Another Out Of BorednesS Post~

Wow... So damn bored! And HOT!

I can't believe I actually sat behind my stupid piggy brother for 52 minutes and 8 seconds watching him Dota!!!!

And plus, I found out... My dog tried raping my OTHER dog, that's why he got bitten... I saw it myself

xLOLx

Sweating...

Why does the weather have to be like this? Damn... Can I go jump off a mountain?

I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BORED!

I don't feel like OMGPOP-ing

XD

Guess I'll go join the rest of them and sing K together!

Ahahaha~

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL

Buh-BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

The Usual Afternoon Boredness~

I'm writing this outta boredom, SO DAMN HOT~

Ever wonder what it's like for a Golden Retriever to fight a German Shepherd? Well, I can tell you the results cause obviously, my two MALE dogs fought over the FEMALE dog, now I know why people call bitches a bitch... My God, Bruno(German) was gonna... Fuck... Angel(Female Golden) and Max(Male Golden) didn't like it, so... Yea... a big mess... Damn... Max is bruised all over! From eye to paw... Seriously, remind me never to fight a German Shepherd, I don't wanna end up like Max... Poor dog... And yet, Angel could be named Angel, I can blame my brother for such a dumb name, he's such an ass, yet, he gives his EVERY pet the name Angel... And Max if it's male. Like the two damned tortoise we had when I was 6, and the two Golden Hamsters we had when I was 8.

LOLx... That was the result, so, never mess with my dog.

Right, practice was usual... The usual routine, marching, breakfast, indoor... BlaBlaBLA~

The Colour Guard test went bad, I worked my ass off, and at the end of the day, my results sucked! I get so damn nervous at stupid tests that I forget everything! Like the stupid trumpet test... I got nervous and all that came out was air...

I let myself down, all of the damn weeks I spent practicing was a waste! And now, my stupid finger hurts cause of the flag... I dropped at the last minute... GREAT... Now, I let everyone down, they had hope I WOULD DO GREAT!

Sorry guys... I know y'all are disappointed that I didn't do very well... Look the other way, I still have a shot at trumpet, besides... Wait... Wait... Wait a second... There is no result... YET.

But sure, I screwed up at the last minute...

But whatever...

LALALA~

It's Okay... I just had to pick the time when everybody's there LOOKING to do the test... Oh, as if the examiner ain't bad enough! Man, I gotta start picking right times to do stuff...

My results are bad, I can feel it. And no, I'm not back to the dark side... It's just...

I SCREWED UP...

BIG...

WELL...

NOT THAT BIG...

The Bright Side

It's about time I thought about things positively, thought about myself positively.

Over the years, I realize, I've never got ANY positive thought about anything. I'm always the negative type, the faithless type. I just have no damned self confidence, I lack a lot of positive stuff, and I mean it, A LOT! That's why I don't wanna compete, I'm afraid that I'd screw up everything for you guys, and be the blame for the loss. But... Yay me... I'm in...

I try to think of this as... My... Mission? More like duty or whatever. I still have SO many things to do, God damn this, I lost faith and I gave up, now, I'm back on? I need to do this, I need to do that, I HAVE to study this, have to study that, HAVE to memorize this, memorize that, have to live this through... HOW CAN I LIVE AFTER THIS? OH...GOD HAVE MERCY ON ME!

I'm gonna try my best and do whatever I have to do... Gonna live like I'm dying baby! When I say it, I mean it. When you find me dead while practicing one day, can I blame you? And can I like... I mean, can my SPIRIT haunt you?

Look on the bright side, I'm trying. I'm not the worst... AM I? I'm an idiot who enjoys everyday life... ALMOST ENJOY...

xLOLx

And something to you guys... Can you guys not be so OBVIOUS? Dammit, I dunno what this is called. It's either threatening or match making... And lemme tell you guys ONE thing...

WILL YOU GUYS JUST FUCKING QUIT WITH THE GOD DAMNED RUMORS ALREADY? IT'S ALREADY SO FREAKING LONG! WILL YOU GUYS JUST FIND SOME OTHER SHIT TO BULLY PEOPLE WITH?! UGH! GROW UP DUDES!

