, and my $10 will fly... =_=

My, my... It's almost 4 already, I am so disappointed in myself. Why can't I be normal and sleep at 9? Is it cause I slept from 4 to 7.30 just now?

IDK... I just wanna go hug Suzuki-san. I wonder if I should get Zongxu a human-sized doll... So he wont have to rub his bolster... Hmmm... I have plenty of time to save up before his birthday =D



Have a... Good... MORNING?! >_<

I hope my clock is wrong =x




Lalala~

I look like a panda O_O

THAT IS BAD!







MemeMePANDArachel_0353

Hyperactive?

Fat people can last three days without food. We use our fats. Cool.

Don't feel like eating lately? But then again... I'm hungry... I'll go have some tea...

I'm back~

Sowwwiiieeee >_<

If I was hyperactive... Uhh... About 4 or 5 hours ago.

What? I was happy. I thought happy people are always hyperactive? But... I can't compare to my sisters though, they scream and shout and then throw pillows at each other until one gets pissed, gets serious and... You'll know... If you meet those crazy little girls... One looks stupid, one looks like a dangerous hiao po...

What?

Oh... I don't think my bro is ever hyperactive though... Maybe...

I think when he's hyperactive, he puts on a gay show. And then... Tickles you until you eventually can't take it anymore and punch him.

Me? Well... I tend to talk a lot... More like... TYPE a lot...

That it sometimes scare people O_O

Been a long time since I typed so happily.

Other times... I would just join my sisters and throw pillows at each other until my mum gets mad and kills us~

Peace fullness... Doesn't last... The next minute... We'd be playing again =D

I wonder... Is a few years that big an age gap?

LOL

Some people don't even CARE about their brothers and sisters. Cause one is 15 and one is 10??? How can that be... Nothing in common? Well, I admit, I am childish, but... I treat my sisters like they're the same as everyone else, even if my mom is old, I treat her the same. Sei 3 8.

I don't get people who says that they have nothing in common with their younger brother/sister.

Weird.

Or is it normal??? People don't talk to each other anymore???

GOSH

I should be asleeeeeeeeeep~

Wehehehehe~

Ants.

Neko. Neko. Neko.

My dogs, they don't love cats. They don't dislike them. They just... Kill them...

They kill birds too. And the best part? The tiniest of them all... IS THE KILLER... =_=

Dammit... Angel... She looks like an angel, but she certainly doesn't act like one!

What am I doing now??

What...

Th-theeeee...

UHHHHHFFHFHFHFHFHFFHHF...

UIUIUIUUUUUUUUIIIIUIUIUI...

MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...

Sorry.

Sorry.

Sorry.

Don't know what to do.

Don't feel like sleeping either.

Set my alarm to 9 I think.

Ufff... Tuition... If that girl doesn't show up again tomorrow... God... I will sleep on the floor in font of your giant portrait and wake up when it's time to go.

Go where?

No where.

Note to self: Put Nike on the shelf where puppies can't reach.

I named my slippers...

MY POOR POOR SLIPPERS...

Well... Only one side got chosen as a chew toy.

I wonder if I could only buy ONE side...

It was so squishy... Puppies sure know how to choose slippers.

They choose expensive, and chewy ones...

DAMMIT.

I COULD JUST BUY YOU PUPPIES A CHEW TOY! WHY DID YOU HAVE TO USE MY SLIPPER?!

I'm so heartbroken.

Awww...

It's like... It's just been save from a shredding machine... Three puppies... One slipper... Ouch. You can smell the rubber T^T

Squishy~

Squishy~

MY SLIPPERS!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO T^T

They were pink... and they were squishy... And soft... And they were cute... SEE?

HYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!

Slipper-chan... Toshite... T^T

I guess I'll wear the brown flat-flat. If that ends up as a chew toy too... I will not wear any slippers to my grandparents' place anymore. Damn. One side feels fine, the other side feels ticklish cause of the bite marks everywhere and some rubber flying up here and there...

Grrrrr....

Puppies...

You guys are just so cute >_<

If I don't get my revenge now... When you grow up... You'd be bigger than me O_O

FINE.

Since you guys are puppies.

Chew on a stick please.

That's about it.

If hyperactiveness scares you, then, would you prefer me being emotionless?