-No One Cares To Understand-

-No One Cares To Understand-

Life of me, life of you, life of us all,
Life's a cycle, a never ending cycle, but will always end.
Living differently, thinking differently, acting differently,
To live is to act, the world is our stage, to act is to please.
No one cares to understand,
The way I think, the way I feel.

Love is all, love is lie, love is forgiving,
We lie to protect, we learn to forgive, but we don't forgive.
The show ends, the mask falls, showing true colours,
The show ends, the mask lies, never true colours.
No one cares to understand,
This is not what I want, and I don't want what I have.

Emotions are true, emotions are masks, emotions are many,
We smile to please, smiles are masks, smiles are many.
The show starts, the mask rises, always a fake,
The show starts, the mask lies, eyes are all.
No one cares to understand,
I never speak, I am shy.

Everyday is a show, my never ending show, a show that I hate,
No one knows, no one asks, no one realizes,
This was never what I wanted, this was never my decision, I am forced.
Like a slave now, a slave of my own, a slave of the world.
No one cares to understand,
I am poor, I am slave.

***

Nobody cares, they don't. Everything is what they think is best, where does my opinion stand then?

See how this is your fault? You son of a bitch? I really HATE insulting mothers, but now, I'm just upset. You put me in that shit, you made me waste my fucking time doing NOTHING there, NOTHING, and now, they're pulling me back out, and I'm just good for nothing now. I forgot everything there is to fucking know. Next time when you're gonna make plans that are best for people, go fucking think it through! You know how fucking hard it is for me now? Oh ya, YOU DON'T. So fuck you.

I'm not blaming anybody. Don't go think who it is, cause it's already so damn obvious. Seriously, now, I don't mind you guys reporting me, to him. Show him this if you guys want, I don't give a damn about what happens next, I just wanna get some space for myself to think.

Every time, there's the mother problem too you know? When you're doing what she wants, and suddenly... you're out, she gets upset, starts blaming you for being irresponsible and stuff. So, it's never that easy to just do things... I still remember the big I'm not a librarian anymore thing, she was angry at me for weeks! If I do this now, I'll have to move out of the house. She never understands... She's a great mother, but you know... All mothers are... Mothers... They care too much...

I just can't get off the strings...

I'd never thought it'd be like this... I never thought that things would get so damn bad...

I was fooled, we all were, by the kind man who is now lost. Like a stranger kidnapping children with candy... We were fooled... How could we be so fucking stupid back then?! UGH! I just feel like... I need a break... A break from all this! A break from freaking reality! I'd rather be in a nightmare, no nightmare could be worse than this... I want out, but guess what? Mommy problems... I gotta find daddy...

Just... Gimme a break...

The Elemental Tarot

I was gonna write this last night, but thanks to that video who made me feel queasy, I'll write it now. In case you guys still haven't watch it...
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=280577173557
The link...

xxx

Exact same deck I have, well, bought the same thing with the book. I went and check, and I realized the top cover of the box is missing~ LalaLa~ Where did it go? I dunno.

Like I said, doing this thing is damn hard, the Minor Arcana is harder for me, although the book said it's easier than the Major Arcana. Does this mean I'm stupid, although I know half my brain's gone anyway.

I guess I'll need more practice, heck more! And I'm still not done with the Minor Arcana, can't blame me, it has 56 alone in the Minor, and thank God it only has 22 in the Major Arcana, so I guess it's 78 cards altogether.

Learning this thing is fun, and hard. Ya, ya, I know. Anyone knows one of those expert in this? Cause I'm thinking learning would be easier if someone teaches me, but I'm okay for now. Just a few complicated things in those cards. Mainly the Egyptian symbols.


Yea, how dumb of me, wasting my time doing this, and writing this, knowing that, NO ONE CARES. But hey, I like doing this, and writing about stuff that no one cares about (Mainly ME), next time, when I'm good at this, maybe I'll move on to cursing. Hope you people don't stay away from me, nothing wrong with learning this stuff, well, except it's strongly forbidden by the Heavens and that it has something to do with the cult. And yes... OMG, this sounds so wrong.

O.M.G

OMG... OMG...Why? Why hamsters? OMG... To get the way I'm feeling, go watch this video. Facebook | Videos Posted by Ben Gan: Common Snapping Turtle [HQ]

I have no mood to write anything anymore... Just have enough energy to say that, I love hamsters and that learning how to read Tarot cards is hard, but I'm half way through, anyone wants their future?

OMG... Just go... Watch the God damned video... Or maybe you guys watched it before... OMG... I'm shaking...

Buuuuuuuuh- Byeeeeee

Remember, watch.

Yea, I'm learing how to read it. I'm okay with the Major Arcana, just left the Minor Arcana! OMG... Another... I dunno... I'm okay with Fire, Earth. Now moving o nto Air and Water. It's so damn hard!

Lifeless-Dead-Meaningless

I was up all night thinking what happened during the months, 2 months of 2010 is almost gone, and yet, when I think of it all, everything I've done is wrong, hurtful. Then I think again, what about me? I close my eyes and and the flashback starts, looking at myself, I was lifeless. Although the world around me is full of life, I manage to lock myself up in my own world of misery.

What is this all about? Society is falling apart, can't you see that? I mean, WTF are you guys doing? Yes, you two, NOT including your sister or in your case your 14 year old daughter. Why are you guys like this? SHE'S not the best,woman! And yes, just because she's your fucking daughter and she knows stuff, it still doesn't mean that she's all THAT. Seriously, fuck you two.

Guess you guys know who I'm taking about huh? If anyone reports me to YOU KNOW WHO, lock yourself in your house, and I don't care who the hell you parents are.

Then back to me.

Why am I even here? I realize, I just don't have the skill, and that nothing is ever getting better... Wait, wait, I'm eating spicy chopped chicken... Yummy... Okay, now, where was I? Ah yes... And I feel like I don't belong there, you know? And my interest have all gone because of the people who's in charge act like... THAT... Well, not all of them, just SOME...

And now, my mummy's letting me quit... I think. There's no point for me to stay, now is there? I'm just another obstacle in the way. If I had known, I would have never came, I would have gone to ACS instead. And I should never have joined during primary three.

I still don't know, did I choose the wrong way in life? But whatever, it's too late to change it anyway, now, I have to choose carefully... The right one... I have three options:

1. Quit
2. Not quit
3.Hello ACS,Bye bye Nan Hwa

Which is more likely? I dunno... I just don't belong, I'm no good, I never were.

And then there's you...

I love you, but then, you don't. So, I guess it's best that I move on and forget you and all that. I guess I'll love you enough to let you go then... Like one Chinese song '手放开', the lyrics go 最后的疼爱是手放开... I think... Then... Bye bye, good luck in whatever your gonna do.

That's all I guess, I'm such a lucky person, I'm listen to my mummy playing the piano and eating spicy chopped chicken and writing this~ Ah, I love my home...

Books

Books... Books... Books... There's still so many unread in my room, but I want more... Well, not revision books! I hate those! Novels.

I know, all of you have watched Percy Jackson and The Olympians:The Lightning Thief. Yea, I watched it too, but I wanna read the book! What? I read Twilight after watching the movie. I heard they changed the movie A LOT, the ending wasn't the same, and Percy was suppose to fight with Aeries not Luke. Did I get the name right? Whatever...

Percy Jackson and The Olympians:The Lightning Thief was the first of five books in the Percy Jackson and The Olympians series by Rick Riordan. And yes, I'm going to buy all five books, of course, I learned my lesson about paying myself, so I'll ask mum to pay... And she'll probably kill me.



Book One of the series, you know what? I think I like Logan Lerman better, the guy who plays Percy. The drawings look like... Ya...

I have no idea how much, the price wasn't there!








Book two of the series, costs... OOOO... Only RM27.90 at MPH, not bad!
