Sukidayo~ ^^

Midnight Sleepy Angry-ing

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After seeing the title, I think you guys know what I want to say already...

WTF?! 

Yep.

WHY is everything so lag? Dammit! I was half way through episode 14 of Kuroshitsuji! And Even FACEBOOK is lagging? But... Not Youtube? And I can't find episode 14 on Youtube. Damn Youtube, keep removing for copyright reasons! AnimeCrazy and GoGoAnime are lagging. And FACEBOOK is lagging... WTF is my brother doing up there??? I know one thing's for sure, he ain't asleep.

::MAD::

::SHAKING FIST::

First, he has to make me bring my laptop downstairs. Hmph! I can't even use my laptop in my own room now? Sometimes, I get so angry that I feel like taking a knife and stab him. It is MY laptop, and it is MY room. WTF? He almost knocks down the whole door if I lock it, and, my mom ain't home. What can I do? I can't stab him, now can I? The more I think about it, the more I feel like stabbing him. Oh yeah, I would LOVE to give him a taste of PAIN, for torturing me for such a long time. Gosh, he never says 'Please, I beg you, don't kill me' seriously. Hm. I would love to see the day that he says them seriously. Yes, I'm a nut case.

Having a brother is suppose to be good? Heh, you've never had HIM as a brother. If you had HIM as your older brother, you would regret having a brother, and you would regret being born.

Sure, he may treat an outsider good. Cause, well, he has a reputation too. But to me, he's a self centered worthless piece of crap. Always thinking about himself, and never takes advice or takes back what he says. Always unwilling to accept the fact that he is WRONG. And well, nothing goes through him.

Lying.

 He can actually prove 'once bitten twice shy' wrong. After you get into an accident, cause you're wrong, you wont repeat what you do right? Or you'll have a phobia or something? But well... Congratulations to him, he proved that wrong, and wow, he owns his own motorcycle now, with no license of course. I don't even know how the hell he bought one. Of course, it ain't at home.

Lies.

To think that we actually believed that he could CHANGE. Uh huh. We were dumb, we were fools. just because he is your son, just because you TRUST him. You can never trust him. All of his words are lies. Lies. Everything is a lie. Every 'no' is nothing but a lie, and every 'yes' is also a lie.

Everyone has secrets, secrets that cannot be told. But. It isn't a secret. It's just a sixteen year old boy who does whatever he wants. Yep. Mommy, be smart. You trusted him, because he is your son. Well, you can trust him of course, but, don't expect him to tell you everything... He will never tell you EVERYTHING... Then, let me tell you some of those which I know...

Golden and bright like the Sun.

The first born of the love between lovers.

A child that is bright, but cannot shine.

Shine, he is shining, in a different way.

There is light when there is darkness,

There is darkness when there is light.

All you see and all you hear,

Don't trust your eyes,

Never trust your ears.

Your heart aches because of the Moon.

The Moon is a reflection of the Sun which is bright.

The Moon gives light to the night,

The Moon is what you must see instead of the Sun.

Trust the Sun which never speaks of the Moon,

A mistake is made by a caring one.

Trust is trusted.

Honesty and dishonesty,

Proof and words.

Never judge a smile.

The truth you very well know.

The truth which you seek you have always known.

The Sun gives light,

The Moon reflects it.

Light. Light. Light.

The faint light of a human child,

Shines like the Sun in a mother's eyes.

Needles and thorns in the heart,

Your heart is hurt because you trusted.

Trust is a must but not too much.

See with yourself and you will believe.

Through my eyes, please see it,

The Sun which you believe,

The Moon which reflects.

In the night sky the Moon hangs,

Smokes are seen coming from the Moon.

It is not burnt,

It does not know.

It feels nothing,

It feels great.

A thin piece of dried leaf fell from the smoke.

A piece which tells us why there is smoke.

The Moon hanging in the night sky,

The water reflecting the Moon on Earth.

Ripples are made when raindrops fall.

The Moon blurred in the clear water.

The rain stops and the reflection is clear.

A cloud is beside that wonderful Moon.

The cloud drifts away,

Taking the Moon.

And soon, the Moon is seen no more.

The Sun rises after Moon has gone.

A day begins at the rise of our Sun.

Our Sun.

Our big bright Sun.