Book Three, also RM27.90 at MPH. I wonder, what's the price in Popular, the book fair is almost here! I can't wait~















Book Four, this book is RM29.90! I guess it's okay. What's Labyrinth? It's not my fault I don't know Greek Mythology!















Book Five, now this will burn a hole in my mum's pocket. Can you believe it? RM59.90! OMG... OMG... OMG... PLEASE MUMMY! BUY IT FOR ME! ALONG WITH THE OTHER FOUR OF COURSE.














Can't they make like BLANKER covers? So many ugly drawings! UGH! Right... First Book RM34.95 in Popular? Fuck... First book, more expensive than 2nd and 3rd book? Got like this?

This concludes it, shopping at MPH will be better than shopping in Popular.

Dilemma

I know I just updated my blog... But, I'm in a dilemma!

I CAN'T CHOOSE BETWEEN
YARI
AND
C903

SEE MY PROBLEM? NO?

THEY'RE BOTH GOOD PHONES... BUT I NEED TO DECIDE, I'M TOO POOR TO HAVE TO AT ONCE...

BOTH ARE 5 MP, BUT YARI GIVES MORE ENTERTAINMENT~ GAMES, AND SUPERB STEREO SPEAKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND IT IS NICER. BUT THEY SAY THE KEYPAD'S A BIT BAD, NOT USER FRIENDLY...

SEE THE PROBLEM NOW? SEE IT NOW? AWW COME ON! THIS IS HARD!

YOU KNOW HOW C903 IS! AWW! I CAN'T SLEEP TONIGHT!

CURSES! DOUBLE CURSES!

Rachel's Top 10 Ways of Surviving Pn.Toh

Hello! I'm back with Rachel's Top 10! Today's topic is about surviving Pn.Toh. As you all know, she is one crazy woman. And we've been tricked... AGAIN! So, here's my top 10 ways of surviving her!

*Listed from 10 to 1.

10. Act natural, even if you feel unnatural.

9. Never look her in the eye, or her face if you have anger issues.

8. Cheat by writing stuff on the table, or look at your neighbor's answer. Or just, study.

-On my table, you can see some "Ming Ju Jing Hua" and some other Chinese words I wrote.

7. Stay away as far as possible.

6. Never EVER make a deal with her! NEVER!

-A good example shall be the contract you guys wrote. Wow, you guys LOVE making things complex. Thing complex-ers! And if you guys ever wanna make a deal with some one, and you wanna make your conditions as CLEAR as possible, call TEOH WEI WEI. I guarantee you, she wont let you down. Or if you wanna hire a match-maker, hire her, I heard she has SEVEN-STARS in that field. Expert.

5. Look as happy as possible when cursing her.

4. Send some one out the corridor with a broom and dustpan, if you guys wanna make some noise and it's her time.

3. Look as innocent as possible, even when you're the biggest trouble maker, or when you just murdered some one.

2. Lock the doors, use black and long curtains to cover the windows. DON'T LET HER IN!

1. HAVE PEOPLE GOOD AT CHINESE CALLIGRAPHY DO YOUR CHINESE CALLIGRAPHY FOR YOU!

Thank you everybody! For reading such a stupid survival guide. Anybody wanna hire TEOH WEI WEI? Want her business card? Anyone?

This has been a short thing.

GOOD NIGHT...AND... BUH-BYE!!!

Today's Work

Here's a list of today's work. I'm just so lazy and tired, I just had my bath! What? I just came back from food shopping and dropping off what I bought to my relatives... I'm not THAT much of a slob you know.

Before going to school:

Wake up, dilly dally a bit, get ready for tuition. Have breakfast, ate Nasi Lemak and drank Milo. Go tuition. After tuition, eat lunch, reload phone credit. Get ready for school. Packed snacks for the performances. Go school...

At school:

Before the performance even started, we finished the snacks I brought... So damn bored. The bitches of 2D, 2E, 2F, I gotta say...

WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU GUYS? WHAT DID WE EVER DO TO YOU BITCHES? YOU GUYS HATE THEM THEN HATE THEM! WHY FREAKING HATE THE WHOLE DAMN CLASS?! I HAVE TO SAY, I WOULD REALLY LIKE TO SLAP YOU GUYS, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT? YOU GUYS ARE NOT WORTH IT. YEA, I SAID IT, YOU GUYS ARE NOT WORTH MY TIME, NOT WORTHY FOR ME TO SLAP.OH WAIT, YOU GUYS DON'T UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M SAYING.

They really make me angry. Okay so, bla bla bla... Recess was til 5, but I didn't bring my lunch money. Made bubbles in class instead. Then goody, those bitches came looking for a fight with our very own Kelly Low. Stupid bitch, next time, when you wanna beat them up, don't tell the enemy. I can't believe some one would be THIS dumb.

Made a contract with Pn.Toh, what's her trick this time? I'm sure there's a trick. Oh, that tricky woman. Chinese New Year no homework? NAH... Like she wont give. She'll find a loop hole somewhere, I'm sure of it.

During band practice:

Nothing much. You know, just the usual. OMG...OMG...OMG... After Chinese New Year, I still have like 3 days to perfect my skills... Before the test! Oh THE HORROR!

After band practice:

WTF? You wanna take me go food shopping NOW? In... THIS? Could you have picked a better time? Had KFC for dinner, at Giant. Lalala~

Wow, my bro bought 2 boxes of Shandy! Weeeeeeeeeee! And of course, it's obvious who I saw while buying Shandy at the beer's section. Yep, you guessed it.

I'm gonna drink~ Wait, you don't get drunk drinking that, do you? Whatever... I still have a few Tigers left in my fridge... And of course, my dad got a whisky collection... Go mini bar!

.........
Everything is that... I guess... I just really feel like slapping them. Oh well, I don't have to do it, now do I? Besides, they'll get slapped... Eventually.

I LOVE YOU~ WEEE~

Yea, I love food...

Nite-Nite. Come my house bai nian, no present, not welcomed! Remember! I have plenty to drink... AWWW DAMN... I FORGOT ABOUT JUNK FOOD!

Keepin' It Real

Yes, yes. I know, I know, I keep changing my blog's name, I just can't decide you know. It's so hard for me! I can't decide things! There's this and there's that! UGH! And they say this is the time we have fun! Bullshit! I have to study Sejarah while munching on Kuikapeks! And just hope I don't choke!

Chinese and Sejarah, these two I can survive. Geography and Math, these two I have to struggle, damn, I'm on the edge. And it's a wonder I survived this long! I just need to make it through another 3 years!

And there's my feelings again... And hello, feelings? You want me to dig you out or something? Can you not get in the way of everything happy I have? He's... Him for God's sake! He's my Friend, and... my... Great great great... I dunno how many greats... Grandson. And I wont, hear me, I wont fucking fall for him. And if you make me, I will rip you out with no mercy...

I'm just saying. I'm not... I don't like him. I don't. Seriously, I don't. No, I seriously don't. I seriously SERIOUSLY don't. I DON'T LIKE HIM.

ONE MENTION OF THAT...

LU SIAP LA, KALAU CAKAP NANTI... YOU ORANG SIAP... X_X

Daaaaaaa~ Blarrrrrr...

I'm sitting in front of my laggy computer, just finished emailing my dad, bad weather over there. And I have no idea why I'm not sleeping. I just feel like writing something, but then again, I'm lazy and blank. I have no idea what I'm gonna write. I feel like cursing my God damned Chinese teacher, is she Satan reincarnated? Besides my brother.

You don't blame retards for being dumb, it's kinda illegal, in my world anyway. I should go get on of those stickers where they say 'I'm a retard! And if you make fun of me, I'll MAKE YOU A RETARD! Have a nice day^^' Sounds fun.

This post is kinda... Retardy? Don't cha' think? I mean, come on, who does this? Apparently, me. I'm writing a buncha crap here, hello? I don't blame people for falling asleep reading my blog, or NOT READ AT ALL. Wow, now THAT is cruel, not reading, you guys are such cold hearted freaks, you don't donate even a single penny to the Rachel's A Retard foundation, so, at least read! It makes me feel better~

Although I know that THIS is a waste of time, and I'm just blarrring away, and you people are snoring away, I still love writing crap, cause funny thing, I don't feel anything. I'm bored.