Lighting the world with its ray which blinds us all.

Blinded, you start your day.

Though you may doubt but you deny it all,

Because of love you see it through,

Because it hurts and then you cry,

Because you are the mother, mother Earth.

Because of failures which are not your fault,

Because of fires which you did not start,

Because of a love that is born.

Unable to hear, that's the Sun.

Shining. Shining. Shining.

Burning. Burning. Burning.

For each one burnt,

There is a grudge.

But for mother Earth,

The Sun is apart of it,

Mother Earth does not hold a grudge,

Against the Sun that is apart of her.

Titanic sails and then it sinks.

The Ice is to blame for many lives lost.

The Ice is nothing but a block of ice,

The Ice is useless and bringing misfortune.

The Ice is here,

The Ice is melting.

It melts,

It freezes,

The Ice stays the same,

The Ice knows it all.

Melted by the Sun, cooled by the Moon and lived by mother Earth.

The Ice has a heart,

Which froze.

Which sank.

A sunken ship and a sunken heart.

The Ice is here,

An emotionless being.

The truth of which you seek,

In the heart of the Ice.

Find the Ice, 

Find its heart.

Something lost can never be restored,

A heart that is lost,

Will never be restored.

A soul that has survived,

Will never be the same.

A person who lived,

Will never want to die.

A demon who serves,

Will never disobey.

Bleed by the circle,

Bleed by the star,

Bleed by the sacrifice you made for life.

Fall into flames of eternity.

Forever suffering,

Never ascending to Heaven.

Regret your life,

Regret your past.

Never regret who you are.

Bleed.

Let the blood flow in the river of pain,

Let the blood flow to the end of the river.

A flower is seen,

A crimson flower.

The flower born of love and suffering.

 
I admit. That was a... Stupid thing and the last para probably freaked most of you out, but, hey, I'm a creepy EMO. UGH. You people can never understand! Using dark words is where the fun begins. Of course, by blood, I meant tears. Idiots. I just happen to watch a lot of movies, and know about rituals. SHUT UP. Uh, figure out that thing if you want to. I admit. It's confusing, but, it's easy. Of course, it's obvious isn't it? That I AM IN IT. UGH. You people are dumb...

Oh well... Which resembles me the most, is... Me. Of course, I might be exaggerating a bit. What's the fun if you don't do that? We EMO people are all the same. But WAIT, I don't cut myself.

So. Hi mom, figure that one out. That's none of my business. Dad, you give it a try too, it''ll be confusing. But, MOM, if you ask HIM, you better watch out I tell ya'. If you ask HIM, I'll probably end up paralyzed in the hospital. Yup. You know who I'm talking about.

GOOD LUCK MOM AND DAD!
Oh yea, I forgot to tell ya'... Some of the text, have no meanings, it's just to make it sound EMO xD

Completely dedicated to Mom and Dad##2.03am

MemeMe@Rae-Chan

Damn Bro

Damn that idiot. WTH... Oh, so I can't do what I want, and he can? And I can't say anything because I'm afraid of getting beaten up. I can do what I want, I don't need him to fucking boss me around! I really don't need a dude who can't even take care of his God damned self to tell me what to do! I wish that he'd die this time! He just got lucky the other time, now that he's better, he wants to ride again. Well, okay, be my guest, he can die this time, he wont get so lucky.

This concludes it, people don't fucking change! He's saying now that he wont ride again... EVER... And everyone believed him, so did I. But now... Not so much... Lying is one thing, putting life on the line is another. I guess he just wont learn, he's more hard-headed than we thought. I've never met anyone as hard-headed as him, usually, people get scared, even after they're better. But him?He's hopeless.

Ah, yes... When he dies, I get the blame again. How can I live with myself then?

Why? Simple... I know that he's going to ride again and I'm not telling my parents. Just like last time, I kept my mouth shut while he does all those things. What if I tell? What's the difference? Not like he'll listen to my parents, I'll just end up getting beaten up by him. Pointless!

*SIGH*

I know more than I show. About everything... Not just my bro...

Life's life I guess... People just don't appreciate it...

We have life and yet, we waste it. How many people actually appreciate life? None... Even the holiest of people... They don't...

Whatever...

Weekend Night

Just came back from Lumut. Had dinner at Romance, just one thing I have to say... TOO SALTY!

Sorry guys... Especially you, got you into trouble again. Why is it always me? Never mind, next time, I go out alone. Well, can't blame your mum, mothers are... Mothers... They... Are... Mothers. And I think if I keep wanting to go out and eat, I'll get fatter and your mum wont like me very much.

And I thought I was late... My sister is singing? WTH?

Nothing much to say, just wanna apologize for getting you into trouble, and being a bit too obvious with words.

Now you, gosh... I didn't know he would be like this, he's worse than my dad! Why? So... Jealous... And if he were mine... I'd give him a good 'talk' long ago. Well, I'm different, I don't have patience, I can't tolerate with this type of behavior. When I saw how he acted, what he wrote, I felt so angry. I know, none of my business, but hey, I guess I care...

You said that you'd treat her right. This isn't treating her right. So basically, you're saying that spending time with you is more important than spending time with her friends? I didn't know you were this type of guy, I thought you were different. Why you acting like this anyway? Not like she gonna fall for anybody when she's with you. Just think... THINK... Treat her right. Don't make her cry... Ever... Or else...

Wow... The lessons people bring us... What I've learn so far from relationships:

1. Never get married and have children if you have no time.
2. If your boyfriend's a worrying freak, 'talk' with him.
3. Single is the best.

Yea... So far... Only 3...

I gotta go check something...

Damn... I guess... People shouldn't know who my brother is... I don't wanna get killed...

Hey... Stop... Messing with my friends... I don't wanna get hated, if you wanna ruin my life, well, congratz, you're doing a GREAT job.s

OMG

WTF

Fuck you

Fuck you

Fuck you man... I'm not staying on anybody's side now... I just wanna be me... I don't wanna be your sis, I don't wanna be friends with you guys... Stone age... Ice age... God damn Facebook.

Thanks... For telling me... Or... I would've never known...

Just... People from NH and ACS... They act different, it's like people from different ages... Let's face it... Nobody's a winner... Living under the well and living in a cave... Things are different... Attitude's different. Way of life too. Everybody's a God damned flirting king.

None of my business... But... I'm stuck in the middle... Like I said... You're doing a GREAT job ruining my life for me Den. I don't know... I'm not so fit to be your sister, you and me... We're totally different people. And yet, we live under the same roof and born to the same parents...

I don't understand boys... My brother for one, is a hot tempered assshole who thinks that he's the supreme ruler of everything and a bitch who pisses people off by that God damn mouth of his. And plus his attitude... He's one guy I would LOVE to avoid... But... We're related...

Good Night

Walao Eh... 1 word... GENG...

My bro, my bro. Like you all know, hand broken and all, just came back just now, and going to check the thing next TUESDAY, and guess what? I'm going too^^

I'm gonna describe him cause I lazy ask him to do a gay pose for me, wait, lemme check.

Okay, I'm back.

okay, so, one bandaged foot, hanging hand and a swollen purple eye. Oh, the day I thought would never come true, hey, I fell better again. My God, that wrapped up hand sure is hard, if he hits me with that... Hallelujah for both of us.

xLOLx

It's like nothing's wrong with him, he goes about his usual stuff like Facebook, messaging, MSN and all the stuff you people do that I DON'T, and of course, I'm typing for him, while, writing this. Don't he feel difficult or anything? Wait, wait, wait, lemme ask him if he has anything to say.

Do you have anything to say? Gay?

Fuck this. I'm in pain RETARDS!

He's done. LOL.

He's beside me, oh, every small sister's dream, to see pay back... Oh, the irony... Somehow, thank God... He's alive...

I know, I know, I should be studying instead of like writing this stupid thing, but... I'm prepared... I think... And, my bro needs my help... He's showing off how cool he is again, oh...I would love to smack him...

Yes, he was that dumb actually. He raced.

oh, he just knocked his foot... Again... AHAHAHAHA!

Now, talking on the phone. The only person who is so active after surgery... I don't know what the hell is wrong with the gay mind of his.

LOL, I love this line:

I won the race, an accident, a trip to the hospital and two metals sticking outta my flesh.

Go see the metal sticking out of the flesh picture, it's on Facebook. Look for him.

He is so happy... Maybe next time... Get bad brain memory lost. I did not just say that. AGAIN...