And you know, I could go on all day long. But I pity those good hearted people who read my blog, they'd be bored to death. And let me ask you guys who actually read my blog, this is crap right? And this is boring, stupid... And stupid... Wait, I said stupid twice... Oh well, I have absolutely no problems right now, and I don't feel the urge to curse people, cause I already complained to my daddy.

Wow, I'm so sorry guys, please forgive me, I just...I just can't stop typing! Oh well, better hit the CLOSE button now before I keep on going and going and going...

MUST... STOP... WRITING...

GOOD NIGHT AND... BUH BYE!

Food, Food, Food

Food, the one thing that brings me to life, the one thing that makes my day. Food. Food makes me happy when I'm down, food helps me get through my day, I'll feel incomplete without you. Oh, food.

DADDY! You ordered 10 tubs of Haagen Daaz ice-cream on board? You already finished TWO? And now moving on the third?! I'm so jealous, and you got chips! Chips that I couln't keep my hands off! I do wonder, the company pays for them right? Damn, your job, stressful but... Relaxing? Now going to Halifax, US. Like you said, you'd spend a lot on me cause there's many things I like! FOOD... God dammit, why can't the company allow children? I WANT FOOD ><

I'm gonna food shopping soon. What? It's Chinese New Year, my celebrations are incoplete without food. And I usually stuff myself. And gambling, weee! I love gambling! I'm gonna put a limit of 20 bucks this year... In case I lose too much. I want a new phone...

Donate some money to me? Hello? This blog is named 'Life of a Lonely Retard' after all, c'mon, help me will ya'? I'M A RETARD! FINE, I'LL SING A SONG, FOR YOU GUYS TO DONATE!

Gong xi fa chai, hong bao na lai.
mei gei hong bao, zhi sao juan cian.
wo shi OKU, bu zheng chang,
ke lian wo, you xin ren.
bu gei cian, ta ma de,
wo ji zhu ni.

Yea, my chinese sucks, at least it's pronounceable... I think...

Good night and... Buh-Bye...

Gosh... I'm Wrong About Everything

God dammit! I'm wrong about every single thing! Do I have to be wrong at just about everything? ARGH! This is so frustrating!

Damn you dude! I thought you changed! But WTF? You still have smokes and you just freaking had two on the roof! Damn you... DAMN YOU! Why do you let me know stuff? You think it's easy for me? Fuck you.

And what the hell, I don't feel like going to houses taking Ang Paos anymore. Knowing that a bunch of us monkeys are going, I don't wanna go anymore. So many people, less Ang Pao. I see all of your faces, I feel like giving you guys a slap. I don't know why but I feel like no one is trustable anymore. I do have possible candidates to test out as my new best friends. Although, we wont be as close... Like now with you guys... Fuck this. Why can't I just erase the memories like deleteing a file on the comp? UFF!

Suddenly, I hate everyone. Bad mood? Maybe. Lousy mood? Totally.

And to those of my friends who have already... <3... style="text-align: center;">

PUBERTY SUCKS!

I AM... RACHEL CHEONG YUN XUAN

I have no idea why I just did that. Dumb title. Oh well, stupid is in my blood, I wonder why everyone else in my family is un-stupid. Hmm, I guess I sucked the stupidness from them. Anyway... They should thank me, without me, they'd still be stupid.

So many of you don't know me. I can tell, cause, even my best of friends don't know me?! WHAT? OMG, DOES THIS MEAN I HAVE NO FRIENDS? AT ALL? Damn... This makes me feel like moving to The North Pole and live with Penguins!

So many of you hate me, I know, drop the act. I make people hate me everyday, it's like, I live to make people hate me. Is this it? Is this why I'm still alive? Is it that I'm still alive so that people could feel the pleasure of hating me? Wow, that sucks.