Okay, good luck with the stupid stupid stupid semester exam. Oh wait, my art... Right...

Good night everybody, sleep safe. No boogeyman's gonna get you, although someone in red might.

Buh-BYE!

Random Things

Random things, you can never think about what you want for sure. Randomly, you can write about everything. Sorta like mixed salad.

I don't know why, but suddenly, I love veges more than meat. I've been bringing vege sandwiches to school lately, I feel bored with chicken. I didn't eat meat today. Yay me... I guess.

Everybody changes. Once like before, never do this type of thing? Yea right, fuck what you two said, look at who's doing it now. I'm not saying you two can't... Maybe I'm just jealous alright? Yea, I'm definitely jealous.

Things come and go. But, I didn't think I was the one who was going to go, or the one who was gonna get replace. But I guess, I'm wrong. Aren't I always? Two replaced by one, she is one hell of a bitch to do that, but... Never mind, since you guys like her bitch like attitude more, go ahead, leave me. Since you guys already left her, I guess I wont be a problem.

Oh, I'm not replaced? Really, not to you. But them? Hello, we are our own, I don't know what the circle is about anymore. Best friends for life? She went, and now I'm leaving.

And hey, don't know what you see but, to me, we're in the different circle from them, so, I guess to you, I was never replaced. And just to let you know, I never did replace anyone, I don't tell nobody any shit anymore, cause, it just gets more complicated after that. I go with them for relief, you know how fucking stress I am? And God dammit, I swore I would only fuck my husband, I guess I'll be virgin for life.

I don't know, me? You? I don't know anymore. I don't know if I love you, but I think about you, I care about you. I don't know what's your side of the story. I guess I could never love a person the way I want to.

ARGH! Why is it so damn complicated? This, that... Where the hell do I belong? I wanna quit, save myself the stress! But there's just one problem, my mum wont let me quit. If she'd let me, I would've said bye-bye a long time ago.

Studies are usual. I think I might have improve. I improve for the sake of living through Nan Hwa, I'm just gonna take foundation. No A Levels. Just... Major in English. At least I like it. I know, its still a long time, but seriously, what else am I good at? Drawing is definitely out, so are things to do with Math, KH, Geography and other stuff...

Dennis gonna have surgery tomorrow.

Good luck gay bro!

Hope ya' get something outta this one!



COLOURS REPRESENT THE PERSON'S FAV COLOUR... I GUESS WE KNOW WHO LIKES PINK. SO, THE PINK ONES ARE FOR YOU.

Broken Brother

I'd never thought I'd live to see this day, to see this happen, to see him in his condition like now...

Right hand broken, from his hand to his elbow, bruises all over. Lying in the hospital bed, what is he thinking? Will he change after this painful experience? I don't know.

He always does things carefully, he don't get caught, he don't hurt himself. But I guess, everybody gonna screw up sometime in life. I know everything he does, from fighting to riding, but, I don't tell. Was I wrong? Did I do my part as a sister?

I mean, it's not like we don't tell him to be good, it's just that, he never listens! For God's sake, if he'd listen to my mum, he wouldn't be lying in the hospital right now, I guess he's just too stubborn.

Sure, sometimes I imagine if things were like this, but, I didn't think I'd care this much for him. OF course, he is still my brother.

I really don't get it, why he wants to be like this? For the thrill? We are lucky enough, we have everything. Why can't he be good just for once? Why wont he listen to my mum?

I don't know...

You know how my mum thinks? This is all her fault, that she failed to be a good mother. It's always the mother's fault...

If he don't change after this, he's just hopeless. It's the most serious thing he got himself into.

I just have to say...

I was scared of you to tell. I'd probably end up looking like a panda if I'd told mum. But, I told dad, he didn't seem to care about smoking like mum did, but they are both strongly against you riding a motorcycle. That's why I didn't tell.

Just whatever okay? Change the bitch-like attitude of yours 'kay? And need I remind you, be careful, with your arm like this, your enemies have the advantage... Stay outta trouble.

This is a painful experience, whenever you gonna do something risky, think about the pain. If you don't change, then I'm sorry... You have no bright future. You're a smart kid, kinda good looking... Just the attitude...

I love you brother, even though I hate you.