I know, I know. I may act like I hate you guys, but, I DON'T. Just come on, this is the way I fucking am! Don't you guys know me at all? FINE. If this is everything you guys DON'T know, why am I still your friend anyway? Why are you guys still keeping me around if you guys don't even know me? It's fucking ridiculous.

I still wonder, I've been studying Chinese ever since I was six. And I've been getting Cs for Chinese my whole life, WHY AM I STILL STUDYING CHINESE?! I suffer in Chinese class! Oh, the irony!

Well, you guys do know ONE part of me I show. Just wanna let something out, you know? Fine, fine. FINE...

I LIKE YOU. I LIKE YOU A LOT. WAIT, I DON'T KNOW YOU. BUT, WHATEVER. I JUST LIKE YOU. I KNOW YOU DON'T KNOW ME AND I DON'T KNOW YOU AND THAT EVERYTHING IS TOO LATE AND BLAR CAUSE YOUR GONNA LEAVE... LIKE EVERYONE I HAVE... WELL WHATEVER. AT LEAST I WROTE THIS. I KINDA FEEL BETTER.

Whoever you guys are thinking. NO.

I just wonder. CAN I KILL MYSELF? AND MAKE THIS WORLD A BETTER PLACE BY KILLING MYSELF?

Okay, WHAT NOW?

Seriously, WHAT? What's the point of reading my blog if you guys don't understand what I'm writing! And fuck you guys, this is call deep? This is as shallow as fucking English can get! You guys want deep? Go read Zongxu's blog, half the time, I have no idea what he's writing.

And I think I have to say thank you? The best part of reading my blog... Is... FUCK? Wow... I didn't know that... Thanks anyway, I think it was a... Pleasant? Thought of my blog?

And there's always 'I'M THE PERSON WHO KEEP SECRETS' problem. I hate it! I don't have secrets, you guys wanna tell me yours? Tell. I pinky sweared, I wont tell, no matter how much I want to. But you know, if I tell, will he break up with you already?! YOU KNOW I HATE YOU! Wait, then again, you don't.

Right. Bla and bla... So many useless things in life. For example, ME. I always wonder why was I even born in this world? What's my part in all of THIS? And then, I wonder, what does it feel like to die, to actually die... I wish I could ask some dead guy...

There's just so many things! I wish I could know them all! Okay, not all... I wont wanna know how it feels like to be a hooker for a day. And that reminds me about another curious thing... How's it like to fuck????

Never mind that... I'll ask my parents XD

Okay, I wont... Bad idea, I know... Maybe I'll ask my dogs...

Okay then. I just have so many thoughts, that I can't decide what to write. And BTW, I'll be grateful if you guys could think of THREE GREAT WAYS WHY MY PARENTS SHOULD GET ME A LAPTOP^^

THEY WILL GET ME ONE! THEY LOVE ME XD

Minutes Pass Midnight

Hey, I have nothing else better to do. New month already! Weeeeee! Welcome February!

Oh, the irony of looking at messages I weren't suppose to see. Boy, I think it's even enough to make Pn.Toh roll on the floor and laugh, or just puke. Whichever.

Hm, the thing about people, SOME in particular, they don't know what the heck they're doing. And OMG, when you really see what they do, you just feel like biting their heads off! And really, don't show off your English skills, it kills me.

'Y.Me really like you o...'
'Me like you and me want kao you'

As if that ain't bad enough, I KNOW YOUR FACE DAMMIT! It gives me the heebe-jeebees... *SHIVER* *SHIVER*

Watched New Moon with Zhi Ngor today, can't see a damn thing, ONG LI YI I WANNA KILL YOU! I still wonder... Did Jacob and Bella kissed? Never mind... The ending BOOMED us... 'Bella, will you marry me?' and then just... BLACKOUT... THE END... We were like 'HAR? THAT'S THE ENDING?'

And as usual, Zhi Ngor sweet sweet with her Jia Xun on her phone. Even my sis also know, so famous. Haha.

Well, whatever. You guys want a 3 month anniversary gift? If you do, tell me.

Okay, goodnight and... Buh-Bye!