Good Luck

Get Well Soon

Stay outta trouble

Go be gay

Learn how to be nice

Gosh... I'm Wrong About Everything

God dammit! I'm wrong about every single thing! Do I have to be wrong at just about everything? ARGH! This is so frustrating!

Damn you dude! I thought you changed! But WTF? You still have smokes and you just freaking had two on the roof! Damn you... DAMN YOU! Why do you let me know stuff? You think it's easy for me? Fuck you.

And what the hell, I don't feel like going to houses taking Ang Paos anymore. Knowing that a bunch of us monkeys are going, I don't wanna go anymore. So many people, less Ang Pao. I see all of your faces, I feel like giving you guys a slap. I don't know why but I feel like no one is trustable anymore. I do have possible candidates to test out as my new best friends. Although, we wont be as close... Like now with you guys... Fuck this. Why can't I just erase the memories like deleteing a file on the comp? UFF!

Suddenly, I hate everyone. Bad mood? Maybe. Lousy mood? Totally.

And to those of my friends who have already... <3... style="text-align: center;">

PUBERTY SUCKS!

Okay... Double WHAT?!

OMG... As if the last 'WHAT?!' wasn't bad enough. Now DOUBLE WHAT?! This is so... Ewww... Thinking of it makes my hair stand. For the love of God, SHE WANNA KAO MY BROTHER? Oh damn. The pain of being my brother's sister...

Dude, you have issues you know that? I'm just saying as your sister, thank God you don't read, or else I'd be dead.

And how many girlfriends do have exactly? NOW. Not counting the past or last month. Just now alone. You no good two timer, or three timer. Or whatever. Dude, you have a girl's picture on your phone, a different picture in your wallet, and you have... Her pictures in my phone. Dude, you don't even like her. You told me that, you psycho. I don't blame you, she hiao her problem. And thanks for letting me know you were joking about kissing her^^

And next. SHE IS UGLY. Lolx, said it, I SAID IT. But who cares? Those morons thinks she is.

Well, you guys are gonna get a shock for this one! It made me and my brother's hair stand!

EE SUK CHING LIKES MY BROTHER AND WANNA KAO HIM?! WTF?

LMFAO

This has got to be the worst of the worst. I mean whoa, she is ugly enough, but this one? OMG... OMG... OMG... SO DAMN GELI... YERRRRRRRRRR!

Oh God, if it weren't KFC for dinner, I wouldn't have eaten anything.

WHAT?!

WHAT?! Okay, fine. FINE! Things are like this eh? Fine, fine. I can live with things this way...

Things are just so wrong! UGH! Sometimes, I wonder, what do people see in people! HER? I mean, come on... HER? I know it's none of my business to complain about YOUR relationship, and I know your just playing around. You know I hate her, and hey, you told me you were just playing. But dude, even if THAT'S the case, I still feel uncomfy with her being my... 'in-law'... And come on, when mum asked why you didn't kiss her you said your bag weren't there or you would have kissed her?! Boy, I cannot imagine that. Nu-uh. No.

And new phone? Nokia 5800. I have to say... Fuck you. You told me you were broke dammit! And I think you still owe me 30 bucks! Damn... Why on earth did you even become my brother? And I don't see how we can be related... Big difference... Ya ya... Real big...

And there's YOU... It's like this eh? okay, okay. I wont fucking say anything. No,no,no. In fact, I think I need new friends. Why? Cause I'm sick of being ignored and hated, I know you hate me, JUST FUCKING SAY IT!

Seriously, my life has gone from bad to worse. I didn't think I was gonna have to transfer for sure. But now, I'm really eager to go away. Away from all THIS!

Sure, even if our distance is the furthest, she is still my best friend. The best you guys will ever be.

I hurt your heart? Stop saying that. You don't even come close to being hurt by me.

Say it. Say it now. I'm cold and I don't care. I'm a bitch who hurts everyone in her way, friend or enemy, it's still the same. That's just me. I'll admit.

Fine. Decide. Don't keep thoughts to yourself. Tell me the truth. I don't mind saying your names out.

Stephanie
Jessica
Shu Zhi Ngor

Just say whatever mean stuff you guys are meaning to say to me. I can take whatever that's coming. But wait, no one ever fucking reads my blog.